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HI THERE
FRIENDS

leg ext.
70lbs
4 x 10 + 10 partials

seated leg curl
75lbs super slow reps
x 8
x 8
x 8
55lbs
x 8 + 17 partials or something

DB squat SS DB Split SQ
30lbs/20lbs
25/15leg
25/15leg
25/15leg

trap bar DL
115 x 12
125 x 12
125 x 12
125 x 12

seated leg pre
2 x 50

leg spreader rest pause
16/10/8/8/18

leg squisher
100lbs
x 45

225 crunches
DONE
FUCK
ME

APPLIED TO SCHOOL TODAY
Now I have to wait to see if they accept me, EEP!
I wonder how long that usually takes cause I wanna know…???
To be decided by the office of the registr
Or some shit
What the hell is that
registrar, that word looks weird. Why isn’t it registar, register.

Anyway…
BYE

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Are you sure it’s not registrar? A registrar is essentially the records keeper for records made in a register, which is, in short, documentation of anything relevant.

Cool stuff. What school? Studying what? To do what?

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[quote]Chushin wrote:

[quote]spar4tee wrote:
Are you sure it’s not registrar? A registrar is essentially the records keeper for records made in a register, which is, in short, documentation of anything relevant.

Cool stuff. What school? Studying what? To do what?[/quote]

X2

(though I am loath to agree with spar4tee!)[/quote]
Usotsuki!

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Bump.

You know the rules Jenn; this thread is not allowed to go past page 3. Otherwise people might be robbed of the cultural experience that is your training log.

Come back soon!

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OOooooohhhh fuck me bitches!!

I mean…
Hello…

My OCD went berzerk for the past little while and my workouts got NUTSO. They were like 2.5 hours long and I pretty much re did everything and sometimes I found it really hard to stop doing certain exercises. Like who needs to do 9 sets of seated row cable?! I DUNNO ! But I just kept making up negative shit about it so set after set after SETTTTTTT ANd I was still sitting there kinda wanting to cry and/or punch people.

It made it really hard to log my workouts cause I’d have to be like “oh and one more set of this mixed in here and I re did hack squat after cardio and added this” YADDA YADDA.

S’all good.
I am proud to say I have gone 3 WHOLE DAYS without re doing a SINGLE FUCKING REP. Even yesterday the weight stack clanked slightly and that’s a huge deal for me to just leave it be, but I did.

Yesterday I did weighted chin ups so that was fucking awesome sauce.

Today’s

pec fly machine
70lbs
2 x 15

DB incline press SS plate squeeze
20lbs/10lbs
25/20
17.5lbs/10lbs
25/20
25/20

seated DB shoulder press
27.5lbs
4 x 10

one arm lat raise SS front raise SS rear delt fly
15lbs/15lbs/12.5lbs
10arm/12arm/20
10arm/12arm/20
10arm/12arm/20
10*arm

skull crushers SS DB tri overhead thing
45lbs/32.5lbs
8/10
8/10
8/10
8

chest press
55lbs
2 x 20
45lbs
20 + like 15 or 16 partials

triangle handle tricep ext. drop set
12/12/12/13/16+23 partials

cable station rear delt fly thing
1st pin
x 30

plate side bends
45lbs
3 x 8
HLR
3 x 10
stability ball crunches
x 35

Typing this all out makes it seem like a fuck of a lot, but this is like 45 minutes less than I was doing with my crazy correction shit.

Today one rep on my left arm of front raise gave me OCD for reasons I can’t even explain and my brain was like “well no re doing, but why not add a set of plate raise?”

It was like trying to fucking trick me!! You’re not re doing anything, so it’s allowed, right? EH ? EH? YOU KNOW U WANNNAA.

It’s like a heroine addict who’s trying SOoOoO hard to get clean, so their brain tells them to do crack or something and that should be totally acceptable cause it’s not heroine?
I just stood there staring at the plate I was going to use to do front raise and fought with every ounce of strength in my body to just walk away.
It was fucking hard, yet so ridiculous I can’t even believe that is my internal struggle. That is what I am dealing with?

Anyway, ya.
I am the disease
I am the cure

I think I’ve been stressed lately cause the school thing I was going to do (educational assistant) is not going to work out because apparently it’s a really shitty job, and you have to like catheterize kids and shit, not something I am big on…
I can’t even use tampons
HAHAHHA
I think I just thought it was a way out from my misery induced by lack of direction, but it was really not.
I have applied to like 50++ jobs and gotten ZERO phone calls. It’s a little depressing. And I am really bad at sitting and relaxing so I spend a lot of time making up chores or like walking far to wal mart just to pick out a single color of nail polish or something, I dunno.

About a month ago I was out with my friend and we saw this girl we used to know from high school and she came to talk to me and asked what was up in my life and then told me about some big fancy job she got and what she went to school for. Then like 20 mins unto the convo she mentioned she was getting married.
I was like WTF?! Why wasn’t that the front runner of the conversation?! Congratulations! I could give two shits about your job!

And she was like “well, you know, gotta be successful and all that”
I was thinking, why? Why is it so important to be successful if you can be happy with the basics? Is it only important to be successful so people you didn’t care about from high school think highly of you now and all that you’ve accomplished?

Well, bullshit.
I am not successful, I’ll probably never be successful. I could have shitty low paying jobs and be driven around by my dad for the next 10 years what people from high school think about that is totally irrelevant in my life.
I won 100 tickets on this wheel spinner at chuckie cheese last weekend. I started jumping up and down and my kid came over and started jumping up and down and it was like this incredible moment for both of us.
The more moments like that you have, the more successful you really are.

OVER AND OUT

BYE

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[quote]Chushin wrote:

[quote]Spock81 wrote:

My OCD went berzerk for the past little while and my workouts got NUTSO. They were like 2.5 hours long and I pretty much re did everything and sometimes I found it really hard to stop doing certain exercises. Like who needs to do 9 sets of seated row cable?! I DUNNO ! But I just kept making up negative shit about it so set after set after SETTTTTTT ANd I was still sitting there kinda wanting to cry and/or punch people.

It made it really hard to log my workouts cause I’d have to be like “oh and one more set of this mixed in here and I re did hack squat after cardio and added this” YADDA YADDA.

[/quote]

Jenn, OCD is being very successfully treated these days with a combination of SSRIs and CBT.
[/quote]

Oh, I am sure it is, but I have no desire to have it treated. It’s a huge part of who I am, I just would rather it be my little buddy as apposed to something that has me tied up in chains and whips me repeatedly like a slave, LOl.
When it’s on my side we work very well together…

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K Friday’s day of torture.

lying leg curl ramped
40lbs x 20
50lbs x 12
55lbs x 10
60lbs x 8
70lbs x 6
3 drop sets
50lbs x 8
40lbs x 8
30lbs x like 15 or something

leg ext.
55lbs
4 x 25

DB RDL SS Split SQ
40lbs/40lbs
15/20leg
15/20leg
15/20*leg

hack squat machine
35lbs per side
5 x 10 last rep on the last set was somewhat partially
because I was dying
from effort
so feelings of guilt would be very irrational

seated leg press drop set AKA worst 3 mins of my week
190 x 10
170 x 10
130 x 10
110 x 11
95 x 25

leg spreader
70lbs
x 50

leg squisher
130lbs x 8
135lbs x 8
135lbs x 8
*slow negatives

step mill x 25 minutes

DONE
SAFE from that workout for another week, thank fuck.

I had a very enlightening dream a few days ago and I wish to share it with you all because sharing is what I do…

I was having sexual relations with Louis CK.
Not just any kind of sexual relations either, sexual relations that were as if they were between two people who truly loved and cared for one another.
It started out as fucking, and ended with making love, LOL.
I felt like I just liked him so much, and I told him so. Not only that, but he reciprocated, and it felt genuine and real.
It was in that moment my dream self knew what if felt like to fuck someone that cared for me, and it was wonderful let me tell ya.
Chris Hemsworth showed up dressed as Thor as if Thor was truly who he was, and he expressed an interest in me, but I was content with Louis and wanted to continue fucking him.
Thor seemed somewhat pretty boy-ish to me, and I did not feel attracted to him.
I woke up in the midst of some really squishly, cuddle hugs with Louis and I felt very content.
I now believe what I am looking for in a man is not what I previously thought I was looking for in a man. If I were to fuck bald guy I would have felt very insecure and probably not really liked myself all that much. I wouldn’t want him to see me naked and I would have felt inferior and embarrassed.
If I were to fuck Louis Ck we could do any position and I would feel like the queen of the world. Hell, we could even make a sex tape and then watch it together and I wouldn’t be ashamed of my body at all whatsoever.
Thor was the symbol of man perfection and attractiveness, Louis was the symbol of a down to earth kinda guy with a good sense of humour.
WHICH is clearly more important to me than looks.
I need to start searching for a Louis and not give the Thor’s a second glance.
It was very enlightening and extremely helpful. I feel a lot better about my own flaws and imperfections after having that realization.
MY Louis would not care about my flaws, he probably wouldn’t even see them…
///\\ end\\ analysis.

BYE

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[quote]Spock81 wrote:

Well, bullshit.
I am not successful, I’ll probably never be successful. I could have shitty low paying jobs and be driven around by my dad for the next 10 years what people from high school think about that is totally irrelevant in my life.
I won 100 tickets on this wheel spinner at chuckie cheese last weekend. I started jumping up and down and my kid came over and started jumping up and down and it was like this incredible moment for both of us.
The more moments like that you have, the more successful you really are.

OVER AND OUT

BYE [/quote]

EXACTLY my mentality. I worked at a ridiculously stressful job with long hours and the pay was great, much more than I really needed. I quit, got another job, less hours, less responsibility, less pay and I couldn’t be happier. Friends and family have all commented on how happy I am since leaving and I can tell you, the pride of earning a decent wage is nothing compared to the happiness I now feel with more free time and less stress.

You can’t take it with you.

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Wunderbar workout today!!

Weighted NG pull ups
I added a 10lb plate and the belt I used had some huge ass chain which I reckon is about 5 or more lbs, I really have no idea…
It was much heavier than the belt thingie I used last time.
NE WAY
NG pull ups + 10lbs
x 4
x 4
x 4
x 4

hammer strength thingie that I don’t know what it’s called front lat pull down something or other
45lb plates per side
x 10
x 10
x 10
x 10

chin ups UN weighted
x 8
x 6
x 7

seated row cable different handle thing
70lbs
x 12
x 12
x 12
55lbs
x 12 + 13 partials

lat pull down partials from the top
100lbs
3 x 8

latpull down with the seated row cable handle
55lbs
x 20
60lbs
x 20
65lbs
x 20

bicep machine drop set
x 8, 8, 10, 10, 25

alternating DB curl SS plate curl
17.5lbs/25lbs
x 8 *arm/15
x 8 *arm/15
x 8 arm/15
x 12arm

*DB curls were slow neg.

ab circuit
4 diff. things x’s 20 reps each x rounds

DONE PERFECToooo

Haven’t re done a single rep or set since Monday and this morning I didn’t have anxiety induced direahehahhhaha for an hour. I wasn’t scared to death of my workout and nothing really bothered me mentally today :D!

Over the past 4 weeks I have:
Cut 150-200 cals per day
added 2 sessions of 25 min step mill per week
added 15 mins sprint intervals
added 5 45-1hr long walks per week
and lost…
ZERO POUNDS

Not even like 0.5 of a pound has been lost.
I could have not done any of that shit and still been the same weight?
This shit is ricdiclsocsusucs

WHATEVAAaaaaaaaaaa
There’s this boy at my gym who wears this shirt that says “Train Insaiyan’” on it, like from dragon ball Z, and I keep wanting to tell him how much I like his shirt but then I chicken out.
Today he attempted to smile at me like 10000 times and I kept being a douche. LOL
It’s sorta like we match because of my sailor moon wrist band and stuff…
OH and I bought fabric paint and I painted the RHCP symbol on my chucks, but it basically looks like a toddler just scribbled on my shoes so
This has nothing to do with train Insaiyan boy.
ZELDA SYMPHONY TONIGHT

!
!
!

!
!BYE

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I think Jenn is a pretty cool woman, and she doesn’t afraid of anything.

Keep the wheels moving, gurl.

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[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Over the past 4 weeks I have:
Cut 150-200 cals per day
added 2 sessions of 25 min step mill per week
added 15 mins sprint intervals
added 5 45-1hr long walks per week
and lost…
ZERO POUNDS

Not even like 0.5 of a pound has been lost.
I could have not done any of that shit and still been the same weight?
This shit is ricdiclsocsusucs
[/quote]

Jen, the scale is not what you should be using for your evaluation.

Would you rather lose 3 lbs of muscle so you can see the scale move?

Or keep the same weight and have a lower body fat percentage?

Has your strength gone up in that 4 weeks?

How do your clothes fit?

Your recent pics show an obviously strong, healthy young woman.

You’re going in the right direction.

Just don’t focus on the weight scale as your only compass for your journey.

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[quote]2busy wrote:

[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Over the past 4 weeks I have:
Cut 150-200 cals per day
added 2 sessions of 25 min step mill per week
added 15 mins sprint intervals
added 5 45-1hr long walks per week
and lost…
ZERO POUNDS

Not even like 0.5 of a pound has been lost.
I could have not done any of that shit and still been the same weight?
This shit is ricdiclsocsusucs
[/quote]

Jen, the scale is not what you should be using for your evaluation.

Would you rather lose 3 lbs of muscle so you can see the scale move?

Or keep the same weight and have a lower body fat percentage?

Has your strength gone up in that 4 weeks?

How do your clothes fit?

Your recent pics show an obviously strong, healthy young woman.

You’re going in the right direction.

Just don’t focus on the weight scale as your only compass for your journey.

[/quote]

My strength hasn’t gone up at all, but it hasn’t gone down either. I feel like I haven’t made any progress body or strength wise in months. My lifts are the same, my weight is the same. The only difference is that I am hungry and I have to change my ipod songs more often with the added cardio :S.

I guess it doesn’t really matter. Cardio is good for me even if it’s not helping me lose weight and I am spending less money on food :D.

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NE WAY

Yesterday I did girly-ass ass things with hill sprints etc…

Today’s:

pec fly machine
65lbs x 20
60lbs x 20

hammer strength chest press
35lbs per side
x 8
40lbs per side
x 8
x 8
30lbs per side
x 8 + like 15 or 16 partials

incline BB press
80lbs
3 x 10 *slow decent
2 drop sets normal speed
75lbs
x 10
65lbs
x 13

seated BB shoulder press
40lbs
3 x 25

one arm lat raise SS upright row
12.5lbs/40lbs
15arm/20
15arm/20
10lbs/40lbs
15arm/20
15arm

DB tri extension SS skull crushers SS rear delt fly
17.5lbs/35lbs/17.5lbs
20/15/12
20/15/12
20/15/12

ropey tri. ext. drop set
x 10/10/10/12/16+17 partials

facepulls
x 35

cable station rear delt fly fave. thingie
2nd pin
3 x 8
1st pin
x 30

one arm lat raise
10lbs
x 15* arm

225 crunches

DONE.
GREAT.

HOLI SHIT!!!

The Zelda thing was fucking amazing!!! Honestly when they showed link fighting Ganondorf with the emotional music I was fucking tearing up.
Ganondorf is such an awful man and Link is such a stand up guy I just HATED, HHHHHHAAAAAAATEED Ganon with every ounce of my being!
I WAS LIKE FUCKING KILL HIM LINK KILLLL HIMMmmmmm! DO NOT LET HIM WIN!! AHhhhhhhhhh

So ya, it was fun…

And I told my friend if he drove I would pay for the tickets and he drives this freaking like Supra? Or something car… Toyota Supra.
The drivers seat is on the other side and it’s like a cock pit. I felt like I was in a freaking race car, LOL. It was the most amazing driving experience of my life.
And he dressed like Indiana Jones HAHAHA, whatta kid, I tells ya.

Fun was had by all!
Next exciting event coming up is Thor 2!
It’s a wonderful time to be a nerd!

K BYE

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K today:

Lying leg curl ramped
40bs x 20
50lbs x 12
55lbs x 10
60lbs x 8
70lbs x 6
3 drop sets
50lbs x 8
40lbs x 8
30lbs x 17

leg ext.
70lbs
4 x 10 + 10 partials

DB SQ SS DB Split SQ
30lbs/20lbs
25/15leg
25/15leg
25/15*leg

trap bar DL
115lbs x 12
125lbs x 12
125lbs x 12
125lbs x 12

seated leg press
115lbs x 50
110lbs x 55

leg spreader rest pause
x 16/10/9/8/17

leg squisher
100lbs
x 40

step mill x 25 mins

Dead.

I found a sailor moon purse.

I had this awesome dream that I was Thor and I was fighting all these villains in the streets of New York. I think Loki was there. Every time I threw something at a bad guy, it bounced back at me. I wanted to throw my hammer, but I was worried it would come back at me and like rip my head off. Either way it was fucking cool to be Thor for a little while even though I was super stressed.
I think I am excited about Thor 2.
**I know I am excited about Thor 2.
ANd I am not going alone for once!! I am going with my friend who went to Zelda with me. I told him to buy a plastic hammer sometime during Thor preparation week.

BYE

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Awesome-tastic workout today!!

NG pull ups
x 10 !!
x 7
x 7

OMG this is so close to becoming a high rep exercise, LOL!

um

Iso hammer strength one arm row thing

45lbs per side
x 10arm
x 10arm
x 10arm
x 10arm

Weighted chin ups
+20lbs
x 4
x 3
+10lbs
x 5
x 5
x 5

Latpull down
60lbs
x 25
x 25
65lbs
x 25

Seated row cable
55lbs
x 20
60lbs
x 20
x 20
x 20

Kayak row
4th pin
x15arm
x 15arm
x 15*arm

ropey bicep curl drop set
x 10, 10, 10, 12, 16+22 partials

EZbar curl SS hammer curl
45lbs/12.5lbs
10/12
10/12
10/12
10/12

cable station bicep curl thing where you stand in the middle and ya
x 40

Treadmill sprint intervals x 15 mins.

K GOOD.

**K GREAT.

Stop the presses!!!
Today I weighed in at…
129.4 or something. I forget the .
BUT IT WAS UNDER 130! This is the first time in um…2? 2 years that I have been under 130lbs. WOO to the OOT.
OH and they had a posting out for a slightly higher version of the job I was doing with the city a few years ago (a job where I actually made a lot of money) and I applied for it even though I probably wont get it. But I am excited anyway. That would be so awesome…
And maybe if that doesn’t work out they will put out a posting for my old job and I can just do that again. Except maybe at a different facility cause the boss I had was the reason I had to leave because had I stayed I would have killed her…

KBYE