Well, here is my take on it…
Spent a lot of the years of my life not training, drinking a shit load of beer, and smoking like it was going out of fashion…was always pretty slim though, and just naturally quite fit and robust considering my lifestyle.
Got to a certain age… (early 40’s), quit smoking, cut down on the beer, and decided that the alarmingly expanding middle age spread just couldn’t be allowed to get any worse.
Became a regular gym going cardio bunny.
Result? What little muscle I did have all fell off, and I became the archetypal “skinny fat” dude. Not a good look.
Made a conscious decision to quit the heavy cardio, changed the focus of my training to try and build some muscle, found a real joy and passion in weight training, and after working my fecking arse off for several years, (and am now knocking on the door of 50) made a realisation.
I realised that;
Although I am still a funky, Pepsi Max kind of adventure dude IN MY HEAD! I am in reality, nearly fifty fucking years old and probably have about as much natural testosterone as a tomato. Well maybe a BIT more than that, but you know what I mean…
Once that realisation had sunk in, it was a fairly easy decision to make.
Now I know there will be folks reading this who think…oh here we go, training for a few years, and no real idea of the lifting /fitness lifestyle…nowhere near his natural potential?..accident waiting to happen?.etc.
But you know what? So what?
I have read a shit load of articles, here, on other boards, and in books and pamphlets. I am by no means as knowledgeable as many on this board, but I believe I know enough to keep myself reasonably safe.
I use cycles that are strong enough to make a difference, short enough to recover quickly and easily from.
Using steroids I can; indulge my ?Batman? side?.. (We all have a dark side that we like to explore); achieve a reasonably satisfying muscular body at a pretty late stage in life; satisfy my curious nature; enjoy a relatively exclusive and slightly illicit aspect of life; see and feel quite dramatic changes taking place that would take years (if at all at my age) to happen naturally.
I do not feel that it is cheating, as I am not competing with, or comparing myself to, anyone else.
In the UK it is legal to purchase substances for one?s own use.
One member of my family and three close friends know about my steroid usage. If I was asked directly by any other friend or family member if am using ?anything?, I would say yes and try to explain my rational for doing so. I do not believe this would lose me any friends or cause my family to disown me.
Life is too short to be too afraid to do things that make one feel vital!
Crash.