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K thank G today was just MP day and not squat day cause I was rushedddddddd

Military press

75lbs x 10
75lbs x 10
75lbs x 10
75lbs x 10

I knew that 80 x 10 wasn’t gonna happen today so I just added volume and it worked out well

Close grip bench press

115lbs x 4 sets of 3

incline DB front raises SS DB lateral raise W/pause at top and slow neg.

7.5lbs/7.5lbs
x 10/ x 10
x 12/ x 12
x 15/ x 15

rear delt DB fly palms facing each other SS rear delt DB fly palms facing inwards

17.5lbs/7.5lbs
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10
x 12/ x 15
norest

EZ bar cable tri ext/ SS one arm cable tri ext.

50lbs/10lbs
x 8/ x 8arm
x 8/ x 8arm
x 8 + 1 drop 30lbs x 12/ x 8arm + 1 drop 5lbs x 12arm

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

let me tell you about my day yesterday

Actually, no, let me brag about my day yesterday

Squat workout x 2 hrs
hit up 3 poke stops with my bestie
1 hr deep tissue massage
lunch
go go gadget meal prep mode
hair cut
mall trip with my bestie so he could pick himself out a watch for school
vacuumed upstairs and windexed most things…
stretching x 30 minutes
supper
bed
up @ 315 today for military press LOl @ manic-ing

Oh how productive I could be without panic attacks getting in the way, sigh…

ah well

BEY
BYE

543

k pretty happy with deadlifts today

deadlifts

…

205lbs x 4
215lbs x 3
225lbs x 2
235lbs x 1
belt
245lbs x 1
255lbs x 1
260lbs x 1 <–this moved way better than last time , so I was satisfied enough to stop there .
Last time I felt like, oh god, I don’t think I can ever pull this again
This time felt like, oh, good, it wasn’t a fluke before :laughing:

paused deadlifts
`beltless

205lbs x 3 sets of 3
210lbs x 2 sets of 2
220lbs x 1 set of 1

Prob. the best paused deads have ever felt actually

bent over row (over hand grip) SS two arm DB row

75lbs/25lbs
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10
x 12/ x 15

kayak row SS straight bar pull down
drop sets

35lbs/35lbs
x 8arm/ x 8
30lbs/30lbs
x 10arm/ x 10
25lbs/25lbs
x 10arm/ x 10
20lbs/20lbs
x 10arm/ x 20

ropey bi curl SS EZ bar curl

20lbs/45lbs

x 12/ x 10
x 12/ x 10
x 12/ x 10
norest

hammer strength front pull down machine

40lbs
x 12
x 12
x 12

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

K maybe be brave enough to try 261lbs next singles day Lolll

bYE

544

Even though you can’t see us . . .

Also,

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545

Lol W/E

Today was epic perfectionness

bench press

125lbs x 10
125lbs x 10
125lbs x 10

Super long paused bench

120lbs x 4 sets of 4

seated DB press SS Arnold press SS one arm DB lateral raise while the other arm iso holds

32.5lbs/17.5lbs/7.5lbs
x 10/ x 10/ x 10arm + 10 both arms
x 10/ x 10/ x 10arm + 10 both arms
x 10/ x 10/ x 10*arm + 10 both arms

rear delt DB fly partials SS rear delt DB fly

27.5lbs/10lbs
x 15/ x 12
x 15/ x 12
x 15/ x 12

one arm Db tri kick back
10lbs
x 10arm
x 10arm

ropey tri ext
drop sets

30lbs x 8
25lbs x 10
20lbs x 12

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

Well, anyway

Aside from feeling horribly sleep deprived, I feel pretty good.

almost day off time!!
BYE

546

K two GgGGgGggreat days in a row pour moi!! :smile:

Low bar squats

135lbs x 8
155lbs x 6
175lbs x 4
belt
185lbs x 4
190lbs x 3 sets of 4

high bar paused squats beltless

165lbs x 3 sets of 3
175lbs x 2 sets of 2
180lbs x 1

ropey cable pull through SS barbell hip thrust SS straight leg cable ass kick back

30lbs/115lbs/15lbs
x 15/ x 15/ x 15ass
x 15/ x 15/ x 15ass
x 15/ x 15/ x 15*ass

leg spreader
115lbs
x 12
x 12
x 12
1 drop
70lbs x 20 partials

lying leg curl SS seated leg curl w/pause at the bottom

65lbs/70lbs
x 8/ x 8
x 8/ x 8
x 8/ x 8

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

K whoop

Gotta good feelin’ about training productivity this week, folks.

Went to bed last night at 7 and slept until 4:30!!! Felt so good . I felt like I had 1000000 dreams that were hours long. :relaxed:

uh

BEY
BYE

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547

Just an idea: have you considered tracking when you have runs of above average sessions; and below average ones? I did for a while and it looked a lot like they came around on a kind of cycle.

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548

no, but that’s a super good idea!! :grinning:

549

K surprisingly good deadlifts today even though I stayed up late and had wine last night :open_mouth:
ONE WHOLE GLASS
WEll most of it
I couldn’t finish it
I probably had like half of it

NEWAY

deadlifts

185lbs x 6
215lbs x 6
belt
225lbs x 6
230lbs x 6 <–it was either that, or do 225lbs x 4 sets of 6 to improve
I chose to just suck it up and do 230
Also peed a little
W/E

deficit deadlifts ~Beltless

205lbs x 3 sets of 3
215lbs x 2 sets of 2
225lbs x 1 set of 1

t bar row SS seated row cable
bar ++ 50lbs/70lbs
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12
norest

one arm lat pull down SS front pull down

42.5lbs/27.5lbs
x 6arm/ x 12
x 6arm/ x 12
x 6*arm/ x 12

ropey bi curl SS incline DB curl

25lbs/15lbs
x 8/ x 8
x 10/ x 8
x 12/ x 8

wide straight arm pull down w/slow neg

25lbs x 20
30lbs x 20

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

So not perfect, a few reps lost upper back tightness, but overall not awful?!!

LOL @ my inability to praise myself

KBETY
BYE

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550

Nicely done. (here is to 20 characters)

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551

K awesome shiz again!!

bench press

125lbs x 5
130lbs x 5
135lbs x 5

incline DB press (all reps paused at bottom)

40lbs x 12
40lbs x 2 sets of 10

hammer strength incline press machine (one arm at a time)

45lbs
x 8arm
x 8arm
25lbs
x 12 partials *arm

EZ bar cable tri EX ss one arm DB tri kick back

42.5lbs/12.5lbs
x 10/ x 8arm
x 10/ x 8arm
x 12/ x 10*arm

one arm DB press SS lying DB squeeze press

35lbs/10lbs
x 8arm/ x 15
x 8arm/ x 15

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

My weeks seem to be like :

Normal volume
Insane volume
no volume but one super intense set
repeat

this is while my workout routine is amaze-balls
it dictates itself into something totally awesome and then when I realize what it’s done I am in awe of how much sense it makes…
:heart_eyes:

KBYE

552

Smooooth sailin’ cont.

All things Beltless **

High bar squats

155lbs x 10
165lbs x 10
175lbs x 10

low bar paused squats

155lbs x 2 sets of 5
165lbs x 3
175lbs x 2 sets of 2

front squats

115lbs x 3 sets of 4

ass machine

115lbs
x 10 1&1/2 reps *ass
x 10 1&1/2 reps *ass

single leg ext SS leg press machine
50lbs/170lbs
x 8leg/ x 12
x 8leg/ x 12
x 8*leg/ x 12

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

NE way things are going good
MYWORLDISWHOLEAGAIN :relaxed:

BYE

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Allrighty then, first day of fractional plates was a success !

Military press

80lbs x 8
81lbs x 8
82lbs x 2 sets of 8

close grip bench press

105lbs x 2 sets of 6
115lbs x 4
120lbs x 2 sets of 2

DB lateral raise w/pause at the top SS DB lateral raise

7.5lbs/10lbs
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10

zerorest

incline rear delt plate fly SS DB rear delt fly

5lbs/17.5lbs
x 20/ x 15
x 20/ x 15
x 20/ x 15
norest

plate raises

35lbs x 25
25lbs x 25

nottarest

ropey tri ext. SS reverse grip D handle tri ex. SS cable tri ext.

25lbs/10lbs/5lbs
x 12/ x 10arm/ x 15arm
x 12/ x 10arm/ x 15arm
x 12/ x 10arm/ x 15arm

you guessed it, Norest

basically did all my accessory shit non stop and pump-tastic, twas fun it was…

Uh ya…K see ya

BYE

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Man oh man, what a wudnerbar week of lifting

Deadlifts

205lbs x 3
215lbs x 3
225lbs x 3
belt
240lbs x 3 sets of 3

this time instead of doing paused deadlifts I decided to try doing speedy deadlifts, cause the last thing I need is to reinforce my snails pace pulls, Lol. Worked out well anyway…

185lbs x 3 sets of 5

Felt hard in a totally new way which I really enjoyed, so maybe this will be a perm. change

bent over row (underhand grip) SS one arm DB row

95lbs/40lbs
x 8/ x 8arm
x 8/ x 10arm
x 8/ x 12*arm

kayak row SS straight arm pull down SS lat pull down with the wide seated row cable handle W/E

25lbs/25lbs/70lbs
x 10arm/ x 10/ x 10
x 10arm/ x 10/ x 10
x 10*arm/ x 10/ x 10
notrest

incline DB curl SS close grip straight BB curl

12.5lbs/30lbs
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12

ropey bi curl
drop sets

25lbs x 8
20lbs x 8
15lbs x 8

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

BYE

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555

k today was neither perfect or awful

So it was medium …

Bench press

116lbs x 15
116lbs x 14
115lbs x 14

Ideally I wanted all 15’s, obvs. and maybe coulda had it on the second set, but no spotter, so ya… Pushing through bench reps is the hardest struggle cause you can take a second before a squat or a dead and then make the lift, with bench taking that extra minute just makes u more tired cause you’re holding the damn weight. W/E

paused bench

125lbs x 4 sets of 2

not even super long pauses either, just normal. Didn’t have the confidence, so did what I could.

Seated DB press SS Arnold press

25lbs/25lbs
x 12/ x 8
x 12/ x 6
x 12/ x 6

one arm DB lateral raise while the other arm iso holds SS DB incline front raise

5lbs/5lbs
x 10arm + 10 both arms/ x 12
x 10arm + 10 both arms/ x 12

rear delt DB fly palms facing SS rear delt DB fly palms facing inwwards SS standing rear delt DB fly palms facing

20lbs/10lbs/10lbs

x 10/ x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10/ x 10

norest

triangle cable tri ext. SS one arm DB tri kick back

30lbs/10lbs
x 10/ x 8arm
x 12/ x 8arm
x 15/ x 10*arm

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

So ya, not the best, but at least I didn’t crap out at like 12 reps or something, 14 is close to 15…

uh

BYE

556

k back on the train of awesome perfection

Low bar squats

135lbs x 6
155lbs x 6
175lbs x 3
belt
185lbs x 3
190lbs x 3
195lbs x 3

low bar paused squats ``beltless

145lbs x 5
165lbs x 2 sets of 3
175lbs x 2

one leg on bench cable ass backs

10lbs x 10 1&1/2 reps ass
15lbs x 2 sets of 10ass

barbell hip thrusts SS ropey cable pull throughs

155lbs/30lbs
x 10/ x 20
155lbs/35lbs
x 10/ x 20
x 10/ x 20

lying leg curl w/slow neg SS seated leg curl

50lbs/85lbs
x 8/ x 8
x 8/ x 8 + 2 drop, 70lbs x 8, 55lbs x 10

single leg curl
20lbs
x 12leg
x 12leg

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

K squats felt amazing. I widened my stance a little and it was the least crooked/most glute usey they have ever felt :relaxed:

So yesterday was Fckd up

I got an assessment from a new massage lady and she was all like and this is tilted and this is crooked and this is shifted and yadda yadda HEY CROOKED GURL HOW U DOOOOOin
like
Gah
I know my shit is messed just hurt me for an hour and make me less tight

SO then I felt sad
as per my norm when it comes to stuff like this
and it got my thinkin like

K powerlifting is my saviour, not my abuser. I can’t realistically see myself working out 7 days a week, 365 days a year for the rest of my life. Why does it have to be like that now? Why cant I take rest days, like a normal human being? Would sleep not be more beneficial than getting up at 3 am, having an off day, and feeling like a miserable shit until bedtime?
Right so
I whited out my entire august calendar and ima re plan my stuff
Like I am foreseeing at least 3 days that would be really good days to have off from the gym and sleep instead
also plz one day where NOCARDIO FFffffffffff

All it will make me is emotionally uncomfortable
which I am anyway when I get no sleep and have a shitty workout
SAME DISCOMFORT
but one option makes me better and one option makes me hurt

so I know I’ve said it before, or attempted it before anyway, but I really want to be mentally strong about this and look at it from a healthy perspective
Rest and sleep and lifting and happiness

NEWAY

In news that K F P is gonna come in here like a creep in the wind and insult me about :

Marshall asked me to be his girlfriend

Well, three years ago when we first started getting together we made up a code word he could use to say he was ready to date me without us having to have a huge drawn out mushy conversation about it
It was “Luigi”
Just say luigi and ill know you’re ready
So we were texting and honestly never in my life did I think this would ever actually happen. I mean a tiny part of me has literally been waiting years, but he asked if I wanted to go out
I was like well I can’t tonight
he was like…
…
I meant as in be my girlfriend
I was like WATTHEFUCK U JUST SAID LUIGI AND I JUST SAID NO?!!?

He said ya and then he sent this adorable txt pic of luigi and was like thinking holy shit what is happening

So I slept not a wink last night. WEll, spurts of sleep in between a 10 hour long panic attack like WHAT ABOUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH POWERLIFTING THO?

Like I am going to have to have balance
and that terrifies me
cause I am unbalanced and mental
just proof that my anxiety is extreme on each end whether it be happiness or sadness I lose my shit

I dunno
I am thrilled and scared and happy and worried and not even sure what I want cause I don’t want to be alone my whole life but I don’t want to cheat on powerlifting ?!! WTF SELF?!

SO ya
kBYE

557

K 2day was an epic pile of pure weakness shitty craptastic awful…

today sucked.

oh and this will be a long ass post so bite me.

I am going to back track and re cap and bring you up to speed on where I’m at in this particular minute

So the past couple weeks have been pretty good marshall wise, like dates etc… and spending lots of time together and texting all day and him being a decent human being. Far beyond what my low expectations for him are anyway .
Saturday AM: I woke up with anxiety just because of a bad feeling in my gut thinking like, wow, I’m going to be in love with someone who’s really horrible for me for the rest of my life, aren’t I? Like good this week, awful the next. Happy, sad, thrilled, distraught. It’s just life. Forever. Saturday’s workout was awful just cause my emotions weren’t in a good place and I decided before work it would be a WONDERFUL idea to creep his ex girlfriend. So there was some quiz on her FB like “how often does (INSERT HER NAME HERE) need to get laid”, and she tagged him in it.
So I was like bro. You’re fucking us both ? Do I not want to know?
And hes like, ya you prob. don’t want to know but its not as bad as you think.
Then I felt all cold and shaky and awful like I was gonn’ die.
So Saturday night he texts me and pours his heart out saying what can I do to make this better how can I fix this, you’re so great and I am so not. You’re too good for me blah blah. I’m done with my ex and then the whole luigi thing happened and my heart was like HOMYGOD I never thought he’d do this?! 3 years of hoping and disappointment and he finally says it?!
THen we made plans go to out on a date sunday night.
Sunday morning basically he recanted… Because he was drunk. So he takes back his luigi and he actually has plans on sunday but says he will ditch out on them early to be with me
So I get my hair done cause I’m a stupid girl and I clean shit cause I’m a stupid girl
And I feel somewhat calm all day not really thinking about all that’s happened and how hurt I actually feel
Sunday night and he stands me up for drunken buddy times only to txt me at like 10 for a booty call etc. w/e I was asleep
Before bed everything hit me about how broken my heart feels and how awful it is for a person to do that to another person
and my emotions are extreme all the time, I feel everything 10 fold what a normal person would so it was like
misery
extreme happiness beyond my wildest dreams
then it was taken away 10hrs later
extreme sad
sadder
sadder
saddest
wanna die
awful sleep

and now today’s awful workout
was supposed to deadlift but didn’t have the energy so I benched and apparently didn’t have the energy for that either

115lbs x 6
125lbs x 4
130lbs x 2
135lbs x 2
140lbs x 1
141lbs x 1
140lbs x 1
131lbs x 3
*everything felt like 2222000000000000lbs x’s100000000000000

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

incline DB press SS standing plate squeeze
32.5lbs/10lbs
x 8paused/ x 15
x 8paused/ x 15
x 8*paused/ x 15

facepulls

20lbs
x 15
x 20
x 25

incline rear delt DB fly palms facing inwards straight into palms facing each other
7.5lbs
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10

DB tri ext drop sets
17.5lbs x 8
15lbs x 8
12.5lbs x 8
10lbs x 8
7.5lbs x 10

reverse grip d handle tri ext.
10lbs
x 12arm
x 12arm

One of the worst things about all this is I feel incapable of being angry at him. All I feel is angry at myself, and sad.
I feel like a loser
and a door mat
and weak
I feel like a weak woman
and I feel ashamed that I’m a weak woman
So basically 1000 lbs of negative feelings about myself all piled up on top of me …

And if he drunkenly said luigi again tomorrow I’d probably buy it all again

I just don’t understand why Jenn hates me is all, I guess.

Anyway

BYE

558

I was wrong to suggest that it be over with him in 4 months.
It only took 2 weeks.
I think you were the only one who failed to see disaster was imminent.

559

I have been reading this and all I can say is Wow! Take an old fool’s advice. He is a piece of shit you do not need in your life. Please don’t waste another minute on beating yourself up over a loser. You are beautiful, smart, and strong. He is not worthy. The next time he sends a picture of Luigi send him one back of Bowser and tell him to Fuck off!

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560

What I don’t understand is why a person would go through so much trouble just for sex? Why spend years of your life emotionally crippling someone when you can easily get pussy from other places?
It doesn’t make sense to me…

I guess it’s just hard for me to believe that someone could be so manipulative and awful as I could never in my life fathom treating someone in such a horrible way…

NEWAY yesterday was a long, shitty day.

I slept from 7pm-5:30am. Pity parties are exhausting, I guess.

Better workout today at least

Deadlifts

205lbs x 5
215lbs x 5
belt
225lbs x 5
232lbs x 2 sets of 5

deficit deadlifts ~beltless

210lbs x 3 sets of 3

T bar row SS latpull down w/slow neg SS ropey pulldown

bar + 75lbs/27.5lbs/30lbs
x 10/ x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10 x 10
x 10/ x 10/ x 10

one arm lat pull down w/pause SS front pull down

27.5lbs/27.5lbs
x 8arm/ x 8
x 8arm/ x 8
x 8*arm/ x 8

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

bicep curl machine
50lbs x 10 slow neg
50lbs x 10slow neg
50lbs x 12

alternating DB curl straight into hammer curl
drop sets
10lbs x 10arm → x 10
7.5lbs x 12arm → x 12

Done.

Went to bed last night thinkin’ like, I don’t want to be this Jenn.
This Jenn has devoted her entire life to one endeavour and gives it her all 7 days a week, 365 days a year, and then berates herself over minor imperfections and “off” days.
This Jenn allows people to treat her horribly and then apologizes to them for feeling upset about it
This Jenn as darn near impossible to live with and is driving me crazy

Honestly a weird part of me was thrilled at the idea of having a boyfriend because I felt like it would be a vacation from myself. OH GOOD! I get to be normal now. I get to go out and have balanced and a life and I get to do all the things that “normal” people get to do.
What does that say about the way I live my life?

A large part of the disappointment came when I realized, oh shit, now I have to just keep being me and not changing :confused:

So of course thinking those negative thoughts just made my anxiety worse so I started making a list in my head of all the stuff that makes me happy
Powerlifting
making gabe happy
baths with Epsom salts
massages
going for walks with my mom
going to wal mart and spending 60 dollars on stuff that I didn’t need
scrabble
sleep
supper time

I get to do these things constantly
I can work on having balance without a boy it’s just a matter of actually putting the effort in to fight harder against my demons I suppose

And on that note I ordered a sling shot to help my stalling bench press
So there’s hope for that
among other things

BYE

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I dont think you are doing yourself any justice by constantly revisiting things with this person. Cut bait and keep moving. This guy sounds like a douche who does not want to commit so he plays your feelings (and you) so he can get to the vag. I think you need to finally make up your mind and accept its over; close the door and can begin to move on. You are torturing yourself by allowing him to constantly come back into the picture; but then again it sounds like you are leaving the door open for his return. Slam the door, lose his number and focus on yourself and your son. Even if that means masturbating until you go blind but for the sake of sanity; cut this dude off once and for all.

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