Today
pull ups x 12
fs 45x10, 135x8, 155x8, 175x8, 195x8, 215
pull ups x 10
t bar oh press from safeties unknown tbar wt (45 or 55?) empty x 8, plus 10# x 8 x 5 sets
pull ups x 8
6 circuits of:
- t bar carry either 185-195 depending on the tbar wt x estimated 500 feet, next round 400 feet, next round 300 feet, next round 300 feet, last 2 rounds 200 feet
- rogue rows x 20
- csr x 10
pull ups x 6
smith machine back squats bar plus 0# x 10, 50# x 10, 70# x10
90# x 10 x 10 sets
4 rounds of rear delts x 15-20 ss pull ups x4-3
3 circuits of:
-tricep extensions x 15-20
-oh triceps 20-15
-face pulls x 25
Malibu Walk!
OH ITS SO NICE OUT!!! :D!!! Man am I happy I have my girl to walk this time of year! So wonderful!
This week was good at work. The intern I have had for the last 5 Tuesdays was great, and really made me feel good! It made me feel good to make HER feel encouraged and interested in doing what we do! She had a great attitude and it was a treat to see her excited when things clicked, and even better I felt like I was good at teaching her. My way of teaching being very nice, calm, and supportively-- because that’s what I needed but didn’t always get when I was a baby tech. When I messed up as all new people learning will do,having someone be harsh, impatient, or critical destroyed my motivation and I’d be too afraid to try again and fail with such hard judgement. I am by nature supportive and encouraging!
My internship was a bit different. My first 7 years of being a tech was VERY different as it was the school of hard knocks, bullys, divas. I made it because I was tough, I held myself back by making myself most useful in ways that I knew I could without help. I held myself back doing this. I did what was best for the team and at times that meant doing what no one WANTED to do but what had to be done .
I also was very stubborn thinking I’d somehow change the environment by doing more and shouldering more then my share, thinking eventually they would have no choice but to value me by seeing my work and by being a good example-- I should have been more confident and jumped ship way sooner. I should have advocated for myself.
I then believed that my value was a reflected one, as in I was only worth anything if OTHERS seemed to value me, and when they did not show this it was frustrating and ultimelty destroyed my self esteem too. I had the wrong compass. This was my way of thought truly until a few years ago.
It did not have to be that way, alas it was and now I am in a better place and can help lil baby techs not feel what I felt and to be encouraged and supported and excited to do our job!
Some people for sure need a hard hand and to be kicked into shape and to be taught discipline, but I have never been one of those people! I have discipline. Encouragement, confidence, and support work best for me and there is not a way I can change that about myself even if I wanted too.
Thinking back what held me from quiting the bad toxic clinic was my severe lack in confidence that I possessed skills . I did posses them! I was however in a rigged environment where no matter what I did, I was treated like I was disposable. My self esteem was thus affected.
I could have saved many years of toil for nothing, stress that was unessecary if I had confidence in my own value and enforced it completely–Pretty much the story of my life! For all my major heartaches!
Anywo! Great work week, great day outside, great dog! :D!!! Feeling really good these days, confident, solid!
And some pronghorn on my parents lawn!
OH SO AWFUL!
I’m 170. My belly is bigger, I have bigger legs, I am not as lean- my God do I feel so much better. I hope to keep it up! I have more confidence, no chasing the energy drain to feel like I deserve to be alive. I have more time. I have more patience. I care about myself more. WOOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!