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Sup Foo’s?!?!

Yesterday’s workout was a complete and utter shittacular experience.
Blah, truly awful.
WILL
NOT
LOG
IT

My mind was just in another place. Totally unable to focus and whatnot. Missed reps, got 6’s for sets that were supposed to be 10’s, and just a bunch of other shit.
BG and I didn’t even acknowledge each other the whole time we were there, and it made me feel very sad. It was like we had never spoken in our lives :frowning:

But today was a fucking awesome day !

Lying leg curl
ramped
40lbs x 20
50lbs x 12
60lbs x 10
65 x 8
70 x 6

3 drop sets
50lbs x 8
40lbs x 8
30lbs x 12 or something I have no idea, maybe it was 8 again…

Leg ext.
65lbs x 10 + 10 partials
65lbs x 10 + 10 partials
65lbs x 10 + 10 partials
65lbs x 10 + 10 partials

DB RDL SS Split SQ
40lbs/50lbs
15/15leg
15/15leg
15/15leg
15/15leg

Hack squat machine ramped
35lbs per side x 12
40lbs per side x 10
45lbs per side x 8
50lbs per side x 6
55lbs per side x 6

seated leg press drop set
190 x 12
150 x 12
130 x 12
110 x 12
90 x 22

Pain.

Good pain.

leg spreader rest/pause set
16/10/8/6/17

leg squisher
105lbs x 30

DONE.

Really awesome effort today on my part. KILLED IT.

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It’s like I view the world through two different sets of eyes, pre masturbation, and post masturbation.
Pre is like a land where the dinosaurs still roam the earth, and the world is a terrifying place with danger lurking around every corner.
Every step I take is filled with uncertainty and fear.

Post is like a tropical oasis, where I love myself and everyone and everything around me. Everything looks beautiful and there’s not a care in the world. I’m free to do as a please and feel as though all my dreams will come true and I can accomplish anything.

I have to masturbate every single fucking night, under any and all circumstances. If I were a doctor and I were my patient I would prescribe it and order myself not to ever miss a godamn dose or life would just go to shit.
DR. JENN.

I texted BG and told him that it’s cool that he’s a super busy dude and if he’s ever not in the future he knows how to reach me, and I ain’t mad brah.
He said thank you for understanding and he was glad that I wasn’t mad.

Then we talked about some other shit.

…

Today he came and talked to me at the gym and everything seemed much better. I felt like it really cleared the air.

All is well in my oasis.

BYE

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[quote]csulli wrote:
Proud of you Jenn! :slight_smile:

Remember how much better it feels to be self-confident![/quote]

Thanks buddddayyy!

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OMG i am so late to this amazing party. And I am already in love with you. why do you have to be so far away?!?!

Btw, I just got out of a fucked up relationship with a guy who was going through a divorce when we started seeing each other. If you ever need anything you just let me know! And I’m not just saying that because “A shoulder to cry on becomes fingers to ride on.” bahahahaha

Seriously. You are such a cool girl. Own it.

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[quote]theBeth wrote:
OMG i am so late to this amazing party. And I am already in love with you. why do you have to be so far away?!?!

Btw, I just got out of a fucked up relationship with a guy who was going through a divorce when we started seeing each other. If you ever need anything you just let me know! And I’m not just saying that because “A shoulder to cry on becomes fingers to ride on.” bahahahaha

Seriously. You are such a cool girl. Own it.[/quote]

AHhhhhhhh, I heart you SoOoooOOoO MUCH!!

I wish we were neighbours and bestest friends and you could come over and play Barbies!!
And I would prepare a snack tray !

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Kkkkkkkkkhey!

Slept in until 4:45 this mornin’ biotches ! I finally feel like I got some sleep.
Which is a really good thing because I was starting to get all Tyler Durdeny with all the crazy chitter chatter going on inside my head :open_mouth: !

TODAY:

NG Pull ups
x 9
x 7
x 6

Hammer strength back thing that’s not the iso lateral whatevers. The front lat pull down or something…
25lbs per side x 20
35lbs per side x 12
45lbs per side x 10
50lbs per side x 8
55lbs per side x 6
57.5(lol)lbs per side x 6 + grunty hulk face

seated row cable with different handle thing
75lbs
x 12
x 12
x 12
55lbs
x 12 + 12 partials

chin ups
x 7
x 6
x 5

latpull down with the wide seated row cable handle
70lbs
3 x 15

latpull down partials from the top
100lbs
3 x 8

bicep machine drop set
x 8, 9, 10, 11, 22

seated alternating DB curls SS plate curls
17.5lbs/25lbs
8arm/12
8arm/12
8arm/12
8arm

ab circuit
4 diff. things x 20 reps each x 2 rounds

NG pull ups
x 5

K TOOK FOREVER

So my staff really loves me and that makes me feel good about myself so I think to surprise everyone I am going to order us like matching arc reactor necklaces or something. I don’t know what to do about the dude though. Actually, he would probably love it cause he likes dressing weird and shit.
HmMmM…

Anyway

BYE

246

[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Kkkkkkkkkhey!

Slept in until 4:45 this mornin’ biotches[/quote]
Same here.

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!!!
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I bought a photo op with Christopher Lloyd and the delorean at the comic expo !!! I can’t breathe holy shit this is the most exciting thing evevrvevevrveAhhhhjjhhh

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[quote]Spock81 wrote:
!!!
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I bought a photo op with Christopher Lloyd and the delorean at the comic expo !!! I can’t breathe holy shit this is the most exciting thing evevrvevevrveAhhhhjjhhh[/quote]

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[quote]Chushin wrote:

[quote]spar4tee wrote:

[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Kkkkkkkkkhey!

Slept in until 4:45 this mornin’ biotches[/quote]
Same here.[/quote]

You’re BLACK?!?!?!

;-)[/quote]
LOL I already told you.

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[quote]Chushin wrote:

[quote]spar4tee wrote:

[quote]Chushin wrote:

[quote]spar4tee wrote:

[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Kkkkkkkkkhey!

Slept in until 4:45 this mornin’ biotches[/quote]
Same here.[/quote]

You’re BLACK?!?!?!

;-)[/quote]
LOL I already told you.[/quote]

Yeah, I’ve known your race since whenever.

Just teasing you. :-)))

As if it matters.
[/quote]
I figured. How are you and your samurai wife?

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[quote]Chushin wrote:

[quote]spar4tee wrote:

[quote]Chushin wrote:

[quote]spar4tee wrote:

[quote]Chushin wrote:

[quote]spar4tee wrote:

[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Kkkkkkkkkhey!

Slept in until 4:45 this mornin’ biotches[/quote]
Same here.[/quote]

You’re BLACK?!?!?!

;-)[/quote]
LOL I already told you.[/quote]

Yeah, I’ve known your race since whenever.

Just teasing you. :-)))

As if it matters.
[/quote]
I figured. How are you and your samurai wife?[/quote]

A bit hung over from celebrating our 18th anniversary, but well, thanks.[/quote]
Ha that’s awesome. Congrats.

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Ahoy matey’s!

Yesterday I had a great ass workout filled with many ass-tastic things.

Today:

pec fly machine
70lbs
2 x 15

hammer strength chest press
25lbs per side x 20
35lbs per side x 12
40lbs per side x 8
45lbs per side x 6
45lbs per side x 6

30lbs per side x 8 + 12 partials

incline bench
75lbs
3 x 10 slow neg.
85lbs
x 6 normal speed

seated DB press
27.5lbs
4 x 10

Super set of
one arm lateral raise/ upright row/ rear delt fly
15lbs/40lbs/15lbs
x 10arm/12/10
15lbs/50lbs/15lbs/
x 10 arm/12/10
x 10arm/12/10
then one more set of later raise x 10 arm

DB tricep ext. SS skull crushers
15lbs/35lbs
x15/15
x15/15
x15/15

facepulls
x 30

ropey tricep ext. drop set
x 12/12/12/15/16 + 22 partials

one more set of incline bench cause I wanted to (aka I was getting OCD)
85lbs
x 8

Good.

SOOooOoO people…

I must admit, I am still hurtin’ RE:BG. There’s a huge empty pit inside my stomach that my heart just sunk right into and now I walk around with this great sadness just looming over me everywhere I go. I was so happy and hopeful for two wonderful days and then it all got taken away from me. It’s just not fair dammit…
Why couldn’t this one just have worked out? They’ve never fucking worked out. This one was supposed to be different!!
He was like my ideal guy in every way. He was super funny and understood my sense of humor. He cooked and loved meat. DOGS!! HE WAS A DOG GUY! He was short and bald and I loved those things about him… Not only was he passionate about weightlifting, but he actually knew was he was doing and taught his friends what to do.
He liked cilantro…
I don’t even know why, but I think it’s just so totally wonderful that he liked cilantro.
Howwwwwwwww manyyyyyyyy more days until I stop thinking about this 24/7!!! How am I supposed to get over him when I see him 5 days a week?!
I should delete him from my phone so I don’t have to feel like I am constantly resisting the urge to text him.
But I just don’t want to delete him.
He’s in my phone as bald guy…
and when we went out he said you probably put my name as bald guy in your phone
and I said I did
and it was funny

WAaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Sniffle x’s 10
He was also nerdy and had a darth vador t-shirt
NERDY MUSCELY Funny DOG LOVER There will never be any other so perfect!!!
Everyone else I meet in real life is so ridiculously douchey, you can’t even imagine. Everyone that comes into my store has these crazy baggy pants with chains coming out of them and at the gym it’s all these wife beater dudes with tattoo’s on their legs and I just don’t like them!!
And bald guy was vulgar. I"M THE VULGAR one about my friends! I cuss like a sailor and talk about raunchy things and and…
I liked that about him…
Raunchy cilantro eater.
Where’s my fucking bird HOSUE?!!
we WERE Going to go to the observatory !!!
WAH

K
I am done.
I will need to get this out of my system for a while. Google told me my friends will be my support system during this time.
DEAL WITH IT

:slight_smile:

**MWAHH ***

BYE

257

The person let you down. Its not him - it was the fantasy of what you wanted him to be that you were in love with. I’ve been there, still struggling with it. It’s hard to let go of.

259

Hey hey kids!!

Well yesterday at work I wrote out in huge letters on a piece of paper “DO YOU WANT TO GET OVER THIS?”
And I stuck my phone on top of it so that every time I picked up my phone wanting to text him I read my sign and set my phone back down…
It worked alllll day long…

I don’t even know if I want to get over this. I want to have sex with this
FUCK STUPID VAGINA SO MUCH LOUDER THAN MY OWN BRAAAAINnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

Shut the FUCK UP would you? You are a menace, you hear me?! A fucking menace.
I hate you I hate you. I SWEAR TO GOD I HATE YOU.
Oh my god I love you.
GET A GRIP MARSHALL

ummmmmmm

K good workout today:

Leg ext.
55lbs
4 x 25

seated leg curl
70lbs
4 x 10 *super slow reps

Super set of
DB squats/DB split squats
25lbs/20lbs
20/12*leg

25lbs/25lbs
20/12leg
20/12leg
20/12*leg

trap bar DL
115 x 12
135 x 10
145 x 8
155 x 8
holy shit I don’t remember anything that I did really
185 x 4
185 x 4

There mighta been another set in there or some shit with different weight, I dunno.
It was all good though…

UM
Seated leg press
110lbs
x 50
120lbs
x 50

Leg spreader drop set
x8/8/9/10/22

Leg squisher
130lbs
3 x 8

leg spreader again just so my OCD knows I’m listenin’
70lbs
x 30

K GOOD DAY
YA.

Gonna be super slow day at work today cause no one shops on Tuesday’s for some reason.
I think I’ll read this book I bought on being positive and shit, play some plants VS zombies 2, and maybe order some stuff from T-Nation.
OH and write my grocery list.

BYE

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HIDY HO

Back shit

Chin ups
x 9.75
x 7
x 6

Hammer strength iso thing
25lbs per side x 20arm
45lbs per side x 12arm
50lbs per side x 10arm
55lbs per side x 8arm
60lbs per side x 6arm
65lbs per side x 6arm

NG pull ups
x 7
x 6
x 6

Seated row cable
90lbs
5 x 8

latpull down
75lbs
x 10
80 lbs
x 10
x 10
x 10

Kayak rows
5th pin
x 15arm
4th pin
x 15arm
3rd pin
x 15*arm

ropey bicep curls drop set
x 10/10/10/11/12 + 13 partials

Ez bar curl SS hammer curls
45lbs/12.5lbs
8/12
8/12
8/12
8

chinps
x 4

225 crunches

chin ups
x 5

K yA.

My best friend Ct. Rockula has instructed me that it’s time to move on (which I knew, but him saying it makes it more real, LOL), and I am now fully prepared to take the appropriate steps in order to put this all behind me.
My problem is that I get very emotionally attached to people and I find it very hard to let go because the feelings of hopefulness are like an addiction to me, and I feel very empty now that I know I have absolutely nothing to look forward too.
Last time I got heartbroken I made a promise to myself that I would lose weight, so then I was able to put all my mental energy and focus towards that.
Now I am sitting at a comfortable weight and really have no idea where to direct my focus.
I started reading a book about how to be positive and shit and there are certain things it tells me to do that can be like projects (yay), but one of them was compliment people so I just ended up telling bald guy I liked his ass and that didn’t really seem to heal me all that much.
I am supposed to write a heartfelt letter every week, which I enjoy because being creative is very important for my mental well-being, but surely I will run out of people to write to soon.
If I have no creative outlet then I just get super horny/ancy about life and I find it very uncomfortable.
I just want to play barbies again.
Honest to fuck my life has been a train wreck since I put them all in the crawl space, nothing and no one has ever been able to fill that void.
I need them…

Anyway, I dunno. I need to keep myself busy and my mind occupied, but it’s a little hard when I do nothing at work all day.
Yesterday I spent an hour and a half picking out superhero buttons online to surprise my staff with…
They should arrive in the mail shortly.
I really miss 5 months ago when I would have panic attacks over the red hot chili peppers for no reason. Like my love for them was so overwhelming I just couldn’t deal with it or something.

This too shall pass.
Today is day one of bald guy being deleted off my phone and I don’t have anything past the first three digits memorized.
11/09/2013
Status:
3% healed

BYE