I’ve totally been checking for updates everyday!! This is most exciting 
Awesome for you spock! and thats like %140 boyfriend/girlfriend (i keep writing one hundred forty percent and tnation keeps changing it to zero?)
Yowdy!
squats
115 x 6
135 x 5
145 x 4
155 x 3
170 x 1
belt
180 x 1
185 x 1
190 x 1 <–Tad knee cavey, but nothing major.
Belt off
5 count paused squats
150 x 3 sets of 2
145 x 2 sets of 3
140 x 4
bench
95 x 5
105 x 3
115 x 3
125 x 2
130 x 1
135 x 1
140 x 1
Super long pause bench
120 x 2 sets of 2
125 x 2
120 x 2 sets of 3 ← The first set might have only been 2, but I really doubt that I am just being mental
115 x 4
Plate side bends
25lbs
1 x 30/side
latpull down with differnt bar thingie
85lb pin
3 x 8
back ext. 1 x 25
K so I’m having a hard time keeping my crazies at bay with all this boy mish mash.
Yesterday I didn’t get any texts from him so I was like OMG he’s thought all this over and realized he wants nothing to do with me. THIS IS sO HEART WRENCHINGLY AWFUl. I like hiM SOOoOOoOoo much more than he likes me. He’s dumping me and we aren’t even really dating yet!!!
So at 9:30 I texted him and I’m like
“I was too scared to text you all day cause I didn’t want you to think I was a clingly psychopath freak, but I just wanted to say hi, so hi”
and he was like
“HOLY CRAP me too…HI”
HAHHAA
Isn’t that so fucking retarded? We were both probably miserable all day checking our phones non-stop and wishing we were hanging out HAHAHahha, uhggggg.
This is going to be one helluva roller coaster. I wish I could be unfucked up. I wish I liked him less or something, why do I have to like him so much? He sometimes sleeps with his thor hammer, the second he told me that I was like, K he’s the most perfect man in the whole world for me.
I CAN"T BE NON-CHALANT because I am so chalant HaaaaaaaaaaaaaH.
I think I can be a really super de duper awesome girlfriend if he was just like “k so we’re boyfriend/girlfriend now and I really like you and will never dump you so you can be confident and chilled.”
I don’t know how you people do this shit, all like, being emotionally attached to people and whatnot? This is difficult.
BE NORMAL BE NORMAL BE NORMAL BE NORMAL
BEEEEEEEEEEEE NORMAL
BYE
Congrats, Spock!
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Deadlifts
135 x 5
185 x 4
195 x 3
205 x 2
215 x 1
belt
235 x 1
245 x 1
255 x 1
270 x 1
[/quote]
Nice heavy day Spock!
I am so happy for you SpockieGurl!
(yes, I am a lurker - does that make me a bad person?)
I’ve heard nonchalant a lot, but you are honestly the first person I have ever seen use chalant haha.
English language PR!
[quote]2busy wrote:
Congrats, Spock![/quote]
HEY THANKS BUDDY!
[quote]Edgy wrote:
I am so happy for you SpockieGurl!
(yes, I am a lurker - does that make me a bad person?)[/quote]
Ha-ha! No, it does not my viking friend. You lurking 'round these parts should make us all feel safe…
K HI FRIENDZILLA’s!
First off
DISCLAIMER:
No one is allow to judge me and/or bad mad at me but you may not fully approve of the following!!
So I could not sleep (again) last night and I started thinking about how it would be really awesome to actually be able to drop REAL weight and feel confident naked etc now that some poor soul actually has to see me naked, (lOL).
I was also thinking that my squat is the fucking most awkward retarded looking thing ever, and you make think that is just paranoia and/or just in my head, but it’s truly the most unnatural feeling for me. I don’t want my squat max to be important to me anymore. I’m tired of caring and worrying so much about it.
SO I AM going full throttle with my diet and cutting way back on carbs and doing a much less powerlifty rountine. I cut back on food and kept powerfting over this past month and I have gained a pound :/. I dunno if it could also be like a cortisol issues because powerlifting makes my mind and body feel kind of mental for a huge part of the day.
I should note that I am not having a frustrated emotional breakdown and I just feel really happy and gung ho.
This time it’s a “I just want to be so fucking magazine girl esq awesome!!” Not like “I FUCKing hate myself and I am so weak life is pointless, wahh”
Big difference.
K so this is kinda what I made up at like 2am last night 
Day 1: Heavy front squat (1-6 rep range) Light back squats (8-15) leg ext. good girl/bad girl machines
Day 2: Back/bi’s start out with chin ups and then pick a few of the million different back excersises out there typicaly in the 8-12 range for that mish mashy
day 3: Intervals
day 4: Heavy flat bench (1-6) then like other chest shit, DB stuff or incline bench or pec fly and triceps
day 5: Heavy deadlifts (1-6) light good mornings, leg curl, and back ext.
day 6: Steady state cardio
day 7: Heavy cleans/presses (1-6) other shoulder accessory (8-15) and rear delts
Abs most days
Yep.
Today:
Front squats
120 x 3
125 x 3
130 x 3
135 x 3
115 x 4
115 x 4
Back squats
Oh, and don’t laugh, I am trying to have like girly pretty perfect form with my back squats because I just hate how fucking ugly they look all the time so I am keeping things embarrassingly light.
SUCK IT
95 x 10
95 x 10
95 x 10
95 x 10
leg ext.
70lb pin
2 x 12
Leg spreader
8, 10, 12
Leg closer
3 x 8 ramped
ab ciruit x 3 rounds 3 diff. exercises.
MKAY
UM so overly personal news:
I started the birth control pill and I feel fucking disgusting. Like I could just vomit all day and I can’t sleep because I feel sick, and if I do sleep I have werid dreams about being poisoned and the ambluance wont come or whatever, yeah.
I’m sure it will go away soon though :D.
Man/boy-dude news: So you know how I am always paranoid that any given day he will cut off all contact with me and we’ll never see each other again? Well yesterday he texted me and he was like “guess what I downloaded?”
ANd I was like “uhh, sim ant?” ANd he was like
“No jurassic park builder”
REALLY awesome looking game that I can’t get cause my phone is lame.
NE WAY
So I said
“OMG I AM SO JEALOUS!”
ANd he said
“I got it for you to play if we hang out and you get bored”
AWEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEE
I told him that was the nicest thing anyone has ever done HAHAHHHA
ANd yes I will be replaying fucking annoying conversations for you all until I get over how FUCKIGN exciting and strange this all is for me.
Honestly, 26 years of being alone and about 13 of those were spent assuming I’d be alone forever and hating humanity because of it, and now I actually think I have a real life boyfriend that is not just a mixture of a really good imagination and an expensive vibrator.
Wakka wakka wakka.
Oh, starting weight:
151.8lbs
BYE
Sounds great Spock!
I’m glad your new BF is thinking of you. You two seem like a great match.
On the leaning out goal, the weights are important but don’t forget about tweaking diet. If you haven’t already just make some basic changes and you should see results. Nothing drastic to start. Just take out as much sugar, juice, bread and cereal as you can.
Reminder to keep the volume low and the weights heavy while on the caloric deficit! Do more free weights!!
Hi!
[quote]giterdone wrote:
I’m glad your new BF is thinking of you. You two seem like a great match.
On the leaning out goal, the weights are important but don’t forget about tweaking diet. If you haven’t already just make some basic changes and you should see results. Nothing drastic to start. Just take out as much sugar, juice, bread and cereal as you can.[/quote]
I don’t eat any sugar, juice, bread or cereal, LOL.
WHY ME FAT, BRO?!!?!?
[quote]strongmanvinny wrote:
Reminder to keep the volume low and the weights heavy while on the caloric deficit! Do more free weights!!
Hi![/quote]
Why hello there!
K stuff:
chin ups
5, 5, 5, 4, 4
drop set of DB row
45 x 6/arm
40 x 6
35 x 7
30 x 8
25 x 12
lat pull down 3 diff/ grips super setted with each other so
12, 12, 12
10, 10, 10
8, 8, 8
standing cable ropey abs
2 x 50
bicep shit supper setted with other bicep shit
SUPPER SETTED HA-HA
Umm…
You people were all wrong wrong wrong about dude being 100% boyfriend.!!!
W-R-O-N-G.
No hard feelings though…ha!
We were texting and I was like
“So do you think maybe in the future if you end up liking me or whatever you would be a boyfriend or something, ha-ha”
And he was all
“Let’s just hang out a bit more first before we come to that destination”
Then I apologized a million times and wanted him to know that I’m not impatient or pushy, I was just curious.
I BET HE IS SCARED of me and wants nothing to do with me now!!
Run away from crazy-wants-commitment-bitch, RUN AND NEVER LOOK BACK!!
We’ll see…
I hate how I ruin stuff all the time. I’m just a big ol’ ruiner.
The truth is, I woulda been content just being like this forever with no label or discussions of “where are we going with this”, why did I even feel the need to ask? It’s not really important. I mean, a dude I like is texting me daily and making plans with me and that’s a huge deal. NEVER SATISFIED I AM.
WELL WHATEVER.
K BYEEEEEEEE
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
The truth is, I woulda been content just being like this forever with no label or discussions of “where are we going with this”, why did I even feel the need to ask? It’s not really important. I mean, a dude I like is texting me daily and making plans with me and that’s a huge deal. NEVER SATISFIED I AM.[/quote]
There’s nothing wrong with wanting him to be your boyfriend Jenn. Most girls I know are like that about boyfriends. If they really like the guy, they would very much like to be able to call him their boyfriend rather than just a “no strings attached” type deal. Just don’t fucking go off the deep end and want him to marry you and shit.
You aren’t in a committed relationship after boning one night and texting a lot for a week. People here are trying to say things that will make you happy.
That being said, I doubt that after the volume of communication you two have had, that asking that question once will be a big deal. You just have to immediately stop bringing it up - no mention of the question (which includes apologizing about asking). Just act like it didn’t happen, have your normal convos and sexin’, and he will think you are totally cool with the “wait and see” approach. After a little bit you’ll go back to how it was before you asked.
No big deal.
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
[quote]giterdone wrote:
I’m glad your new BF is thinking of you. You two seem like a great match.
On the leaning out goal, the weights are important but don’t forget about tweaking diet. If you haven’t already just make some basic changes and you should see results. Nothing drastic to start. Just take out as much sugar, juice, bread and cereal as you can.[/quote]
I don’t eat any sugar, juice, bread or cereal, LOL.
WHY ME FAT, BRO?!!?!?[/quote]
I wish I could say the same, lol. That’s awesome.
Change one thing at a time and see what happens.
You’re not fat.
This log is CRAY.
[quote]csulli wrote:
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
The truth is, I woulda been content just being like this forever with no label or discussions of “where are we going with this”, why did I even feel the need to ask? It’s not really important. I mean, a dude I like is texting me daily and making plans with me and that’s a huge deal. NEVER SATISFIED I AM.[/quote]
There’s nothing wrong with wanting him to be your boyfriend Jenn. Most girls I know are like that about boyfriends. If they really like the guy, they would very much like to be able to call him their boyfriend rather than just a “no strings attached” type deal. Just don’t fucking go off the deep end and want him to marry you and shit.[/quote]
YOU’RE A NICE BOY CHRIS!!!
ANd ya… I think I can do without the marriage talk, LOl.