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Holla friendo’s!

I have an announcement/confession.

Oh, and when I was a kid and about to tell my parents something that I thought they wouldn’t like I’d say
“don’t say anything until I’m done, and I"ll tell you when i’m done”

SOoOo, don’t say anything till I’m done, and I’ll tell you when I’m done.

SOme people enter America’s got talent and think they’re awesome at shit even when they suck.
Some people enter thinking they may have a slight chance and they’ll give it their best shot.
Some people go in knowing that they suck, but think it will be a fun experience.
And SOME PEOPLE go just to be in the audience cause they are sexually attracted to howard sten in a creepy sorta way.

JENN Whoo are you, who who, who who
I really wanna know
whoooo are you

YA so I am clearly the last person.
Panic attacks have been like non-stop since I even printed off the meet forms let alone FILLED THEM OUT.
THis ain’t for me and I am sorry and hope you all still want to be my friend :=(.

I AM AVERAGE AVERAGE AVERAGE lifter girl, and i have TOoOoo much unstable-ness in my life right not to be focusing all my stress energy on a meet.

K SO THERE. DONE.

Also, a girl from the edmonton police service emailed me back and said I’d have to pass the vison test WITHOUT glasses/contacts. Which would be damn near impossible since I’m like blind without my glasses. SO I need a new career path idea and I hate HATE AHTE feeling like I have no future/living at home sorta sucks.

MKAY So ya I am going to once again attempt to stick to a lifting progam, but this time instead of doing it for the sake of being the strongest mo fo on earth, I’ll just do it so I’m not a lazy blob.
ALso started out with insanely light numbers so I can stop crying over my knee cavery. Maybe in like 3-4 years I can squat 150 without knee caving :D.
So yes.
It’s called the juggernautututut (can’t spell) method. I don’t know what I’m the juggerneutneut bitch means, but maybe it’s something I’d like to be.

K TUesday: Swimmming with my mommy 1hr=very humbling
WED: runny/joggy/walky type intervally shit 40 mins/band pull aparts/random abs
Today first day jugger thingie
Squats
95 x 10
95 x 10
95 x 10
95 x 10
95 x 17

Front squats
85 x 5 x 5

leg spreader 3 x 10
hanging knee raises 4 x 10
other random ab shit
15 min stair master cause I saw a girl with a really nice body doing it so I decided it was worthwhile, but at the end I realized it really was not…

UM YA

SO I am really sorry I am so psychotic and stuff and can’t make decisions about anything, but I really jsut like all you people so much so please still like me and stuff ya…

Life news:
Thejonty and I are going on for dinner, I am not sure if i am allowed to tell you guys that cause maybe he will be mad, LOL>
I am going to see if I have any non-ugly clothes to wear, but I sorta doubut it cause last time I checked I hated all my clothes.

BYE

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Hey, no need to apologise to anyone! You lift for you and you alone. No-one is going to respect you less for not competing. You sound like you have a lot on your plate right now, so I can understand why you want to minimise stressors in your life. Seems eminently sensible to me :slight_smile:

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No one here’s gonna be mad you’re not doing the meet, you’re supposed to do it for yourself, and it’s supposed to be fun, so if it was becoming very much not fun, why do it, right?

Re: the vision test ruining your potential career choice, have you considered laser eye surgery / is that an option for your vision problems? While it’s fairly expensive and I can imagine it’d make you anxious, you have a couple years and it could be worth it if it means you can do what you want to do.

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[quote]Spock81 wrote:
SO I am really sorry I am so psychotic and stuff and can’t make decisions about anything, but I really jsut like all you people so much so please still like me and stuff ya…[/quote]

Lol. Being the way you are is the reason everyone likes you in the first place!

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I think you should attend it as a spectator just so you can see how low pressure and supportive the environment is, without worrying about performing.

My 2 cents.

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Cyber hugs N’ snuggles for you all!

Jugger thinger day two
75 x 10
75 x 10
75 x 10
75 x 10
75 x 20

I dunno how many reps we should be getting for our final set, but 20 seems like an awful lot…
I probably could have gotten like 50 LOL, but they say to keep some in the tank, so ya.

Close grip bench
75 x 5 x 5

Chin ups 3 x 3

Facepulls
4 x 10

cable abs 5 x 12

treadmill hill sprints x 10 mins

medicine ball side to sider thingy
3 x 20

done.

Life news:
I am a horrible person cause I am too scared to go out for dinner with theJonty now, Lol.

My anxiety is really bad right now, I dunno why.
I think it’s cause this weekend is another sleep over at daddy’s place for my kid and I am losing my marbles. I was like shakey while sending him texts like PLESE DONT DO THIS HE DOES NOT WANT TO SLEEP THERE YOU SELFSIHFKDSHGDKJgkjdg
AHhHhHhH. I’ve lost my mind. SRSLY Insane heart palpitations are like every 20 mins over nothing? like OMG I HAEV TO SHOWER I AM SO OVERWHELMED.

N E WAY ya.
Driving school tomorrow. Hopefully I can fit in some form of exercise.

BYE

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[quote]Spock81 wrote:
ACTUALLY, I’ll bet I wouldn’t even have to diet and my pre meet nerve related toilet issues would drop me down like 10 lbs HAHA.[/quote]

You do realize that you will always make a weight class there’s really no point in worrying about your weight at the first meet. I acctually had a surprise when I weight In weighed in a 110kg when I thought I was 118 at least I was the day before oops

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dropping in Spock, wow…you are overwhelmed. I agree you should go watch the meet, get caught up in hollering for everyone, it’s a blast even when you’re not competing.

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Where in Alberta are you from Miss Spock? I’ve visited Calgary a few times. Really enjoyed it. Also got to visit Banff both times up there.

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[quote]lil power wrote:
dropping in Spock, wow…you are overwhelmed. I agree you should go watch the meet, get caught up in hollering for everyone, it’s a blast even when you’re not competing. [/quote]

YAY! I love it when you drop in! And ya, I probably will go check it out, I would love to meet more powerlifter folk!

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[quote]MightyMouse17 wrote:
Where in Alberta are you from Miss Spock? I’ve visited Calgary a few times. Really enjoyed it. Also got to visit Banff both times up there.[/quote]

YAY! I am so glad you posted in my log. I keep creeping your log tryin’ to think up something to say!

I am from the Edmonton/sherwood park area, but I do think Calgary is lovely.
The last rolling stones concert I went to was in Calgary :slight_smile:

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K weekend over with, WHEWFFF.

In class driving school is finished!!! Sitting for 8 hours is hard, especially TWO DAYS IN A ROW! I don’t know how office people do it! I felt like such a lazy blob the whole time.

K so today post class I had to go to the gym cause I was going crrazayy.

Jugger thingie
Deadlift
135 x 10
135 x 10
135 x 10
135 x 10
135 x 18 <—I am curious how many I could have gotten had I brought chalk/not gotten so fat and out of shape, LOl. This cardio deadlifty thing was fun!

Back ext. 4 x 12

leg spreader 6 x 12

plate side bends 25lbs x 3 x 15 each

straight legged sit-ups x 50

leg lifty thing that feels sorta useless most of the time x 25

DONE.

Not maxing out all the time is kind of a nice change of pace. I feel oddly lazy though, like WHy am I not deadlifting 200++ when I physcially can? It’s cause I don’t bother to read the science behind programming and shit so ya, but I am enjoying this kinda relaxing liftingness for now.

UMM Life news:

The gym was a happenin’ place today folks!
Incident A) Boy squatted beside me wearing the same chucks as me! I think he was on some type of beginning strength program cause his squat looked ugulir than mine and I saw he went to go bench which meant maybe like starting strength or texas method?! I shoulda kept spying to see his sets/reps/ if he went to do deadlift last.
Incident B) Some boy was squatting like 4 plates with perfect form!??! NEVER SEEN THIS!! AHHHHH.
Incident C) Saved the best for last!>… Thejonty worked out at my gym!
He is very tall and a nice person.

K BYE

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You know what I think? I think competing would be good for your self-esteem.

Have I mentioned that I opened my squat at 110 lb. at my first meet? And that everybody cheered for me? And that I benched 77 lb. after my shoulder surgery? And that everybody cheered for me?

And you’re not an average, average, average lifter girl. You may not realize that yet. But I do.

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[quote]Spock81 wrote:

Incident B) Some boy was squatting like 4 plates with perfect form!??! NEVER SEEN THIS!! AHHHHH.[/quote]

I think he got up to 405 for a tough single and then did a bunch of drop sets. I agree his form was good, and no question about depth or anything. Too bad you didn’t get to see any of my squats though haha.

[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Incident C) Saved the best for last!>… Thejonty worked out at my gym!
He is very tall and a nice person.

K BYE[/quote]

I’m not tall, I’m 5’11. You’re just short haha.

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[quote]TheJonty wrote:

[quote]Spock81 wrote:

Incident B) Some boy was squatting like 4 plates with perfect form!??! NEVER SEEN THIS!! AHHHHH.[/quote]

I think he got up to 405 for a tough single and then did a bunch of drop sets. I agree his form was good, and no question about depth or anything. Too bad you didn’t get to see any of my squats though haha.

[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Incident C) Saved the best for last!>… Thejonty worked out at my gym!
He is very tall and a nice person.

K BYE[/quote]

I’m not tall, I’m 5’11. You’re just short haha.[/quote]

haha She’d be in awe I I were to come to edmonton with the guys I used to train with I was the smallest at 250 at 6’2. I might be coming up for power surge I’m not sure yet depends on when my exams start

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[quote]kpsnap wrote:
You know what I think? I think competing would be good for your self-esteem.

Have I mentioned that I opened my squat at 110 lb. at my first meet? And that everybody cheered for me? And that I benched 77 lb. after my shoulder surgery? And that everybody cheered for me?

And you’re not an average, average, average lifter girl. You may not realize that yet. But I do.[/quote]

I agree very much with kpsnap!!! Besides, if you have a crap meet and decide you hate competing, you tried something and realized it wasn’t for you, not much lost. I was destroyed by nearly 600 pounds to a defending IPF world champion in the same weight class at my first meet. I enjoyed the show and hit some PR’s and had a fantastic time. The great thing about competing earlier is having lower expectations when you start gaining competitive experience. All the best whatever you choose.

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[quote]mrodock wrote:

[quote]kpsnap wrote:
You know what I think? I think competing would be good for your self-esteem.

Have I mentioned that I opened my squat at 110 lb. at my first meet? And that everybody cheered for me? And that I benched 77 lb. after my shoulder surgery? And that everybody cheered for me?

And you’re not an average, average, average lifter girl. You may not realize that yet. But I do.[/quote]

I agree very much with kpsnap!!! Besides, if you have a crap meet and decide you hate competing, you tried something and realized it wasn’t for you, not much lost. I was destroyed by nearly 600 pounds to a defending IPF world champion in the same weight class at my first meet. I enjoyed the show and hit some PR’s and had a fantastic time. The great thing about competing earlier is having lower expectations when you start gaining competitive experience. All the best whatever you choose. [/quote]

Ya’ll sound so calm and rational…

I wish that I had a mini kpsnap living inside my brain, I think my decisions would be a lot more thought out that way, LOl!!

WELL OKAY HERE’s MY…DEAL, I guess.

I will fill out the forms/pay the money/“enter” the meet, BUT that is not to say I will 100% without a doubt do it, cause I’m kinda manic/bi polary where I get all hyper and confident, but then get horribly depressed/dislike myself and think I fail at life.
SO potentially I could have a breakdown around meet time, OR I could feel like the queen of the world.

ALSO, may have awesome workouts and say “FUCK YES! I AM DOING THIS”
ORR have a knee cavey session and cry/say “FUCK THIS< IAM DONE”

So I may or may not need some rational input in those moments reminding me that this powerlifting meet wont be high school kids pointing and laughing at me for having pimples, HAHA. Kkkkkk!

I wish all my decisions to quit things were based on actual reasons as opposed to just anxiety. I’d probably be on top of the world right now if I went through with all the shit that scared me…

So with that said, I’ll start that peaking cycle I was going to start today anyway, BUT The second meet is done I wanna go right back to jugger cause I think that will be a fun program to follow for a while. I just don’t have enough time to accomplish much of it before meet time, ya.

N E WAY pretty good start to it all today

Squats
140 x 2
140 x 2
140 x 2
140 x 2
140 x 2
140 x 2
Great today! NOOO knee cavey! Maybe all my leg spreader stuff is working! If that’s the case I am sending STB a gift basket, perhaps filled with taco’s of some sort as he seems to really like mexician food.

UMM
Bench
105 x 3
105 x 3
105 x 3
105 x 3
105 x 3
105 x 3
ALLLLL REPS PAUSED
I realized why benching feels weird for me now! It’s cause of my stupid carpal tunnel stuff, not my set up. My palmy thumb area hhurts cause that’s like stemmming from the nerve area issues in my wrist and ya I am clearly a doctor/my mommy told me that’s likely the cause .

DB ROW
27.5lbs
3 x 12 paused/squeezy at the top cause this seems more effctive to use light weight and do it properly.

leg spready 4 x 8

face pulls 2 x 15
pull down ropey abs 4 x 15
christian bale abs x 25
other random planky or ball pike things x’s whatver.

K good.
Maybe I can concive my papa to take my to calgary for that festival of strength thingie in OCt. so I can see boys N girls squat and whatnot.
He needs to go down anyway cause he still has my grandma’s ashes to put some where. :S
It’s okay though, she was semi-evil so it’s not like it’s an emotional holding on to her type of thing. If that makes it less awkward/morbid for you all. I dunno.

Life news:
N/A

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[quote]Spock81 wrote:
I am sending STB a gift basket, perhaps filled with taco’s of some sort as he seems to really like mexician food.
[/quote]

Lol, please do this.

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The great thing about doing something particularly anxiety-promoting, but personally beneficial, is it can be used as a reference in all sorts of anxious situations. Even a small success can be used to build momentum for much larger successes. Just getting on that platform and trying is a success, set the game up to win.

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[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Maybe I can concive my papa to take my to calgary for that festival of strength thingie in OCt. so I can see boys N girls squat and whatnot.
He needs to go down anyway cause he still has my grandma’s ashes to put some where. :S
It’s okay though, she was semi-evil so it’s not like it’s an emotional holding on to her type of thing. If that makes it less awkward/morbid for you all. I dunno.

Life news:
N/A[/quote]

Yeah Come handle me since I have nor clue whose going to be doing that yet. You can see what someone whp gets let out of the box looks like