Front squats looked good mate.
Also if that was the ‘snap fitness’ you go to it looks much nicer than the one I was at
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Thanks man! Im just lucky when it comes to hitting depth (that teenage flexibility most likely). Ive been really trying to dial in technique on my lifts lately, I love front squats so far and i probably like them alot more then regular back squats.
Thanks painter, and It is pretty good. It even has a prowler.
Alright sweet, Clean grip feels okay,iv found a three finger grip to be most comfortable and the more i do it the more mobility seems to improve, but im going to be adding in some stretches/warmups for wrists etc that i saw in alphas front squat video. For christmas im thinking of buying myself a lifting belt, some straps and a few other items. Id say its definitely worth the investment. My gym did have some belts but some people seem to have stolen them 
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Random note: Front squats are great, from improving rack position in the overhead press/ bringing up other lifts, mobility, Posture, gaining Upper back, core and leg strength and size, its just a great compound.
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Man, i really dont know what to do. A stupid fuckwit that always pisses me off i just ignore, but man my anger issues are out of control. I always ignore people and dont bother caring about name calling or bullying but man this kid knocked my food container to be a dick and start a fight and just runs off. I found where he was and it was in the library. I went in and he got up fast and ran and i was about a metre from throwing him and stomping on his face. I wouldnt have stopped, hed either be in a coma or dead. I would be in juvy all over a bunch of food. A teacher held him back and a teacher held me. This is ridiculous, i mean i can understand just beating him up but i literally wanted him In hospital, to injure him as much as i could, when i get pushed to the limit , i lose control and its not me. I dont know if im an utter psychopath or its because of my s autism. I dont want to go to jail for killing someone or seriously injuring them, nor do i want to hurt people. Iv had psychologists, councellors, medication. Fuck this whole year and last year has been the worst years of my life, I got removed from my home because of department of child protection and my mother being a complete psycho, Screaming at me my whole life, hitting me, Telling me to kill myself,Saying im stupid, Worthless, should never have been born,Im a mistake, its my fault my parents broke up. And whateve else . Oh and then last year i meet this girl and i Fall in love for real for the first time, it was different to other Dating/liking people. I cant explain it. Oh but of course i got fucked over and still to this very day i have feelings for her and im 15 wtf.i dont want Feelings that haunt and hurt me everyday. It doesnt ever go away. Early this year i actually tried killing myself. I didnt even care anymore i had enough. That didnt work and just made shit worse with doctors and psychologists and everyone feeling sorry for me and my whole old school and teachers and friends knowing and talking about it and judging me. Oh and then theres my dad who doesnt give a shit and iv hardly seen him for 70% of my life. He prefers to be with his dumb evil girlfriend then care about his kids. And my poor sister who lives with my mum all by herself three hours away from me. Im not there anymore to take the bulk of all the abuse and now she gets to take all the abuse. But she wants to stay there so department of protection wont take her away. Im lucky that i live with my aunty now and lifes much better and im really glad a family member cared enough to take me in. I get treated right and never abused. I just dont want to fuck my aunties life up by Going to jail for beating the shit out of someone. She has a panic attack if i get bad grades in a test, i cant imagine what me going to jail would do.
I can’t give you an easy fix mate. Chances are he’s picking on you because he knows you’ll react. He’s too dumb to know what could happen and how much it could fuck both your lives up.
You’ve been dealt a hard hand to play from day one and I wish I could say there’s an easy fix but there isn’t. You’re going to need to grow up really fast - which you’re already doing, and doing pretty well - and learn how to adult. Talk to your aunt if you haven’t already. Tell her you’re doing your best. Do what you can to help her understand you. It’ll take time, but she cared enough to take you in. I think she gives enough of a shit to do the best she can to understand, and the more you help her do that the faster it’ll happen.
Also, you can probably contact child protection and ask for help with counselling and stuff. I’m guessing you have a case worker? Contact them and ask them what programs and services are available to you, and follow up and use everything at your disposal. If you can demonstrate that you’re doing everything you can to do right and you’re using all the resources at your disposal to help yourself even if you do fuck up it’ll reflect very well on you.
Chin up brother.
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After you destroy his life.
Nobody steals your gains… nobody
Srsly tho some heavy shit right there. The GIF Dump has your back tho you may want a professional to talk to
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I havent talked to my aunty about it but shes in England on holiday at the moment. Im at home with my older and younger cousins. Especially after today and the consequences of what could have happened i need help. When she gets back il have to talk with her about things.
Yeah i have a case worker/ someone similar to that. They’ve visited me about a month ago to see how i settled in. Im going to contact dcp and see what help i can get. Even if whatever help i get only just helps me a little thats better then nothing at all. And especially if it helps me in the vent that i fuck up majorly . Iv also had counselling many times and it does help a little.
I guess with shitty cards you just have to try deal yourself a better hand.
Thankyou so much, i really appreciate it.
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This made me laugh, thanks man lol. I definitely need professional help though.
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I think @flipcollar mentioned something about not really being efficient enough for auto-regulating until you’ve reached the 6-7 year mark in training. Can’t remember where I saw that, but most if not all of what he says, he says for a good reason.
Khangles does make a good point concerning deloading though. I too rarely ever deload, and I’m probably going to need to after a while. The few times I actually deload, the overall volume of my individual training sessions is basically chopped in half, and percentages are lowered respectively.
I group deloading with active recovery, idk why I just do, it’s probably in your best interest to make that a priority for maybe a solid week, whenever you find a rhythm to deloading, and a few days out of the week when you aren’t deloading. Of all the articles, threads, blog posts, and other things I’ve read on T-Nation, of you don’t do anything else, just don’t ignore active recovery.
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I think how you’re doing it is a good idea. I think me just Getting main work done then depending on how im feeling assess how much assistance work/volume il be doing. If for 4 weeks im feeling awesome but week 5 feel like shit, reduce volume and recover for a bit. My problem is training with to much intensity as well. So iv been trying to not go so crazy when lifting lately. For active recovery iv been doing boxing sessions sometimes on rest days.
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To add, I’m just now reading your situation,
If it helps at all,
I too have been in a situation where psychiatrists, counselors, and medication weren’t helping me whatsoever concerning with what I had been through. Aside from severe eating issues, there’s a few other things I’ve had to dust myself off from, that still fuck with me from time to time, and all I can say is that at this age, it’s mostly a daily battle to step where there’s the least amount of resistant, frustration, struggle, etc.
I haven’t had to deal with case workers, but I’ve had to basically take care of myself, after my mom and dad divorced.
And most times you just have to just check that shit off as you go, and sometimes it feels like you constantly have to do that. Constantly. It gets tiring believe me, but after a while your good choices start to pile up and you create some sort of clear pathway, that makes it easier as you mature and get older.
If you can manage it on your own, it’ll start to fall into place like clockwork.
Whether it’s going somewhere by yourself, taking a nap, speaking to someone, finding a small hobby, using your words instead of your fists, asking people to kindly stop messing with you,(if and when that works),sitting someone down and getting to understand them(this does and does not work sometimes), communicating with the people close to you, speaking up at the right moments, being patient, being observant.
In middle school, I had a friend who had Aspergers, and at first I never said anything to him, because I thought I’d just piss him off, after a while I started to talk him, and I asked how he manages his life so well, and he pretty much told me the same thing I’m telling you. He made it a point to find his safe spot, or even safe spots. Ones that were physical, and ones he could run to in his mind.
I’m not really an angry person, but my mom and brother are. And they’re very quick to use their fists to solve their problems. I’m not sure what shoots through your brain at the moment of an instance you’ve explained, but it does take time to reassess yourself and the situation. The guy who decided to mess with you, I’m sure has problems of his own, or has nothing better to do with his time. If you’re suave or even fast thinking enough, maybe you can try to play good cop/bad cop with him and ask him why he does the things he does, and further ask him to leave you alone. Young man to young man. You know? You guys might even become friends, but maybe my optimism is getting the best of me.
Anyways… there’s nothing wrong with getting help, and when you get a chance probably tell your Aunt too. If you’ve got assets, use them. Use all of them. Line them up the best way you see fit, so when you do notice yourself stumbling in situations like this, you know exactly what to do, and you can do it swiftly and keep it moving.
I’d say you’re doing a very good job to far. Life hasn’t exactly been “nice”, to me either, it usually isn’t for anyone, but once again, we’re here for you man.
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Sorry to hear you are still doing it tough but good to see you vent and talk to someone even if it is just the online community. I agree with Mark and talking to your case worker or even a school counsellor (if they have one) would be a good idea. You have obviously dealt with a whole heap of shit and some of what you are feeling would be completely normal, add to that the hormonal changes coursing through your body and the changes to the brain that happen during late teens and it becomes a bit of a melting pot. You seem really solid and have a good handle on doing your school work Ian’s focusing on your training but remember that having fun and building friendships is important too. I really hope you find someone to help you or at least someone to just listen. Take it easy.
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Thankyou, that does help. I think its really incredible how you got over an eating disorder.
Ans it is definitely a rough daily battle , especially in school, i try to avoid idiots but they are everywhere.
I think people like you and i, it actually makes us more independent. So in certain ways having to look after yourself is a good thing. Alot of the things my dad hasnt been around to teach me I’ve had to figure out myself etc. And now that im not even living with any parents , just my aunty its pretty much like living with a room mate, iv had to learn how to do my own washing, Doing my own dishes, take buses, take trains, wake up in the morning without anyone telling me to get up and do alot of other stuff i never did before whilst living with my mum. It has made me alot more self efficient.
I agree with all of that. Quite recently at school someone i had conflict with, we sat down in the year ten principals office and talked it out and resolved it. So it does work sometimes.
Unfortunately, this hasnt worked. Iv tried talking it out /telling them to leave me alone multiple times and there response is just “because i hate you, you’re a shitcunt” or something like that. I can generally stay calm and ignore hate/bullying from people but man for weeks now this kid has been name calling, trying to “start fights”/ wanting to fight, and the final straw was throwing my food. I just lost it. Thats why i try to talk things out, i dont want to go rage at anyone or hurt them no matter how much of a dick they are. I have to get my out of control, psycho rage sorted out though because im going to come across alot more bullies and idiots in my life. I was alot worse a few years ago and as i get older its easier to control ,so hopefully eventually itl be pretty much non existent.
I have alot of family members and my mates down here as well to help me. Its just hard to come out of my little shell and tell people. I mean its easier on a forum but when its in person its harder to let it out.
Thanks planetcybertron. Teenage years are just the worst. If i can make it past teenage years i can get through anything.
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Thanks alot for that man cant wait till the melting pots over. Il definitely be seeing someone as soon as i can. I know friendships are important and having fun but i dont really go out much. Im seeing my best mate on sunday who i havent seen for a while because he moved schools and house. Iv known him since i was 4! Iv been trying to go out and do more because the only time i leave the house in my free time is pretty much just the gym.
Todays training ;
Shoulders
Overheadpress 40kg ×3
×3
×7 pr
×3
30×12
Cable lateral side raise 3×10
Machine seated shoulder press
1×10 20kg per side
1×7 30kg per side
1×5
20kg×10
Leaning lateral raises 3×5 6kg too heavy.
Side plate laterals. 1.25kg plates ×100 . Ultimate death of delts. Definitely keeping these.
Facepulls 3×10
I also discovered a new exercise iv never done before. I was just mucking around with my band doing pull aparts and i put my hands alot closer together then normal and did a pull apart, except didnt do a full rep, when i was near my chest with the band i stopped and held the band there for 10-20 seconds. Lit my rear delts up on fire and an immense burn. Might remove rear delt peck deck and replace with band pull apart isometrics.
Heres a shoulder pic.
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I went and saw a psych recently, was really good to have someone to talk things through with and if you see your gp they refer you so its covered by Medicare.
Hope shit gets better for you mate.
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@painter27 im sure in time things will get better ( i hope so). I didnt know the medicare thing so thatl save some money. Thankyou!
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You know what, that’s awesome you stumbled on this on your own. That’s what people talk about when they talk about “learning” on their training journey. You stumble on shit like this and it’s another tool in your tool belt that you know works for a very specific purpose for you.
Additionally, check out CT’s article - Tip: Do Band Pull-Aparts
I’ve been using a lot of that in my shoulder prehab work and it’s been great!
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Sorry to hear you’re going through such a shit storm man. Life is hardly fair but those that have the fortitude to persevere grow tremendously through hardship.
I echo the sentiment that you’ll want to speak to a professional as soon as you can so you can have an outlet for the pain, fear, frustration, rage.
I think you’ve got a good bunch of folks here willing to listen too but not sure any of us are professional counselors or mental health professionals.
I have some background in addiction as I’m a recovering alcoholic (sober 14 years now) so I understand the dynamic of your rage and your concerns of it boiling over at ill-advised times.
Keep working in the gym as an outlet, find a good professional, and keep your head up; it won’t always be a black cloud - the sun will come and you will smile again.
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Thanks man! I love trying new things and learning which is why i program myself. Also because if i dont progress i have no one to blame but myself. Also i like freedom.
Il have a look, cheers.