Ive a dr’s appointment in an hour but just thought I’d check in. I’m up to 154, from 132 like a month ago? So halfways to goal weight, wanting to box at super middelweight I think(to limit danger and hopefully I’ll tend to have the reach advantage).
Just searched n I guess you guys aren’t strangers to compartment syndrome. This kind of loss of feeling, other than pain, sometimes liek needles, right now like i can literally feel the pressure, liek they wanna burst. At first when i thought it was just from sleep deprivation(stim use, :/) as I’d get 6 hours of sleep thanks to my best friend, farmapram, and wake up feeling fine. So i continued to train but more just very light stuff, low impact as xould be. Hours of simple mobility exercises, sprint drills, still havent put together my titan t-3 and bench but figured a way i could sort of do rack pulls using a band strung through a couple 45s lol. Anyway, feeling anxious as ive put so much into this(as in; my dream to grt back into competitive boxing and absolutely dominate through pushing my advantages, strangely enough its uncommon to take advantage of scientific progress amongst boxers below the elite amateur level). Really scared Im gonna find out my athletic career is over, theyre gonna have to amputate and ya know, my fiance and i recently broke up so i have… no one to talk to, no one to cheer me up.
I hang out with my lawyer or spend my days cup stacking and using ai to scour research articles and figure out how to apply the findings… i think up how i cwn eek out small advantages or completely break a bout via smart positioning and feints most people would never think of…: i use ai to analyze images/video of myself as well as professional athletes etc… i realize its probably my own fault but it feels unfair, i love sports… not the kind you can play from a wheelchair like chess, i like power sports… sprinting, jumping, throwing.