[quote]Severiano wrote:
Emily, something you wrote earlier about being abandoned by your mother struck a chord with me. I was abandoned also but by my father… You see where this is going?
Do you think not having a mother around has an effect on how you are as an adult woman? I ask because I’m certain it has an effect on me, it’s had an effect on me damned near my while life. I think not having a dad around is one of the reasons I joined the Corps, I think I was seeking out father like figures, go figure. After what I’ve gone through in that pursuit, I kinda have my own home made ideas of what being a man is about. Do you have any similar experiences or parallels about being a woman? There was a time where I needed to like, define man to myself, so I could have direction as to who I wanted to be/become in a sense.
There are things that impacted me negatively in sports being raised by a single mother, as when she went at the coaches they didn’t know how to deal with her and ended up causing a bit of drama. I remember so few people sticking up for my mother, but my mother sticking up for people wherever she could. I think this is something that really stuck with me that I like and am proud of, but like you I’m also incredibly short with flaky and clingy women. The abandonment issues are there as well, I have a pretty hard core loyalty about myself since I was abandoned and so few men stuck up for me in my youth.
Of course, it’s obviously more complicated than I’m leading on, but that’s it in a nutshell. [/quote]
Have you read Iron John by Robert Bly? You should. AngryChicken recommended it on here a long while back and I can’t repeat enough how grateful I am that he did.
I grew up without a father past the age of 13, and although he died as opposed to walking out, it still had a profound effect on me. That book was practically a father figure for me. A much needed one, at that. Bly actually speaks about how some males join the military (or gangs) because they’re looking for a father figure.
For what it’s worth, I’d be very interested in any insight you (and/or Emily!) have as far as healing said wounds, so to speak. I’d like to think I’m doing a pretty good job of making up for it, but both of you seem to have a very stable head on your shoulders and I’m always open to advice.