…
K yo!
Squats
95lbs x 8
115lbs x 6
135lbs x 4
145lbs x 4
155lbs x 4
165lbs x 4
170lbs x 4
175lbs x 4
180lbs x 2 sets of 4
135lbs x 21
hack squat
45lbs per side x 12
55lbs per side x 10
60lbs per side x 10
65lbs per side x 10
35lbs per side x 8 (1 & 1/2 reps)
ass machine
110lbs x 12 + 12 partials ass
130lbs x 10 + 10 partials ass
150lbs x 8ass
170lbs x 6ass
leg press machine rest pause set
130lbs x rest pause = 100 reps
single leg leg ext.
40lbs x 8leg
50lbs x 6leg
55lbs x 6leg
60lbs x 6leg
1 drop where I hold one leg and do reps on the other
x 8*leg
leg curl drop sets
100lbs x 8
70lbs x 8
55lbs x 10
45lbs x 12 + 12 partials
leg spreader
85lbs
x 15
x 15
stability ball hip thrusts
x 50
K so today went well,
BUT!!!<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
I farted during my first set of 180lb squats
first rep I was like “I think im gonna fart”
2nd rep was like “K I didn’t fart yet”
3 was like “shit, I just farted”
4th was like “Fuck, I farted again”
No idea if it made noise because I had my headphones on…
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
dying
I guess I am officially part of the “hardcore club” since I’d rather fart than miss a rep.
Oh well.
No seriously wahhhhhhhhhhh
:
So my kid deemed yesterday “Goomba appreciation day”
Like he wrote it on the calendar a long time ago and has been bringing it up for weeks. So while I was at work my parents took him to the mall so he could get a big Goomba stuffed teddy. I checked my messages while I was at work and he sent me a partial picture of the stuffy and hash tagged it #sneakpeak
LIKE holy shit I laughed so hard.
WTF is there where my 8 year old is funnier and cooler than any friend I’ve ever had.
Fucking sneak peak, LOL
Jeebus
WEll
BYE
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
…
3 was like “shit, I just farted”
4th was like “Fuck, I farted again”
…
[/quote]
Better a fart, than following thru with a brick…
[quote]raven78 wrote:
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
…
3 was like “shit, I just farted”
4th was like “Fuck, I farted again”
…
[/quote]
Better a fart, than following thru with a brick…[/quote]
LOL!
Well that’s true… but this better not become a regular thing 
K wUnderbar back day for moi!
Deadlifts
135lbs x 2 sets of 8
185lbs x 3
205lbs x 3
215lbs x 3
220lbs x 3
225lbs x 3
230lbs x 2 sets of 3
2 count paused deadlifts
175lbs x 3 sets of 4
185lbs x 3 sets of 2
super setted with wide grip pull ups
x 9
x 8
x 8
x 6
x 6
x 5
one arm DB row
45lbs x 12arm
50lbs
x 10arm
x 10*arm
wide seated row cable handle attached to the lat pull
70lbs x 15
85lbs x 15
90lbs x 15
straight arm pull downs
25lbs x 20
30lbs x 20
30lbs x 20
30lbs x 20
ropey bicep curl
30lbs
x 10
x 10
x 10
1 drop
x 10 + 10 partials
um this like dual arm seated row cable pully
I did this grip that I can’t describe + a bunch of other grips that I can’t describe or am too lazy to explain
just know that it was amazing…
x’s a million + drop sets etc…
front pull down
60lbs x 6
60lbs x 6
1 drop
30lbs x 12 + 12 partials
incline DB curl SS barbell curl SS plate curl
15lbs/40lbs/25lbs
x 10/8/12
x 10/8/12
x 10/8/12
back ext.
x 20
K loverly
So ya, I have been idolizing dana linn bailey for about a week or so now and she is such and inspiration for me. Really showed me a whole new meaning for training to failure.
She would do three barely there reps trying to hard to get one more before she finally could complete another one fully
I wanna be just like her!!!
She also does a lot of like extended sets trying to get more and more reps
WILL NOT QUIT
As hard as you think you’re working you can work 10 x’s harder
20 x’s harder…
PUSSY
You’re A PUSSY JENN
So ya, manning the fuck up <<<<<<
Went to the west ed water park yesterday and had fun to the EXTREME
Some people need drugs
Some people just need water slides
This one slide just kept goin’ and goin’ and I kept laughin’ and laughin’
It started off as “Wheeeeeee” but then went into “hehehehehehe” then “HAHAHAH” then “AHHHHHHHAHAHHA”
K, ya then I came out the end…
Laso
ASLO
ASLO
ALSO
Manic week needs to end because I haven’t slept past 3am in 3 days and I’m losing my marbles
I ain’t got much left to lose !!!
Tyler Durden shit. For real.
Lastly, doing this thing with my voice when I rap to make myself sound more “thug” instead of little girl.
Just a slight alteration, nothing major, but it seems to make a difference.
HAHA
what the fuck, a difference with what?
No idea.
BYE
Heyyyyyyyyyyy
yyyyyyyyyy
Bench press
85lbs x 8
95lbs x 6
115lbs x 4
120lbs x 4
125lbs x 4
130lbs x 2
3 drop sets
115lbs x 8
105lbs x 5 *paused + 5 normal
95lbs x 15
incline bench
96lbs x 2 sets of 6
100lbs x 2 sets of 4
85lbs x 2 sets of 8
cable cross over
2nd pin
high setting x 20
higher than middle setting x 20
middle setting x 20
low setting x 20
DB power fly slight incline SS plate squeeze
25lbs/10lbs
x 15/30
35lbs/10lbs
x 10/30
25lbs/10lbs
x 15/30
pec fly machine
drop sets
85lbs x 8
70lbs x 8
55lbs x 10
45lbs x 12 + 12 partials
cable tri ext.
30lbs x 8
35lbs x 8
42.5lbs x 8
50lbs x 8
2 drop sets
x 12
x 10 *paused + 10 normal + 10 partials
1 arm cable tri ext.
3 x 10 *arm
close grip bench SS rolling DB tri/tri kick back/other db tri thing
85lbs/7.5lbs/7.5lbs/7.5lbs
x 8/12/10/15
x 8/12/10/15
x 8/12/10/15
YEAH BOI
s
Lovin’ every minute of it
K so today is like day negative 1 or some shit. However you want to word falling off the wagon. Tumbling out of the wagon on the to pavement and then rolling around for a while. MUSH YOUR FACE INTO THE PAVEMENT beneath the wagon.
K what.
I fucked up.
Like I told MyBuddy, My Buddy, you cannot replace the funnest ride at Disney Land with magnets from the gift shop and expect to feel equally as satisfied!!!
But okay this is scary for me, WHY ^ ^, because this has been going on for almost a year, and cutting it off terrifies me because then I know it will be like another 2 years until I find someone who is willing to touch me again.
ACCORDING TO MY HISTORY>>
And I remember that really sucking. Feeling like that and feeling like this suck equally.
It’s just one option I am completely sexually deprived and the other option I am treated like horse shit.
Neither option seems pleasant in any way.
But in the end one option may lead to something better, where as the other option things remain shitty. 4 ever —>>
I have to accept that this will not feel good for a while and then it will feel awesome. Actually no, that’s a lie.
I have to accept that this will feel not good for a while and then it will feel HORRIBLE, and then it will feel okay, THEN it will feel awesome.
Long process.
Today is day 1 of addiction conquering
Also, it’s like, wtf, I get shit because I am too scared to drive into the city to go to his place so he has to come here. So fuck you I am a horribly inexperienced driver and I have never been to your side of town, also it’s winter and the roads suck.
Thanks for caring so much about my well-being.
My mom said if he cared, even just a little, a short drive wouldn’t matter in the slightest.
WEll
BYE
Your mom is a smart woman.
Also, good work Jen.
[quote]Bauber wrote:
Your mom is a smart woman.
Also, good work Jen.[/quote]
:)!!
G’ mornin’
Shoulders
Cable rear delt fly
(diff. pin heights for each set)
x 20
x 25
x 30
x 35
x 50
Seated DB press
20lbs x 20
25lbs x 15
30lbs x 8
32.5lbs x 8
35lbs x 6
2 drop sets
22.5lbs x 13
17.5lbs x 13
facepulls/cable upright row/ropey front raise cable pull throughs or something
25lbs/25lbs/10lbs
x 20/15/12
x 20/15/12
x 20/15/12
lean away cable one arm lateral raise
1st pin
x 12arm
x 12arm
x 15*arm
hammer strength isolateral raise machine thing
25lbs per side x 15*arm
40lbs per side x extended sets cause I couldn’t get the reps I wanted so one arm was 8 + 2 other arm was 7 + 1 + 1 + 1
25lbs per side x 15 one arm 12 + 3 + few angry ones on the other arm
um
DB lateral raises
drop set
17.5lbs x 8
12.5lbs x 8
10lbs x 10
7.5lbs x 12
5lbs x 15
ramped back up
5lbs x 15
7.5lbs x 12
10lbs x 10
12.5lbs x 8
17.lbs x 6
1 drop
5lbs x 35
rear delt DB partial swing things/DB lateral partials/1 arm db fly/barbell front raises slow neg
22.5lbs/22.5lbs/7.5lbs/20lbs
x 30/25/12arm/8
x 30/25/12arm/8
x 30/25/12*arm/8
fucking hell what else did I do
reverse pec deck
4 x 15
lateral raise thing where I hold one arm and do reps on the other so like
5, 4, 3, 2, 1, *arm + 10 x both arms
jeeeeebusssss
bent arm lateral raise machine
20lbs
2 x 20
K, seriously done…
2:57am for wake up today
Give me past 3 or give me death!!!
I used to feel like I’d give anything to sleep past 4, now I’d be so G’damn happy with 3:30
EVEN 3;20 FOR FUCK SAKES I CANT TAKE THIS I AM SO TIRED
N E WAY
day 2.
Day 2 realizations:
…
Wrong thinkings - So I was told like, past girlfriends ruined me. I can’t be anything other than what I am. Incapable of love or a relationship due to being “damaged”.
I think, oh, how awful. Must be patient, understanding, kinder than I’ve ever been, more considerate that I’ve ever been, MORE OF A DOOR MAT THAN I COULD EVER BE.!!! In order to show women are all different. Maybe what you’ve dealt with in the past is not currently the situation and never will be because I am nothing like them.
But it should be translated to - I really don’t want to put the effort into anything because I’m kind of a fuck, and I really just want to use you for convenient sex without having to do anything even remotely kind or considerate. But I will accept your gifts, kind gestures, and blow jobs without hesitation. I also have no feelings for you at all whatsoever, and I do not feel guilty for my actions because past girlfriends ruined me. Do not expect to get anything out of this, and I do see you as somewhat of a fool.
THINK PROPERLY !!!
TIRED
BYE
Isn’t there some old saw about how men get into a relationship thinking their woman won’t change, while women get into a relationship thinking their man will change?
Also, that training volume. Goddamn.
Whoa whoa whoa… K first off, I do not look anything like the My Buddy doll… except maybe the overalls, and even then, I usually let one strap hang off which is how the cool kids would wear 'em if they wore them at all. Second, you reset your addiction counter? I suspected you would. I am shaking my head in disappointment at your weak light cover positive reinforcement strategy. Better luck this time around J Woww (you get that nickname now).
[quote]truckhiddleston wrote:
Whoa whoa whoa… K first off, I do not look anything like the My Buddy doll… except maybe the overalls, and even then, I usually let one strap hang off which is how the cool kids would wear 'em if they wore them at all. Second, you reset your addiction counter? I suspected you would. I am shaking my head in disappointment at your weak light cover positive reinforcement strategy. Better luck this time around J Woww (you get that nickname now).[/quote]
Bestie!!!
This guy ^^^, if you can believe, made a gargoyles drawing when he was younger that WON A CONTEST.
HE GOT A T-SHIRT!!
Thursday’s alright for squattin’
95lbs x 8
115lbs x 6
136lbs x 6
145lbs x 6
155lbs x 6
165lbs x 6
170lbs x 6
175lbs x 6
3 second paused squats
155lbs x 3 sets of 4
165lbs x 2 sets of 3
170lbs x 3 sets of 2
barbell hip thrusts
95lbs x 8
145lbs x 6
165lbs x 6
195lbs x 3
215lbs x 3
225lbs x 3
235lbs x 3
3 drop sets
195lbs x 8
145lbs x 5 *paused + 5 normal
95lbs x 30
DB squats SS DB RDL
25lbs/25lbs
x 20/20
x 20/20
x 20/20
leg ext. partials
85lbs x 20
70lbs x 25
55lbs x 30
single leg sorta standing leg curl
rest/pause sets
30lbs
x 12, 11, 10, 9, 8 **leg
done
Today was a very strange morning emotionally. I dunno if it’s from lack of sleep or quitting masturbating or what, but I cried on the way to the gym.
Well, I rap cried.
Not a sad song or anything, but I was fighting back tears and trying to keep up with my thug brother from another mother at the same time.
I think I was crying because I feel fat or something.
Sometimes I randomly wonder, with all the hard work I put in day day out, and my extreme refusal to eat anything other than what’s on my diet, why don’t I look like a pro yet?
I mean, most days I don’t care cause I’m just enjoying shit, but other days it’s like wtf, this is so frustrating, I should be better by now.
Oh. Well.
In more exciting news, I found an app on the Ipad that lets me rap to some beatz.
That means I can start working on my demo,
LOL
I spit some shit, and it actually sounded sorta okay-ish. I mean, I can talk really, really fast without fucking shit up.
Maybe it’s the manic in me.
HAHAHHA
Get it?!?!
IT’s like
Maybe it’s the thug in me
Maybe it’s the manic in me, OMG that is going to be my fucking tag line or something.
Ya’ll can’t fuck with this manic shit.
But anyway, when I rap its like
fjskldgjkladfjgkdsjg;lajd;klgjk’SFKJKLDSGJ DFJGKLDFGJKHKFJDSKLGJKGJDFK GJIOJjfkldjgkjajdghladkjhgjfd
Done.
So if I write some rhymes of my own I will have something to submit to shady records, and if I label the envelope “Young white girl rapping” someone might open it just out of interest.
So I changed my voicemail message to a rap , and MyBuddy, My buddy said it was dope.
Ahem
So you’ve called and I’m not a round
Please leave a message after the sound
See your call well it’s got me curious
Don’t know if it’s nothin’ or if it’s serious
Best clear your voice cause I’m almost through
The beeps’ a comin’ and it’s just for you you you echo
K I dunno. Today is day THREE.
Don’t usually post, but wanted to tell you that I enjoy your posts. You have more personality on a screen than most do in person, and I appreciate that. Hope you’re that way in person. Being it my nature to offer my .02 if I think it will help, could your lack of sleep, and feeling of lack of progress be indications of overtraining, considering the huge volume of work and strict diet? I dunno, just a thought. You’ll look like a pro soon enough cuz you want to. Keep bangin’…the weights I mean.
^ Seconded. Maybe overtraining plus lack of sleep. Just reading your training log makes me want to cry. 
Also, your legs are looking really, really nice. Great progress!
I apologize for the country/folk vibe but maybe you haven’t heard this. The lyrics. Perfect. Kick him to the curb, Jenn.
Stronger Woman - Jewel.
Hi SpokieGurl.
I’ve missed you, only to find that you have been here all along -
nice to see you again!
Edgy~
[quote]bobbyPGA wrote:
Don’t usually post, but wanted to tell you that I enjoy your posts. You have more personality on a screen than most do in person, and I appreciate that. Hope you’re that way in person. Being it my nature to offer my .02 if I think it will help, could your lack of sleep, and feeling of lack of progress be indications of overtraining, considering the huge volume of work and strict diet? I dunno, just a thought. You’ll look like a pro soon enough cuz you want to. Keep bangin’…the weights I mean.[/quote]
Heyyyyyy, thanks for stoppin’ by!! And for your kind words!
I suppose I have a tendency to over do things somewhat…sometimes…heh.
[quote]Powerpuff wrote:
^ Seconded. Maybe overtraining plus lack of sleep. Just reading your training log makes me want to cry. Also, your legs are looking really, really nice. Great progress!
I apologize for the country/folk vibe but maybe you haven’t heard this. The lyrics. Perfect. Kick him to the curb, Jenn.
Stronger Woman - Jewel.
[/quote]
Well, well, well, if it isn’t my favourite fountain of information !!
I hear what you’re sayin’ on both counts…
But honestly I thought that the main sign of overtraining was getting weaker, so I figured as long as the weights were going up, then I was not pushing myself toooo much.
Is that not the always the case ?
[quote]Edgy wrote:
Hi SpokieGurl.
I’ve missed you, only to find that you have been here all along -
nice to see you again!
Edgy~[/quote]
DUDE!!! 
Plz stick around and consistently update your log for more than a week 
Wellll whatta mighty fine workout indeed !
Slept
Until
3:30
THANK FUCK.
That may not seem like much, but it’s a step in the right direction. I felt like a whole new me this morning !
Deadlifts
135lbs x 8
185lbs x 8
195lbs x 4 sets of 8
215lbs x 3 sets of 3
deficit deadlifts standing on bumper plate
185lbs x 5 sets of 3
All super setted with Wide neutral grip pull ups
x 8
x 8
x 8
x 8
Felt very latty today, WOOT
Uhh
T-Bar row
Bar +++
25lbs x 12
50lbs x 6
75lbs x 6
85lbs x 3 sets of 6
2 drop sets
50lbs x 12
25lbs x 25
one arm lat pull down
35lbs x 12arm
42.5lbs x 10arm
50lbs x 10arm
1 drop sets
27.5lbs x 10arm + 10 *arm (meaning I did 10 left 10 right then 10 left again then 10 right) + 10 *both arms same time
D handle cable bi curls
3rd pin
3 x 10 *arm
1 drop
1st pin
x 10 *slow + 10 partials + 10 normal *arm
latpull down partials SS lat pull down behind the neck SS normal lat pull down
85lbs/55lbs/70lbs
x 12/15/10
x 12/15/10
x 12/15/10
seated row machine low grip
40lbs
x 15
x 15
bicep machine
50lbs
x 8
x 8
2 drops
40lbs x 8
20lbs x 25
seated DB curl
rest/pause set
10lbs
x 12, 11, 10, 9 , 8 *arm
back ext.
x 20
I feel like I am forgetting an entire exercise or something
THINK MC FLY think!
Uhg, I don’t know.
K day ? 4 ?
Yes. Four.
I booked tomorrow off as a day of holiday’s so I have THREE DAYS OFFFFFFFF
Wheeeeeeeee
BUt for Saturday’s after that I am really SRSLY going to try to make those rest days from the gym.
I work later than normal on Friday’s, and earlier on Saturday’s, so that is usually my most sleep deprived night. It makes sense to me that it would be more beneficial in terms of recovery and body composition to catch up on sleep…
It’s just very hard for me to take days off, obvs. I haven’t had one in over a year now, Lol.
Not like I actually think it would have a negative affect on my body or like it would really matter, I just think like, BUT I WANT TO BE THERE LOVING EVERY MINUTE!!!
And I never have any issues during the workout, I always feel like KING.
But the rest of the day I am a zombie blob of no-sleep-craziness.
Well whatever. I will try is all I can say…
WEEKEND!!!
BEY
BYE
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
I hear what you’re sayin’ on both counts…
But honestly I thought that the main sign of overtraining was getting weaker, so I figured as long as the weights were going up, then I was not pushing myself toooo much.
Is that not the always the case ?
[/quote]
Just thinking that you should be sleeping like a baby every night, considering how hard you work. If you are more emotional than normal, that’s another indicator that something’s up. I know the daily gym is therapeutic so maybe try a BW/ light routine with some incline walking for a few days. Or look to see if cals have been in a deficit for awhile. People often loose sleep when they are dieting. Just thinking out loud here. It could be a number of things. But yeah, I’d think you’re be experiencing some difficulty with your lifting so that’s odd.
Well, here we go again
Bench press
85lbs x 10
95lbs x 10
110lbs x 3 set of 10
7 sec. paused bench
115llbs x 2 sets of 4
120lbs x 3
125lbs x 2 sets of 2
130lbs x 2 sets of 1
incline bench
95lbs x 6
100lbs x 3
105lbs x 3
110lbs x 3
3 drop sets
95lbs x 8
85lbs x 10
75lbs x 16
one arm DB bench press SS DB squeeze press
32.5lbs/10lbs
x 12arm/20
35lbs/10lbs
x 10arm/20
x 10arm/20
x 10arm/20
hammer strength incline press
rest/pause set
30lbs
x 12, 11, 10, 9, 8 + 8 partials
ropey tri ext. 25lbs
3 x 10 + 10 partials
1 drop
15lbs
x 10 + 10 partials
cable cross over
2nd pin
low setting x 20
middle setting x 25
high setting x 30
reverse grip D handle tri ext.
1st pin
x 15arm
2nd pin
4 x 8arm
close grip bench
95lbs
x 3 sets of 6
2 drop sets
85lbs x 8
65lbs x 10
DB tri overhead ext.
27.5lbs x 8
25lbs x 8
22.5lbs x 8
20lbs x 8
17.5lbs x 8
15lbs x 10
tri kick backs
10lbs
2 x 12*arm
K…
I forced myself to stay up until 8 yesterday in hopes that I could sleep until like 4 but NOooooooooooooooo, I had to wake up even earlier !!!
3:06
Fuck you world
Fuck a beat I go accapella
fuck a papa doc, fuck a clock, fuck a trailer, fuck everybody
fuck ya’ll if you doubt me
I’m a piece of fuckin white trash and I say it proudly
fuck this battle I don’t wanna win, I’m outtie
Here, tell these people something they don’t know about me
Wooooooooooooooooooo
Uhh Today is day 1.
WTF
Tomorrow will probably be day one also
and then Monday will be day 1 and Tuesday will be day 2
.
This is odd to me, will power, self restraint, etc…
I have a lot of self control in many aspects of my life. If there was the most delicious cake put in front of my face and the fanciest fork in my hand I would say PASS THE PLAIN CHICKEN BREAST PLEASE. WITH A SIDE OF VEGGIES!!!
I go to Wal-Mart to buy toiletries and plan to spend around 21 dollars, so I bring a 20 and a 5 and I am walking out there with 4 dollars change assholes!!! BELIEVE ME
Anything VS gym = GYM
Control, control, control! All about the control.
I’m like you got this GIRL. You can handdddddleee it. The answer is NO.
But the second it’s like, yooooo I want some pussy. I’m like OKAY!!! :D:D:D:
W HAT
THE HELL
GIRL PARTS?!
What the fuck is the matter with you.?! You’ve been crazy my WHOLE LIFE I HATE YOU I HATE YOU ISWEAR TO GOD I HATE YOU
OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU
K anyway, I am leaving, I need to go shower.
Holy shit, I saw bald guy today. After like -----? A year? 15 months? 20 months?
Walked in like he had been still coming daily this whole time.
We pretended like we didn’t know each other.
BUT I KNOW HIM
BYE