Thats awesome too!
Thanks dukeheslaya!!!
Today
paused fs 45x5, 135x5, 155x5, 180x5
pull ups 9, 6, 5, 4 ss with t bar press I think its 75# 5x5
smith machine fs 135x8, 175x8 x 4 sets
leg press x 1 minute x 2 sets, then a few misc sets of higher wt x 20, then fast pressing with lower wt x 20
sled drags x whatever turf distance x 2 trips
pushed the tank ( 24 hour fitness version of prowler) x 4 trips
some standing press downs using the wt assisted pullup/dip machine
glute stuff
a few hlr’s
WEAK AS WATER in my leg strength and man can I tell. That’s ok, I can be one of those people who says that once upon a time I had some big quads from lots of lots of volume-- but also lots of wild food intake at the same time. I don’t eat a ton of carbs for a reason- I’ll turn into binging monster… with no end to the behavior in sight. I’m ok with trying to work with what works for me. However, I can for sure tell I’m weaker then I expected, but that just gives me stuff to do!
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Oh, it’s always fun to see what you’re up to! I can’t believe I missed the 205 lb stone video - had to scroll up to see that. WHOOT!!! So cool.
At the LA area, I hear ya. There’s a whole different pace to things here - the traffic!! We love Southern Colorado, but never get up to your neck of the woods. About coming to the LB area. It’s a bit of a hike in traffic, and you’ll be busy with family but I will message you with my cell on FB so you have my contacts. Should you need to escape, I’d love to take you out for some Baja tacos and get to lift together.
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Thanks Puff!! I would for sure probably need an escape :{ A lot to take in!
Today
stone loads 108#x10, sandbag 150# x 10, stone 167# x 10, not able to load the 205 but I got the 205 to my chest a bout 5 times, 167# stone x 5, 150# sandbag x 10
car deadlift rig empty x10, plus 50# x 10, 90# x 10, 180# x 5
frame carry empty (200#) x 200 feet ( one change/drop grip to go the other direction), 300# x 100 feet x 4 trips, 340# x 100 feet, 400# x 50 feet
reverse hypers 90# x 10, 140# x 10
Today means going to the dmv for misc things and getting new car insurance. Because of my claim for my stolen car, as well as two fender benders within 5 years I kinda have shit options for affordable insurance. Liability only is all I can afford to pay. I guess the lesson I learned in all this was don’t drive something you can’t afford to replace without insurances’ help! GOT IT.
Life’s been fairly thoughtful the last few weeks and months. The cloud of frustration and exhaustion is clearing and being replaced by what I feel is my fairly optimistic cheerful vibe. One thing I did this year completely changed my personal perspective of myself.
I completed the Self Authoring exercise–by Jordan Peterson if you’ve heard of him. It took about a month and a half to complete and was an eye opener for me. I was astounded by what I realized. What writing stuff out, just outlining it honestly lays it out there, and MAN was it shocking to me.
My entire history suddenly made sense. I could see why things happened, I can see how that step lead to that experiences etc. It changed me. They are very personal insights that I feel are very valuable that I’m reminding myself of now --constantly-- as the mess of the car shit is dealt with. WORD.
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Today
step mill x 27 minutes ( every minute counts on this TERRIBLE cardio machine!)
rope climbing machine x 6 minutes
I really like that thing!
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Today just a 3.5 mile walk. Might do more later but probably not!
Two quasi overnight shifts saturday/sun sun/monday. I had a surprisingly good day lifting today after a nap around noon, then went to turbo gym.
Today
hook grip dead lifts 45x10, 135x3, 185, 225, 265, 295, 315, strapped 315, no strap 295 x 2 singles
I tried the figure 8 straps just to see since the 315 was no real easy with the grip, did a single of 315 with thew straps. I am going to need to adjust to those if I end up using them more. I will say the hook grip conventional stance is much more hamstring driving then I’ve felt in a LONG TIME.
trap bar deadlifts 77x8, 167x8, 257x8, 277x8, 297x8, 317x8, 327x4, 347x4 x 4 sets
spun the t bar so as to use the not as high handle for grip did 257x4 x 3
sets
ssb walking lunges x 100 feet bar plus 40#, plus 60# plus 70#, plus 80#
sand bag carries 150# x 100 feet x 5 trips
a set of 9 pull ups
pull downs 4x10
2 x 10 ghr
bw only reverse hyper.I think I do these incorrect because it didn’t help my back but made it feel WILD in a not good way last week. mmmeh.
sauna x 25 mins at 24 hour
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Awesome!!
I’m reading his new book now and it’s very good. I haven’t done the self-authoring program yet, but I’ve heard some similar stories from a couple of friends who have done it and said similar things. I’m trying to journal more, so I need to check it out.
Just to say AMEN. Those things are brutal!! The best…or the worst… depending on how you look at it. 10 minutes seems like forever. Haha…
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Brute, How did you start? It looks like some people start with the Future Authoring one. I believe he was giving that one away last year.
@samul I thought of your thread when I saw this. It seems that a lot people, (young men especially) have found it really helpful with some of the issues you’re thinking about. It might be a way to start sorting yourself out, figuring out how to fix some things with regards to finding meaning and purpose, dealing with anxiety, sorting out your relationships.
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Thanks Puff!! I started it on the Present Authoring part- where you learn your positive traits and your faults that you are pretty much born with. Like a personality test. The program was $30 well spent. Then I did the past authoring, the hardest one for me was the future authoring, not hard emotionally (that sure was the past one) but having to figure out what I actually am striving for is difficult. And I know WHY its hard form the Past Authoring!
I really felt pulled to write about the concept of your personal hell. I lived in one for a long time, in various times of my life in different years, in separate scenarios and was feeling I was pulling myself into it again. I wanted to avoid stepping into this personal hell again. I also knew what my heaven felt like having been close it , and knowing the how it is actually attainable.
The thing that BLEW me away was finally figuring out why all this happened in the first place!!! The life in hell! An eating disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, years of shame and guilt, an very bad relationship, years of other various situations I let myself be in, it all made sense once I wrote it all out. From birth! It was unbelievable! But is true!
I really recommend it but also know you get what you put into it, I know it sounds hippydippy and self help bookey but its not! Its just being honest and writing it allll out!
Today
stone loads 108# x 10, 140# x 10, 157# x10, tried and failed 205 many times, only lapped and nearly loaded it once, so 167# x5
Fs 135x3, 165x3, 190x3, 205x3 x3 sets, 225
Out of time. Took a long time to mess with the stones today.
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Thanks so much for sharing your experience. Wonderful. Dang, that’s a lot of insight for $30 bucks. Haha. I’m going to do it, as well.
Mostly, I’m at a point in my life where I’m wondering what comes next. I came to the end of some of my early life goals, but I need to have things that continue to motivate me, to be excited about, to feel like I can measure progress toward meaningful things. And I’ve been trying to write more/ journal so this would be a natural thing I think.
Yeah, I’m sure this is true. It’s one of those profound truths about pretty much everything we do. Applies to the gym and life.
@ lifting. Those FRONTIE and Trap Bar DL numbers are very, very nice. swoon.
I hear you Puff on the meaningful search. I have some hardware to fix in my brain but I am there too, especially right now when I feel I can offer someone/something a lot of help in some way. I have time, I am healthy. I’m working on myself to start and getting stronger and I want to help someone or something have a better existence somehow. I will work on being good to myself --treating myself like I’m someone I’m responsible for taking care off!!- until I find it. Its a frustration of mine currently that I haven’t found that outlet yet, to help. It makes me feel like I am wasting time I could use for a better purpose. Not Mother Tereasa stuff but something above myself.
I am reminding myself too constantly what I figured out from doing the Past Authoring. Because as much as a paradym shift that it caused for me and it was, my engrained brain falls back on the old ways when I slackeneven a tiny bit. I think the longer I do it the less likely it’ll be to fall back on old ways but I know that will take time and constant vigilance to get even a small buffet zone!!!
Writing is very helpful for me too! I luckily learned that early on in my life ( I have this lovely lifting log on tnation that’s been going on since 2009 or 2010! ;). It also takes me a long time to write because I type terribly, I think that actually helps more .
That past authoring was intense and I don’t think I’ll ever re-read what I wrote. I have no interest in it anymore, the shame, embarrassment, just stupid shit . It’s DONEZO!!!
So yes! I think you’ll get some great feedback too from your own experience doing it!!! I hope you enjoy it too!!!
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Just a suggestion: From your posts , I believe you work as a Vet Technician. That translates into someone who cares more about helping than earning any 6 figure salary. Have you thought about transitioning over to helping teach basic trauma care, either through volunteering through your local Fire/ Police department or through the local Red Cross / Boys and Girls clubs?
With your strength background and work ethic, you could be a force for your community. Communities need people to teach real life skills. You can download all the apps you want, but, they will not do any damn good trying to stop massive bleeding. Maybe your community has these types of programs, but, I know, that if you could teach one person how to put on a proper tourniquet, then its a fine start.
Just a humble suggestion because I know you would do great. Here is a quote I posted over on my thread" Tactical Life".
The Las Vegas shooting demonstrated that the true first responders are those in attendance when an incident takes the goal of the First Care Provider network, which is the only Stop the Bleed program designed and implemented by first responders, is to provide agencies with an easily implemented strategy to enlist their communities. What better way to engage citizens than to empower them to act when a disaster – manmade or natural – strikes
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:)!!! Thanks Idaho!!! That’s a great idea.
Not to keep harping on my new perspectives on myself, yet that tags into it to. It seems that everything does.
I have had to tell myself now that actually, I can help someone. The thing of it is–I’ll just say now-- is I had been living my life as if I was incapable of possessing value to anyone and only being a burden.
This is what I discovered. That I had zero self worth --until a few years ago. 0/10. It took a dog for me to realize it. I realized it only then due to it being played out in real life that well shit! I can do this! I can make a differance and it’s making me happy and content doing it, that feedback was true and honest.
Coming to realize that about myself has been earth quaking. It’s not very comfortable knowing this. It’s pulled away all the shadows and made everything make sense. I had a part in it --the sense if disgust with myself during the anorexia days and the continued ghost of the eating disorder that follows. The shame that led to, the guilt. The years and years of this circle of hell you end up in.
The bad relationship where I was taken advantage and totally plucked up into a monsters hands – I know why I was a target to begin with. I was a bully to myself, I surrounded myself with bullies. Those are days are over!
Now it’s just me telling myself everyday of the reality which is that I am valuable and I am the one in charge of my fucking price tag. I give good advice to friends and I am capable of advising myself.
I say out loud “STOP!” to myself when I am getting into the ruts of old ways of thought again. This is an interesting time to be around me !! HA HA!!! :D!!!
I tell myself that I have skills, I tell myself facts about myself no one can deny. It’s a battle but I’m going to win this.
I have to have the bravery to share my abilities because it I know it WILL make me feel better. A true, real positive enduring feeling that I have felt before and know is real.
Now to find that outlet!!
A real Dear Diary time in my log!! Ha ha!! Another resolution I had was to share more because maybe others can relate and relating to others brings community and I want to connect with good people. So I share!
today was
Step Mill x 30 mins
Sauna x 30 mins
There’s a possibility I might be flying loose with my writing from the Sauna vibes.
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Your post just really, really makes me feel happy for you. I think it’s a good thing to share. We need more hopeful, productive things to think about.
I mentioned this thought a week or two ago on @idaho 's log. The idea that we can be the hero of our own life, even if it’s in the small ordinary things. Most of us don’t go out on a huge quest, or serve in a heroic way that would make the papers or that looks like the comic book heroes. But being a person of integrity, taking more responsibility for doing the right thing. Serving, or just treating the people around us with kindness. These are powerful things, at least within our small circle of influence. I’ve appreciated that more. My circle is fairly small - my life is really only meaningful to my family, a few friends, and maybe if I’m lucky a few of my students.
I had one of my high school students ask me to be on his Eagle Scout Board of Review a few weeks ago. What an honor. I’m so proud of that young man. And a couple of my seniors telling me about getting into colleges this week. These are meaningful things, and it feels really good to get to see them grow, even if I’m mostly a spectator.
For so many years now I’ve admired your work ethic and strength. Your consistency in your lifting, and your kindness to people you interact with here. That must feel pretty huge to feel that the way are on the inside is starting to match the Brutiful on the outside.
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Just really quick.
A few months ago I went to a Korean Spa with a friend of mine who is from Finland, so sauna is WAY part of her culture. They have a steam room, sauna, and several small pools from cool temperatures, warmer pools, and very hot Jacuzzi. Mostly Asian ladies in there, of all ages and a bit out of my comfort zone because everyone is NAKED. Lol. People just sitting around the private pool on a towel meditating, or talking quietly to a friend. The whole spa was super nice. It was this very different cultural experience but it was awesome. And kind of affirming to see these very young girls sometimes with their grandmother. Anyway, I think it might be good for anyone with body image issues. Nobody is really paying any attention, and people are just walking around comfortable in their skin.
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Puff! I love the sauna now. However I noticed my stainless steel septum plug (body jewelry) gets REALLY HOT in there! I only feel it when I breath in hard but when I do man alive its a stinger!
I have tentatively dipped my toe in the water and am gathering information for a place to volunteer at and have offered. These things I know take a time to vet people and I want to be sure its something that will be a good fit. Thanks Idaho for the suggestion.
I had thought I might have a chance helping show a new life to my niece. Family drama has blown up a bit and that is no longer something that is going to happen…and it makes me not want to California that much more :{
My parents wanted to let her stay at theire place, my twin wanted to teach her to drive, I had all my home gym equipment all ready to lend her too! She wants( at least had mentioned it) to learn to lift weights.
However, her mom and her dad, my sister and brother in law well…its a whole deal and I don’t have that opportunity anymore . And its too bad! My parent’s driveway is PERFECT for doing carries on! And selfishly just getting her and my twin ( the civil engineer) into strongman might have led to home made atlas stones…it very likely would have.
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Such a BUMMER about not getting to teach your niece. I think that would be so rewarding for you to get to help her learn. And winning your twin over to strongman - It’s always just sublime to share something with someone you genuinely like. Hopefully that will get to happen another time when family things calm down. Making atlas stones with your sis? Let’s hope this can still happen.
Thanks Puff!! I will maintain hope! Ha!!
Today
T bar carry 217# x5 minutes, total of 10 100 feet trips, first 4 no drop then a drop each 100 feet after
Husafel carries (140#) 100 feet x 5 trips set it down each 100#
Log clean press reps 67# x8, 72# x8, 77# x6, 87# x3
Stone loads 108# x5, 140x5, 167x5, 140x10
SSB walking lunges bar plus 50# x100 feet, plus 60# x100 feet, plus 70# x50 feet
Empty yoke clean grip carry x50 feet x2 trips, plus 40# x 50 feet
Glute stuff x25/ exercise, back extensions
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