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[quote]Akuma01 wrote:

[quote]gregron wrote:

[quote]Akuma01 wrote:

[quote]gregron wrote:
Kickin ass man! how tall are you BTW?[/quote]

5’9[/quote]

awwww hes just a wittwe guuuuuy :slight_smile:

Hows work now that you’ve cut so much weight? Do you get lots of comments/compliments from your fellow employees?[/quote]

Nah, i hate my work outfit cuz i look the same. I still have wide ass shoulders and a big chest. So regardless of the fact that im down 50lbs (at 215 atm), my shoulders have not lost (may have actually gained size) and my chest is still as big. I STILL just look like a big block lol[/quote]

dude we weigh the same… but you are so much stronger than I am… Damn it!!! That makes me feel so weak lol

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[quote]Akuma01 wrote:
Well, i know ive lost a lot of support i had with my recent decision, so we’ll see how long i keep updating this log…

BB row- 15/95, 15/135, 12/225, 8/315, 8/365, 6/405

DB row- 15/70, 12/100, 8/120, 8/140

HS isolateral row- 10/4P, 8/6P, 8/8P, 8/10P, 8/12P

1H cable row- 10/70, 10/120, 8/170, 8/200

DB preacher curls- 8/30, 8/40, 8/50, 8/60

Pinwheel curls- 8/40, 8/50, 8/60, 8/70, 8/80

Ive got a lot on the mind the today…but ill just not post the mentality portion…i fear it wouldnt be the cheeriest…[/quote]

We all go through rough spots, you’ll make it through yours. Best of luck with all of the out of the gym stress. It can be a bitch sometimes. Keep your head up and stay strong. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel.

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DTT

Db military Press- 15/40, 12/70, 8/100, 8/120

DB laterals- 12/30, 12/40, 8/50, 8/60

Cable laterals- 10/30, 10/40, 8/60, 4/70
SUPERSETTED
Cable bell’s- 10/20, 8/40, 8/60, 4/70

Cable X’s- 12/40, 10/60, 8/80, 8/100

Skiiers- 10/30, 10/40, 10/50, 8/60

BB press- 15/135, 12/225, 8/315, 8/365

Tri ext (on a double pulley system ofc)- 15/50, 12/70, 8/100, 6/130

Tomahawks- 8/40, 8/60, 8/70, 8/80

Machine Dips- 15/225, 15/270, 15/330

BB shrugs- 15/135, 15/225, 15/315, 12/405, 10/495, 8/585, 6/675

1H db shrugs- 12/60, 12/75, 10/90, 8/105

…Mmm…food…

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Skipped the pre exhaust today. Just did my normal foam rolling and stretching.

Leg press- 20/8P, 20/12P, 20/16P, 20/20P+bar --DROPSET-- 20/16P, 20/12P, 20/10P, 20/8P
(this really wrecked me, and i felt that wreckage through the rest of my workout)

Hack squats- 15/4P, 15/6P, 15/8P

Box squats- 8/135, 8/225, 8/315

Prone leg curl- 12/50, 12/80, 12/110, 8/140

Leg ext- 15/50, 15/90, 12/130, 10/170

Hip Adductor- 20/60, 20/80, 20/100

Seated leg curl- 20/70, 15/110, 8/150

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well, beginning to get out of my funk. IM feeling a lot better, both mentally and physically, and walked into the gym In beast mode. Now since i didnt have my spotter, i aimed to keep reps higher on a couple movements. My chest felt fantastic tho-

Decline BB- 20/135, 15/225, 10/275, 8/315, 7/405

Dips- 10/bw+25, 8/+45, 7/+90

Decline Flys (really liking this movement these days. I would like to try it with a spotter to feel a greater stretch in my pec and minimize the strain on my shoulder. Maybe next week)- 10/30, 10/40, 8/50, 7/60

Incline DB press- 15/70, 10/90, 8/110, 4/130 (crapped out lol)

Arnold Flies- 12/50, 10/70, 8/80, 8/90

Rope Serratus Pulls- 20/100, 20/130, 15/150

Seated Calf- 20/2P, 20/3P, 15/4P, 15/5P, 10/6P

Standing calf- 20/405, 20/450, 15/495, 12/495+2P

Felt good. The decline flies were great, and the arnold flies were amazing. Im feeling my chest needs to be a bit bigger for my body, so the next couple weeks i plan on hitting it hard, spark some growth.
SUPERSETTED WITH
Rope Crunches

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Back/bis

BB row- 20/135, 15/185, 12/225, 8/315, 8/405

Rack pulls- 12/135, 12/225, 12/315, 8/405, 6/495

DB rows- 8/70, 8/100, 8/120, 8/140

1H cable rows (low)- 10/70, 10/120, 8/170, 8/200

1H HS preacher machine- 15/25, 10/45. Didnt like the machine, the ROM was not what it should be for a preacher curl, so i stopped it there.

1H Db preacher- 8/30, 8/35, 8/40

Low 1H cable curls- 8/45. I was kinda bouncing around, testing different things. This wasnt doing it for me, so i hopped to another.

21’s (done on an olympic bar)- Bar, 65lbs, 85lbs

Pinwheel curls- 8/40, 8/55, 8/65, 8/75, 8/80

Forearm Flexor DB curls- 15/40, 12/50, 10/60

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its strange, i thought i had a pretty decent mind muscle connection going on, but it seems that these days its gotten even better. Im truly feeling the muscle through the entire movement. It has be changing up forms, switching exercises, and ultimately getting better.

Why is the reason we fall…so we can learn to pick ourselves up. I may have thrown a competition to the wind, but that doesnt mean its over, not by a long shot. Obviously i have something good going, otherwise i wouldnt have so many haters, so many people quesitoning my lifts. I wouldnt have random gym goers coming up to me and asking advice. I wouldnt be buying XXL clothing if i werent big…

These are things i need to pound into my head, because im taking this particular falling too heavily. I will utilize this Bounce back i get from not cutting (should be huge since ive been cutting for 6 fucking months). Oh, you will see. You will see…

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Interesting point of the MMC improving. Looking forward to the future.

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good stuff in here Akuma. Whats your weight at? Are you going to try and stay around 220? Go with the slower approach of burning a little fat while gaining more muscle? (the impossible! DUN DUN DUNNNN! LOL)

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Ill try and get a weight check tomorrow. Havent really cared to glance at it lol. My diet didnt get too crazy. Breakfast is essentially the same thing + A wheat tortilla and some Hummus. The rest of my day has a ltitle play room, though i am keeping some aspects going. Im still not taking a PWO shake or a substantial amount of carbs with a PWO meal, but rather im taking in fat, as to not spike insulin pwo. Honestly, im liking what im doing right now. I look bigger, I feel bigger, and i look a little leaner. The whole ‘lean’ feeling might change soon, but like i said my body as been so starved and worked for months that it is soaking things up right now, IE Muscles are looking much fuller and thicker

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Alright, so im sitting at 218 atm. Im guessing the next time ill try to prep for a comp (might aim for the October one) ill be hovering around 230ish. im not going to go balls out bulking like i did last time. Just keep lifting heavy as shit. As i was saying my diet hasnt changed too much.

Most of my carbs come during w/o and i dont really have anything substantial for carbs PWO, but i am not carb cycling. We’ll see how things pan out. With the inclusion of some of the new big lifts im doing that i never did before, and the whole rebound muscle thing, im guessing i am going to gain a bit more weight in the next couple weeks, hopefully a good amount of which is muscle.

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Jesus. Sitting at 218 and throwing around at least 400lbs in every big lift? You gotta be lean right now, right?

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[quote]Akuma01 wrote:
Alright, so im sitting at 218 atm. Im guessing the next time ill try to prep for a comp (might aim for the October one) ill be hovering around 230ish. im not going to go balls out bulking like i did last time. Just keep lifting heavy as shit. As i was saying my diet hasnt changed too much.

Most of my carbs come during w/o and i dont really have anything substantial for carbs PWO, but i am not carb cycling. We’ll see how things pan out. With the inclusion of some of the new big lifts im doing that i never did before, and the whole rebound muscle thing, im guessing i am going to gain a bit more weight in the next couple weeks, hopefully a good amount of which is muscle.[/quote]

nice. That sounds like a solid plan. I like the idea of just pressing on and slowly ‘re-comping’ a bit. Nothing too fancy just pounding the weights.

I’m sure you’ll pack on a few lbs of muscle here soon. Keep up the good work and having all this behind you will make it easier for the later comp

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[quote]FightingScott wrote:
Jesus. Sitting at 218 and throwing around at least 400lbs in every big lift? You gotta be lean right now, right?[/quote]

relatively. Fat stored on my body stores mainly on my midsection. I can see my Serratus popping out and some Obliques, yet my lower abdominals are still covered by a little pouch. Terrible conundrum really.

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D-T-T- Another day with no spots, so some of my lifts were restricted a bit. I dont care what anyone says, the hardest part of something like military press is kicking 100+ dbs up solo.

Db military- 20/35, 15/55, 12/80, 8/100, 8/120

Incline Kai Lateral raises- 6/30x3 (no Dbs were available. Made due)

Cable Laterals- 8/35, 8/50, 8/60

DB Bell Raises- 8/30, 8/40, 8/50, 6/60, 6/70

Skiiers- 10/30, 10/40, 8/50, 8/60

2H tri extension (on double pulley)- 15/50, 8/75, 8/100, 8/130, 8/150

Incline DB skullcrushers- 8/30, 8/40, 8/50, 6/60

Cable Kickbacks- 8/30, 8/40, 8/50, 6/60

BB shrugs- 15/135, 15/225, 15/315, 12/405, 8/495, 8/585, 8/675

And that was all i had in me. My hands still hurt from gripping that last set of Shrugs. Skin starting to tear off from the pivot point where my finger attaches. Actually, my whole body hurts right now…Feels like a successful week…

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Im going to get back into the whole mentality/reasoning aspect of this, because i feel i need to…

Today- Absolutely pathetic. I walked in for legs. Got my leg press in its entirety down, and everything went down hill from there. Im not even going to post what i did, because im that fucking ashamed of it, i literally stopped writing in my journal.

My excuse- The day before was Failure in every aspect of the word. I didnt eat enough, what i did eat wasnt good enough, i didnt drink enough water, and i ended that night with some alcohol. its amazing how we can look back at an event and be so thoroughly disappointed to the point of disgust, yet not allow ourselves to visual the affects it’ll have on us until afterwards.

What i hear when i repeat this to myself: “BLAH BLAH BLAH BULLSHIT BLAH BLAH”

A poem i just wrote to try and describe how i feel, entitled

                 Desire: The Man in the Mirror

“Fucking weak. Disgusting. Pitiful. Disgraceful,”
he says to me, as i shamefully stare at the floor.
I grit my teeth as i hold back the emotion welling inside.

“After lectures and speeches you give others…”
he begins again, unrelenting in his shredding of my pride,
My fists clench tightly, blood beginning to drip out.

“…you spit on the dedication you were so proud of.”
he continues, not allowing me to get in a word,
as if i deserved a word of rebuttal…

“Learn this lesson well, or just give up now,”
he spits at me, fire seeping betwixt his clenched teeth.
And just like that, he’s gone.

in front of me lays a simple wall of glass,
no longer torturing, no longer tormenting or mocking me…
How i wish he would return, oh how i deserve it.

I fall to the floor, and there i remain,
for it is where i have put myself.

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Well get back up…

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[quote]Akuma01 wrote:
Im going to get back into the whole mentality/reasoning aspect of this, because i feel i need to…

Today- Absolutely pathetic. I walked in for legs. Got my leg press in its entirety down, and everything went down hill from there. Im not even going to post what i did, because im that fucking ashamed of it, i literally stopped writing in my journal.

My excuse- The day before was Failure in every aspect of the word. I didnt eat enough, what i did eat wasnt good enough, i didnt drink enough water, and i ended that night with some alcohol. its amazing how we can look back at an event and be so thoroughly disappointed to the point of disgust, yet not allow ourselves to visual the affects it’ll have on us until afterwards.

What i hear when i repeat this to myself: “BLAH BLAH BLAH BULLSHIT BLAH BLAH”

A poem i just wrote to try and describe how i feel, entitled

                 Desire: The Man in the Mirror

“Fucking weak. Disgusting. Pitiful. Disgraceful,”
he says to me, as i shamefully stare at the floor.
I grit my teeth as i hold back the emotion welling inside.

“After lectures and speeches you give others…”
he begins again, unrelenting in his shredding of my pride,
My fists clench tightly, blood beginning to drip out.

“…you spit on the dedication you were so proud of.”
he continues, not allowing me to get in a word,
as if i deserved a word of rebuttal…

“Learn this lesson well, or just give up now,”
he spits at me, fire seeping betwixt his clenched teeth.
And just like that, he’s gone.

in front of me lays a simple wall of glass,
no longer torturing, no longer tormenting or mocking me…
How i wish he would return, oh how i deserve it.

I fall to the floor, and there i remain,
for it is where i have put myself.

[/quote]
kuma, pick yaself up again man. this is the story of my life about putting myself down all the time and has been the downfall.

instead, eat shitloads today, more water etc. then wake up tomorrow and go, wow, i really ate way better yesterday than the day before. im going to do that more often. then smash the gym!

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Oh i will not allow a minor speed bump to deter me. Yes i felt like shit on that leg day, and i highly believe it was the day before’s influence. After a perfectly executed 20rep/1klb leg press complete with 4 dropsets exercise, my body crapped out. I was barely able a to do a couple of box squats with only 315. Pissed me off something fierce.

Tuesday ill be back in the gym, as mondays are realistic for me anymore. And ill be bringing more to the table.

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You put 60 lbs and a rep onto your decline bench in a little over a month?