Yesterday
versa climber x 20 mins
Then a 3am-12:30 p shift at work
Today
pull ups x 10
fs 45x10, 135x3, 170x18 ( high, pumping reps- when I get tired I tend to drop down to the basement to lower depth this set was for confidence) 170 x10 x 5 sets
push ups x 10 one set normal, next set in sling shot ss band pull aparts of various heights x 30 x 6 sets
bw reverse alternating lunges 33 rep/leg then 33 bw squats then 30 second hold at bottom
reverse alternating lunges hold a 103 db in each hand 33 rep/leg then 33 bw squats then 30 second hold at bottom
bw reverse alternating lunges wearing 30# wt’d vest 33 rep/leg then 33 bw squats then 30 second hold at bottom
slow pull ups x 5 ss dumber or plate trap rows with a 5 second hold on top x 3 sets used 10# db in each hand, or a 25# plate each hand, or a 35# plate each hand
same thing but now neutral grip pull ups x 5 and used the 35# in each hand x 10 reps with a 5 second hold up top
I was not using the versa climber correct Friday- standing very upright and leaning into the climber. Yesterday it worked much better on my knees when I sat back a bit, butt back. Doing it that way my knees instead felt full of blood and circulation! COOL!
I have been enjoying the 3 day work week’s I had the last two weeks…yesterday I went in and shortly started to feel the dreaded feeling that is experience when you walk in and see that things are a circus-- and worst, no one in control over the staffing seems to care, no on is DOING anything about it.
UGH!!! I had been REALLY thankful my supervisor was as good as she was, now its abundantly clear she is not who she used to be anymore and instead is in “I don’t give a shit” , “I’m not fixing any problems” mode. This means for me …well it takes to long to explain and you have to be there etc.
Staffing is a big issue and it sucks not knowing who - or IF- anyone is coming in to relieve me so I can get off my shift. OR the person who is a massive liability to the patients care, or comes in late, or is presented to me in a way that they want me to be thankful and expect me shower them in praise for them SHOWING UP or doing their job.
I HATE that feeling. I won’t stay over my shift. Years ago I had no choice and staying over to cover staffing turned into an expected thing with no acknowledgement , and of course no hiring of new people to make up for the short staff.
As a nurse, I feel bad for the patients, yet I won’t do that shit again. It solves nothing and its a recipe for burn out, resentment, and anger. And these types of log posts!! I have my own dog who deserves me coming home when I am scheduled to be OFF. UGHHHHHHH. Bottom line is …UGHH!!!
Its totally the alcohol. I can’t see any other reason why she’d change so quickly and so 360 degrees in direction. …last week I had a bit of feeling like, dang, she’s a good person and this sucks and LOOK! She’s making up for it…
Now its back to " WELL. Screw you, drunk or hung over Sandy Supervisor and your fucking booze. Now I’m dealing with THIS person now- not the person I knew before.
Looking back it makes me think I might have experienced this before in my life with other people, the back and forth personality’s. Egg shell walking without the evident information to be able to say its booze or its drugs.
I HATE IT. You can’t trust them! At all! You never know who you are dealing with!! And I bet they will blame the booze and not themselves for their behavior. I’m sorry you have a addiction, you are still acting like a total punk and you are in a power position over me…SCREW YOU!!!