I haven’t been focusing on weightlifting in the last few weeks - just working, mental health, and school. Haven’t been eating or sleeping very much either, just because I’m drowning in work and I forget/don’t make it a priority. Feeling physically and mentally better than I have in a long while, though. Bodyweight still sitting at 160 @ 5’10", can’t wait to gain some much needed weight this summer. Might run 20-Rep Squats or even Deepwater if I’m healthy enough to do so and my sleep schedule allows me to recover enough for the workload. I’m looking to pack on quality weight pretty quickly, so these should work well. Last week of school begins tomorrow, followed by finals week and then I’m done.
Fun fact: I’ve gotten upwards of 5 tests the week before midterms/finals for 3 years in a row.
Alright, I trained yesterday. Just getting back into it, eating as much as I’m hungry for (which is more now that I’m back to training once again). Cool. Can’t wait for summer, my jobs, a social life, and staying the fuck out of my house. Also want to gain 10-15 pounds, BW is steady at 160 pounds (but no diarrhea/feeling more physically normal, so that’s good).
Also, just made a Reddit account. I’ve been living under a rock, Reddit is amazing.
Floor Press
45 x 2 x 5
95, 115 x 5
135, 150, 170 x 3
Pull-ups (pronated grip, strict): 50 (1 x 17, 3 x 10, 1 x 3)
Push-ups: 100 (4 x 25)
Done in 25 minutes.
No point in really pushing upper body stuff right now. May as well wait another week or so and catch up on sleep before I work towards PRs and stuff like that.
i think @T3hPwnisher is on to something here. if you manage to brace properly compressive- and shear-forces will be transmitted through your abs and even if the spine is not in neutral alignment it will still be unloaded.
Be careful dude. Not saying that you shouldn’t do it, but there’s a proper way to do it. It could get really ugly if something goes wrong. Any advice @Frank_C, @mortdk? You both are (or were?) officers, correct?
Saw it. Will try to take a read if I have some time to kill. Seems like it’s gotten really long already. Hope things turn out for the best. Good luck man
Well if she won’t participate as a victim it could turn out to being you charged with false accusation.
I would persuade her to do it. Convince her that if she doesn’t do it, the attacker might do it to someone else.
Consistent training will start fresh again on Monday, combined with a caloric surplus of decent food/7-8 hours of consistent nightly sleep. Expecting to gain some serious strength this summer. I’ll finally be able to get to 175-180 pounds, stay healthy both physically and mentally/emotionally, and get significantly stronger (thinking I’ll probably get stronger than I’ve been able to for the last year and some change).
This seems unnecessary but I can’t think of any other solutions. I’ve also seen the change in your mental state on here to actually defend the drug use.
Go see your prescribing doctor and tell them what happened. Consider calling the police to make a child endangerment case. Your parents can do what they think is best for you but this is borderline. If the drugs are necessary for your health then there might be a case. I’m not sure if they’d consider it endangerment if a kid had an illness and the parents refused to give them the antibiotic.
It’s a stretch but it might be worth making an inquiry. The problem you face is getting more drugs. They’re controlled and people lie about losing them. The idiots that exploit the system ruin it for the few that genuinely need an early refill.
Also, try the placebo effect. Just because the drugs are gone doesn’t mean you have to feel worse. Positive thoughts, young man.
Can’t. I’m fucked beyond fucked and honestly I don’t care anymore, now I have the all-clear to just end it without anybody asking me why and telling me to hang on for another month or so while shit just doesn’t get better
You’ve experienced first hand that it can get better. It might not happen immediately but it can still happen. From a logical standpoint, resorting to a permanent solution for a temporary problem doesn’t make sense.
tried to train today, sucked so badly it wasn’t worth mentioning. was stuck in the bathroom all day today, went 10 times with some diarrhea. withdrawals are kicking in nicely, i bombed my final today and i couldn’t care less. i am done lifting weights, not worth it. i’m once again cutting everybody out of my life and completely isolating myself as i do every time i go on a depressive bender. i thought i was okay, i am not and i never will be. it was nice knowing everyone on the forums. i give up, too much work and it doesn’t matter regardless. my friend is safe and now she can go back to ignoring me because she doesn’t want much to do with me, my family doesn’t care, and there is nobody who will miss me. therefore, my life is in my hands and i can do what i want with it. and i want to go, so i’m gonna go. have to stock up on the supplies i foolishly threw out after the last time i tried this, rope is pretty cheap and i have a foolproof method to use this time. also stocked up on benzos for the aftermath. youtube is helpful.
TL;DR: your psych is lying to you if they tell you “it’s gonna get better”. don’t believe them, think for yourself. it’s your life, do what you wanna do with it and don’t let people tell you that what you do with YOUR life is selfish. especially if you have no responsibilities or ties to this world.
“but what about your kids/wife/parents/friends/family? you selfish piece of shit, stop being a depressed, self-pitying coward and just be happy.”
happiness comes from death, for me. so, yay to happiness!
If you can experience happiness from the thought of death then you can experience it with other things too.Just some food for thought but once you’re dead you will experience nothing- You will cease to exist. So therefore it is just a waste of time because even though right now you feel “Closure.” You will be dead and feel nothing.There is no turning back. you have your whole life to live, That’s 60-90 more years to grow and experience the world man, your life may be bad now but how does it get better? You want to know how? It gets better by YOU, you have to get out of this mindset of giving up. Sick of your parents? Move out. You’re not a quitter and you will be successful in your life.
Look fuck the gym. Take a break maybe?focus on your mental health. Do yoga, Read, Fuck hot bitches, Smoke weed, Hang out with friends, master cooking, Learn a new language, Take up martial arts again, find a new sport, Drawing, Art,Gaming, Write a book, Poetry etc.,Observe nature. There is so much things to be enjoyed.
Has your psych talked about bipolar with you at all? Just wondering…
“It will get better” is the truth in that you are only now old enough and insightful enough about yourself and your circumstances to get to the underlying issues, which can be resolved or well managed. In terms of your mental health, an analogy would be someone walking into the gym as a complete newb - it takes a bit of time to find out what actually works for that person and then more time for it to make noticeable changes.
Just put your head down and keep going. As they say in AA, “the only way out is through.”
have you considered adopting a pet? and i’m not talking about an intestinal parasite, that doesn’t count as a pet, more like a dog or rabbit or something
