Lol or does that just sound completely insane to you guys?
Sounds about right.
Yeah that is what it’s like for me too, just have to be careful to not let the rage consume you. That to me is the hard part at times.
Actually not at all. I really appreciate the response. It’s always interesting to me to see how people deal with that intensity and keep it focused and in check. Thanks again
Ahh another glorious leg day…Leg day, the day that separates the dedicated from the wannabes…
Started today as every other leg day, with a good 5min of Foam rolling and another 5 or so of stretching. Feels like a did a bit more than usual today in terms of stretching, but it just made my legs feel fantastic.
Elevated Front squats (hadnt front squatted in awhile, so figured id start these up again. Started slow and didnt get too heavy because of that fact)- 15/45(bar), 15/95x2, 10/135, 10/185
Romanian DL- 20/bar, 15/95, 15/135, 15/185
1 legged leg press- 10/180x2, 8/270x2
Prone leg curl- 15/65, 15/95, 15/125
1 legged leg ext- 15/50, 15/70, 12/90, 10/110
Hip Abductor- 15/50, 15/65, 15/80, 15/90, 15/100
Phew, the workout felt great but was terrible. I was dripping sweat, i hated every minute of it, and loved it at the same time. I did cut it a bit short, i had to. I was on the verge of throwing up. As i said, my pre and my during dont get along, so i was getting pretty bloated, plus Anaconda/Surge was inching its way back up my throat. I skipped my usual hamtractor, and opted not to do hip Adductors (as my inner thigh is big enough lol). The workout itself was a great quad day, as i was feeling specific tension in the vastus lateralis, the medialis, and the rectus femoris through every exercise that focused on them. I just got out of a nice hot shower, and sitting here relaxing in my chair…im feeling pretty good right now. Euphoric in a way, proud of yet another day under my belt. Every day is another step up that mountain. Every workout is another footprint left in the snow. The pinnacle is getting closer and closer. An avalanche couldnt stop me now…
Ahh chesticles. Got a bit heavier on some things today. Felt good. Did a bit of a upper focus aswell. And kinda backed off a bit on calves (due to the small tinge i feel in my soleus)
incline Db Press- 15/45, 15/55, 12/75, 12/95, 10/115, 8/140
DB fly (Kept this light, but really got deep, and focus intently on the contraction)- 12/30, 10/40, 10/50, 10/60
HS isolateral incline press- 15/90, 12/180, 8/270, 8/360, 8/450
Cable fly (did this with a high cable, and also brought it only to about chin level in front of me)- 15/40, 12/50, 12/60, 10/70
Lat pulldown serratus pull- 20/30, 15/50, 12/70
DB Pullover- 15/40, 15/60, 15/80
Standing calf- 15/105, 15/210, 15/300, 15/405, 15/495
Seated calf (as i said, stopped these early)- 15/90, 15/135
Treadmill Calf walks- Very low speed (.5-1mph) with a high incline (15-20), focusing on the calf flexion and extension through the whole movement. Done for 10minutes.
felt good lifting some heavier stuff today. Felt strong. Felt like things were as they should have been. Hmmm, cant say i got a whole lot to comment on today however. Well, lets just make tomorrow another double day for mentality =)
Back/Bis/Forearms. Another solo day, so i experimented a bit with movements i hadnt done in awhile and such.
Lat pulldowns (im liking this as a good warmup exercise)- 15/100, 15/120
Pullups- 4x8 at bodyweight
Pendlay Row- 10/95, 10/135, 10/185, 10/225
DB Row (I did these with alternate knee and hand on a bench (propping myself up), and the other arm holding the weight off to the side of it. great Lat stretch)- 12/60, 8/90, 8/120, 8/140
Rope Face pulls- 12/50, 12/80, 10/110, 10/140
HS isolateral Row- 8/180, 8/270, 8/360, 6/450
Alternating Curls- 15/10(thats right, 10fuckinglbs. Every GD dumbbell up to 40lbers was missing, so i had to grab the tens to warmup…) 8/40, 8/55, 8/70
1hand Preacher- 8/30, 8/40, 8/45
Cable Hammer raise (Well, i tried this out. I thought about the Action of the Biceps, and that is a couple things including Flexing the Arm (this is the key point of that statement) and forearm. So what i did was lock my upper arm (brachium) at my side for the initial hammer motion, then when my forearm (antebrachium) reached perpendicular with my upper arm, id also raise my upper arm for the last portion of the movement. I dunno, that may sound a bit weird)- 12/20, 10/30, 10/40, 10/50
Forearm Extensor curls- 15/15x4 (as i said, no weights around)
Forearm Flexor curls- 10/40, 10/50, 10/60, 10/70
K-pipe bar curls- 12/30, 10/40, 10/50
Sitting here and feeling good. Have a small meal laid out in front of me, 6oz cod, 2 cups spinach, and a serving of cashews, and currently chomping away at that. I do feel very good thing…my body feels like its pulsating with…with energy right now…everything is warm, and i feel relaxed. My bis and back feel pumped, and good. I walked out of the gym and was at ease with myself. I took a moment and peered up at the stars- so beautiful, and yet such a reminder of our own infinitesimal, fleeting lives and how in the grand scheme of things our lifespans are merely just a pinprick lost in the ocean that is the galaxy. Such thinking can lead to fatalistic beliefs though, so we must try to not lose ourselves in such thoughts. We do what we can with the time we are given, a time with which we have no clue. I could live to be over a hundred…or i could not wake up tomorrow. All the more reason why things cannot be postponed, things cannot wait. For what is reason for said waiting? What could you be waiting for? A sign? inspiration? Well here’s a secret- Inspiration comes in the form of a lightning bolt. If you are sitting down, staring at the ground, waiting for something to shove you in the right direction, you’ll miss it.
We must live our lives FOR every moment, FOR every day. For tomorrow is not a given…
Delts, Tris, and Traps. Mmmmm
Clean and press (heard some good things, figured id give it a go. Didnt do the deadlift it up version, as i wanted to keep the focus on my delts, so i basically started the movement from a ‘standing and hanging barbell’ position. Would basically upright row it up, flick my wrists up at the top, and press the weight overhead, then lower the weight back to chin level, and simply flick my wrists down, as to minimize any forearm work. Was a tough movement, and felt pretty good, albeit my first time doing it)- 20/bar, 10/65, 8/95, 8/135, 5/185
Standing DB laterals- 15/25, 12/35, 8/40, 8/50
Behind the back Cable laterals- 12/30, 8/40, 8/50, 8/60
Cable X’s (ive explained these several times)- 15/30, 15/45, 12/60, 8/70
Reverse Pec dex- 15/100, 15/130, 10/160, 8/180
Rope Tri extensions (done on the Double pulley system ofc. Also pulling the rope apart as usual)- 15/50, 8/75, 8/100, 8/120, 8/140
incline skullcrushers (dont think ive gone indepth with these before. 2 dumbbells, arms straight in the air, with palms facing inward)- 12/30, 8/45, 8/60, 7/70
Tomahawks (ive explain these)- 15/30, 12/45, 8/55, 8/60
Cable Kickbacks- 8/30, 8/40, 8/50x2
Barbell Shrugs- 15/135, 15/225, 15/315, 12/405, 8/495
And unfortunately, i got no poetry for you today. lol i need to study for a test tomorrow!
Ah, the bane of my existence, leg day. So i kept things a bit lighter, and tried to do some Ham focus.
Squats- 15/135x2, 15/185, 15/225
Romanian Deadlifts (Doing these these days with a much closer stance, and a retracted scapula, and as always straight legs)- 20/bar, 15/95, 15/135, 15/185
Prone leg curl- 15/65, 15/95 (i stopped these early because for some reason my Calves were trying to jump into the mix).
Lunges- Just used bodyweight, focusing on a full stride, and basically holding my hamstrings through the entire movement, feeling them stretch and pull. 40steps x3sets
Hamtractor- 15/180, 15/225, 15/270, 15/255
1 legged leg press (Done with a very high leg placement, focusing on the Hams)- 8/90, 8/180, 6/270
My legs felt good walking out, they werent completely wrecked, but none too happy neither. I basically just felt drained. As i was standing there, after my finishing my 4th set of squats, sucking in air, and dripping with sweat, i overheard a “trainer” discussing nutrition with one of her clients- “…so we had tacos the other night…And he had 4…normally i can keep up with him, but i only had one.” “Excellent! Thats the trick, not eating too much.” The conversation, between THE LADY WORKING OUT, and her trainer continued for the entirety of the time that they were next to me- The chunky lady talking as she performed the movements, with not a breath out of place, or a dribble of sweat.
And betwixt my labored breaths, i laughed loudly. I laughed at the extreme ridiculousness of both- The blind leading the blind. I laughed at complete lack of desire- seeing only a woman justifying her fecal-tastic diet. And i laughed at the utter ignorance of one casting a veil of stupidity on another. I watched between sets the movements performed by the Duo. I honestly believe a more efficient form of calorie burning wouldve been monopoly.
Listen folks, This isnt easy. This isnt for everyone. You will not achieve the body you desire, or results period for that matter, if you do not pour yourself into it. Yes, obliteration of one’s former self is a tough, treacherous path. it is full of constant belittling, criticism, tough decisions, rough moments, aching bodyparts, self loathing thoughts, anger, rage, frustration, humiliation, discontention, etc etc. But it is from these fires we are reborn, as a phoenix through its tomb of fire. Destruction is indeed a rough road…but it is what breeds creation.
Spectacles, CHESTICLES, Cod, And my hot bod. (Bam, Rhyme for the win)
Honestly, today, during my first exercise, i turn to Hyena and i say “Is it just me, or did someone turn up the gravity today?” Things felt heavier. i think it may have been the removal of my pre workout and some other nutrition ping ponging i did today. Just received my Anaconda protocol in the mail today, so hopefully, things will start getting a bit more intense in the next couple days.
DB press- 15/35, 15/50, 8/80, 8/100, 8/120, 7/140
Db fly- 8/40, 8/55, 8/70
DB touching close press (palm facing medially)- 15/30, 15/40, 15/50, 12/60
Cable Fly (Done with a high cable, and flying to chin level)-15/40, 15/50, 12/60, 10/70
DB serratus pullovers- 20/40, 20/60, 15/80
Standing calf- 20/300, 15/405, 15/495
Seated calf- 15/90, 15/135 (achilles tendon on my left foot started acting up, so i called it here)
Treadmill Calf walk (10min)- Walking at a slow, 1mph, pace. I did most of the walk standing on my tippy toes, and popping up on each leg. Got a good little pump going.
felt a little tired today, dragged some ass. But when i got home, and found the large box waiting for me, i got excited. Became eager…
At times, we feel sluggish, we feel we are not pouring our entirety into what we do…we seem…caged.
…and we open the door and step inside, where we’re inside our hearts. You peer through the seemingly endless dark abyss, and notice a solitary enclosure, a cage in the midst of the black sea. Its a large cage…wrapped in chains, over and over again. And through the darkness, amidst the void, you hear a rumbling. The cage rustles, shakes… As you get closer, the rumbling gets louder. The dull noise you once believe you heard, has become a loud growl, accompanied by snarling. You now stand within an arms reach, and you curiously look inside. Between the bars, fierce eyes flare open. The seated creature, now staring viciously at you, erupts in flames. The now engulfed monster seems to be fed by the flames, feeding on them, as his rage and ferocity double, he grows stronger, more wild. His strength feels immeasurable, seemingly crushing you under the shear pressure of his intensity. And you look…and you see that its you…its me. The chains, bonds i placed on this creature myself. I restricted it…im the one who doesnt allow it freedom. Do i dare unleash the beast? Can i control the rage and harness the power? And with that thought, i step closer…with a shaky hand, i reach for the door…
To be continued…
[quote]Akuma01 wrote:
Spectacles, CHESTICLES, Cod, And my hot bod. (Bam, Rhyme for the win)
Honestly, today, during my first exercise, i turn to Hyena and i say “Is it just me, or did someone turn up the gravity today?” Things felt heavier. i think it may have been the removal of my pre workout and some other nutrition ping ponging i did today. Just received my Anaconda protocol in the mail today, so hopefully, things will start getting a bit more intense in the next couple days.
DB press- 15/35, 15/50, 8/80, 8/100, 8/120, 7/140
Db fly- 8/40, 8/55, 8/70
DB touching close press (palm facing medially)- 15/30, 15/40, 15/50, 12/60
Cable Fly (Done with a high cable, and flying to chin level)-15/40, 15/50, 12/60, 10/70
DB serratus pullovers- 20/40, 20/60, 15/80
Standing calf- 20/300, 15/405, 15/495
Seated calf- 15/90, 15/135 (achilles tendon on my left foot started acting up, so i called it here)
Treadmill Calf walk (10min)- Walking at a slow, 1mph, pace. I did most of the walk standing on my tippy toes, and popping up on each leg. Got a good little pump going.
felt a little tired today, dragged some ass. But when i got home, and found the large box waiting for me, i got excited. Became eager…
At times, we feel sluggish, we feel we are not pouring our entirety into what we do…we seem…caged.
…and we open the door and step inside, where we’re inside our hearts. You peer through the seemingly endless dark abyss, and notice a solitary enclosure, a cage in the midst of the black sea. Its a large cage…wrapped in chains, over and over again. And through the darkness, amidst the void, you hear a rumbling. The cage rustles, shakes… As you get closer, the rumbling gets louder. The dull noise you once believe you heard, has become a loud growl, accompanied by snarling. You now stand within an arms reach, and you curiously look inside. Between the bars, fierce eyes flare open. The seated creature, now staring viciously at you, erupts in flames. The now engulfed monster seems to be fed by the flames, feeding on them, as his rage and ferocity double, he grows stronger, more wild. His strength feels immeasurable, seemingly crushing you under the shear pressure of his intensity. And you look…and you see that its you…its me. The chains, bonds i placed on this creature myself. I restricted it…im the one who doesnt allow it freedom. Do i dare unleash the beast? Can i control the rage and harness the power? And with that thought, i step closer…with a shaky hand, i reach for the door…
To be continued…[/quote]
Someone needs to be on acid then read this lol jk
Good stuff. Appreciate you keeping this up!
Back/Bi/forearm day.
Pendlay Rows- 15/135, 8/185, 8/225, 8/275
Yates Rows- 8/135, 8/185, 8/225, 8/315
Pullups (Wider than usual, meaning WIDE WIDE)- 4x8 bodyweight
HS isolateral row- 8/180, 8/270, 8/360, 8/450, 8/540
1handed preacher- 15/25, 8/35, 8/40, 8/45
Machine preacher curl- 10/1 45lb plate, 8/2 plates, 8/3 plates
1 Arm Low cable curl- 15/30, 12/40, 10/50
Forearm BB extensor curls- 15/20, 15/30, 10/45
BB flexor curls- 12/95, 10/135
DB flexor curls- 12/40, 12/50, 12/60
high cable Flexor Carpi ulnaris extensions- 12/30x2, 12/40, 12/50
Brachioradialis cable curls-15/30, 15/40
Some wrecked muscles, but it felt good. Did some good work today, a lot of back focusing, a bit more Bi training too. Also kicked up my forearm training/angling. Gotta get bigger, gotta get stronger. Feeling good…have to say not feeling bad enough to go on one of my seemingly LSD fueled rants =p
Delts, Tris, And Traps- used a couple movements i havent done in awhile, felt good to change it up.
Military press (Didnt have my spotter today, so i didnt get as heavy as i could have, plus i was coming down behind the head)- 15/95, 8/135, 8/185, 8/225, 8/275
DB Laterals- 12/30, 8/40, 8/50, 8/60
Leaning behind the back cable laterals (bit of a change of angle is all, giving more Rom)- 8/35, 8/45, 8/60
Rear Delt x’s- 8/25, 8/45, 8/60, 8/70
Reverse Pec dec- 15/100, 12/130, 12/160, 8/180
Inc clusterfuck
Rope Tri extensions (Done on a double pulley system ofc. I hope you guys DO realize that double pulley systems are much heavier than single pulley systems)- 15/40, 12/75, 8/100- Straight Bar press downs- 8/75, 8/100- V-bar extensions- 8/100, 8/120
(Thats right, this was a 3in1 movement!)
BB close grip press (once again, no spotter, so didnt get too heavy)- 8/135, 8/185, 8/225, 8/275
incline Skullcrushers- 15/30, 12/40, 10/50
BB shrugs- 15/135, 15/225, 15/315, 12/405, 8/495
Today, things we’re heavier…i did more…and somehow im not satisfied. I know i couldve lifted more. I said that i went lighter above because i didnt have a spotter, didnt push my self, yet somehow on several exercises, i had done more than prior days. It feels as though i havent really unlocked the beast just yet…but i feel him…
…Once again i return my inner self, Once again i open that door within, once again i return to the place that houses the beast. “What are you,” i sheepishly say. “I am you. I am your foundation. I am the brick that retains the form of the wall. I am the fuel that allows you to press on. I am the rage of the past, and the strength of the future. I am a product of your emotion, intensity, and anger,” the monster growls back. I step closer, and am once again pressed down by the sheer magnitude of his spiritual force.
I ponder to myself, ‘how can i harness this intensity’…
“Can you even handle it?” it mockingly chuckles, as it extends a flaming hand. I creep closer, and shakingly reach for it…
[quote]Akuma01 wrote:
“I am you. I am your foundation. I am the brick that retains the form of the wall. I am the fuel that allows you to press on. I am the rage of the past, and the strength of the future. I am a product of your emotion, intensity, and anger,” the monster growls back. I step closer, and am once again pressed down by the sheer magnitude of his spiritual force.
I ponder to myself, ‘how can i harness this intensity’…
“Can you even handle it?” it mockingly chuckles, as it extends a flaming hand. I creep closer, and shakingly reach for it…[/quote]
This is amazing man. I am very impatiently awaiting the rest, however long it may be.
[quote]samson141 wrote:
[quote]Akuma01 wrote:
“I am you. I am your foundation. I am the brick that retains the form of the wall. I am the fuel that allows you to press on. I am the rage of the past, and the strength of the future. I am a product of your emotion, intensity, and anger,” the monster growls back. I step closer, and am once again pressed down by the sheer magnitude of his spiritual force.
I ponder to myself, ‘how can i harness this intensity’…
“Can you even handle it?” it mockingly chuckles, as it extends a flaming hand. I creep closer, and shakingly reach for it…[/quote]
This is amazing man. I am very impatiently awaiting the rest, however long it may be.[/quote]
lol im glad someone enjoys it.
Legzors-
Squats- 15/135, 15/185, 15/225, 10/275
Romanians- 15/95, 12/135, 10/185, 8/225
1 legged leg extension- 8/70, 8/90, 8/110, 8/130
Hamtractor- 15/180, 15/225, 15/255, 15/285
1 legged close stance leg press- 12/90, 10/180, 8/270
Quads are pretty wrecked…feeling beat…feeling weak…
Once again i find myself walking through darkness, searching for some sort of guidance, some sort of sign. The Flaming beast, whom ive come to know as ‘Desire’ is no where to be seen. The air feels cold…the oxygen seems to be minimal, as breathing becomes difficult. I blink slowly, and find myself blinded by the instantaneous white light…As my eyes grow accustomed, i see that the once blinding light is snow. I peer around. I now stand atop a lone mountain, blanketed with snow. The sky is the only surrounding, and it goes on endlessly, with nothing else in sight…just a simple, tall mountain in the middle of literal nowhere. I can see no ground.
“We’re all alone up here,” a somber voice utters. I Look in surprise and see a large ice capsule, encasing this blue being. “…and who are you?” i calmly question, a bit more easily since my encounter with ‘Desire’.
“I too, am you,” the voice claims. I look over the ice prism…my body, frozen in time, solemnly staring at the ground…with piercing eyes, and a cemented face.
“Another me…?” i think to myself.
“Beings are not simply black or white. There are dozens of ‘Shades of Gray’ that make up individuals. Different colors, different aspects of your personality, make up you. We, the colors, or rather the pieces of you, resemble and resonate emotions, beliefs…Strength comes in many forms, to candidly believe in only one is foolish. To ignorantly claim dominance over one’s full strength with nothing less than a total understanding and grasp of their emotion is asinine. Without weakness, one would not know strength. Without sadness, one would not know joy. Without suffering, one cannot appreciate life. Red, or rather ‘Desire’ as you’ve come to know him, is basically sheer intensity. The degree of which he burns is reliant on the rest of us…as we work in correlation.”
The pain housed in the poor creature’s eyes spoke loads.
“I am the tears of the past. I am the embodiment of your depression. I sit on this perch, alone in a frozen wasteland, because of the emptiness. I am strong and unbending, yet cold and alone. I am an iceberg of frozen feelings, deep seeded depression, and cold solitude. I am a bundle of every moment you werent good enough, any instance where you felt irrelevant. For every second you had said feelings, this mountain grew. For every minute you felt said feelings, my prison expanded.”
“As i said, we work in sequence. My shell grows fuller, harder, and in turn ‘Desire’ burns stronger, hotter. For you are at your lowest, your turn around is the strongest. It is darkest just before Dawn…”
And with that i reach to touch the frozen tomb, to once again feel the burden i chose to bring into light…and as my finger comes within a breath of the glassy wall, i blink back into consciousness…
Hmm, the route i took with this may not be too good…interesting idea, i couldve pulled it off a lot better…
Broke the mold a bit today in things that i normally do.
Hammerstrength Incline press (Purely warmup while waiting for a bench)- 15/2plates x2
Incline Barbell Press (hadnt done these for awhile and i had no spotter, so i took it pretty light)- 15/135, 12/185, 8/225, 8/275, 8/315
Dips- 8/bodyweight, 8/+25, 8/+45
Incline Close DB press- 15/40, 15/60, 15/70
Incline Fly (went super deep on these, slowed the movement down, and concentrated solely on the pec)- 8/30, 8/35, 8/40, 8/45
DB Pullovers- 15/40, 15/60, 15/80
Seated calf (As ive been saying, taking my seated calf a little lighter as to rehab my left calf a bit. I worked a bit higher today, but still not full throttle. I focused moreso on stopping at the top and bottom, slowing the movement down, and really pinching the double pop)- 15/45, 15/90, 15/135, 15/180
Standing Calf (Now, i learned something i never thought of the other day from the same guy who taught me the Double pop. Youll see)- 12/345, 10/405, 10/450, 10/495, 8/545, 8/595. (yes thats right, i went over 495. The machine itself Stops at 495. Dunno why i never thought of this before, but you simply hold 25lb/45lb plates in your hands when in the machine. Bam! was doing 595lb standing calf raises, and it felt awesome.
*Vertical Nasser’s (I believe ive covered this movement, page 2 for the spreadsheet)- 20/65, 20/95, 15/125
I find myself perched atop the mountain once more…Im sitting in front of ‘Sorrow,’ whose pain simply looks unbearable…and im staring at him through the sheets of ice…I dont really know how much time had passed…it feels like forever…but no one ever tells you that forever feels like home when you’re sitting all alone inside your head…lightning strikes in the distance, followed by a loud roar of thunder…Its almost as if ‘Desire’ is screaming at me…his rage billowing in a torrent of flame, converting into lightning in this world. “WEAKLING,” the thunder bellows…
Perhaps he’s right. Perhaps i am merely hurting myself in this world. “Falling in water does not make one drown, it’s staying down there that does the job” echoes in my head…And in that instant, light flashes, and my whole world becomes red, i assume he’s coming…
Is there a hint of Stone Sour I read in there??