[quote]WhiteFlash wrote:
If you don’t know if you believe in it and break just about everyother rule of the religion then it looks like you’re making bullshit excuses, and only you know why. Not trying to be a prick or “call you out”, just sayin’.[/quote]
When I say I dont know if I believe in my religion, thats because I have never seen any proof what so ever of god or anything else. I have however had allot of bad things happen to me and my family that would make me question who a god who loves us all would let that happen to “what Im told” are some of the only people who know and follow his truth.
I believed in god for my whole life really, just recently have I doubted. Probably because I finaly realized that the stuff my parents and church were feeding me was completley illogical and overall just bullshit that they think is correct and would continue to practice even if it wasnt needed until god him self came down and told them to cut the shit out.
My religion is one of the stricter religions, I have grown up vastly different than most. And I dont know of any other church than mine who believes the exact same things.
because I cant ask you to understand where Im coming from because you havent been in the same situation, Il put it to you in a way easier to understand.
Imagine if you that if from the time you were born you were told by the ones you trusted the most that if you didnt lift weights you would die and burn in hell forever. That if you did lift weights “god” would protect you and give you a much much better life, and in heaven you would be made a king or something like that for the hard work you did now. Imagine that you believed all of this, and spent 17 years lifting only to find out that “god” hasent been making things better for you, hasent stopped bad things from happening to you. You find out that the people who told you these things are also unhappy and have the same things happening to them. You find out that the people who told you these things basically pulled hem out of their ass and used faith as a a excuse to keep following these “rules”. You start to think the whole thing was meaning less and that all hopes of a heaven mean nothing. Even the comfort of religion and heaven and the protection that god is supposed to offer disapears.
Now, do you just give up on lifting? let 17 years go down the drain. Accept the fact that there is no heaven, there is no loving person in the sky, there is no one to protect you and make your life better. Life is just you looking out for your self until you die and rot in the ground and are forgotten.
I dont know if I can accept that yet.
Iam a deeply disturbed person when it comes to religion, I have basically been brain washed into what I do.
there are a few rules I dont break, lifting or working on saturdy is one of them. Am I willing to throw away what I once considered to by my whole purpose in life in order to have my numbers show up on a piece of paper to get a small ammount of recognition? Not at this point, no.
hope this makes it a little clearer as to why I havent competed on saturday.