Don't Want to Live Anymore..

I’ve been on this site for years trying to follow the advice given in order to suceed at my passion which is bodybuilding, but now i’m beginning to think i’ll never get anywhere with the shit genetics I have. Time after time i’ve failed at everything; making friends,sports,girls, I was a loser in high school and still am due to my lack of success at anything, now that I’ve realized i have horrible genetics for something I’m so passionate about, I just don’t want to go on living anymore, since I feel that I really am a loser for not being able to attain my physique and strength goals due to naturally low test levels and genetics.

Bodybuilding means everything to me, its the only thing thats ever given me even the slightest bit of confidence and reason for living. Growing up I’ve been bullied and been dominated at every point, I’ve never been aggressive and always felt like a coward. I thought bodybuilding would change all that, but nothings changed I’ve only succeeded in getting fatter with small strength gains that come along with every 3-4 lbs I put on, while suffering from depression.

I just hate myself for not having the kind genetics that can help me become the kind of person I want to become physically and mentally strong and aggressive when I need to be while be going confident around women. I just can’t bring myself to do anything anymore, I went into this sport because I figured if I was doomed to be anti-social and awkward around others the least I could do was just make myself bigger and stronger so no one would push me around like they did back in high school, I even went so far as to put my post-secondary education on hold just so i could eat and weight lift while going to work only twice a week, but I’ve still failed

Squats and deadlifts.

wow

I dont know what to say man

don’t give up

take it to bb.com, this is more up there alley

oh, and i am just saying this because i dont believe a word. true story.

Gains may be slow and hard fought, but that seems like all the more reason to keep them. Ending it all will be a waste of everything.

Given my experience with suicide (mother when I was 12) I can tell you it is a bad idea. The aftermath is leaves an indelible mark on everybody around you.

You should seek some help immediately.

Something you could do is find an activity that is not self-isolating like bodybuilding. Join a dojo, an hockey club, anything

But really no one can help you dude

In case this isn’t a troll…

http://www.suicide.org/ take a minute to look at this

things will get better for you, stay a while and watch it happen


so become an hero.

troll…
and if not stop being a little bitch and try to live life, people have endured 100,000 things worse than you. You think your the only person who has problems fuck, it’s people like you that give the human race a bad name. You think bitching to a bodybuilding site will solve your problems, no the only person that can change your life is yourself so grow a pair stop tucking whatever you call your dick and be a man.

[quote]thefederalist wrote:
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Really? So, you read what the post above you said, and decided to make a fucking mockery of suicide? I hope you never have to find out the hard way that this is not joke. (Regardless of whether the OP is a troll)

(for those that don’t know, the picture posted by thefederalist is a mocking reference to a FUCKING CHILD that committed suicide. nice, huh?)

Ya know you still become a decently big guy you wont ever be IFBB level but im sure EVERY person can be the guy that people stare when they enter a room thats for sure. Its just you wont be big enough to make there Jaws drop LOL.

[quote]Eric 2.0 wrote:

[quote]thefederalist wrote:
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Really? So, you read what the post above you said, and decided to make a fucking mockery of suicide? I hope you never have to find out the hard way that this is not joke. (Regardless of whether the OP is a troll)

(for those that don’t know, the picture posted by thefederalist is a mocking reference to a FUCKING CHILD that committed suicide. nice, huh?) [/quote]

He’s a federalist, what do you expect?
States’ rights, heck yeah!

[quote]Unknown0 wrote:
I’ve been on this site for years trying to follow the advice given in order to suceed at my passion which is bodybuilding, but now i’m beginning to think i’ll never get anywhere with the shit genetics I have. Time after time i’ve failed at everything; making friends,sports,girls, I was a loser in high school and still am due to my lack of success at anything, now that I’ve realized i have horrible genetics for something I’m so passionate about, I just don’t want to go on living anymore, since I feel that I really am a loser for not being able to attain my physique and strength goals due to naturally low test levels and genetics.

Bodybuilding means everything to me, its the only thing thats ever given me even the slightest bit of confidence and reason for living. Growing up I’ve been bullied and been dominated at every point, I’ve never been aggressive and always felt like a coward. I thought bodybuilding would change all that, but nothings changed I’ve only succeeded in getting fatter with small strength gains that come along with every 3-4 lbs I put on, while suffering from depression.

I just hate myself for not having the kind genetics that can help me become the kind of person I want to become physically and mentally strong and aggressive when I need to be while be going confident around women. I just can’t bring myself to do anything anymore, I went into this sport because I figured if I was doomed to be anti-social and awkward around others the least I could do was just make myself bigger and stronger so no one would push me around like they did back in high school, I even went so far as to put my post-secondary education on hold just so i could eat and weight lift while going to work only twice a week, but I’ve still failed[/quote]

I know you don’t want to hear this, but the root of your problem is that you’ve chosen the wrong goal in life. If you don’t have the genetic potential to be a great bodybuilder, which MOST people don’t regardless of what others on here mistakenly believe, then you shouldn’t make bodybuilding the focal point of your existence so that your degree of satisfaction in life is a function of how big your muscles are. Of course you should keep training hard, and develop the best physique possible realtive to YOUR genetic potential, but you have to define yourself in other terms. I’m not endorsing complacency, but realism. You’ve zeroed in on one thing and closed yourself off to everything else in life. You might even be disgusted with the idea of focusing on a career which has nothing to do with bodybuilding. That’s your mistake - sacrificing your potential successes in order to fully dedicate youself to the cause of certain failure.

From what you wrote, it seems that you’re still living with your parents. If so, whether you realize it or not, your irresponsible, adolescent lifestyle and lack of independence and productivity are major causes of your self-esteem issues. Physical strength is imprtant, but the real essences of mahood are independence, productive ability and economic strength. You should throw yourself into productive WORK and the cause of establishing yourself as a man. You can still be dedicated to training. There is no reason to entertain the idea of killing yourself, you just need a major change of perspective and philosophical overhaul. You could have a hell of a life in 5 years time, once that includes, but is not solely defined by bodybuilding, and probably a better than average physique too.

[quote]Eric 2.0 wrote:

[quote]thefederalist wrote:
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Really? So, you read what the post above you said, and decided to make a fucking mockery of suicide? I hope you never have to find out the hard way that this is not joke. (Regardless of whether the OP is a troll)

(for those that don’t know, the picture posted by thefederalist is a mocking reference to a FUCKING CHILD that committed suicide. nice, huh?) [/quote]

hmmmm…April 2010, 1st post. yeah, not a troll at all. you lose, because he just successfully trolololed you. if you aren’t stupid then you’re just a sanctimonious prick.

you know what you do when you actually want to become an hero? you do it or stfu and cry in your room. no one wanting to become an hero actually comes on a bodybuilding forum and posts stereotypes of newb lifters (genetics waahhh genetics) expecting to get real advice.

you see, other people don’t give a shit and will mock you. Become aware that no one can help you. It’s a start

When you won’t be vulnerable like that, 100% percent of people here will try to bring you down instead of trying to help you

[quote]thefederalist wrote:

[quote]Eric 2.0 wrote:

[quote]thefederalist wrote:
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Really? So, you read what the post above you said, and decided to make a fucking mockery of suicide? I hope you never have to find out the hard way that this is not joke. (Regardless of whether the OP is a troll)

(for those that don’t know, the picture posted by thefederalist is a mocking reference to a FUCKING CHILD that committed suicide. nice, huh?) [/quote]

hmmmm…April 2010, 1st post. yeah, not a troll at all. you lose, because he just successfully trolololed you. if you aren’t stupid then you’re just a sanctimonious prick.

you know what you do when you actually want to become an hero? you do it or stfu and cry in your room. no one wanting to become an hero actually comes on a bodybuilding forum and posts stereotypes of newb lifters (genetics waahhh genetics) expecting to get real advice. [/quote]

Looks like you didn’t understand what I said the first time so I’ll repeat it…Regardless of whether this is a troll (it most likely is) suicide is not a joke, so don’t treat it like one. The poster above you said he was personally effected by suicide, and you decided to make a joke of it. Your post mocks the suicide of a child, which means you need to grow the fuck up. Get some life experience.

Well I actually think the guy is serious, because I can relate - for me it was sprinting rather than bodybuilding - and I see traces of the 19 year old me in that wall of text.

[quote]Unknown0 wrote:
I’ve been on this site for years trying to follow the advice given in order to suceed at my passion which is bodybuilding, but now i’m beginning to think i’ll never get anywhere with the shit genetics I have. Time after time i’ve failed at everything; making friends,sports,girls, I was a loser in high school and still am due to my lack of success at anything, now that I’ve realized i have horrible genetics for something I’m so passionate about, I just don’t want to go on living anymore, since I feel that I really am a loser for not being able to attain my physique and strength goals due to naturally low test levels and genetics.

Bodybuilding means everything to me, its the only thing thats ever given me even the slightest bit of confidence and reason for living. Growing up I’ve been bullied and been dominated at every point, I’ve never been aggressive and always felt like a coward. I thought bodybuilding would change all that, but nothings changed I’ve only succeeded in getting fatter with small strength gains that come along with every 3-4 lbs I put on, while suffering from depression.

I just hate myself for not having the kind genetics that can help me become the kind of person I want to become physically and mentally strong and aggressive when I need to be while be going confident around women. I just can’t bring myself to do anything anymore, I went into this sport because I figured if I was doomed to be anti-social and awkward around others the least I could do was just make myself bigger and stronger so no one would push me around like they did back in high school, I even went so far as to put my post-secondary education on hold just so i could eat and weight lift while going to work only twice a week, but I’ve still failed[/quote]

Excuse me, you wont ever be swole and girls dont like you and now you want to end it all?

What are you, insane or 16-19?

Anyway, work hard and smart and keep your shit together and things will work out for you.

In the mean time, bottle of vodka > suicide.

[quote]Eric 2.0 wrote:

[quote]thefederalist wrote:

[quote]Eric 2.0 wrote:

[quote]thefederalist wrote:
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Really? So, you read what the post above you said, and decided to make a fucking mockery of suicide? I hope you never have to find out the hard way that this is not joke. (Regardless of whether the OP is a troll)

(for those that don’t know, the picture posted by thefederalist is a mocking reference to a FUCKING CHILD that committed suicide. nice, huh?) [/quote]

hmmmm…April 2010, 1st post. yeah, not a troll at all. you lose, because he just successfully trolololed you. if you aren’t stupid then you’re just a sanctimonious prick.

you know what you do when you actually want to become an hero? you do it or stfu and cry in your room. no one wanting to become an hero actually comes on a bodybuilding forum and posts stereotypes of newb lifters (genetics waahhh genetics) expecting to get real advice. [/quote]

Looks like you didn’t understand what I said the first time so I’ll repeat it…Regardless of whether this is a troll (it most likely is) suicide is not a joke, so don’t treat it like one. The poster above you said he was personally effected by suicide, and you decided to make a joke of it. Your post mocks the suicide of a child, which means you need to grow the fuck up. Get some life experience.

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Trying to correct and idiot like him just isn’t possible.

I wouldn’t waste any keystrokes on a twat like him.

thefederalist is just asking for a repeat of the bb.com suicide-forum incident.