The last week has been one of the worst weeks of my life, i’m not one to stay depressed but i have been hurt so many times in the last few days. On monday night i got back from the SWIS symposium on sunday(late) my girlfriend of 1 year and 4 months called me to tell me that she still loved me, however that she really likes a 22 year old manager at her work who she had met when i was gone to T.O… it hurt quite a bit since she was telling me this and actually considering breaking up with me. It might have been easier to take if we had been moving apart, but everything was awesome i just had one of the greatest weekends of my life and it all came crashing down.She couldn’t name one thing that was wrong with our relationship. I asked her if she wanted to throw it all away for a person she can’t go out with (her overprotective parents would never let it happen). She decided to work things out. I was still hurt however. To make a long story somewhat shorter, i asked her to tell this guy that she can’t hang out with him in order for us to work things out.(one thing will only lead to another)She told me she didn’t fool around with this guy but she did go over to his house saturday night. On Wednesday she called me at work and told me that she was sorry and that she loved me. I still hadn’t known yet but she went over to his house after school that day.
The next day i was soo happy again everything was going much better and she showed affection for me. However not for long she went to his house that night AGAIN! She told me later that night when i caught her in a lie that she had went to his house that night and the night before. Right then and there i said well i still love you but we can’t do this anymore. The next day she called at 7:00. She cried and said she was sorry over and over… I being the fool that i am accepted these bullshit crocodile tears and took her back, we hung out on friday and saturday night, last night was soo awesome. She cried again and again ( after we made love) saying how sorry she was for what she had done. Today i went to her house for breakfast and things were great, however i was supposed to work and i didn’t know, since GNC is in a mall the mall may fine GNC a minimum of $3000 for not opening for the first 1.5 hrs. She brought me to work. I called her in 15 mins and told her that i might lose my job, she said that sucks and then proceeded to say that she was on the other line with one of her friends so she had to let me go. She always let her friends go before me. She called me back saying that she was going to go to work because she got “called in” I have a few friends and my training partner that work with her so i called him up and he said he saw her come to the parking lot and leave with the dickhead thats doing this to me. I had to break up with her tonight and it really hurt but i just need some suggestions for how to recover from this bullshit. I’ve never hurt this much in my life, and on top of that i can’t concentrate on school i just failed two really important tests which i have never done before. I’ve lost 10 lbs in five days that being mostly muscle. I just don’t know how to deal with this since it was so unexpected and not only that but i might lose my job and my aunt just got diagnosed with terminal cancer.
thanx
blake