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[brute_fury]

Today
2 rounds of:

• push ups with sling shot x 15
• band pull aparts x 15
• hamstring ball curls x 10

then the same but normal push ups x 10
pull aparts x 15
hamstring curls x 10

then 2 rounds of:

• push ups with sling shot x 15
• band pull aparts x 15
• hamstring ball curls x 10

then the same, a round of the above but 10 normal push ups

First LIght Malibu Walk- Perfect out, aorund 60 degrees,no sun, some sketters though.

Came home and did this
Warmed up- hip circle walks, hip cicrcle bringses, bird dogs
rdl of plates 25 x 8, 50 x8, 70x8

First round:

• sand bag loads 150# x 25
• bw bulgarians 40 reps/leg then 10 second pause
• bw squats x 10 then 10 second pause at bottom then 10 second rise up
• walking lunges 40 rep/leg then 40 bw squats then 10 second pause at bottom then 10 second rise up

2nd round:

• sand bag loads 2 mats higher 150# x 16
• bw bulgarians 40 reps/leg then 10 second pause
• bw squats x 20 then 10 second pause at bottom then 10 second rise up
• walking lunges 40 rep/leg then 50 bw squats then 10 second pause at bottom then 10 second rise up

3rd round:

• sand bag loads 4 mats higher ( then first round) 150# x 10
• bw bulgarians 30 reps/leg then 10 second pause
• bw squats x 10 then 10 second pause at bottom then 10 second rise up
• walking lunges 40 rep/leg then 40 bw squats then 10 second pause at bottom then 10 second rise up

back extensions 2 x 25
some ez bar frankenstein reverse alteint glunges- bar only cx 10/leg then bar plus 10# x 10/leg

Layered up and sunblocked up for sun protection- its suddenly summer and 80 degrees

speed walk x 2.8 miles done in 31 mins.

I looked up on line some speed walking tips! HA HA! :D! I learned that you should walk very upright ( I had tended to lean forward), and you should push off with your toes with your feet ( I was doing heel-toe-heel-toe), don’t swing your butt ( I was swinging all over!) , and to do smaller steps to achieve faster speeds. I dunno if it worked but it felt a bit faster.

Hard to tell since I was a bit tired and hot doing it in the sunshine so even though I timed it it was not a fresh go. …all these qualifying thoughts of mine for this–Like it matters?? UGH! I just wanna do some cardio! :D!!

Felt good though! A very different feel when you walk with your toes propelling you first vs heels.

I then went to Costco and regretted it. I usually go right at opening time and today it was packed even then. Maybe because its Friday and it also like summer outside so people are getting out so they can wear flip flops and shorts.

Even before the COIVD thing I’ve arranged my life to avoid people places, not due to being a germaphobe, or because I am anti social. I am a born service oriented/caretaker/ pleaser type for better or worse and I like individuals yet I am a crowd hater–especially at shopping places where I feel way too many people’s manic shopping vibes and impatience-- it makes me feel depressed!

I start feeling bad for these people who are buying stuff they don’t need, using money they might not have etc etc…, or whatever…I have always been this way. I am a feeler. Baby’s crying in church made me seriously depressed and sad as a child --I felt they were sad and in distress! It would make me depressed! More then a normal or appropriate depressed, like I had just witnessed a terrible scene…but its baby crying!

I’m too empathetic. I know I am and I am working on shielding myself and saving it for people who deserve it. However, I really do tend to feel outside vibes and shopping people can exude very manic vibes.

I do think that when things begin to open up again, they will be at reduced hours…which sucks. Like the gym, so going at 2am - to avoid people like why I went at that time before COVID- may not be an option anymore if they cut hours :{ . I live my life in an attempt to avoid crowds and the vibes they produce ( and the sun!) .

Oh well. I’m going to be very happy when I can get a haircut! MY GOODNESS…come on Great Clips!

[brute_fury]

Today
Speed walk! 2.8 miles - I checked mid go and did 1.2 miles in 15 mins, which seems about right for speed.

Then Malibu Walk- spotted a some type of water bird- a very dark blue/black heron or egret or something submerging and slowly scouting out the lake. He looked very cool! SO many birds out!

May 8th Great Clips opens. MAY 8! Counting down the days! Thor’s deadlfit is in an hour too!!!

[brute_fury]

He did it! And it looked great! The after part calling out Eddie Hall was a a bit of a let down that took away from his lift. I think he could do more wt for sure, but…I was not a fan of the “now let’s go box!” type thing. Made it a bit too WWE.

Maybe he will retire now. He looks way healthier then he did at 2018 Arnold yet still massive, like going to have a heart attack massive. I hope he retires for his body’s sake! He definitely proved he can do it, but it was much less exciting -for me a fan- then it’d be if it were in a show.

[idaho]

I thought you would be interested in this

https://www.msn.com/en-us/sports/more-sports/the-mountain-from-game-of-thrones-sets-deadlift-world-record/ar-BB13w1uG?li=BBnba9I&ocid=mailsignout

[brute_fury]

OH I WAS! I watched it live! !!!

[brute_fury]

pull ups x 10
log clean once strict press reps empty/75# x 5, 85x3, 95x5x5 sets
pull ups x 10
fs 45x10, 135, 170x2, 185x6, 190x7x3 sets , 200x5 x 2 sets
pull ups x8

clean grip lunges 75# x 15 rep/leg ss 20 bw squats-10 hold at bottom- 10 slow rise up-10 bw squats- 10 second hold- 10 second rise up

did the same using 85#/15/leg for the lunges, then 95# x 10 rep/leg same ss stuff

3 rounds of:

• tried a type of bent over upright row 65# x 8-10
• v rip land mine rows x 15 adding wt each round 25-55# with a hold up
  top
• band pull aparts x 25

viking press empty 15 reps/rip slow reps x 3 rips ss band pull aparts x15

A set of 15 normal push ups

Yesterday I did a set of 15 normal push ups too. I am aiming to get myself to stomach them more! I suck at them and have begun to have a mental block of dread, they are hard. I used to be “good” but it took about a year to get there. Once I stopped my ability to do them was gone!

I keep eyeing this cardio thing to buy that is way too $$$$ so instead I am telling myself you have to do push ups regularly first to earn any type of big spending, push ups make my heart rate go up so earn it that way. I won’t buy the cardio thing, I will work the push ups.

[brute_fury]

Sometimes before I go to work I check to see which patients I have to care for. I scheduled a day of this week because I was getting cranky, cranky from interacting with my coworkers!!

Everyone is stressed about the world situation I know…and some are more annoying to be around the others…

My supervisor has really let me down the last few days. She is someone I once held in high regard - I respected her a lot, and she respected me.

Her attitude towards me has changed and I think its due to a big life change for her-a breakup- and this covid stuff. I have not changed my behavior, I think she is going through a hard time with a break up and …it really disappoints me to say this-- is dissing me because she can.

She knows how I am, she knows me well. She knows I am a restrained person, that I hold/held her in high regard, that I am loyal and respectful to people I respect!- and won’t snap at her or react right away to make her know what she is doing is disrespectful.

I see what she’s doing- she is also my supervisor.

I really am shocked by her behavior and its a big let down to see someone I once really respected act this way, and even worse direct towards me. You’ll will have to believe me when I say her behavior towards me is unwarranted- it is. I’ve felt this before, because I am restrained and respectful and NICE, I get dissed. Because they can.

ANYWAYS! 2 more work days this week and a day of after. I checked my online chart for my job…and I see this

“covered in diarrhea” " patient is aggressive and snapping" patient is now corpophagic" ( eats poop) “gave IM domitor” ( domitor s a major sedative…

I met this patient and was her nurse yesterday and she was very nervous girl. A procedure she had had made her either temporarily or forever fecal incontinent. She developed stress colitis and blow out diarrhea.

She is fecal incontinent…she has sutures and things on her butt that we need to keep clean… Yesterday I was able to do at least a half job cleaning her, she tolerated that much…now the diarrhea is worse…and she is too!

And now she’s aggressive ! OFF TO WORK I GO! DAY OFF WEDNESDAY!

[brute_fury]

Today
dead lifts 45x10, 135x3, 185x3, 225x3, 255, 275x 5 x 5 sets
rdls 135x10, 165x10x5 sets

bw bulgarians 60 rep/leg-> 60 bw squats->10 second hold-> 20 second rise up
45 rep/leg-> 45 bw squats->10 second hold-> 20 second rise up
30 rep/leg-> 30 bw squats->10 second hold-> 20 second rise up

hammstring ball curls x 25 ss back extensions x 25 x 2 sets

That’s it! FEELIN GOOD! I’m watching the count down and the reopening updates for a few gyms I follow on facebook. They are doing the time slots online and 6 feet apart etc. So far I have not seen you must wear masks rule…I really hope that goes for my gym.

I hate the masks. I wear them about 70% (7 hours) of my work day the other part I am not around anyone but the dogs and cats. I am not afraid of getting covid from a dog no matter what the stupid news stories say.

The amount of uneducated dummy writers posting shit online with zero credibility OR accountability about what they are saying is so gross. BUT! That’s not new in terms of vet medicine, there is always some one online “expert”, or a some breeder a lady’s mom knows, or lady who thinks she knows more than a vet who will spread a ton of incorrect information. Incorrect and dangerous to pets.

I won’t even write one major one since honestly, I have a feeling it would make someone upset and I am not into going into that since it is so exhausting. I’ve had these arguments with my own family who believe a slick marketing campaign over any type of on the floor information I could share and I can’t blame them! The marketing people know exactly which buttons to push to get their line to stick in peoples hearts which is what drives most peoples decisions in their pets care.

In terms of the masks, as soon as I am away from people like by myself in a ward, my mask is SO OFF. I look down more when I wear them and by the end of the day my neck is sore and get to welcome new lil baby underground zits on my chin and mouth area from the freaking condensation.

I am not alone in this annoyance of course. I am lucky to work and thus have to wear a mask—I don’t have to like wearing one though! It helps to vent…and I look forward to when this will be a bit of bitching from another time.

[brute_fury]

Today
25 rep/leg walking lunges
tbar carry 167# x 1 trip around the field no drops
25 rep/leg walking lunges
tbar carry 167# x 1 trip around the field no drops
25 rep/leg walking lunges
tbar carry 167# x 1 trip around the field 1 drop/regrips
25 rep/leg wlaking lunges
tbar carry 167# x 1 trip around the field 2 drops/regrips

Malibu Walk! 2 deer, many squirrels. Prior to the field stuff I took her out for an extended sniffy walk on the apartment complex grounds. She spotted a bunny, she stalked it for around 3 mins, the whole bird dog action and everything! She is not a bird dog yet she has hunting instinct!

Slow step, moving her feet super slowly–my girl has mad patience! Bunny of course was far faster yet Malibu took her time and minutes past as she stalked this bunny! Cue heart melting.

THEN! I went to Great Clips! I got there 30 mins before it was opened to sit in the parking lot and do online check-in to get in line. A guy came out with a clip board instead and took our phone numbers for the people already there.

When I pulled up there were already 2 people there. I was 3rd on the list! SCORE!

As I was sitting in the chair getting my cut a guy came walking in and asked to get on the list since the online check out was closed. It closed automatically since it was already a 3 hour wait. This was at 10:07 am, 7 mins after they opened and they already had a 3 hour wait.

The guy had no issue at all with the wait, and I was prepared to do the same and not complain when I got there. I expected a huge wait myself, I’d happily wait that long for a cut- BUT got in early! LUCKY!

OH MY GAHHHH FEELS SO GOOD!
:D!!!
Before, in Walmart at 9am.

I will never let it get this way again, 3 months. At times I thing, oh, its not so bad , I might leave it and let it grow longer. I haven’t had it this long- on the sides- is about 8 or more years. Once I cut it, like clockwork, all doubt is gone and I am solid on what I prefer to look like.

After the cut I drove to see my parents …this was suprisingly hard! I stayed otside on teh driveway, I wore my mask. I was able to give and get 2 hugs each form them which meant the world to me.

I did not expect to feel so much as I drove down the drive way, not until I saw my mask on my face. It hit home, how primal that relationship is for me, my love for my parents! The mask, it… .yeah…its like seeing owners who are putting their dogs to sleep and they have a mask on- they have no choice!..it just…its hard to see…it hard not to see. That mask --its a lot.

It was so nice to see them, and so very different too seeing them standing 6 feet away, outside, etc…I did not stay long…but yeah…it hit me. I was almost in tears after the fact. BUT! I got to hug my parents! TWICE! And they look great! I’ll take it!

[brute_fury]

Turbo gym sent out another email with updates for their reopening this Saturday. They are doing the online time slot sign up. Each member is permitted to sigh up for a 90 min slot limited to twice a week- that’s it. And from the looks of it the slots are not enough for every member to even get a chance to sign up once a week. I am not a member of that Turbo gym anymore, I am on the mailing list so I am using it for clues to when my gym will open.

The time slots are not all at really regular intervals either, its more of one day it’ll be 7-8:30 am, then the next one is at 5pm - whenever that day. I’m sure its due to staffing since someone has to be there now to “personal train” the 5 people allowed in at one time when before no one was ever really there that worked there. Or for cleaning or something…my goodness does that suck. Better then nothing yet totally not something I could pull , my schedule would not allow it. I wonder what 24 hour fitness’s ( my current gym) will be? Whatever.

Also not all gyms are opening up. A strongman/bb gym I’ve been to a few time in Aurora is not allowed to open up at all until after May 27. I think the smaller places can go first maybe. Turbo gym has way less members yet probably around 100 or more I’d guess.

I did do some push ups yesterday and today too- a set o normal ones of 15 Tuesday, a set of 15 today. Here’s a example of a normal one:

here’s one with the sling shot.

Either way they kick my ass, the sling shot and the normal both are hard for me. I suck at them massively…bleh. I do want to use the sling shot on a dip station at some point to see if it helps me do dips. I SUCK at those even more then pushups.

I might not even be able to do one now. When I have done them they were instantly seemingly impossible - as in I had no ability at all, zero- and instantly painful on my clavicle, this was years ago before i had any type of injuries as well.

[brute_fury]

Today
5.6 mile speed walk! Took 1 hour 6 mins 15 seconds

Malibu Walk!

I think I might have grazed on the tip of achieving the “cardio buzz” I have been jonesin for…not the same as stepmill, but today’s stuff felt great! I think my haircut effected about 80% off my mood- which is CHILL, refreshed, optimistic.

Not needing a big buzz from lifting and exertion to quell my inner angst, speed walking was enough-- its because I got a damn haircut!!!It also helped that it was at 5am and I got to do it outside, it was light enough to be safe, and not hot, big giant moon out too! I feel great!!!

Please let the world get haircuts again! Let them get personal grooming services!!! (OPEN THE GYMS goes without saying…) It will make a big difference in everyone’s outlook! I drove 40 miles yesterday to get mine…well worth the trip to get to an open salon!!! I am so glad I did !

[brute_fury]

Today
pull ups x 10
log clean once strict press reps empty/75# x 8 x4 sets
pull ups x 10
log clean once strict press reps empty/75# x 8 x 4 sets
pull ups x 10

fs 45x10, 135x2, 170x8x10 sets
viking press 15 reps/grip x 3 grips then 5 reps/grip x 3 grips ss band pull aparts x 30 x 3 sets

speed walk 2.8 miles- forgot press timer on my phone
right after did walking lunges
50 reps/leg then 50 bw squats-> 25 second hold- 10 second rise up → walk back to starting spot
walking lunges 40 reps/leg then 40 bw squats-> 20 second hold- 10 second rise up → walk back to starting spot
walking lunges 30 reps/leg then 30 bw squats-> 15 second hold- 10 second rise up → walk back to starting spot
walking lunges 20 reps/leg then 20 bw squats-> 10 second hold- 10 second rise up → walk back to starting spot
walking lunges 10 reps/leg then 10 bw squats-> 10 second hold- 10 second rise up → walk back to starting spot

Malibu Walk! Many bunnies, a pelican flying over the lake, squirrels, major bird beef with loud bird calls and duck anger quacks, and a coyote slinking in front of out path. He was about the size of a shiba inu.

My girl is THE BOMB.

May 7, 2020

15 seconds of her jumping. LOOK AT THAT ACTION. Just three weeks ago she was very hesitant, now its a FULL ON PARTY whenever the squat rack turns into a show jumping hurdle!

[burnur]

@brute_fury

let the world get haircuts again! Let them get personal grooming services!!!

cue patriotic music

[brute_fury]

YESSSS!!! To NOT have to look like a raggamuffin helps you cope with the world around you!!

[brute_fury]

Today so far- 2.8 mil speed walk

Malibu walk!

I have done my push ups every day this week. I am starting low by doing 15 total a day. They so far have been in one set. I also did a few push ups in the sling shot here and there too during the week.

BLAST FROM THE PAST.

- YouTube

My sisters were big time Tae Bo’ers! Me, not as much I was a runner, that’s how I began “working out” at age 13 or 14. We did have a bunch of these videos starting with Buns of Steel, and of course Tony Little stuff!

I think if I did this TODAY I’d rupture my acl.

[brute_fury]

Today
pull ups x 10
log clean once strict press reps empty/75# x 5, 85#x7, 90x7x4 sets, 90x6
pull ups x 9
fs 45x10, 135x3, 170x13 x 3 sets, 1 70x10 x 3 sets
pull ups x8

reverse alternating clean grip lunges 75# x 10 rep/leg
clean grip lunges 75# x 10 rep/leg x 3 sets
did some land mine v grip rows, a bit of a probelm wiht the landmine slidding out of the wt plates! The gistof those were bar plus 35#x15, 55x15, 70x10, 80-90x10

viking press 30 reps/grip x 3 grips
plate shugs 35#'s w 10 second hold up top, 10 sec lower down x 10 reps
band pull aparts x 50 various grip and heights

Yesterday - a set of 15 push ups, 5 push ups

An update on my work irritation with my supervisor. On my last day of work last week she seemed to have picked up that her behavior was upsetting people, also one of my other coworkers had made a point talk to her about her own concerns.

She, -supervisor and my once really respected coworker- appeared to make a point to quietly change and revert back to how she used to be, as in respectful to me. I was appreciative… but weary.

The main concern was that she has acted so strangely out of character towards me the weeks before that it really startled me. It kicked in the instinct to recognize that at this point since I really did nothing to warrant that ever, it was SO surprising how she was acting that something serious was up, and it was pointless to try and confront her. And now I realize why.

Alcohol! She’s a heavy drinker, which I knew, many of my coworkers are. I had forgotten this about her since I really had not experienced any of the results of her drinking while I was around her at all for YEARS.

After hearing bits I did not know about her until yesterday,I have lost a massive amount of respect for her.

I keep trying to tell myself that she’s human, she’s a good person going through a hard time …thinking it was the break up with her long time partner. I found out the break up was a result of her ( and her boyfriend’s) drinking too!! They are both heavy drinkers and they’d get plastered drunk and then they’d fight each other. This last time her boyfriend had enough since she kicked the shit out of him. They had a camera, it was all on tape, she got arrested. I had no clue about any of this. This was months ago.

My first reaction was this!–>Yeaaaaaaaahhhh and F@CK YOU!! ( to her!)… I have a huge amount of contempt towards people who beat their partners… Someone has to be their friend I know and people make mistakes, but I do not have to be their friend. I’m struggling a lot to remember the person I liked and its hard when stuff like this comes out.

I know I am very lucky I don’t have a drug problem or a booze problem. I also know I don’t want to be around anyone who does…in my experience they tend to not accept responsibility for their actions and blame anyone or anything else-- the booze, the drugs. You know, that booze that forces itself down your throat.

I understand addiction is incredibly awful, I also understand everyone is responsible for their actions. That’s as far as I can go. In the past I had other ideas, thinking other things and gave a lot of leeway about people who are under the influence mostly because I had no experience with it at all or around people who did drugs and drank too much. Zero, my parents are not drinkers, they don’t smoke, I was a straight edge youngster.

I have now SOME limited experience being around others and my own brief boozing period of life nowadays to I know enough to make me see that it starts with the person who chooses their drug for whatever awful and difficult reasons- not the drug itself.

Booze being the contributing factor or not, if I find out you abuse your partner I will think very poorly of you. Its even worse if I had held you to high-esteem before, I know she;s a good person, I know she had so much better in her then this shit!! Or does she??

Cheaters? Instantly you loose respect in my eyes as well. I’ve been cheated on, I know how much it hurts, how humiliating it is…I know you don’t fall into bed with people. However cheaters are still not as bad as abusers in my eyes.

Abusers? Instantly you have lost my respect it completely. So she has been so erratic because she is drinking too much.
I’m reaaaaaaly trying to be understanding. I am very lucky my own brief stint heavy drinking was just that-- brief and around 3 months when I was around 22.

I never even wanted to drink alcohol ever even as a teenage. I was straight edge if you arr familiar with the term. Meaning into body modification- tattoos, scarification, piercings, etc and no drugs or booze at all.

My first drink of any type of booze was at 20 and that was not my own idea. My then husband wanted me to drink and I wanted to make him happy so I did. I had no idea how to drink or pace myself. I just got hammered every time I drank. I didn’t do it every day, but when I did it’d be zero to 60.

Looking back I know now that he wanted me drunk so I would do things he wanted me to do, or not be aware of things he was doing. The fact that he wanted me to drink at all was very weird since one of the reasons we met in the first place in due to both being straight edge. Years and years alter I have understood that he was a chameleon who changed to suit whatever he wanted to get out of whomever he currently was using. He was not an idiot, he was very astute in picking things up socially, he knew what to do to get who he wanted.

Again, the drinking was not every day or even every weekend, it was once or twice a month. Just at times when he’d have specific plans for us - or me- I’d get drunk. I was coerced, yes, but liked how it felt and I drank and get plastered and he would sip and maintain the control of me and the situation. I did not see him drunk more then 2 times in the 3 years I lived with him.

About a year into our marriage, with the year of misc shit that happened during that first year, I started to drink by myself after work every day. Discount wine cookers that he found super cheap. I remember I’d come home after the nursing home shift , do some body wt squats, then get drunk and fall asleep.

I did it to get buzzed and I did it to get brave. I thought too sometimes, " maybe if he hears me tell him how much he hurts me , he’ll finally see it and stop" as if me being drunk and telling him he hurts me so much would magically make him see what damage he was causing me and make him stop doing it…I was naive, I was in WAY over my head with this guy too.

…Eventually after 3 months of this everyday drunk shit - and he was never home during my “brave” times of being drunk enough to tell him things, I knew I had to stop. I could tell I was easily sliding down a rabbit hole and could very easily become an alcoholic. THAT was lucky. I don’t think everyone had that clarity, I am very grateful I did.

Luckily for me I was able to recognize that 1) he does not care what I say when I am drunk, 2) he us not around anyway to hear it!, 3) this is going to get bad and I should stop drinking. 4) and the kicker-- I felt like shit the next day for working out!

GOOD OLD eating disorder/exercise obsession to save the day It had ( still has :{ ) its helpful sides!

I stopped drinking daily. I think 2 times since that brief 3 month daily drinking time have I got drunk, the last time being in 2015. Lucky for me, my brief stint on the booze was brief. I drank for a reason and that reason was 100% to do with my then husband. I have zero interest in drinking ever again. I was the one who drank though, I did it.

I got lucky though. I stopped!
My supervisor has 2 duis. She should know better…she also has addiction in her family…ughh!!

. I find it very hard not to judge her harshly, probably because once- only very recently!- held her in such high esteem. I find it VERY HARD not to be massively disgusted and disappointed in her.

The saying " expect nothing and you will never be disappointed" never really sat well with me… I hold grudges on people who I once thought had high standards of behavior. I have high expectations of people when I am convinced of them, maybe without them actually earning them…so that could be my fault too. Everyone is human, and I am human
too by being disappointed in her

[Scotto]

I am pretty empathic and try to be thoughful but I know I wasn’t good about setting boundaries or limits on my interactions with others. Things like being the person everyone confided in, having friends I respected letting me down. My first impression of people was always very favorable and positive.

As I have gotten older anyone new to me starts off at neutral. I dont ascribe any positive traits to them. Also I realized the vast majority of people I deal with are acquaintances. I always make friends easily but it took a long time to realize real friends are a rare and special thing.

Just talking about myself but I see some of my traits in what you’ve shared. You are trying to improve yourself every day which sets you apart from most. Just keep going.

[brute_fury]

I agree and relate with a LOT of what you just said!

[brute_fury]

Today
rdls 45x10, 135x25, 165x25x3 sets, 185x25
ottoman/anderson zerchers 115x5, 165x10x2 sets, 185x10, 205x10

push ups- 4 sets of 10

Today Malibu had a dental! It went great! MAN do her teeth look good! She is currently a bit doped up and sleepy…I am so happy it went so well!

As for my supervisor, she’s acting “normal” again. I’m not going to try and do anything, not try and tell her any thing she doesn’t already know. I WILL react appropriately to the bad behavior when or if it returns --when it presents itself. I look forward to that day when she gets over her issues because she is a great person, and I think she’d be incredible once she drops the booze…she’d be a very good sober person, once she gets sober

I think anyone who gets over an addiction has so much to be proud of as its a massive accomplishment!!! Its a badge of honor anyone who has faced that challenge should be incredibly proud of.

I’ve patted myself on my back for getting over my own individual personal hardships, that are embarrassing and a life long challenge. I know anyone who survives an eating disorder deserves major props-- that is a monster no one should ever have to deal with and its so deep. I would not wish an eating disorder on anyone, ever, ever ever. NEVER.

Also anyone who had gotten out of an abusive relationship gets my serious respect too. I know how hard that shit is, it lasts for years after, its awful. Its so embarrassing, shameful, complicated, and complex. Its so hard to get anyone to understand unless you’ve been there yourself. Just getting away from close proximity is a Herculean event, and if you don’t think it is-- you’ve luckily never been in that situation and I hope you never are.

All of those embarrassing hush hush things- addictions, eating disorders, abusive relationships- have a common thread and mix and match often. I KNOW if you have achieve release from those you did you hard work that not everyone ever has to face themselves let alone is able to do.

I dated a former alcoholic and it really impressed me- that he conquered his alcoholism. I was so proud of him even before I met him for doing that.

I want to clear the air in my log to make it clear I don’t want anything to do with active out of control boozing people, or druggy people, that is not something I will ever choose to deal with. I have a lot of respect for people who are able to get over their addictions and do not think less but more of them for tackling that monster themselves. That shows real balls.

[brute_fury]

Today
t bar carry 167# x 2 times around the field- a bout 6 drops/regrips
sand bag carry 100# a 2 trips around the field- 7 or so drops
bw walking lunges 50 reps/leg 10-15 bw squats-10 second hold x 3 rounds- total of 150 lunges/leg
revers alternating lunges bw 25 reps/leg
speed walk 2.5 miles

Malibu Walk! A planned day off work to be with my girl after her dental–sometimes dog’s get the shits after anesthesia and I’d rather not come home to that. Not the best sleep last night since she was very emotional and MOST concerned, whining, and staring into space as her drugs wore off. She was also very cuddly :)!!
MY BABY!!!

We got muddy today. There was a loose giant Shepard - as well as a freaked out loose boxer-lumbering after us and we had to cut some corners and get in the mud to gain some distance between him and get away from him. He might have been friendly but all I know is he was twice my girl’s size and very intent on following us. NO thanks!