[quote]scj119 wrote:
I hope you didn’t die on your birthday.[/quote]
LOL! No, I didn’t die. I’ve just been depressed and I figured no one wanted to come to my pity party.
I realized that any chick who was taught proper form would have my shitty lifting numbers in 6 months, if not less. I’ve put a lot of time and effort into powerlifting and I am barely mediocre…
It’s somewhat depressing.
I’m also fat. Now, I planned to gain weight, but only if it made me stronger. I got fatter, but not stronger, THAT is lame. Before I lost weight I was this fat, had the WORST deadlift form ever, and could pull 280. Now 245 is my max, and don’t even get me started on my squat…
N E WAY. I am going to attempt to become less fat. I need to lose like 25 lbs if I don’t want to have to buy new fat clothes for winter…
UMM what else…
OH YA, I kinda figured out what I want to do job wise.
Now don’t everyone laugh at me and tell me I suck at life too much to do this (cause apparently I feel like I’m still in JR high where everyone bullies me about everything), but I would like to become a cop.
It will probably be like three years until that can happen, BUT i am prepared to do what I gotta so that I can get in.
Step one: Learn how to swim
Officially registered in swim lessons for tuesday mornings.
Step two: Get my drivers license
Failed my learners exam for the 4th time yesterday, LoL. <–This is the reason it will take me 3 years to become a cop.
I am going to write the test every day until I pass it, or until they feel sorry for me and just give me to me anyway, HA.
UM WHaT ELSE
Oh yes, stop being an out of shape blob
Actually doing cardiovascular activity since Um sunday, ha-ha.
There is no prowler at either of my two new gyms so I have to figure out some boring shit to do. Normal cardio shit I suppose.
I have two new gyms cause I moved back into sherwood park with my parents (nerd) since I have no job and need to get back on my feet. I also hated how mad my kid was at me for taking him away from his home/school. I guess he is happier to be back here with all of us together.
HOWEVER, now his dipshit father wants to fight me for custody since I’m a bum currently and he wants gabe to get to know his siblings.
He like knocked up some 19 year old chick and has two other kids, aside from gabe, and wants them all to live together like one big happy family. Cause he has a job and a home and I don’t. I dunno.
THat is really upsetting to me. It makes me feel like a loser even though he’s like human scum. He killed someone for fuck sakes. UHH ya.
So ya, just kinda been down lately. Trying to dig myself outta my ditch. I guess if anyone cares to follow my 3 year quest to become a cop I can log my workouts still, ha-ha.
Cyber hugs for you all!