[quote]Chushin wrote:
The only one surprised here is you, Kiddo.
The rest of us knew that you are awesome.
:-)[/quote]
Wheeeeeee every day of life is so xxciting!
Heavy chest/light shoulder/light tri day
pec fly machine
90lbs x 10
95lbs x 10
incline bench
75lb x 10
80lb x 10
80lb x 10
hammer strength chest press
35lb plates x 8
35 + 5 lb plates x 8
35 + 5lb plates x 8
25 + 5 lb plates x 8 + 12 partials
seated DB shoulder press
15lbs
3 x 25
circuit of
lat raise/ front raise/upright row
7.5lbs/7.5lbs/40lbs
20/20*arm/20
7.5lbs/7.5lbs/30lbs
20/20/20
20/20/20
tricep ropey pull down ext. thing
rest pause set
16/11/8/8/(less weight) 8+ 12 partials
rear delt fly/db tricep ext./skull crushers
10lbs/10lbs/25lbs
20/20/20
20/20/20
20/20/20
facepulls
x 30
G.R.E.A.T workout!
I am so happy. The butterflies in my stomach are giving me all day long diarhheahehahah.
But it’s like the good kind, not the kind from food poisoning or horrible debilitating stress/anxiety.
I don’t even feel miserable that I have to spent 7 hours today counting stupid t-shirts.
I ain’t mad. Don’t bother me none.
I feel like I can say whatever I want to him and it’s never the “wrong” thing to say. It’s just good…EVERYTHING IS FUCKING GOOD.
BYE
Sup bitches?!
Light chest/heavy shoulder/tri day
pec fly
60lbs
2 x 20
incline DB press SS plate squeeze
17.5lbs/10lbs
25/20
25/20
25/20
seated DB shoulder press
27.5lbs
4 x 10
one arm lat riase
12.5lbs
4 x 10 * arm
front raise
15lbs
3 x 10* arm
DB overhead tricep ext. SS rear delt fly
32.5lbs/15lbs
10/10
10/10
10/10
skull crushers
45lbs
2 x 8
35lbs
2 x 8
drop set triangle handle tricep pulldown whatever
x10/10/10/11/12/22 or something along those lines
chest press
55lbs
2 x 20
45lbs
x 20 + 12 partials
200 non stop crunches
I have decided I need to up the intensity of my workouts.
Everything is too fucking easy and I am being too fucking lazy.
I AM A DRAGON
WHO LOST IT’S WILL TO BREATH FIRE
AND NOW I COUGH UP SMOKE
Well, keep yo’ gas tanks away from me bitches, ima turn it up.
AHHHAA
Something is wrong with me.
Bald guy doesn’t like me anymore and instead of crying in the shower (shower crying adds a dramatic effect) I am FILLING WITH MOTIVATION AND RAGE.
RAHh
RAHH
Rasputin
I don’t know what I did wrong?! Maybe he could sense my crazy-ness. He could hear my thoughts. My thoughts were mental.
Super mental.
Not semi mental.
SUPER.
I chased him away.
He’s killing me softly with his lack of smitten-ness.
Dyyyyingggggggg
I am going to write up a new workout routine at work today to feel better. THat I what I do when I am upset.
BYE
[quote]lemony2j wrote:
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
[quote]Reality Star wrote:
Your workout’s seem impressive, but like others on here, I find your tales of masturbation,self-loathing,OCD,with manic highs and lows a riveting read. Seems simple solution to other posts on here.
Spock gets crush obsessively pines after said guy Create a small enough connection lack of an actual personal connection downward spiral afterwards and Repeat the cycle
[/quote]
Nonononono. That is not fair.
Accurate, but I’m still saying not fair.
I don’t know how anyone could possibly relate or understand, but I have seriously been rejected by every single boy I’ve ever wanted in my entire life. If I only slept with people who were willing to date me then I’d be a virgin. And how can anyone expect me to muster up the confidence when all I’ve ever heard is excuses as to why people don’t want to be with me?
Some people I like are willing to fuck me, but nobody is ever willing to be in a relationship with me. I would find it very hard to turn down sex, even with the stipulation that there was not going to be a commitment, because it only comes around once every 1 or 2 years.
I just get so lonely, why would I pass up the seldom opportunity’s that I have?
And I am a stupid girl who thinks that if I can get a guy to sleep with me then I can get him to fall in love with me because I just truly believe that if I could get a guy to talk to me and get to know me, that he would love me because I have wonderfully endearing thing to say. It’s just that no one ever gives me the fucking time of day to listen.
I don’t know why that is. I can just keep blaming it on the lousy guys I pick, but honestly all the guys I have chosen have been completely different from one another. I met them all in different places, they all had totally different personalities, interests, appearances, etc, but in the end they all ended up treating me the same. How was I supposed to know none of them were quality men? I had real feelings for them all.
I don’t sleep around with strangers, even though everything ends up being just a one night stand. I truly cared for them all. They just did not care for me.
One guy I slept with I was in love with from the time that I was 13 years old. We were bestest friends in the whole damn world, and when we were in our twenties he still ended up doing the fuck and dump thing to me. That’s not right, that just doesn’t seem right. I feel like I get a raw deal.
But I do not believe all I am worthy of is fucking without love. I guess I am just not very good at this whole boy thing, but I guess that’s been obvious since the very first post I ever made on this fucking website years ago.
Oh well, I don’t even know if I have a point. Typing makes me feel better.
////\\\ end pity party \\/////[/quote]
After reading all of your lighthearted and eccentric posts this one made me feel a bit upset tbh (lol?)
You obviously deserve so much better than you’ve had so far judging by everything I’ve read and I agree with vinny, the right guy is out there somewhere for you. A man who will see and appreciate you for who you are.
BUT
When I read about you falling for the guy who was very vocal about his conquests etc my first thought was you deserve better than that. I know you can’t help who you fall for and I don’t know the guy, but anyone who acts as the man you described sounds like a bit of a douche to me and I don’t think he’d be any good for you * What do I know, I don’t even know you! <Fair point
NO JUDGEMENT INTENDED KLAXON From what I have learned, any man that you give it up to without too much of a fight will have little respect for you in the long run. Any man that deserves to be with you will wait. END NO JUDGEMENT KLAXON
[/quote]
[quote]Chushin wrote:
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
Bald guy doesn’t like me anymore
[/quote]
Why do you say that?[/quote]
Omg yes yes yes!! Time for my favorite thing in the whole world, getting advice!!
Okay so some random things for analysis:
When we went out for drinks he texted me and told me his friend “might” be there, but in actuality he drove his friend there with him, LOL.
So I thought okay so either he’s not actually that keen on hanging out with me or he’s nervous as hell to hang out with me. Either way I am glad his friend was there because it made it less awkward.
His friend ended up getting drunk and wandering around and talking about stuff I couldn’t understand, so he didn’t really intrude on the conversation at all. But when BG went to the potty his friend said to me
“So you like ryan?”
I was like
“Oh, yes.”
and he was like
“Don’t hurt him…just…just, don’t hurt him.”
I thought that was a little weird because I don’t think I’d be capable of hurting someone. Like, on this inside I could just not live with myself if I had wronged someone that I, at some point in my life, truly cared about. I’ve never hurt a boy in my entire life, nor do I plan on it, LOL.
Anyway, when BG came back his friend said that he liked me and gave me permission to enjoy his friend, HAHA.
We both laughed.
The whole night we just totally hit it off and a sweet text the second he dropped me home suggested to me that he was interested.
He approached me at the gym a few times during the week to make small talk and texted me before bed (we both go to bed at the same time haha) and on Wednesday I was getting anxiety wishing that he’d suggest we hang out again at some point.
My mom told me that I should bring it up because I’ve kinda had to do everything up to this point.
So On wed. afternoon I asked if he’d ever wanna hang out again maybe sometime. He said he was busy this week and weekend but sometime next week.
Then I freaked out because that seemed very rejecty. I wasn’t 100% sure, so I asked random customers and other strangers if they thought this was rejection.
They all thought I was weird, but reassured me this was not rejection.
But in my heart I thought this seemed not good.
He hasn’t texted me since then, no more before bed chats or mid day randomnesses, and he doesn’t really approach me much at the gym anymore, and when I say stuff his eyes seem 59% less twinkly.
My friends tell me I’m being paranoid, but I dunno dudes, my gut feeling says this is not good at all.
I can’t even begin to express how much I liked this person. Like, I liked him with my heart, not my vagina, and that’s not really all that common for me. Instead of day dreaming about fucking him all day I pictured us watching TV together, and lifting weights, and playing board games. I’ve never met someone who’s sense of humor so perfectly matched my own.
I hurt…
YOU SMELL THAT? THAT’S THE STENTCH OF MY ROTTING HEART.
WAH.
I just have so many things to text him about, but I can’t, I can’t text cause if he wanted to talk he’d text.
He wasn’t there today, I just wanted to text like, I’ve decided when you’re not at the gym I am going to take it upon myself to be the manly grunter so the place can still be brimming with testosterone.
Why can’t I text that?! CAN’T I MOMMY PLEASE?!!
NO.
I have to stop thinking up random things I want to say to him !!
ANYWAY YA
Workout update to follow!!!
Calm the hell down. Your customers are right; that wasn’t rejection and you’re being crazy paranoid. Just relax. I’ll tell you what’s going on in his head “Okay don’t wanna text her too often or I’ll seem desperate. Need to go a little while showing I don’t have to text her all the time.”
That’s one of the man rules Jenn. She has to text you more than you text her. Otherwise you put out the desperate loser vibe.
You can text him stuff off and on if you want, but just wait till next week when he’s not busy for him to ask you to do something.
Don’t frighten him off!
K really awesome workout today
I livened the place up with my womanly testosterone.
IT WAS SURROUNDING ME, my own little testosterone bubble that I created with my cool arm veiny things that I love so much <3.!
Okay umm
Leg day:
lying leg curls ramped
40 x 20
50 x 12
55 x 10
60 x 8
65 x 6 or maybe 8 I don’t remember
3 drop sets
50 x 8
40 x 8
35 x 8
**I don’t actually remember the reps I got for any of my drop sets, but it was awesome regardless.
Leg ext.
65 lbs
x 10 + 10 partials
x 10 + 10 partials
x 10 + 10 partials
x 10 + 10 partials
Already hobblin’ and the workout just began, YO!
SS DB RDL
HAHA no actual words
SS DB RDL W/ S SQ (split squat)
40lb dbs/50lb bb
15/15 * leg
15/15
15/15
one xxtra set of split SQ
x 15*leg
um
HAck squat machine
35lb per side
x 10
35 + 5 lb per side
x 10
45lb per side
x 8
45 + 5 lb per side
x 8
45 +10lb per side
x 6
Seated leg press drop set
190 x 10
170 x 10
130 x 11
110 x 11
90 x 22
*Once again I totally forget the reps I got for every set other than the last one
leg spreader rest/pause
16/10/8/8/17
leg squisher
130lb x 20
then right away to
100lb x 10
REALLY GOOD WORKOUT HOLY MOLY
After my leg press extravaganza I felt like I was gonna like vomit or pass out or something, so I know I finally worked out hard enough FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER JENN>!!
I
WILL
BE
A
MACHINE
From this point forward
!
Cyberdyne systems model 101
The girl version from T3 though, not arny.
K BYE
[quote]csulli wrote:
Calm the hell down. Your customers are right; that wasn’t rejection and you’re being crazy paranoid. Just relax. I’ll tell you what’s going on in his head “Okay don’t wanna text her too often or I’ll seem desperate. Need to go a little while showing I don’t have to text her all the time.”
That’s one of the man rules Jenn. She has to text you more than you text her. Otherwise you put out the desperate loser vibe.
You can text him stuff off and on if you want, but just wait till next week when he’s not busy for him to ask you to do something.
Don’t frighten him off![/quote]
WHY ISN’T HE APPROACHING ME AS MUCH AT THE GYM tHEN?!!?
And WHereeeeeeeeeeeee did the twinkle go!!
If I’m right and you’re wrong you have to mail me a care package filled with tissues for crying, a vibrator for stress relief, and a quality action movie.
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
WHY ISN’T HE APPROACHING ME AS MUCH AT THE GYM tHEN?!!?
And WHereeeeeeeeeeeee did the twinkle go!!
If I’m right and you’re wrong you have to mail me a care package filled with tissues for crying, a vibrator for stress relief, and a quality action movie.[/quote]
Deal (totally srs), but I hope things work out. I bet he just doesn’t want to come on too strong.
I know everyone mostly reads about your shenanigans in here, but honest to God your actual weight training has been going amazingly Jenn. Nice going!
[quote]csulli wrote:
I know everyone mostly reads about your shenanigans in here, but honest to God your actual weight training has been going amazingly Jenn. Nice going![/quote]
Thanks so much broski !
[quote]Spock81 wrote:
I
WILL
BE
A
MACHINE
From this point forward
!
Cyberdyne systems model 101
The girl version from T3 though, not arny.[/quote]
Something about this didn’t seem right, so I did some digging.
According to the terminator wiki ( Terminator | Terminator Wiki | Fandom ) the model designation refers to the exterior appearance, while the series designation denotes the endoskeletal type. As an example, the terminator portrayed by Schwarzenegger in the first two films was a Model 101 Series 800, while in T3 he portrayed a Model 101 Series 850. Model 101 refers to the exterior appearance noted for the “arny” look.
The terminator in T3 characterized by its feminine appearance is a Series X, commonly known as a T-X, or Terminatrix. Due to the nature of the mimetic polyalloy exterior of the series, Series X terminators are not given a model designation, though they do operate with a default appearance. This is similar to the Series 1000 terminators, although those are composed entirely of the mimetic polyalloy and as such are capable of mimicking a much wider range of objects and are not limited to humanoid forms.
So just be a Series X operating with a Spock exterior. Done. And you get integrated weapons systems with that series terminator as well. Bonus.
Ha, I LOVE the energy off your posts.
Go you !
[quote]csulli wrote:
Calm the hell down. Your customers are right; that wasn’t rejection and you’re being crazy paranoid. Just relax. I’ll tell you what’s going on in his head “Okay don’t wanna text her too often or I’ll seem desperate. Need to go a little while showing I don’t have to text her all the time.”
That’s one of the man rules Jenn. She has to text you more than you text her. Otherwise you put out the desperate loser vibe.
You can text him stuff off and on if you want, but just wait till next week when he’s not busy for him to ask you to do something.
Don’t frighten him off![/quote]
This x10
Also damn your workouts are just plain bad ass. Your killing it
I DUNNO PEOPLE!! This seems kinda like that “he’s just not that into you” type dealiio where all of my besties are reassuring me everything is okay when in actuality he’s really just not that into me, LOL.
We shall see.
Still no texts… :-((((((((((((((
Anyway, harness my inner testosterone rage filled man workout numero two!!!
Neutral grip pull ups
x 9.5
x 6
x 5
Honestly just hung there trying so hard for that first set at the end. COME ON TEN PLEASE PLEASE, but nope. Not TODAY.
This new machine I did called um…
Hammer strength iso front lat pull down something or other.
25lb plates per side
x 20
35lbs per side
x 12
35 + 5 lbs per side
x 10
45lbs per side
x 8
45 +5 lbs per side
x 8
55lbs per side
x 6
Or 8
Hmmm…remembering…
No idea.
Chin ups
x 7
x 6
seated row cable different handle thing
75lbs
x 12
x 12
x 12
55lbs
x 12 + 13 partials
x 12 + 13 partials
lat pull down with the seated row wide handle thing
75lbs
x 15
70lbs
x 15
x 15
lat pull down partials from the top
100lbs
x 8
x 8
x 8
Another set with the seated row cable handle for no reason
70lbs
x 15
bicep machine drop set
x 10, 10, 10 12, 30
alternating DB curls ss plate curls
22.5lbs/25lbs/
8arm/12
17.5lbs/25lbs
8arm/12
15lbs/25lbs
8arm/12
15lbs
8arm
chin ups
x 5
ab circuit
3 diff things x 15 reps x 3 rounds
chin ups
x 5
DONE FUCK YES.
Apparently everyone only goes to the gym on Saturday mornings to talk 
All around me is people yippin and a yappin
Even the big muscley dudes
yippin
yappin
yappin
yippin
Shut up foo’s!
K VYE
BYE
Pic look in the August checkin looks great.
Workouts look great
The chick terminator in T3 was a T-X.
I have had my hand on the ass of the T-1001 from the Sarah Conner chronicles (Well on Shirley Manson’s butt)
As for BG, he said he was busy for the weekend, give him space, Jenn.
Deep breath, look for Csulli’s care package, and maybe watch a hockey movie instead, like Goon 
You look great spockie! You have been working so hard You are an inspiration to me! How about you stop worrying about silly men and you and I could run away together???
Chin up Chicka!