Hope all is well Jenn. Anyone else notice she has no face book now? Anyway, please let us know you’re okay! 
“I have decided nothing in my life is t-nations business anymore”
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No one needs to worry.
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Ok.
Take care then Jen.
Hopefully we’ll see you again, but if not, all the best
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
“I have decided nothing in my life is t-nations business anymore”
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No one needs to worry. [/quote]
Hey Spockster. Good luck for the future, hope you stick around the forum. I’ll miss your updates in here.
I’ve battled with anxiety and depression for years, so if you ever need somebody else to chat to feel free to PM me (if they actually work?)
Actually, my last post makes me sound kind of bitchy and I don’t want to end on that note.
Here’s a stupid example:
Say I announce in my log that I wish to clean and reorganize my closet.
One person would be like “in my opinion I think your closet is fine”
Another would be like “I disagree with the above, you do need to clean it and I suggest you purchase these hangers.”
Third person would be like "I don’t think you need new hangers, but I recommend this shelving unit from Wal-Mart (posts link).
Fourth person would be like “I agree with the first poster, you do not need to reorganize your closet, but you DO need to sort out your sock drawer.”
But the end of all the responses I wouldn’t even know how I felt about what my closet needed, and I’d have lost all site of what my own opinions/feelings about the matter really are.
God knows I bring it all on myself…
So I have decided to stop bringing it all on myself.
I can make my own decisions, and for some reason I forgot that I am capable of that.
Not t-nations fault, Jenn’s fault…
I’ll check in periodically.
<3
that makes sense Jenn, i can relate, I feel the same way often. one of the reasons i’ve never had much of an online presence. people are going to miss you though
[quote]zenontheterrible wrote:
people are going to miss you though[/quote]
This.
Wow… Apart from a couple of other logs on here this log was my main reason for visiting the site!
It’s a shame you’re leaving us, I’ll miss your rants, ramblings and crazy dreams, and in general your uncensored personality that was such a breath of fresh air to read.
I think everyone was so quick to offer advice because they cared because they felt like they knew you because you’re always so forthcoming and unreserved with your posts. I for one think bald guy’s a dick and you can do much better but how the hell do I know that for certain when all I’ve read is your account of it? Even though I’m pretty sure I’m right, I reserve judgment because I don’t know all the ins and outs and every little detail, so I just take it for what it is; an interesting and humorous read when I get a spare minute at work or sat on the toilet with my ipad.
Thanks for being so honest and open. Take care of yourself.
Thanks for be involved here, I enjoyed the log and wish you well. You will be missed. I am pretty sure you know you will be missed by the number of views this log has. Best of luck with everything
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Wish you all the best on whatever path you choose to forge for yourself.
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
I’ll check in periodically.
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I’m going to hold you to this, and I’m close enough to make a trip up the highway and find you if I have to 
I know this makes me a really shitty T-Nation avoider/keeping things to myself person, but I have some good news and I want to share it with you all since I can’t really think of another group of folks who would be more happy for me!!
I met someone…
Someone who texts me “good night beautiful” before I fall asleep
And someone who lets me know if he’s going to take more than 5 minutes to reply to me cause he’ll know I’ll start getting anxiety about it…
Someone who is okay with me being super insecure and weird about everything…
Someone who compliments me at every opportunity
Someone who makes me laugh…
Oh… someone who I can say “just so you know I am hyperventilating on the toilet right now because I think you hate me for no reason”
And he’ll just say back
“So where do you want to go on our date?”
And it’s all so normal even though we’re both so weird…
Like
Guy liked girl, guy started talking to girl, guy asked for girl’s number, guy asked girl out on date, etc… etc…
Guy was like, “can you text me, I don’t want to seem needy.”
Girl was like “But that is why I am not texting you”
So then everything is equal. It’s all equal, you know? It’s never been equal for me before.
And we watch breaking bad at the same time
Oh, they’re cookin’ up a batch, we’ll say…
Yes, that is what we will say.
I hope I didn’t jinx it by talking about it’s wonderfulness, but whatevskies.
Wheeeeeeeewwwww
Wonderful news Jenn! You just reminded me I need to watch the final season of Breaking Bad. Only 3 more episodes of Dexter left.
Great news, best of luck.
Omg!! I am the luckiest little girl in the world everyone!!
!!!
Never have I felt so respected and cared about!!
gdskjhgkjadfhgjdshgkjhdfkjlgdf
Congrats Jenn! Happy for you!
YAY!
Continuing on with my shitty T-Nation avoidage…
My brain is full and this is the only place I can really empty it…
So Jack Nicholson, yeah?
Great guy… Starred in a movie called As Good as it Gets.
OCD sufferers everywhere we like THANK YOU JEEBUS! Now the world can finally learn that you should stop claiming you have OCD just because you like your pencils to be straight ! ENLIGHTEN! ENLIGHTEN THE WORRRLLDddddd…
So Helen Hunt was getting pissed off because whatshisface was being a dick. Which I think is somewhat of a common trait for people with OCD. They’re like pissed off that they’re brain has them trapped in this internal hell or something. Could be just because people annoy them as they have a tendency to make obsessing difficult. THey get in the way really.
Anyway, digressing…
Helen Hunt is pissed and she’s pretty much had enough and tells Jack Nicholson’s character he has to pay her a compliment. So he starts rambling about some shit that he’s been doing even though it doesn’t really make any sense to her and she has a “get to the fucking point” look on her face.
Bottom line was that she makes him want to be a better man.
It was like the best compliment she had ever received.
So this boy (Marshall) and I made plans to go out and I was terrified (as per my norm), just because I figured okay tonight is the night we’re gonna fuck, he’s gonna toss me aside, I’ll be crushed, yadda yaddda.
Even though this was nothing like anything else I had ever experienced before because he was so kind and things were just different from the get go.
I figured whatever, that doesn’t matter. Sex has ALWAYS led to Jenn dumpage and a shattered heart.
I was anxiously checking my phone all day thinking omfg please cancel on me.
How do I get out of this?
I can’t take this… THis is going to be the worst fucking awful night of my life and I am going to feel like shit.
I texted like “So you’re probably tired, we can reschedule…”
He was like “wtf no? I am just getting ready”
UHGG
I thought, UHG
My heart was aching in anticipation for how AWFUl it was going to feel.
THE TIME IS NOW
So we went out whatever, I probably talked about Moose and bison too much.
And he’s being so nice and gentlemanly, and I am so confused because guys treat me like shit and this was the opposite of what I am used to.
BUT Everything was so fucking amazing I cannot even begin to tell you.
He was acting like he won the lottery getting to be with me.
like
Wait, what?
Like you still like me?!?!
Like, you still want to be with me?!
YOU’RE STILL TEXTING ME SWEET THINGS?
ANd telling me you’re thinking about me?!!
HE gave me a fucking lego delorean people!!!
My heart is like, holy shit, you finally know what it feels like to be cared about!!! I honestly never thought that would ever happen for me.
And the next day I booked up driving lessons cause I thought, fuck it. Things are fine.
He makes me not want to be afraid anymore, I guess is my point.
He is my Helen Hunt maybe…
That’s all.
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