Whenever I am trying to get one last rep on a really tough set I picture this. I bet you do too. Or if you don’t you probably should.
^
Pro tip
Totally a 1.
[quote]csulli wrote:
Whenever I am trying to get one last rep on a really tough set I picture this. I bet you do too. Or if you don’t you probably should.
^
Pro tip[/quote]
!!!
Omg yes. I also start saying kamehameha in my head sometimes. Like its not even under my control . Leg ex drop sets start to feel painful … my head is like kame…haaaammee…Ha!! And they I can just bust that shit out like crazy
Also some workouts I go super saiyan and some I go up to super saiyan 2 but I’ve never reached 3 before. I know someday I will
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Also some workouts I go super saiyan and some I go up to super saiyan 2 but I’ve never reached 3 before. I know someday I will[/quote]
That’s fuckin radical
Honestly, I am just absolutely thrilled that I have people to talk to about this, ha-h.a.
In other news, I’m going to be up in your neck of the woods on Saturday.
You’re not on facebook anymore so this is the only way I know how to tell you haha.
[quote]TheJonty wrote:
In other news, I’m going to be up in your neck of the woods on Saturday.
You’re not on facebook anymore so this is the only way I know how to tell you haha.[/quote]
that clearly means you’ve deleted my number from your phone! !! Unless you got a new phone since like… two.five years ago… which is likely. Buut still. Exxxxxxuse me while I clear my tears
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
[quote]TheJonty wrote:
In other news, I’m going to be up in your neck of the woods on Saturday.
You’re not on facebook anymore so this is the only way I know how to tell you haha.[/quote]
that clearly means you’ve deleted my number from your phone! !! Unless you got a new phone since like… two.five years ago… which is likely. Buut still. Exxxxxxuse me while I clear my tears[/quote]
Weeeeeelllllllll, I got a new phone at Christmastime back in 2012, and I think I must’ve merged the contact for phone you with the contact for facebook you, and when facebook you ceased to exist the whole thing disappeared.
***When Madonna was younger (pre fame) she told someone she was going to be the most famous woman in the world someday.
I was watching some bio thing on her cause I like Evita.
Don’t cry for me Argentina…
I KEPT MY PROMISE
DON’T KEEP YOUR DISTANCE
Anyway, I just want to go on record and say that I’m gonna be the best figure athlete in the world someday.
Not that one is really any better than the other. They’re kinda just all awesome in their own unique way.
But I’m gonna be the greatest figure athlete in the world someday.
Now in 5 years when that becomes a reality people can come back in this log and see that I called it before it happened.
Like Madonna.
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Anyway, I just want to go on record and say that I’m gonna be the best figure athlete in the world someday.
[/quote]
You’ve certainly got the work ethic and motivation for it!
K 2 hours and 20 minutes of the most awesomely painful leg pump day today!!
Yes this is me logging again…
Last driving session I got 7.5s
Oh and my instructor said I was really good at lane changes, but I suck at left turns (he didn’t say that last part, LOL)
I suck a left turns. I never know where I am going.
I start a new job in a week and I am really excited about it.
I get to be a bank teller.
And it will be like normal hours and kinda like a real job with real potential.
I get to wear nice things!! And be professional !!
WHewwwwwwwwwww
Um
The only thing not going well is my purification process. I went 4 days without cheating at scrabble then I had a day where I cheated like every game, but I am back on the horse again and haven’t cheated in 3 days.
I have been super manic for like 2 months now, but it’s weird cause it’s not like anxious manic, it’s just a normal person who feels happy manic.
And it’s especially weird since I am in the process of getting over someone and that usually makes me feel like shit, but I feel great.
I just miss his little face that’s all.
And his video games.
Whateves
BYE
Hello log!!!
K best heavy leg day ever
squatted 115 x 24
- 2 hours and 20 minutes of horribly painful other leg shit
DESTROY
KILL
DEVOUR
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh
um
K fuck marry kill DBZ edition
Fuck vegeta
Marry Piccolo
Kill puar
HAHA
heh.
BYE
Oh in between the best pump leg day every and today’s heavy leg day there was:
Best shoulder/chest pump day every
and best heavy back day ever
Then today
k, ya.
I’ve been lurking for a while and enjoy reading your log and seeing all the hard work put in. I don’t wanna be pushy, but if you’re interested you should be able to see a mental health professional in Alberta for free with a referral from a doctor. I’m not originally from Alberta but I’m seeing one for depression and anxiety and stuff here soon, but everyone else tells me people here get it for free. Keep kicking ass in your workouts and life!
Holy shit, can I seriously have one thread where people don’t tell me to seek professional help, LOL.
I hate to sound un appreciative of all the help/concern/advice I receive from here, but this is getting old.
I AM THRIVING PEOPLE, THRIVING.
I am conquering demons day in, day out, and making huge strides in my personal and mental well-being.
And I am not just saying it to prove people wrong, or to make a point. Like LOOK you stupid heads, I didn’t need medication or doctors and I fixed my own head, na na nahh. I am saying it cause it’s the honest to god truth.
Actually, this was going to be what I opened my book with, LOL, but here it is:
A couple months ago I had a day that was beyond shitty. Nothing in particular made it that way, it was just a feeling I had. I felt fat, lazy, weak, worthless, hopeless, bottom of the barrel, the light at the end of the tunnel is BRUNT OUT, and there isn’t a soul in the world who can change it.
It was like, fuck you world, you plagued me with this disorder and to spite YOU I am going to accomplish nothing and be NOBODY forever to make you FEEL BAD.
It was like this head shoved in pillow, bawling uncontrollably, make this END, moment that changed my perspective on everything.
It was change or die.
So I changed.
I became responsible for my own anxiety.
It wasn’t my dads fault for raising me this way.
It wasn’t the kids in high school for picking on me.
It wasn’t boys who treated me like crap
It wasn’t just bad genetics
IT
WAS
ME
I created it, I am responsible for it, and I am the only person in the whole world who can fix it.
And of course there are some days where I still feel it sneaking up on me, but I don’t get mad at myself for it. I fight as best I can because I know it’s a process, and I know I have to be patient with myself.
I tell myself everyday that no matter what happens as long as I do not get discouraged nothing bad can happen to me.
If my life/body/personal goals aren’t exactly where I want them to be in that moment, it’s okay, because I will not ever allow myself/my mind to be affected negatively by it.
Anyway…
Best 2.5 hour heavy shoulder/chest workout today ever.
BYE
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Holy shit, can I seriously have one thread where people don’t tell me to seek professional help, LOL.
I hate to sound un appreciative of all the help/concern/advice I receive from here, but this is getting old.
[/quote]
Fuck em.
You put what I am assuming are your (relatively) unfiltered thoughts into your workout log. Everyone would sound crazy if they did this.
The really crazy ones are the people who don’t recognize this and think that they have some obligation to save you from yourself even though they only know you from what you choose to publish in your unfiltered workout log. The level of arrogance (or ignorance, take your pick) necessary to offer mental heath advice from afar is quite staggering, really.
Better to be part of the more interesting few than the predictable masses, if you ask me.
Great work.
Sorry, I just worded that badly. You do sound like you’re doing great. I just thought from reading some of your earlier stuff that you were curious about looking into and was just trying to give you some info if you wanted. I didn’t mean to go “you should go get looked at”, just thought you sounded like you were interested in looking into it. I actually believe it’s better and stronger to fix it yourself if you can.
Didn’t mean to come off like a dick. It’s definitely frustrating to keep having people tell you to do something when you don’t really need it.
I apologise if I sound a bit fuzzy and condescending. Caught something and all sick and feverish. I think people probably come off sounding different than they mean to when typing stuff out too.
^^^ I don’t think I really meant to direct it towards you, ha-ha.
Just in general.
NO MOAR DOCTORIN’ ME
Um So
!!!
I
SAW…
OMG GUESS WHat?!
A boy wearing a RHCP shirt
hahaha
I pointed like a monkey pointing to a banana… OOA HHHaAhAH
I RaN
OMG!
You’re shirt! ?! You like the red hot chili peppers?!
Of course!
DId you go to the concert OMG best night of my life it was nov. 21st @ 8:00pm
blah blah blah
crazy talking - --_-------Under the bridge came on and everyone stood up and I just it was just I was like sdgjmkldfgdf
I placed my hand on my heart and…
it was the best 4 minutes of my life
I have like 10 RHCP shirts
I try to wear a shirt two times a week MIN.
He’s just standing there lookin’ at me
I kept going on
He mentioned the new guitarist
We both agree he’s a wonderful addition to the group
Anyway…
It made my year, that’s for sure.
K best 2hr and 15 min. leg pump workout of my life
No whiney bitch shit, YEAH.
BYE
K I did something today…
Let’s see…
One arm Barbell row
Bar ++
10lbs x 12
15lbs x 10
20lbs x 8
25lbs x 6
drop set
10lbs x 17
T-bar row
Bar++
35lbs x 12
45lbs x 10
50lbs x 8
55lbs x 8
65lbs x 6
- 2 drop sets
45lbs x 8 or some shit
25lbs x 18 or some shit
wide grip neutral pull ups
4 x 4
dead lifts
155lbs x 8
165lbs x 5 sets of 8
bent over row
65lbs x 10
75lbs x 8
80lbs x 6
85lbs x 6
90lbs x 6
90lbs x 6
85lbs x 8
65lbs x 10 paused
one arm lat pull down
3 diff. grips
4th pin
x 6 reps per grip + 7 reps at the end both hands
x 6 reps per grip + 7 reps at the end both hands
x 6 reps per grip + like 13 reps at the end both hands
beastmode
lat pull down partials from the top
100lbs
3 x 10
- 1 drop
85lbs
x 13
kayak rows drop sets
6th pin x 8arm + 6 straight arm pull downs
5th pin x 8arm + 6 straight arm pulldowns
4th pin x 12 I think arm + 12 I think straight arm pull downs
3rd pin + 25arm + 60 straight arm pull downs
more bent over row
all reps paused
65lbs
3 x 12
bicep machine slow negatives
40lbs
3 x 10
30lbs normal speed
x 21 or something
one arm cable bicep thing
2nd pin
2 x 15
oblique twist
x 25 *side
back ext. 10lbs plate behind head
x 18
K so ya that’s my typical heavy back day.
I think I like back pump day more, I dunno. Hard to decide…
Every morning I wake up and think “YAY! This is my favorite workout today!!”
Oh, remembering…
owl dream…
something…
the owl turned into a cougar and I became afraid
I was not afraid of the owl
This must be symbolism
Something I was once okay with turned into something that terrifies me
Probably about marshall
Yes I am still getting over him…
It took me 11 months to get over bald guy and we never even hugged< LOL HAHAH
He has no redeemable qualities really.
I should have never called him marshall because it mixes up with my childhood Eminem feelings of love and addiction and uhg.
GET A GRIP JENN, HE’S NOT THE REAL MARSHALL.
My words are like a dagger with a jagged edge
That’s why they call me slim shady , I’m back, I’m back
OhooOOHooH oh o h o hhh I’m as cold as the cold wind blow owe owe’s
I wish he were the real marshall
NO I don’t because if I had sex with the real marshall and had to get over him that would be SOO HARD holy shit!! That would be very emotionally painful.
I asked my kid, I asked…
“Gabe, what would you do if you cared a lot about somebody, and really liked them, but they didn’t care about you very much?”
He said
“I would try to be better friends with them. That’s what happened with a girl in my class actually, she didn’t like me too much at first, but now I am one of her top friends”
Gotta hand it to kids to give you the shittiest advice, LOL
BYE