Good Morning, Dr. Silberman. How's the Knee?

[Spock81]

mmkay holy fuck leg pump day

DOOOOMMMMMMM!

Um

leg ext.
hold at hop
55lbs x 20
55lbs x 20
60lbs x 15

• 3 drop no pause
  x 8, 8, 13
  partials from the bottom
  70lbs x 10
• 1 drop
  55lbs x 16

lying leg curl
45lbs x 20
50lbs x 15
55lbs x 15

• 3 drop
  x 8, 8, 13, 30 partials from the bottom

seated leg curl super slow reps
55lbs x 12
45lbs x 15

seated leg press
130lbs
rest/pause set = 100 diff. foot positions each time.
I was literally at 96 and had to “rest/pause” just to make it to 100
Brutal/cryingness

smith machine squat 1 & 1/2 reps
25lbs per side
x 8
x 8

smith machine split squats continuous tension
10lbs per side x 20leg
15lbs per side x 15leg

back squats medium stance
85lbs
3 x 15

barbell hip thrust
65lbs
3 x 20

hack squat machine feet super low on platform/heels touchey/toes point
x 10, 10, 12

ass machine
100lbs
x 10 + 15 partials *leg

leg spreader
70lbs
x 50 + 15 partials

leg squisher *super slow reps/holdy
115lbs
x 8 + 4 normal
x 8 + 4 normal

one arm cable rear delt flys cause rear delts matter bitches
1st pin
3 diff heights x 15 reps per height

decline crunches
2 x 15

100 crunches + 100 reverse crunches
plank

K done seriously…
Last time I did this workout I couldn’t walk normal for like 3 days.

We shall see…

I have a curiosity (???)

So a while ago I thought my workouts were mental and decided to dial back some volume.
Then shortly after all those famous bodybuilding folk got their threads started by T-Nation and it was apparent that they had lots of volume and frequency and it was like, okay, Jenn, tons of volume IS awesome so go back to that.
If they do it and are awesome, I can do it and become awesome-er.

Amit’s workouts are like 2.5 hrs long
I thought OOHH UP YOUR VOLUME EVEN MORE
WMAHAHA

So I have been reading their (his) log on elite fts and I signed up for john meadows site so I could make some informed decisions RE: my workout routine, but their posts don’t seem anywhere near as long as mine (?)
I workout for 2 hours a day and my workout shit appears very long once it’s all typed out.
But theirs seems normal and not mental.
I cannot tell if my stuff is mental or not.

I have had this problem my whole life.
Knowing what is rational and what is not.

I want to be the very best, like no one ever was…

How could my workouts possibly take 2.5 hrs when I already do like every single exercise possible, LOL.

I need to start planning stuff again or I just do everything.
But how do people make decisions
Say,
How does john meadows know to make his client do 3 x 15 VS 3 x 12, or 4 x 10.
Like what is the deciding factor that goes into those choices.

What makes an exercise worthy of an 8 rep set and a 6 rep set on a heavy day.
Is their no reasoning behind it? Is it just a decision?
To me, close grip bench seems like a 6 rep set, but I don’t know why…
Not everything is like that though, so I find it hard to plan things because I am crazy.

Is it necessary to have a justification behind everything? Is thinking like this dumb like, Jenn tomorrow you’re wearing your grey tank top because it’s shoulder day and you wore your loki’s army tank top on Friday so you can’t wear that one and you can’t wear the blank one because you wear the blue bra with the blank one and the blank one is better for a back day.
…

BEY
BYE

[Spock81]

OMGggggggggggggggg

Hi…

Shoulder/chest/tri/pump day

Cable rear delt fly
3 diff heights
1st pin
x 15 reps per height x 2 rounds per arm

straight arm lateral raise w/holds at top/normal lateral raise/front raise/10 & 2 front raise
mushed up into one giant set
7.5lbs
x 10/10/10arm/10
x 10/10/10arm/10
x 10/10/10*arm/10

lateral partials/rear DB fly
22.5lbs/15lbs
x 35/25 + 25 partials
x 35/25 + 55 partials
22.5lbs/22.5lbs
x 35/55 partials

reverse peck deck
45lbs
x 35
x 32

pec fly machine
55lbs
x 30
x 25

cable cross over pyramid
from bottom to top and top back to bottom
1st pin
x like 10 ++ sets of 20 reps each diff. heights

smith machine slight incline press SS plate squeeze
25lbs per side/10lbs

x 15/25
x 15/25
x 15/25

ropey tri ext. drop set
x 10, 11, 12, 15, 16 + 35 partials + 25 normal + 50 partials

reverse d handle tri ext.
2nd pin
3 x 15 *arm

one arm tricep kick back
7.5lbs
x 12arm
x 12arm
5lbs
x 20*arm

seated shoulder press continuous tension
30lbs
3 x 20

(!!!)
BG ENTERED !
At 8 :35 am
Heart pounded
Looked around frantically wondering if anyone else noticed his arrival
Consoling myself that it may not be him
But I’d know his side profile anywhere…
Jenn, you’d know his side profile anywhere, I said to myself.
And his jacket seemed so like something he would wear.
Couldn’t be him
Wouldn’t be him
Shouldn’t be him

WAS
HIM

Then hanging leg raises that were really fucked up cause I was all shakey
2 x 8 slow-ish reps

Then I had to go do plate side bends in the other part of the gym so I could see if BG was really BG
35lbs
3 x 15 *side

glute bridge x 20

:

Over the past few days I have been trying to determine whether or not I have feelings for this lifeguard boy or if I am just trying to make up fake feelings so that I can stop being in love with bald guy.
I decided yesterday, yes, yes I do in fact like this boy.
I know this because I am being annoying and saying dumb things.
I also go into the guard office for no reason when he’s trying to work.
I don’t do anything
I just walk in
and then I walk out
Because I think I have something to say, but then I realize I do not so I simply leave.
This is the behavioral patterns of a nerdy girl with a crush.
So content was I, to feel like the world had options outside of a bald man
Because for the past 11 months it certainly did not feel like that to me
My heart felt strongly for that one it did.
But then to see him again, my brain has never felt so sad and my heart so happy at the same time.
It was like
:O!!!
:D!!!
WHEEEEEE

Oh…
:S
:(!!!
NOooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Then I thought like omg don’t forget Jenn he rejected you and you don’t know why so like HOLY shit you need to lose weight and you’re life is pathetic and this and that and that and this.
NOBODY ELSE MAKES ME FEEL SO INFERIOR
Why couldn’t he just be in love with me
Or tell me what I did wrong
Because the world doesn’t work that way, obviously.
I just don’t ‘get’ to know because I want to.
But it’s bothersome

Now everyday at 8;35 I am going to have dirhaheahehaheah cause I think he’ll be coming.

Um

BYE

[Bauber]

Take a deep breath and relax Jenn. Keep training hard and be yourself. I for one am a huge fan.

Hope all is going well.

[Sturat]

A few things (yeah yeah you hate me I get it).

1. Reading around in your log encouraged me to get my fat lazy ass back to the gym. Thanks.

2. Triceps pain while pressing is typically caused (in myself and quite a few people I’ve worked with) by your triceps being too proportionately strong for your biceps. Not sure if that’s your cause but maybe some extra bicep work to balance out all the pressing might help, it did for me quite a bit.

3. Pronated means your hand is turned like you’re pouring something out of a glass (both start with P’s). Supinated means you’ve got a bowl of soup sitting in your palm.

[DoveofWar08]

Its late, and I have some catching up to do here. Hope all is well!

[Spock81]

[quote]DoveofWar08 wrote:
Its late, and I have some catching up to do here. Hope all is well![/quote]

:O!!! HE RETURNS!!!

Oh my!!

What a glorious day!!

[Spock81]

ASS DAY

Ass machine
x 20leg
x 15leg
x 15*leg

Treadmill hill sprint intervals
x 20 mins

KB swings/stability ball hip thrusts/plié squat
x 25/25/25
x 25/25/25
x 25/25/25

barbell hip thrusts
65lbs x 12
85lbs x 10
85lbs x 10

one arm cable reverse lateral fly
1st pin
5 diff. heights x 10 reps per height per arm x 1 set
blahb lahblabhbla

Um

um

glute bridge x 80

leg spreader/ “side ass machine” I want to rename it that
55lbs
x 60 + 20 partials

BURN
FEEL IT

OMG YAY I JUST PICKED UP A SHIFT AT MY OLD FACILITY!!!

I am so XXXCITED!!!
WElcome back Jenny!!!
They’ll say
YES!
That is exactly what they will say.
Or it will be all new people and no one will have a clue who I am
k I need to hurry and get ready
Um
what else did I do today
Nothing
plank.
Done.

BEY
YE
BYE

[Bauber]

[quote]Spock81 wrote:
ASS DAY

Ass machine
x 20leg
x 15leg
x 15*leg

Treadmill hill sprint intervals
x 20 mins

KB swings/stability ball hip thrusts/pli�© squat
x 25/25/25
x 25/25/25
x 25/25/25

barbell hip thrusts
65lbs x 12
85lbs x 10
85lbs x 10

one arm cable reverse lateral fly
1st pin
5 diff. heights x 10 reps per height per arm x 1 set
blahb lahblabhbla

Um

um

glute bridge x 80

leg spreader/ “side ass machine” I want to rename it that
55lbs
x 60 + 20 partials

BURN
FEEL IT

OMG YAY I JUST PICKED UP A SHIFT AT MY OLD FACILITY!!!

I am so XXXCITED!!!
WElcome back Jenny!!!
They’ll say
YES!
That is exactly what they will say.
Or it will be all new people and no one will have a clue who I am
k I need to hurry and get ready
Um
what else did I do today
Nothing
plank.
Done.

BEY
YE
BYE

[/quote]

Mmmmmmm ass (female) day my favorite.

[Spock81]

K heavy back day <3! One of my faveskies !

Um

Weighted chin ups

• 20lbs x 5
• 20lbs x 4
• 10lbs x 5

One arm barbell row
bar
x 2 sets of 10 *arm

• 5lbs
  x 4 sets of 10 * arm

t-bar row
bar + 30lbs
x 8

• 35lbs
  x 8
• 40lbs
  x 4 sets of 8

meadows row
bar x 12*arm

bent over row
75lbs
x 6
85lbs
x 3 sets of 6
90lbs
x 6

kayak rows
5th pin
3 x 12 *arm

one arm lat pulldown
3 diff. grips
4th pin
x 6 reps per grip per arm x 3 sets

barbell curls
30lbs
x 20 (wide)
40lbs
x 12 (narrow)
50lbs
x 8 (wide)
x 8 (narrow)

seated alternating DB curl + standing hammer curl
10lbs
x 12arm/12 hammer
x 12arm/12 hammer
x 12*arm/12 hammer

one arm cable rear delt fly
1st pin 2 diff. heights
x 20 reps per height per arm
so 40 reps per arm
ya

ropey bi curl
3rd pin
x 20 + 15 partials
x 20 + 20 partials
x 20 + 25 partials

cable oblique twist thing
3 diff. pin heights x 10 reps per height per side

d handle bi curls
3rd pin
x 15 *arm

plate curl
25lbs
x 20 I think

reverse DB curl drop set
x 8, 15, 20

plank

Done.

oh glute bridge x 25

Done.

I had a great time working at my old facility yesterday. Saw a lot of people I knew from years ago.
Multiple people made the same joke too.
“Oh, who’s the new cashier”
They said.
I laughed… (fake)
Same stupid swim club kids forgot their card, but now they’re 16 instead of 13.
My, my, my time flies.

I wish I still worked there…
People speak English there
Not like at my stupid facility
Half the people there can’t even say the word pool and they just try to mimic a swimming action to enquire about things

Nobody is even using my old cubby. It’s all empty and lonely.
My cubby hole deserves to be filled with all the glorious, wonderful things I used to fill it with

Anyway

BYE

[Spock81]

K heavy leg day

Back Squats (medium stance)
95 x 8
95 x 8
105 x 8
115 x 8
125 x 8
135 x 8 ← Not perfect, but good
95 x 25

deadlifts
135 x 6
155 x 6
175 x 6
185 x 6

hack squat machine
(feet close, toes pointy, low on the platform)
25lbs per side x 10
30lbs per side x 10
30lbs per side x 10
35lbs per side x 10

smith machine split squat
continuous tension
25lbs per side x 12leg
25lbs per side x 12leg

barbell hip thrusts
115lbs
x 6
x 6
x 6

seated leg curl
85lbs x 12
90lbs x 12

leg ext.
70lbs x 8
85lbs x 8
55lbs x 15
50lbs x 20

leg spreader
60lbs x 20
75lbs x 12
90lbs x 10
105lbs x 8
120lbs x 6

leg squisher
160lbs x 10
160lbs x 10

lying leg curl
45lbs x 25
45lbs x 25

glute bridge x 50

girly ab shit x some

K really great day today. Felt strong and not like puny girly man.

K thoughts/self discussion:

I have been doing really well with saving lately. I somehow managed to get myself into an OCD zone about not spending money, which is SUPER fucking awesome. I love it when I can get OCD about stuff that actually matters.
Like I did with school.
Everything had to be perfect= All A’s for moi.
Budget must be anal=Did not spend a dime.

Things were getting super exciting cause I had a million different places where I added savings
Like more than one savings account, and with the cash I withdrew I put it in different envelopes hidden in my drawer filling up with money that I was not allowed to spend.
I got off on being able to add to the pile and controlling myself to NEVER TOUCH IT!!!
But yesterday I failed.
I don’t really have that many days off a week, and when I do I try to pick up shifts because I am honestly scared to death of off days because I have absolutely nothing to do with myself.
I don’t want to shop because then I spend, but I don’t want to do nothing because then I feel like a lazy fat ass.
My closet could not be any more organized, SRSLY.
I almost picked up a shift yesterday, but my brain was just a buzzin’ and I knew I needed to chill the fuck out and get a good nights sleep. I said JENN YOU MUST FUCKING RELAX TODAY.!!!
My kid was home sick and I needed make up remover from the mall so I told him I was off to the mall and that I had money on my EB games card if he wanted some little game or something…
I was thinking like some crappy Mario thing that he’d play for a week.
But he wanted to come with me, which is weird.
OMG MY SICK BABY WANTS TO SHOP WITH ME!
So he came with me and we went to EB games and there I saw it…
Plants VS Zombies: Garden Warfare.
THE GAME
The apple of my eye…

My kid and I had a lot of good memories playing the PC version.
Like hand holding whilst listening to “there’s a zombie on your lawn” (the closing credits theme song)
It was like “our thing”
We read plants VS zombies comics and watched game trailers on youtube together.
Also, all of these things reminded me of when I was living on my own/happier and our time together was spent just me + him.
Fast forward to yesterday and spotting that game, feeling those feelings.
Feeling like OMG I’ve been soOOoo IN CONTROL LATELY I NEED TO BREAK FREEEEEE.
LIke no cake for 365 days and you decide today is the day you will eat 3 WHOLE CAKES TO MAKE UP FOR IT…
Problem:
I don’t (didn’t own an Xbox 360)
Well now I fucking do.
ANd Plants VS zombies garden warfare
It also came with Halo…
BIgger problem:
Gabe sucks at the game and we can’t even figure out how to play together and I don’t even think I really enjoy it because it’s not going to make it 2 years ago when I was living in my own apt. holding hands with my kid playing the PC version.
If anything it will just make things FARTHER from ever achieving that kind of situation again because it was like 350 some odd dollars
There goes my rainy day envelope
WAAAAAAA
I was like in tears after WAHT HAVE YOU DONE YOU STOOPID
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU I SWEAR TO GOD I HATE YOu
get a grip marshall
So
I am not getting a haircut in march now
NO
Or make up remover
I don’t want this fucking xbox
I want to go back in time and fix this stupid mistake. Why I am so crazy. I feel like shit.

KBETY
BYE
BEY
BYE

[Spock81]

Good news everyones!!

I have returned the xbox for a FULL refund due to mental insanity :D!

I also chatted with a lovely xbox customer service associate (named Xavier) and he refunded me my xbox live money.

All of the money has been returned to it’s rightful envelope and my world is whole again <3

Also good workout today:

Heavy chest/shoulder/tri day

Rear cable fly
3 diff pin heights x 10 reps per height per arm x 3 sets

seated DB press
20lbs x 8
27.5lbs x 8
27.5lbs x 8
30lbs x 8
32.5lbs x 8

smith machine seated behind the neck press
10lbs per side x 2 sets of 10
12.5lbs per side x 10
15lbs per side x 10
15lbs per side x 10 continuous tension

DB lateral raise
12.5lbs
3 x 12

incline bench
65lbs x 8
85lbs x 8
85lbs x 8
85lbs x 8
85lbs x 8
65lbs x 13 continuous tension

hammer strength chest press
pause at bottom/pec squeezey at top
25lbs per side x 6
30lbs per side x 6
35lbs per side x 6
40lbs per side x 6
40lbs per side x 5. FUCKING 5. ARG
30lbs per side x 6 no pausey

bench press pause on chest, no lockout
85lbs x 8
75lbs x 10
75lbs x 10
75lbs x 10

close grip bench
75lbs x 6
75lbs x 8
75lbs x 10

pec fly machine
55lbs x 15
55lbs x 15

reverse pec deck
55lbs x 15
55lbs x 15

um hammer strength machine chest press
one arm at a time
2nd pin
4 x 12*arm
3rd pin
2 x 6 both arms same time
then I think I did another 2 x 6 one arm at a time
I’m somewhat addicted to that chest pump feeling and I find it hard on heavy days not to try to achieve that ***

Actually, I think I am just addicted to mind muscle connection.
LIke OMG! I CAN FEEL MY PEC PUMPIn" MUST NEVER LET THIS FEELING DIE AHHHHHH
Um
ropey tri ext.
drop set
x 8, 8, 8, 9, 15 + 35 partials

skull crushers
45lbs
2 x 8

glute bridge x 25
push ups x 15

K ya…

Honestly, I just never want to leave once I get there.
Everything is just so darn fun!!

BG was there again today
he arrived at like 7:37.
Very hard to be creepy stalkery if he comes at random times.
I NEED PATTERN

He wouldn’t even look at me
…
Also moved far away so he never had to be near me.
I went to incline he promptly finished leg press and went to the other side of the gym
HE HATES ME WHY
WHY U HATE
WHY
And I am curious if he had a falling out with his friends because they were like peas in a pod and now they arrive at totally different times.
But me
He can never escape me because I spend hours there every morning, MWAHHA
Come at 6 30?!
I’m there

Come at 8:30?!
I’m there
Come at 9?!
I’ll probably still be there…
7:30…
Guess what?!
I’m there
EHEHEHHE

Um what else…
Work was madness yesterday with these crazy drunk people and the cops came and this chick was in the men’s change room, blah.
People, get it together!

Complaining:
Guy is like
“One for pool”
“Sorry, it’s not open until 6.”
“So how much is it”
“6.65”
“K” (gets out money)
“The pool isn’t open until 6”
“Oh, not until 6 huh? What is open?”
“Just the gym…”
“So nothing in the pool?”
“…no…”
“Not until 6.”
“Right…”
“So, 6, but nothing before that?”
“SIX O’CLOCK!!!”
“Why you yelling?”

BECAUSE YOU ARE SO DUMB seriously???

How many different ways can I say that the pool isn’t open until 6.

Oh and for the record I feel it is very healthy for me to complain about my job via T-Nation because otherwise it would be bottled up inside and that would be bad.

BYE

[Spock81]

K

Back pump workout x 1 HR 35 mins

Biceps at the end x 25-30 mins

Really awesome workout

Maybe one of the best

But I say that almost daily so, you know… Don’t listen to me.

BYE

[Spock81]

K leg pump day

leg ext.
55lbs x 20
60lbs x 20
65lbs x 15

• 3 drop sets
  x 6, 8, 8 or 10 or something
• 2 drop sets of partials
  x can’t remember, x can’t remember
  = pain

lying leg curl
40lbs x 20
50lbs x 15
60lbs x 15

• 3 dro
  x 8, 8, 10 maybe, + 35 partials

seated leg press
x 3 triple drop sets

x 8, 8, 10
//
x 8, 10, 10
//
x 8, 10, 12

smith machine split squat continuous tension

10lbs per side x 20leg
15lbs per side x 15leg

smith machine squats 1 & 1/2 reps
25lbs per side
3 x 8

seated leg curl super slow reps
60lbs
2 x 10

medium stance squats
85lbs x 15
85lbs x 15
90lbs x 15

barbell hip thrusts
65lbs
3 x 20

leg spreader
70lbs x 50 + 15 partials

leg squisher slow negatives
130lbs
2 x 8

ass machine
100lbs
x 10 + 15 partials*leg

cable oblique twist things
4 diff. pin heights x 10 reps per height per side

Notes:
Hard.

UH!

My dream
swoon

I had a dream AK (Anthony) was at my gym (?) I think it was my gym. I don’t know. It was like some big auditorium place that felt very comfortable and familiar. It could have been my kids school actually.
Anyway…
He was there and organizing some like charity concert or theatrical production of some sort.
Also some kind of wizard of oz thing happening in the back of my mind during this that was totally irrelevant to the story.
OH I know why I thought it was my gym, because desk boy was there!!

And he told me to go look for ANthony right now because he was sitting in the audience waiting for this production to start.
He was in a folding chair right at the end of the row, middle of the audience.
Both chairs beside him were empty, and he was wearing a hat.
I go up to him and tap him and I’m like
“Hey, I really like you”
He seemed somewhat irritated.
I was like
“See, I have the shirt on right now”
And I am wearing my purple RHCP shirt and I point to it and he like fake smiles
Which doesn’t seem all that great because it’s not like we made out or anything, BUT OMG it felt SOOOoOOO real to be near him!!
At that moment it was as if I was truly meeting him in real life. AMAZING.

Dreams are so awesome, I feel so warm and cozy on the inside. My cub conscious pictured him so perfectly and life like.
sigh

Where ever you are…
Know that it’s love…

BYE

[Spock81]

yo, yo, yo, mah people!

Chest/shoulder/tri pump day

cable one arm rear delt fly
3 diff pin heights
x 15 reps per height per arm x 3 rounds
DELTS OF FIRE

giant set of
straight arm lateral raise w/pause at top, normal lateral raises no pause/DB front raise/ 10 & 2 front raise
10lbs
x 10/10/10arm/10
x 10/10/10arm/10
7.5lbs
x 10/10/10*arm/10

lateral partials/rear DB fly
22.5lbs/15lbs
x 35/25 + 35 partials
x 35/25 + 35 partials
20lbs/20lbs
x 35/35 partials

reverse pec deck
50lbs
x 25
45lbs
x 25

pec fly machine
50lbs
x 30
55lbs
x 25

DB incline3 diff. incline/plate squeeze
20lbs/10lbs
x 15/25
x 15/25
x 15/25

cable cross over pyramid
bottom —> top
top —> bottom
so like 10 sets x 20 reps each

seated shoulder press machine
continuous tension
30lbs
3 x 20

reverse D handle tri ext.
2nd pin
3 x 15*arm

ticep kick back/DB tri overhead ext.
7.5lbs/20lbs
x 12arm/15
x 12arm/15
x 15*arm

one arm HS chest press machine
30lbs
x 15arm
x 12arm

triangle handle tri ext.
drop set
x 10, 11, 12, 15, 16 + 35 partials + 10 normal + 25 partials

plank

Awesome.

Um…

It’s interesting WTF happens to my mind when I am in the gym.
I was in the car on Sat. heading for back day thinking “wow, I am going to go in there and when I come out it will be two hours later, but it will feel like instant to me.”
Like entering a time warp or falling asleep…

It’s like a kid with ADD or something never being able to calm the fuck down, but give him a paint brush and he could spend 5 hours in silence painting the most beautiful picture.

Yeah,

I wish I could be gym me always.

KBEY
BYE

[Spock81]

Blah k…

Another day another workout

Ass machine
90lbs
3 x 15*leg

hill sprint intervals
x 20 min

KB swings/stability ball hip thrusts/plié squats
x 25/25/25
x 25/25/25
x 25/30/25

back ext.
3 x 20

barbell hip thrusts
65lbs x 10
85lbs
x 10
x 10
x 10

leg spreader
75lbs
x 20
x 20 + 20 partials

cable oblique twist things
2nd pin
2 x 15*side

glute bridge
x 80

girly ab shit
done.

Not a single exercise was enjoyed that day.

I’ve been fighting a cold for a few days and it’s getting really irritating.
Like either come, be somewhat hellish and go away, or don’t come at all.
Don’t just hang around pestering me with your indecisiveness, gah.

OH HOLY FUCK

I saw this super strong, muscely, beastly woman doing DB LATERAL PARTIALS!

Never seen another soul in real life do these.
Omg same-sex crush alert.
<<>>>

KBYE

[Spock81]

K heavy back day

Weighted chin ups

• 20lbs x 5
• 20lbs x 4
• 10lbs x 6

one arm barbell row
bar +
5lbs
4 x 10*arm

T-bar row
Bar +
35lbs x 6
40lbs x 6
45lbs x 6
45lbs x 6
50lbs x 6
55lbs x 6

smith machine bent over row (overhand grip )
15lbs per side x 8
20lbs per side x 8
25lbs per side x 8
25lbs per side x 8
30lbs per side x 8
30lbs per side x 8

• 2 drop set
  20lbs per side x 10
  15lbs per side x 13

one arm lat pull down
3 diff/ grips
4th pin
x 6 reps per grip per arm x 3 sets

barbell curls
40lbs
4 x 12 (2 narrow, 2 wide)

bicep machine curls
40lbs slow negatives
2 x 10
30lbs
x 10 + 5 partials from the bottom, 5 partials from the top, 5 normal normal speed

kayak rows
5th pin
3 x 12*side

lat pull down partials from the top
105lbs
x 8
x 8
x 10

seated DB curl
10lbs
x 10arm + 10 hammer
x 10arm + 10 hammer
x 10*arm + 10 hammer

d handle bicep curl
3rd pin
2 x 15*arm

K fun times.

!
MY dream!!

Okay so

I was in a figure competition and the audience was filled with basically all people I knew/loved so I was like the star of the show, heh.

I looked SOoOOo GOOD!!
I could even walk in heels.
EXTREMELY WELL!

I got to have a “walk out” song and it was um
Bow bow bowbow bow
To finger paint is not a sin I put my middle finger in your monthly blood is what I win

Etc…etc…
I waved and posed and people cheered for me like I was some sort of celebrity.
Whewwwwwwwwwww

BYE

[Edgy]

[quote]Spock81 wrote:

I think I want to meet/fall in love with/marry a bodybuilder guy.

Not that guy obviously because I hate him, but like a real one. A smart one that knows what he’s doing.

We can push each other together.
I need someone to yell at me during leg extensions because they always make me feel like such a baby.
I bet I could get three more reps out of every leg extension set if my boyfriend was yelling at me.
And then after we could shower and have sex.
Then after that we could be tired and grumpy together.
Then we can start to feel a little more perky and maybe go to the arcade or something.
THen we could come home from the arcade and do oral or whatever.
Then we could have supper and be bloated together from veggies
Then we could talk about workout routines before bed/cuddle/go to sleep
ANd wake up the next day and do it all over again!!

Glorious.

BEY
BYE
[/quote]

you have just described the perfect relationship.

perfect.

i wish you luck and hope you find that person.

[Spock81]

K heavy leg day

Medium stance back squats

95lbs x 2 sets of 6
105lbs x 6
115lbs x 6
125lbs x 6
135lbs x 4 sets of 6
105lbs x 20

deadlifts
135lbs x 8
155lbs x 8
175lbs x 8
180lbs x 8

hack squat machine
feet low/close/toes pointy outty
25lbs per side x 10
30lbs per side x 3 sets of 10

split squats continuous tension
25lbs per side
2 x 12*leg

barbell hip thrusts
65lbs x 10
85lbs x 8
105lbs x 8
115lbs x 6
135lbs x 6

leg ext.
85lbs x 8
90lbs x 8
55lbs x 20
55lbs x 20

seated leg curl
55lbs x 25
55lbs x 50

leg spreader
60lbs x 20
90lbs x 10
105lbs x 8 + 12 partials
leg squisher
160lbs x 2 sets of 10

lying leg curl
65lbs x 8
70lbs x 7

DB RDL
30lbs x 25

K awesome.

<>

Been feeling very blah lately. Like not very thrilled with life.
UN MANIC ALERT
I am not used to not feeling manic. Cause either I am manic with happy/excitement/things to look forward to
Or I am manically miserable, if that makes sense.
Like hyper active misery.
It’s hard to describe, maybe.
K like, Holy fuck life is so amazing I am the fucking queen of the fucking world WHEEEEEEEEE
OR
Holy fuck life is so awful everything is hopeless and every door of opportunity around me is LOCKED, CLOSED TIGHT.
A worked up kind of miserable manic

Right now I am just sad.
Maybe a normal person’s definition of sad.
I don’t feel very excited about my body potential, but I don’t really hate my body either.
Plateaued, but not getting freaked out about how I can fix it.
I don’t have all these crazy plans about how I am going to improve my figure and become the greatest bodied person in zee world. (As per my norm)
I am not excited about a boy, nor am I heartbroken about a boy.
Not horny, but not repulsed by the idea of fucking.
I am just not anything. Where the fuck are all my emotions?

It’s like I’ve reached a grey area. Where, okay, I have lost a decent amount of weight over the past year, made some good changes, but where do I go from here?
I am far from satisfied, but I am tired of always wanting to improve myself instead of learning how to be content.
I could say, OKAY: Jenn! You have a mission. You need to tighten up your diet, add a couple cardio sessions, and cut like you’ve never cut before, just so you can see what you can really achieve.
Become the best you!!
And would that fix me? Or would that just be a distraction from the fact that I am not super happy right now and that I don’t know where I am really going in life?
It’s something to focus on that makes me forget about reality.
Like, k, you’re saving really well. Putting away hundreds of dollars each month towards _ _ _ _ something?
What exactly?
It would be like 10 years before I could afford to buy a place to live.
And that’s taking into consideration that by that time hopefully gabe can chip in rent :/.

I dunno… worrying about this kinda stuff keeps me up at night. I don’t like feeling like I don’t have life advancement potential.

Sorry for emptying out my brain garbage.
…
BYE