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K broke my streak, Lol…

Today sucked :sob:

Low bar squats

135lbs x 8
155lbs x 5
175lbs x 5
belt
185lbs x 5
190lbs x 2 sets of 5 ← first set here felt great, but last rep on second set was weight shifty weird so I got upset…
I knew I didn’t have another set of 5 in me so I did some singles

195lbs x 1
200lbs x 1
205lbs x 1

tester set 190lbs x 4 <–wanted 5 obvs, but I didn’t want to push my luck

high bar paused squats ~~beltless

155lbs x 2 sets of 4
165lbs x 2 sets of 3

ropey cable pull through SS barbell hip thrust SS bent leg cable ass kick back

30lbs/165lbs/15lbs
x 20/ x 8/ x 12ass
x 20/ x 8/ x 12ass
x 20/ x 8/ x 12*ass

seated leg curl SS lying leg curl
85lbs/50lbs
x 8/ x 8
x 8/ x 8
x 8/ x 8

leg spreader
85lbs
x 20
x 20
x 20

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

Ya, so…lame …

190 is to squat what 140 is to bench what 220 is to deadlifts…

Prob. should have scheduled 4’s for today and done like 4 sets and put 5’s for a few weeks down the road when I coulda easily done more volume

W/E/

HULKSMASH

BYE

523

K back on the gain train…

Bench press

115lbs x 6
125lbs x 4
130lbs x 4
135lbs x 4 sets of 4

incline DB press (paused at bottom)

37.5lbs
x 10
x 10
x 8

40lbs (not paused)
x 8

hammer strength chest press machine (one arm at a time)
rest pause set

30lbs
x 12, 11, 10, 9, 8*arm

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

ropey tri ext SS one arm cable tri ext.

25lbs/10lbs
x 10. x 8arm
x 10/ x 8arm
x 10/ x 8*arm

2 arm DB tri ext.

drop sets

20lbs x 8
15lbs x 10
10lbs x 12

K still sad about yesterday’s squats

I think I am going to change things a little bit like…

instead of high bar high rep + low bar paused // high bar low rep + low bar paused one week and
low bar high rep, high bar low rep paused/// low bar low rep high bar low rep paused following week

ima do it

high bar high rep + low bar higher-ish (4-8) one workout and low bar low rep + high bar low rep next workout
cause high bar high rep feels good, and high bar paused low rep feels good, and heavy low bar feels better than heavy high bar and uh… lighter low bar paused helps activate the glutes in the movement better
ya…

I know what I’m talking about
maybe

even if no one else does

if you can hear this sound inside my head, sounds like a fuckin’ drive by

(lyrics)
(slim)
(shady)

chicka

so whatever
benching felt good though

for low rep sets I hold my breath and it helps me stay tighter
BYE

524

K PRETTY Happy whoops caps

k pretty happy with deadlifts today

205lbs x 5
215lbs x 5
belt
230lbs x 3 sets of 5

deficit deadlifts ~Beltless

225lbs x 3 sets of 2
205lbs x 2 sets of 4

bent over row (overhand grip) SS 2 arm DB row SS 2 D-handle lat pull down

85lbs/25lbs/70lbs
x 6/ x 10/ x 8
x 6/ x 10/ x 8
x 8/ x 12/ x 10

kayak row SS straight arm pull down
drop sets
30lbs
x 8arm/ x 8
25lbs
x 10arm/ x 10
20lbs
x 12*arm/ x 12

incline DB curl SS close grip barbell curl

12.5lbs/40lbs
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

VOLUME is the name of the game right now friends, keep adding volume until I know I can add weight

Last 5’s day I got 230 for 2 sets of 5 and I thought my head was going to explode on the second set…
this time I didn’t think my head was going to explode until the 4th rep of the 3rd set :sunglasses:

In feb/march I got 210 for 1 set of 5 and I hated every rep, LOlz @ weak shit

Progress///patience !!!

But they mostly felt pretty good so I am fairly confident I will do 1 set of 5 next time at 235 until I can volumize that

and in a year I will be doing 265 for 5 sets of 5

THIS JOURNEY CAN TAKE FOREVER

I DONT CARE
:heart_eyes:

I had a dream about a verse
it’s an epic verse so I shall share it with my cyber friends for no reason

The thought of retiring
Is makin’ me want to set your daughter on fire with a soldering iron
WHat up mom, applyin’ for the rim job, are you hirin’?
I’m hopin’ to fill up your opening
Oh but I know I gotta meet a lot of requirements

K the rest tomorrow LOL

REQUIEMENTS SOME HOW RHYMS WITH SOLDERING IRON
AND RETIRING
AHh AHhhhhhhhhh

Marshall magic

MM

EMINEM MM

KBEY
BYE

525

K hadda lotta fun for my recovery workout today.

Military press

70lbs x 12
75lbs x 12
75lbs x 12

This felt surprisingly comfortable… Even though I was totally emotionally prepared for it to feel awful. NopE!

close grip bench press

115lbs x 3 sets of 4
125lbs x 2 sets of 2

one arm DB lateral raise SS two arm DB lateral raise W/pause at top

12.5lbs/7.5lbs
x 10arm/ x 10
x 12arm/ x 12
x 15*arm/ x 15

plate raises

25lbs x 10
35lbs x 20
25lbs x 15

rear delt DB fly SS rear delt DB fly with sorta pause

20lbs/10lbs
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12

norest

uhh what else

EZ bar cable tri ext SS one arm DB tri kick back

42.5lbs/12.5lbs
x 10/ x 8arm
x 10/ x 8arm
x 10/ x 8*arm

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

Yesterday was a weird ass day emotionally

Well, weird for me even .

It’s interesting, with all of the crazy-ness inside my head I typically don’t have depression without a reason.
I was depressed in high school cause I got bullied
I got depressed after I had gabe with all his daddy drama
I got depressed when Marshall destroyed my soul
But I never just got depressed cause I’m chemically imbalanced

But lately I’ve been feeling really sad for no reason

Yesterday started out well, and I felt positive for my whole workout, but then later I felt sad thinking my workout sucked
THen I felt sad that I felt sad for no reason
and I felt sad that I keep having to feel sad for no reason and upset with myself that I feel sad, and then sad that I’m upset with myself

I WANT TO BE NORMAL
I said to myself as I was pacing around my house fighting off my demons

But to be normal would be the greatest tragedy of all…

But I miss some things
Some things when my anxiety wasn’t so limiting

I miss not being afraid of being out in the evening
and I miss not being able to drive places that are more than 30 minutes away because I can’t sit for extended periods of time

Then at the end of the day yesterday I had to have my quarterly review with my boss and I felt like he was kinda saying I sucked at my job because of all this retailing banking stuff

Banking just isn’t banking anymore friends
Now I have to walk around the lobby with an Ipad and offer to give you demo’s …
Which makes me feel like an awkward lunatic, and I am very bad at it
I am very good at the one on one bonding
But stick me out there and make me approach people FOR-GET-IT!
So then I was bummed about that
Then the second I got home gabe was nagging at me and making me feel like shit for booking a massage on my day off and not doing some huge fun thing with him. Then he said he’d rather go to the water park with his friend and not me. UHG stab me right where I’m sensitive.
Then he nattered at my about my inability to drive in the city cause I’m a chick shit awful driver

SO in conclusion :
I felt sad for no reason and then I felt REALLY sad for LOts of reasons

Also I think I got like 2 minutes of sleep last night maybe :cold_sweat:

KBYE

526

Hang in there kid.
It never gets easier, you just get stronger.

At least you know yourself well and keep battling the demons.

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527

Selye’s General adaptive theory. Stress, recovery, make the world your bitch.

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528

In a nutshell. I think everyone comes to a point in their life where they have to make a choice between rolling over and dying or getting back up and fighting. You’ve already made the choice, so you can be confident that no matter how much you get hurt and beat down you will get back up and fight. It doesn’t mean doing so will be easy or pleasant, it just means you will do it.

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529

Thanks for the encouragement friends.

I kinda feel like I’ve been fighting off a cold for a while, IDK.
Maybe even though I am still able to get stronger and push through tough sets, my recovery isn’t as it should be right now.

I also am pretty bummed that I don’t get two days off in a row all summer, and I find it hard to find any time to rest on my days off cause they be up filled up with chores :confused:

W/E did what I planned to do today

~All things beltless

High bar squats

135lbs x 8
155lbs x 8
165lbs x 8
175lbs x 8

Low bar paused squats

145lbs x 2 sets of 6
155lbs x 5
160lbs x 2 sets of 4

Made sure those were 100% glute cause that was the whole purpose of going lighter
ASS
ACTIVIATE

front squats

135lbs x 3 sets of 2

ass machine
130lbs
x 10ass
x 10ass
x 10*ass

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

leg ex SS seated leg press machine
70lbs/150lbs
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12

Called it a day there.

my feelings are like:
Before : I love squatting I cant wait to squat
while warming up : THis feels awful my hips hate me
Last set: oh my god this is uncomfortable I am amazing
After last set: That was da bomb ima be squat queen someday
Five minutes after last set : that was gay, you should have added more weight…

le sigh…

what was that I saw one time, a satisfied athlete is the worst kind of athlete

been a really long dream of mine to be comfortably repping 185 so let’s do this thing!!!

BYE

530

Keep an eye on that. Everyone has periods where recovery isn’t quite up to par, but if it starts persisting that can become an issue. It sounds familiar to what used to happen to me last year when I generally trained in 12 week blocks - by week eight or nine I’d feel pretty beat up even though I wasn’t missing lifts or anything. I know you just had a deload, but I’d suggest that if this persists beyond a few days to deload again.

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531

very sound advice , as always!!

532

k today was epic shittary x’s 50000 sets of a million…

:sob:

So basically I woke up last night at like 12:30 and it took me hours to get back to sleep, HOURS!
There were times when I thought I might not get back to sleep at all before my 4am alarm and I’d pretty much want to die…

Lots of time to think, anyway…

Like, realizing I have to put up with myself for the next 40 or so years,and I Jenn and I really need to learn how to get along. Cause dats a helluva long time to be fightin’ and bickerin’ day in day out.

And why must I put powerlifting before myself and before my own happiness ? What’s the fucking point if it makes me miserable ?!

I have known for at least a month now that I should probably take some weight off my training maxes and start progressing more slowly, half a year before a reset is GOOD!! Shoulda done it before shit got awful and overwhelming.

Basically thinking like 5lbs off bench, 10lbs off deads, and 10-15 off squats

Build back up from there at a slower pace and reset once again in 4-5 months depending on how things feel.

So today’s pathetic-ness

Bench press

120lbs x 12
125lbs x 11 ← you can clearly see how early on things went wrong here
120lbs x 10 <— felt like napping instead of pressing :confused:

paused bench

115lbs x 5
130lbs x 1 ← I was like, k fuck it, by this point , this should not feel this heavy

Arnold press SS seated DB press SS seated DB lateral raises

20lb/20lbs/10lbs
x 10/ x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10/ x 10

bent over rear delt DB fly SS incline plate rear delt fly

12.5lbs/5lbs
x 15/ x 20
x 15/ x 20
x 15/ x 20
norest

ropey tri ex drop sets

35lbs x 8
30lbs x 10
25lbs x 12
20lbs x 15

reverse grip d handle tri ext.

10lbs
x 8arm
x 10arm

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

K lame

…

But too tired to really be worked up about it as per my NORM

I want sleep
and rest
and relaxing-ness
and unconditional self-love

But mostly pancakes

BEY
BYE

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533

Ha, I make awesome pancakes, lol

Every other weekend when I have my kids.

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534

welp, spent all day at work yesterday day dreaming about snuggling up in my precious bed, and ended up having a bunch of sex instead #beastmode

K so first day with reduced numbers worked out pretty well

deadlifts

185lbs x 4
215lbs x 2
225lbs x 2
belt
235lbs x 3 sets of 2

not as fast as I had hoped them to be, but considering I’ve had like 4 minutes of sleep in the past 2 days and I feel like death they moved pretty well

paused deadlifts ~Beltless

185lbs x 2 sets of 4
205lbs x 3
215lbs x 2 sets of 1

bent over row (underhand grip) SS one arm DB row

95lbs/40lbs
x 10/ x 10arm
x 10/ x 10arm
x 10/ x 10*arm

seated DB curl SS hammer curl

17.5lbs/10lbs
x 8arm/ x 10
x 8arm/ x 12
x 8*arm/ x 15

one arm lat pull down SS front pull down

27.5lbs/27.5lbs
x 12arm/ x 12
x 12arm/ x 12

step mill intervals x 20 minutes

K ya, actually looking forward to building my weights back up at a somewhat more reasonable pace
and looking forward to going in to basically a whole month of workouts knowing the numbers I have to hit are totally doable and ain’t even gonn’ be remotely ugly.

Like today, for example, I got to really focus on pushing the floor away with my weaker leg so things felt more balanced and whatnot…yeah…

I dunno

Is it time for bed yet?

BYE

535

K enough of all my pissin’, moanin’, whinnin’ and bitchin’.

I got gainz to make
And it seems to me my lack of confidence is what’s holding me back and not so much my lack of recovery .

Today was great…

Low bar squats

135lbs x 6
155lbs x 3
165lbs x 3
175lbs x 2
belt
185lbs x 2
190lbs x 2
195lbs x 2
200lbs x 4 sets of 2

high bar paused squats ~beltless

155lbs x 6
165lbs x 2 sets of 4
175lbs x 2 sets of 2

ropey cable pull through SS barbell hip thrusts

35lbs/135lbs
x 20/ x 10
x 25/ x 12
x 30/ x 15

One leg on bench cable ass kick backs
10lbs
x 10 1&1/2 reps *ass
x 10 1&1/2 reps *ass

leg spreader
drop sets

160lbs x 6
130lbs x 8
100lbs x 10
70lbs x 12
55lbs x 15 + 15 partials

lying leg curl
55lbs x 8 *slow neg
55lbs x 8 *slow neg
70lbs x 8

single leg curl
25lbs
x 12leg
x 12leg

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

So not as deep as they should be, but more volume than before and depth will come with confidence.

Not too bad though??? ?
??

I don’t know why no one told me this, (could be because no one even knew, LOL) but apparently talking melatonin for long periods of time can increase anxiety and depression?!?!
In certain individuals

Individuals that are prone to such things
(JENN’S?!?)
(CRAZY JENN’S?!)

Anyway, stopped that shit, feel like myself for the first time in forever
Gah.

Welcome back brain function

BYE

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536

Depth looked good, squat looked good. You’re gaining on two plates!

New shoes?

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537

Thanks!! I am really thinking I will be there by Christmas time !

Had those shoes for a couple months now maybe, truly the best shoes I’ve ever squatted in since I am a hamstring dominant squatter

538

K today was aiiiight dawgs

Bench press

120lbs x 5
130lbs x 4
135lbs x 3 sets of 3
140lbs x 2 <–of course cause three is apparently always asking too much…
135lbs x 4 sets of 3

so 135lbs x 7 sets of 3 basically, a volume PR until that mother F$#($#)( rep PR is mine!! :rage:

Incline DB press SS one arm DB press SS lying DB squeeze press
30lbs/30lbs/10lbs
x 12paused/x 8arm/ x 15
x 10paused/x 8arm x 15
x 10paused/ x 8arm/ x 20

hammer strength incline press machine (one arm at a time)

30lbs
x 12arm
x 12arm
20lbs
x 12 partials *arm
Ha, typed ass first

ropey tri ext. SS reverse grip D handle cable tri ext.

30lbs/10lbs
x 8/ x 8arm
x 10/ x 10arm
x 12/ x 12*arm

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

K didn’t get wigged out too much today, just put the volume work in after the 140 attempt cause I know dats gonn’ get me there sooner or later.

At least I am fairly confident now that I can bench 135 for forever if need be…

So what else…

Life news
:

I actually have some
some that you might not like
or might not care about cause WTF ya’ll ain’t never met me , LOL

Oh, well, Jonty’s met me but he’s basically MIA

K anyway,
Uhg, nervous

Marshall is back around

We went out for dinner
YES I WENT OUT FOR DINNER

It’s funny, after all these years he’s still my Helen hunt.
Like I said so long ago, from the movie as good as it gets…
Helen Hunt made Jack Nicolson want to take his OCD medication
She made him want to be a better man
He makes me want my OCD to go away so I can be normal and happy

Anyway, I digress

We went out for dinner and it was really nice
He said he wished he was boyfriend material for my sake, cause I’m a good chick
I said I don’t want a boyfriend
He said I was lying and yes I do, and I want companionship

I said okay…
I want a boyfriend, but I’m busy… I don’t want to have to feel obligated to go out all the time or put someone before my workouts. I just want a part-time boyfriend
And he’s like
Oh… we’ll I am definitely your part-time boyfriend
So there
I have a part time boyfriend, I guess

It’s not awful right now. I am going to enjoy the fact that in this moment it’s good

And well, ya, that’s all for now kiddies

BYE

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K today not too shabby

deadlifts

185lbs x 4
215lbs x 4
belt
225lbs x 4
230lbs x 4
235lbs x 2 sets of 4

deficit deadlifts Beltless

~~

215lbs x 2 sets of 3
225lbs x 2
230lbs x 2 sets of 1

t bar row SS ropey cable pull down
bar + 75lbs / 30lbs
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 12
x 10/ x 15

sitting side ways lat pull down SS cable station lat pull down

25lbs/25lbs
x 15arm/ x 15
x 15arm/ x 15
x 15*arm/ x 15

cable D handle bi curl SS hammer curl

10lbs/ 15lbs
x 10arm/ x 10
x 10arm/ x 10
x 10*arm/ x 10
Norest

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

hmm…

Shoulda done more

More back shit or something …

Right.

N E WAY
ORDERED fractional plates to keep my progress train moving at a snails pace for all eternity

I AIN’T neva gonn’ stop moving forward

BEY
BYE

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540

Simply astounding you would let this guy Marshall enter your life again after he made you unravel mentally. But humorous that you choose to explain it as a part time boyfriend. And that you reasoned with yourself to have low expectations to explain your poor judgement.Not sure any readers will be surprised at the outcome four months from now.

541

K today was great

I had to switch around my Military press and my squat day cause I have today off and I work way earlier than normal tomorrow so I wanted to enjoy my death by squats and not give a crap about my military press
:stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:

So anyway

All things beltless

High bar squats

145lbs x 12
160lbs x 12
170lbs x 12

low bar paused squats

145lbs x 2 sets of 5
155lbs x 3
165lbs x 2 sets of 2
175lbs x 1

front squats

125lbs x 3 sets of 3

ass machine

140lbs x 8*ass
155lbs x 2 sets of 6 *ass

single leg ext.
one leg iso holds while the other leg reps
50lbs
x 8leg
x 8leg
x 8*leg

seated leg press machine
drop sets

250lbs x 8
170lbs x 10
130lbs x 12

step mill intervals x 20 minutes

so yeah pretty pleased . Really forced myself to connect with my weak, do-nothing leg and it made me feel a lot stronger
Especially with paused squats …

Now if you’ll excuse me my son and I have some pokemon to catch

BYE

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