Another admirer over here, Spock, albeit a pretty quiet one.
AWW GUYS!! (gals)
Thanks so much blush face
Okay folks, confession time.
For the past few workouts I have been going to the gym without a single.thing.planned.
Well, other than what day it is in particular. I don’t know which exercises I do, which intensity strategies I will use, or how many sets/reps I’ll do.
Honestly, it’s been the most difficult and rewarding workouts of my entire life.
I don’t have any pre workout “OMG what if I can’t use this machine at this time cause some old fucker decided to use it as a coat rack” anxiety.
I’m also not freaked about how painful things are going to feel because I don’t know what I am going to torture myself with exactly. 
Not sure if I will keep it going this way, but if I do it will mean that I wasted some money buying my own laminator 
K so today was leg pump day.
Leg ext. toes pointe towards me cause John meadows website told me to, LOL
45lbs x 20
55lbs x 20
65lbs x 15
- 3 drop sets
x 8, 8, 8
partials from the bottom
85lbs x 8 - drop partials
70 x 8
forget the weight x 12 or some shit. I guess I forgot the weight and the rep numbers.
It was hard and my face went weird is all.
lying leg curl
50lbs x 15
55lbs x 15
60lbs x 12 I think
- drop sets
x 8, 8, 12 maybe? Holy shit no idea
x 30 partials from the bottom
seated leg curl
super slow reps
55lbs x 15 + 5 normal speed
55lbs x 15 + 10 normal speed + 10 partials
seated leg press
150lbs x rest/pause set = 100 I used different foot placement every time I finished my non-rest pauses
Then I could barely walk over to the smith machine and that felt awesome
Smith machine 1 & 1/2 reps
25lbs per side
x 8
x 8
single leg split squat continuous tension
15lbs per side x 15leg
10lbs per side x 20leg
back squats
85lbs
x 15
x 15
x 15
ass machine
90lbs
x 10 + 10 partials * leg
x 10 + 10 partials *leg
x 10 + 10 partials * leg
leg spreader
60lbs x 100
leg squisher
130lbs x 15 holdy/paused reps
barbell hip thrusts
65lbs
x 20
x 20
100 crunches + 100 reverse crunches + 15 v-ups + 15*side bicycle crunches
wg pull ups 1 1/2 reps x 3
K I think that’s all I did.
It’s all such a blur really.
I know it was some brutal shit today though, so WOOT.
THere’s this really annoying “bodybuilding” couple that workouts together/argues on weekend mornings.
Bodybuilding is in quotes cause they do stuff wrong, LOL.
They both drive me mental and the dude wears like mismatched army-esq clothing and whatnot because he is just THAT hardcore.
Anyway,
I think I want to meet/fall in love with/marry a bodybuilder guy.
Not that guy obviously because I hate him, but like a real one. A smart one that knows what he’s doing.
We can push each other together.
I need someone to yell at me during leg extensions because they always make me feel like such a baby.
I bet I could get three more reps out of every leg extension set if my boyfriend was yelling at me.
And then after we could shower and have sex.
Then after that we could be tired and grumpy together.
Then we can start to feel a little more perky and maybe go to the arcade or something.
THen we could come home from the arcade and do oral or whatever.
Then we could have supper and be bloated together from veggies
Then we could talk about workout routines before bed/cuddle/go to sleep
ANd wake up the next day and do it all over again!!
Glorious.
BEY
BYE
Having one’s own laminator is NEVER a waste of money! You never know when you’re going to have to laminate all the things, and you need to be prepared (I love my laminator).
I’m glad the more relaxed approach is working for you!
KKK! Another wunderbar day in the land of the liftage!
Chest/shoulder/tri pump day
Pec fly machine
55lbs
3 x 25
Cable cross over pyramid
Start at bottom, work way up, go back down again
1st pin
x’s like 11 sets of 20
DB incline different angles /plate squeeze
20lbs/10lbs
x 15/25
x 15/25
x 15/25
*no rest between sets
reverse peck deck
45lbs
2 x 35
straight arm lateral raise w/holds at top/regular lateral raise/front raise/10 & 2 front raise
all mushed together without setting the weights down
7.5lbs
x 10/10/10arm/10
x 10/10/10arm/10
x 10/10/10*arm/10
side lateral partials/rear DB fly
22.5lbs/15lbs
x 35/25+ 25 partials
x 35/25 + 50 partials
x 35
one arm cable fly 3 diff/ angles
1st pin
x 15/15/15arm
x 15/15/15arm
ropey tri ext.
x 20
x 20
x 20 + couldn’t do the partials I wanted so reduced the weight x 25 partials
reverse d handle tri ext.
2nd pin
4 x 15*arm
seated shoulder press machine *continuous tension
30lbs
3 x 20
skull crushers *no lock out
35lbs
3 x 15
lying db tri ext.
10lbs
x 15
Ummmm
K ya, done.
REally awesome day.
I was sitting on a bench holding some weights thinking that the minute I leave the gym my life feels very empty and lonely.
I forget that I am sad and alone when I’m at the gym.
And this song came on (RHCP) (OBVIOUSLY)
Anthony was like
All I want is for you to be happy, take this moment to make you my family, and finally you have found something perfect, finally you have found…yourself
So then I hugged the weights I was holding because I realized they are my + 1.
I am honestly starting to believe there is no one else out there in the world for me.
I wish people would stop telling me that I’ll find someone some day or like it will happen when I stop looking.
No, that’s crap. How would anyone know that? Neither of those things are reassuring.
I feel very emotionally fucked up on the inside sometimes.
ANd my kid comes home from daddy day and acts like a psycho. Like last time he started throwing blankets around and saying he hated his life and wanted someome to kill him.
Then he later goes on to say daddy’s girlfriend doesn’t yell anymore because she’s on medication
and it’s like…
Why does my kid know this, and why can’t these people go away so that our lives can improve?
But why would any guy be okay with me when I have more baggage than a travelling celebrity?
I have no idea what I am rambling on about really, I am probably pms-ing.
I should look at the last post I made where I said I am probably pms-ing and it would most likely be 30 days ago.
BYE
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Good morning all.
I have been working hard as usual.
However, I have found that not logging my workouts makes me feel like I didn’t workout.
The results should speak for themselves. A log isn’t needed, but a log brings delight. I need delightment, therefore I need a log.
Today was heavy leg day
Front squats
75lbs x 6
85lbs x 6
95lbs x 6
95lbs x 6
95lbs x 6
Back squats (medium stance)
95lbs x 10
105lbs x 10
115lbs x 10
125lbs x 10
95lbs x 20
deadlifts
135lbs x 8
155lbs x 8
165lbs x 8
175lbs x 8
smith machine split squats continuous tension
20lbs per side x 12leg
25lbs per side x 12leg
barbell hip thrusts
65lbs x 12
115lbs x 8
125lbs x 8 or 6 maybe, but 8 for sure
Maybe 6
hack squat machine
Feet low on platform and close together/toes pointy outty similar to that tom platz fellow
35lbs per side x 6
40lbs per side x 6
40lbs per side x 6
40lbs per side x 6
leg ext.
75lbs x 10
85lbs x 10
55lbs x 20
45lbs x 20
Seated leg curl
70lbs x 25
55lbs x 50
leg spreader
55lbs x 20
70lbs x 12
85lbs x 10
100lbs x 10
leg squisher
160lbs x 8
160lbs x 8
glute bridge x 50
ab circuit
3 diff things x 15 reps each x 3 rounds non-stop
pull up 1 & 1/2 reps
x 3
K really good day
As you can see I am no longer going below 6 reps on my heavy days
Heavy days will be 6-12
light days will be like 10-25+++ partials/drop sets/holds/slow negs./etc…
Yes.
Been feeling psychotic lately.
Well, more so than usual.
I always have about 45% of batshit craziness hanging around my head, but right now it’s like 89%.
There’s this girl at the gym who’s obviously a figure competitor, and I usually don’t feel really jealous of those girls because they seem to typically cardio away all their muscle and that’s not really my thing (LOL), but this girl is like perfect.
And the other day she was lifting up her shirt and staring at her abs and then walking all posey like she’s practicing and whatnot, and I felt overwhelmingly jealous.
Like UMKKAY, Why don’t you look that good Jenn? HUH?!
FAIL
URE
YOU ARE.
You fail at life.
You failed at school.
You fail at your jobs.
You fail with men x’s 100000000000000.
You fail as a mom.
failfailfialfiaflfaailfaifalfaiflafilaiflaifliafiFAIL
It’s like I get jealous of other people because things get to happen to them normally.
They had somewhat normal experiences in high school that didn’t leave them hiding out in bathroom stalls with the principal coming in to hug them
They had normal experiences with guys that didn’t leave them to believe they are worthless beings incapable of being truly loved
They got normal jobs
Because of their normal schooling
And normal boyfriends
Because of their normal fucking
And asked out under normal circumstances
Because they are capable of acting normal
I get random texts about orgy’s and fucking without feelings or commitment and awkward conversations that lead nowhere, ever.
I want normal
I want one fucking normal good thing to happen to me without it being totally fucked up and stupid.
But it’s like, how could normal derive from batshit craziness? You can’t make apple juice from a pumpkin motherfuckers!!! It’s impossible.
But anyway, I had a dream that I was drugged and being attacked at a star gazing party and I called Anthony (Kiedis) and left the phone hidden so he could hear me being attacked and he got on a private jet and flew all the way to Edmonton just to save me.
I have never felt so happy to be under such distress.
Real love.
It don’t grow on trees, it grows in dreams.
Le sigh…
Don’t be jealous Commander!
Virtually all girls have a pretty high percentage of batshit craziness at all times. Tons of them struggle with depression through school. Tons of them get in relationships with shitty guys. And I’ve never met one who liked what I think you would call “normal fucking”. They’re massive freaks (this part is actually fine tho).
Anyway, you seem a lot better than most of the girls I’ve met, so I don’t think you need to worry about being “normal”. I think “normal” girls these days kinda suck. And I sincerely doubt you fail as a mom. You regularly query a bodybuilding forum about Minecraft on behalf of your son… Mom of the year imo.
[quote]Chushin wrote:
Jen, I say this with only the best of intentions.
It’s going to be very, very hard to turn some of this around on your own.
If you are serious about changing important aspects of your life, you need to get some help from someone who does such things for a living.
You think seriously about hiring someone to help with your diet, but not to help with the life change stuff?
I just hate to read about you feeling so badly about yourself.
Sooner or later you need to either make the serious effort or stop lamenting it…
Again, I hope you’ll take this in the positve spirit that I offer it.
[/quote]
I agree with you buddy, I did not take this the wrong way at all.
It’s just SoOoOOooO expensive, and finding someone you fit with can be tough. I saw many different people when I was younger and I thought a lot of them were very quack-ish, so I suppose you can understand why I am a bit hesitant.
[quote]csulli wrote:
Don’t be jealous Commander!
Virtually all girls have a pretty high percentage of batshit craziness at all times. Tons of them struggle with depression through school. Tons of them get in relationships with shitty guys. And I’ve never met one who liked what I think you would call “normal fucking”. They’re massive freaks (this part is actually fine tho).
Anyway, you seem a lot better than most of the girls I’ve met, so I don’t think you need to worry about being “normal”. I think “normal” girls these days kinda suck. And I sincerely doubt you fail as a mom. You regularly query a bodybuilding forum about Minecraft on behalf of your son… Mom of the year imo.[/quote]
AWE I heart you so much chris!!!
[quote]csulli wrote:
Don’t be jealous Commander!
Virtually all girls have a pretty high percentage of batshit craziness at all times. Tons of them struggle with depression through school. Tons of them get in relationships with shitty guys. And I’ve never met one who liked what I think you would call “normal fucking”. They’re massive freaks (this part is actually fine tho).
Anyway, you seem a lot better than most of the girls I’ve met, so I don’t think you need to worry about being “normal”. I think “normal” girls these days kinda suck. And I sincerely doubt you fail as a mom. You regularly query a bodybuilding forum about Minecraft on behalf of your son… Mom of the year imo.[/quote]
^^What he said.
You have SO much going for you, dude! Comparison is the stealer of joy. Don’t worry about that skank at the gym (kidding, she might be nice).
Seriously though, normal chicks are the absolute worst. They’re boring, unmotivated, and uninterested in anything that involves talent or hard work. I try my damnedest never to act a fool like one.
Also, I don’t even know what ‘normal fucking’ is. I think we’re all a little self conscious about our moves
Stay positive about yourself. You’re working towards goals, staying consistent, and being a great mom at the same time. That’s a lot more than most ‘regular’ chicks could ever hope for.
K Heavy shoulder/chest/tri day!!!
One arm rear delt cable fly
3 different height settings x 15 reps each *arm (continuous) x 2 sets
1st pin
Seated smith machine behind the neck press
10lbs per side x 8
15lbs per side x 8
15lbs per side x 8
15lbs per side x 8
15lbs per side x 8
seated DB press
full lockout/held at top
20lbs x 10
22.5lbs x 10
22.5lbs x 10
22.5lbs x 10
continuous tension/part of the way up
22.5lbs x 12
lateral raise
10lbs
5 x 12
reverse peck deck
55lbs x 15
65lbs x 12
65lbs x 12
Pec fly machine
65lbs x 15
65lbs x 15
Barbell incline
75lbs x 10
80lbs x 10
80lbs x 10
*continuous tension/not full lockout
65lbs x I forget like 12 maybe or 11. 13??
11
no 12
13
11!!!
hammer strength chest press
pause at bottom, pec squeezy at top
25lbs per side x 6
35lbs per side x 4 sets of 6
bench press pause on chest/not full lock out like that mark dugladaee person does in his log
75lbs x 8
75lbs x 8
80lbs x 8
80lbs x 8
close grip bench
75lbs x 6
80lbs x 6
80lbs x 6
85lbs x 6
triangle handle tricep ext/ DB tri overhead ext. (20lbs)
x 20/12
x 20/12
x 20 + 20 partials/12
no rest between sets
um
circuit thingie
6-ways/BB front raise/upright row/DB tri ext./rear delt fly
5lbs (LOL)
x 10/10/10/10/25
x 10/10/10/10/25
tricep L-extensions
7.5lbs
3 x 12*arm
glute bridge x 30
push ups x 20
K really good day.
I do lots of stuff…Maybe.
NEWS:
I may or may not be developing feelings for this nerdy lifeguard boy at work.
At first I thought he was very cheesy and overly polite.
Then I started mocking him and that got him to expose his sense of humour.
Now we make fun of each other and he makes me laugh.
I get sad when he isn’t there.
He went from being a goodie goodie to mumbling swears with me and talking shit about our stupid patrons behind their backs.
I like that.
He also likes dogs.
And when I saw online about Marvel Universe live existing and began shaking/quivering with excitement he told me it wasn’t coming to Edmonton and my face was like
:O… !!! :((((((((((((((((( :<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Then he smiled because he was lying
Then I laughed because it was funny
Then I called him a fucker
and that was funny.
Then I confessed that I still lived at home and he told me he still lived at home too, and he is older than me.
Then I complained about my parents.
It’s been good times.
BYE
[quote]Mighty Matron wrote:
or hard work. I try my damnedest never to act a fool like one.
Also, I don’t even know what ‘normal fucking’ is. I think we’re all a little self conscious about our moves
[/quote]
Does lying there saying “Umm, please don’t look at me, I feel insecure” count as a move?
Cause that’s all I got…
[quote]Chushin wrote:
Don’t you folks up there have socialized medicine? Doesn’t that include counseling?
[/quote]
its not included (I checked haha), neither is physio therapy, optometry, dentistry, chiropractics, or prescriptions, etc… Although if your work has good extended medical benefits most of those will be included. And some will be covered in extreme circumstances, for example my brother gets free optometry because he is at high risk of going blind, although that doesn’t cover his glasses or contacts, just seeing the doctor.
oh and haay spock, time for one of my random check ins! ha, hope all is well.
[quote]zenontheterrible wrote:
[quote]Chushin wrote:
Don’t you folks up there have socialized medicine? Doesn’t that include counseling?
[/quote]
its not included (I checked haha), neither is physio therapy, optometry, dentistry, chiropractics, or prescriptions, etc… Although if your work has good extended medical benefits most of those will be included. And some will be covered in extreme circumstances, for example my brother gets free optometry because he is at high risk of going blind, although that doesn’t cover his glasses or contacts, just seeing the doctor. [/quote]
Yeah, I don’t have any benefits… :S
[quote]Mighty Matron wrote:
You have SO much going for you, dude![/quote]
Technically, I think Spock is a “dudette”
From the Urban Dictionary
dudette
a female;opposite of dude
That dudette is so hot.
Jenn, just look at it this way. That figure competitor doesn’t have an AWESOME training blog on T-Nation.
Also, I recommend the standard SAMA advice.
Do more deadlifts.
You’ll feel better. 
2B
K back pump day
NG pull ups
x 10
x 8
x 7
One arm lat pull down
3 diff. grips mashed into one continuous set
3rd pin
x 10 per grip per arm x 3 rounds
one arm iso row
pronated grip then switched to neutral grip in the same set
35lbs per side
x 12 pro/8 NG *arm
x 12 NG/8 pro *arm
x 12 pro/8 NG *arm
x 12 NG/8 pro *arm
low down pronated grip
2 x 12 *arm
wide d handle lat pull down
45lbs
3 x 25
seated row cable wide handle
45lbs
3 x 20 *squeezey every rep
kayak rows
3rd pin
2 x 30*arm
HS high row machine
30lbs x 15
35lbs x 15
(full stretch, pause at bottom
40lbs x 15
(continuous, no pause*
barbell curls
40lbs
4 x 12
bicep machine curl
35lbs x 10 *slow neg + 5 normal + 5 partials from the top
35lbs x 10 *slow neg + 5 normal + 5 partials from the top + 5 partials from the bottom
35lbs x 10 * slow neg + 5 normal + 5 partials from the top + 5 partials from the bottom
incline curl/reverse DB curl/hammer curl/standing db curl
7.5lbs
x 10/10/10/10
x 10/10/10/10
Those were all no setty DB’s down sets
one arm rear cable fly
5 diff. pin heights
1st pin
x 10 reps per height x 1 set per arm
fuck
D handle bicep curl
2nd pin
1 x 20 *arm
lat pull down with the seated row cable handle x 30
lat pull down some reps pause set reps continuous tension x 35
plate side bends
45lbs
3 x 12 *side
hanging leg raises x 8
lying leg lifts
2 x 25
I dunno, maybe that’s all I did.
I feel like I am forgetting a back thing or something.
Maybe not…
It’s getting annoying trying to explain shit when I don’t know what it’s called and I have to google which grip is pronated and which is supinated on a daily basis cause I can’t remember.
My workout logs should be like
pump back workout x 2 hours 25mins of biceps included
Easier.
Today was the first day in a long time I didn’t feel crazy eager to be at the gym (at first). My elbows really hurt. Is that a tricep thing? Should I be doing some tricep recovery type movements and take out some things that are likely to cause elbow pain?
Like what?
I don’t like the pain…
Last night my brain played a song like it was a radio.
Or a live concert inside my head.
I could have lied
It was so loud.
I COULD HAVE LIED
I’M SUCH A FOOL!!!
It was like the whole song beginning to end without missing a single beat.
I love that song.
My Anthony
It’s not like it was my alarm playing and it woke my up cause my alarm song is can’t stop
Anthony goes to Lakers games all the time.
I am thinking when I KNOW they aren’t on tour I should go to LA and buy tickets to see the Lakers because maybe he will be there.
But what if he’s not and then I end up spending like 800 dollars for this trip?
I could stay a week and go to more than one game to increase my chances?
I could pretend to just bump into him.
I wouldn’t ask for his autograph because that is annoying
I don’t know what I’d say yet.
GO LAKERS
WooooooOOOOOOOOoooooooo
I could ask him to make some RHCP socks to go with my shirt and jacket.
Not like knit them himself or whatever, but like suggest production.
White w/ red symbol
black w/red symbol
Maybe one solid color lots of little symbols all over
I don’t know what I want yet really.
um
BYE
[quote]2busy wrote:
[quote]Mighty Matron wrote:
You have SO much going for you, dude![/quote]
Technically, I think Spock is a “dudette”
From the Urban Dictionary
dudette
a female;opposite of dude
That dudette is so hot.
Jenn, just look at it this way. That figure competitor doesn’t have an AWESOME training blog on T-Nation.
Also, I recommend the standard SAMA advice.
Do more deadlifts.
You’ll feel better.
2B[/quote]
I just get in weird funks all the time.
Like some days I feel like holy fuck, Jenn.
JENN!! You have not be touched by a boy in a FUCKING YEAR.
Not even a shoulder pat.
Not a hug
Nothing.
Please cry over this now because this is sad and wrong.
Also it’s not changing.
It’s like, well, you’ve not been touched in over 365 days, but it’s around the corner.
Cause it’s not around the corner.
But then other times I don’t even think about it, or if I do I don’t care.
I don’t have any past good sexual experiences to make me actually want it for any legitimate reason.
Like why get sad about not getting something that was never good?
That’s like eating shrimp, hating shrimp, and then being sad that you don’t have any shrimp to eat.
But then I get sad that I don’t think I even like shrimp. Like that is wrong or something.
Well so and so LOVES shrimp because they’ve had it prepared perfectly on a regular basis, therefore it is VERY fucked up that you not also love shrimp. Something must have been very wrong with the shrimp you have eaten to not love shrimp.
Maybe it was rotten?
That is your fault you ate rotten shrimp and you should go out and search for some quality prepared shrimp.
But I am tired and it feels hopeless because apparently all the restaurants I frequent only sell me rotten shrimp.