^^ That’s all I have to say about this
[quote]ZJStrope wrote:
^^ That’s all I have to say about this[/quote]
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Hello log!!
Updates:
I have had more sex this past month than I have had in my entire life all put together.
Training is going amazingly
WHY? ^^
Because I started watching Dragon ball and Goku said my “My grandpa taught me to be fearless, so I’m not afraid”
I say that mid-set if I start to feel freaked that it’s gonna get FFING hard.
Or it could be because I am having lots of sex and it makes me feel like the queen of something.
Queen of the Saiyans, that’s WHAT.
So then I ordered a train Insaiyan shirt and I figured I had to look super ripped and AWESOME in it so the anticipation of it’s arrival is making me F*** SHIT UP.
I’ll post a pic when it arrives.
Maybe.
What else…
Nothing.
BYE
Yay for you, Jen!
Thanks for updating us.
really happy for you Jenn.
you know its kind of funny, my brother has a similar story to you with regards to the love life, and he just recently met someone too!
he hasn’t had a real girl friend in 17 years, and now he’s with someone that makes all the other dudes jealous.
love is in the air 
HOLEYE FAWK
LOL
Training has been better than it’s ever been in my entire life, and I have DBZ to thank for that.
Because I wanted to be worthy of my train insaiyan shirt, I took it upon myself to train harder and more intense than I ever have.
It was then that I realized I had indeed been slacking.
My workouts have always been hard of course, but they could be SOooOOO much harder.
I told myself I have to get better at every single thing every single workout, one way or another.
More reps, more sets, more weight, shorter rest, more drop sets, more intensity shit, etc etc…
Now every time I think I am being psycho or adding shit would be too much, I say NO! TRAIN INSAIYAN.
Then I go ballistic.
Thought you were just going to do 4 straight sets? How about 5 and then add 3 drop sets and make the final one AMRAP.
OH YES
and when the pain comes in PUSH SO FAR PAST IT YOU COULDN’T EVEN IMAGINE DOING ANOTHER REP AND THEN DO 10 MORE!!
Just make it to 12 reps Jenn, just 12…
GUESS WHAT?
30 REPS BITCHES
So yes, that has been my training as of late, and it’s making life very exciting because everyday I accomplish things that I didn’t think were possible and it’s making my self esteem shoot up. WOOSH.
I FEEL LIKE THE KINGUHhhhh
Also, another escalator analogy.
I was thinking about this before I fell asleep last night and I wanted to tell it to marshall because I think up things that I want to tell marshall because he has this cute little facekgdsjkgdfj
um
The greatest thing in the entire world is the Jurassic Park ride at Universal Studios.
Not the best ride, the BESt THING in the whole world, hands down.
However, in order to get to the ride you must go down a series of the hugest fucking escalators this planet has to offer.
Like 4 or 5 of these big, terrifying, G-DANG monsters. Each one more anxiety producing than the last.
I KNOW I MADE THE LAST ONE, BUT THIS ONE, THIS ONE I CANNNOT HANDLE.
WAHhhhhhhh
But this proves that in order to reach the greatest things that life has to offer you will be tested over and over again. You must overcome frightening things, things you think you cannot handle, or you will never reach the bottom and you will never get to experience the awesome-ness that is…
THE JP RIDE.
ROAR
So I had copious amounts of dino-dreams last night thinking of this.
Train Insaiyan always bitches.
PEACE
Lol, I love those Train Insaiyan t-shirt. I’ve got one too!
I had to check the log of the person I gave vague relationship advice to, and you did not disappoint.
There are lots of damn entertaining logs on this site. They are addicting to read!
Why, you’re just another crack dealer here, aren’t you?
Ahem, some thoughts…
Oh, first of all, today was the best heavy leg day of my life.
Training has never been so rewarding for me. I never could have imagined how hard I am truly capable of working.
Okay, so, some thoughts.
BREAKING GOOD:
I have decided I am going to break good. You’re never too old to break good, yo.
Slowly but surely over the next little while I will try to improve so that I am worthy of riding a flying nimbus.
I have one friend who I feel is worthy, and perhaps my mother, but other than that I know of no one who could ride it.
I certainly couldn’t at this point that’s for sure. My heart is not pure by any means, BUT my friend told me that legend has it you CAN purify yourself so that you go from not being able to ride it to being able to ride it like a pro (Goku).
So thinking…
Anxiety disorder makes people selfish because the number one priority is to protect thyself from feelings of said anxiety. However, in doing these selfish acts feelings of guilt then follow which then creates guilt induced anxiety and it becomes a very vicious circle that can be tough to get out of.
NOT IMPOSSIBLE, just difficult.
Every single morning I wake up I say to myself "BRING IT ON WORLD, BRING IT THE FUCK ON!!!’
Then I workout and if there’s a set where it’s like UHG I just want 13 reps, please, make it, TRY. ANd guess what? I’ll get 17. If I want 17, I’ll get 22. If I want 25 I typically end up getting 50… Confidence then grows, and brain chemicals are being altered into thinking new and improved thoughts.
Perfect girl at the gym who makes me feel sad.
BEFORE: UHG SHE IS SO FUCKING perfect whatever I have a better blah and blah and she sucks at blah so NANANA.
AFTER: She’s awesome. //\\ end. No negative emotions come flooding through.
Stressed about driving lesson: FUuuuuuuuuuck this is going to be so —interruption—SO FUCKING AWESOME YAHH I can’t wait to do this so I can feel accomplished.
So now I must think up some new ways to better myself and continue to keep the good shit spinning around so the negativity can’t break through the force field.
I am not going to stop masturbating or swearing to achieve purity though, forget about it…
BUT
- No more cheating at scrabble ever.
- No judging people unless it’s positive. !!
- I have to stop running to pieces of gym equipment that I think someone else is about to take, LOL. I feel like I am going to die if I don’t get what I want when I want it. Crazzeeee.
- Be friendlier. People at the gym keep wanting to smile at me and shit and I hide from them, SO ENOUGH. Just fucking smile bitch.
- Patience ****
- Add more as I think of them
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BYE
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
- No more cheating at scrabble ever.
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I am rather amused by the fact that this is #1.
Hello friends,
I want to someday write a book about overcoming anxiety and I want to make note of my chapter title ideas so I don’t forget them.
“7 habits of highly strung, unsuccessful people”
By Jenn
Chapter ideas:
-Anxiety you’re an asshole, please fuck off and die
-Taming the tiger within
-What to expect when you’re expecting anxiety
-Brian why U lie so much?
-Papa don’t preach: Dealing with an anxious parent
-There’s a storm coming: How to prepare for panic attacks
-Unleashing your inner Piccolo
-Episode IV- A new hope
Something about being your own knight in shining armor --work in progress–Slaying the internal dragon – –
K best back pump workout ever
Got 7’s across the board for my last driving lesson.
I parallel parked PERFECTLY
4
times
in
a
row
BOOM
BYE
I would buy that book!
Start with a blog to build your audience, then when you write the book there will be people to buy it. Just be yourself like you are here. People follow bloggers that are honest and compelling, like you are.
You can take the posts from this log, that document your journey to this date, and repurpose them as blog posts. That will give you a ton of material to start with.
Hey bitches!! Ignoring that one of my arms is slightly lower than the other/the toilet seat is up/my bra/shirt are on the counter, I think things are lookin’ pretty good!!!
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Hey bitches!! Ignoring that one of my arms is slightly lower than the other/the toilet seat is up/my bra/shirt are on the counter, I think things are lookin’ pretty good!!!
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hawt!
nice back spock! lookin great all around.