Is it seasonal, perhaps? It could be you have a case of SAD going on. Try getting outdoors for a daily walk, taking more Vit D and see if that makes a difference. I know when I suffered from depression everything seemed a lot bleaker in winter.
[quote]Dasher wrote:
I have literally directed myself to your log before a workout to get motivated.
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YEAHH!! I totally do this too, man!
You’re hell strong, yet the most humble chick 'round. Effing amazing.
I understand the chemical imbalance issues ALLL TOOO well. Sometimes it can be a real rollercoaster. I always think WHY THE HELL does it tAKE so much just to make me feel content?! Is there SOMETHING wRONG with the pleasure centre in my brain or something?! Why is my happiness always so fleeting and conditional?!?!
OBVIOUSLY you are not alone, and you’ve got some real good cyber support goin’ on here. You vent/type it out as much as you need. We’re a listenin’
EEEE! In for the group hug!!! c’mere you!! places Brute’s head on my chesticles
(btw, the image of the above is hilarious considering our height differential, lol! But this is the internet! We can do whatever we want!)
My brutiful, brutiful goddess!! I hate that you’re going through shit. Kills me! You deserve moments of peace, damnit!! But you gotta chart your own course. I know…
Like Spock said, we’re here for your girlie! At least you know you got this place if you want to vent stuff out. I’m hoping this cycle doesn’t last long and you’ll start to feel more comfortable soon! Until then, I’m sending lots and lots and LOTS of e-love and good vibes through the internet tubes. Here they go!!
I hope they didn’t just wake you…they’re strong vibes!
Love you brutie!! And like my hair (haha! silly) inspired you, I just came in here for some inspiration myself!! Thank you, doll! Gonna go kick some ass today, thanks to you!
Cal–I do get the walkies in out side with my Nigel. But I of course am in full vampire mode and tyr and expose as little skin as possible, and then add a few layers on top . BUT I have been neglecting my vitamins/supps. I only take fish oil and cla and vit d…but I haven?t taken them. They are IN my cubbard but I just don?t because I?m bazaar. :{
Denver also is one of those blazingly sunny places year round…YEAR. ROUND. Nice if you aren?t a vamp like meJ
Spock–
EEEEEEE:D I love how we all vibe off each other its so awesome
Maschy Wild Mane–thank you for the hugs and VIBEZZZ what a wonderful way to wake up…to a bunch of vibes waiting for me on my computerJ
I have so much to be thankful for, I really do. I?m totally fortunate. I AM J Damm chemicals and their complicated enzymes and shit.
Today I did this
Front sq ramped up to 205 which I bombed but whatever. Then one eighty-five x3,x2,x2,x2
**I am on only computer that has no one /exclamation key :{ in my desperate attempts to get a internet connection :{
Ohs one thirty one for thirteen I think, then a surprise one thirty-six for ten, one eleven for ten.
Sick front squats, brute!
damn chemicals, enzyme and shit is right…I want in on this group hug. Apologies in advanced for my roaming hands.
Thank LULA!!! And thank you for bringin’ in some of that meet stardust with you :)!!! So cool!
Yesterday
deads 275x9,x5, 295
t’was all. My body just said enough and so i left. I wasn’t too upset or frustrated about it becasue it felt ok. didn’t hurt myself just didn’t wanna.
But being the psycho us pw are sometimes, I went to another gym.
sq 225,255
did that god awful stair mill for 5 minutes of horrible. knew i was over it and left!
today
front sq 190 x 5 singles
regular sq 190, 225x7, 255
ohs 135x10, 140x8–> PR. MY GOD has it been long since I could report a PR!!
then fail to get 145 up.
anderson front sq 145x8,155x2, fail at 165
tis it.
Sending you light and hugs, dear. Lift heavy!
OHVOMIT.
I am back on the cardio but treadhill only. I know I’m WAY TOO CARDIO UNFIT for the deathmill oh hellno.
[quote]brute_fury wrote:
Thank LULA!!! And thank you for bringin’ in some of that meet stardust with you :)!!! So cool!
Yesterday
deads 275x9,x5, 295
t’was all. My body just said enough and so i left. I wasn’t too upset or frustrated about it becasue it felt ok. didn’t hurt myself just didn’t wanna.
But being the psycho us pw are sometimes, I went to another gym.
sq 225,255
did that god awful stair mill for 5 minutes of horrible. knew i was over it and left!
today
front sq 190 x 5 singles
regular sq 190, 225x7, 255
ohs 135x10, 140x8–> PR. MY GOD has it been long since I could report a PR!!
then fail to get 145 up.
anderson front sq 145x8,155x2, fail at 165
tis it.
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I love all of this including the random stop at a different gym. I know I can always count on you for colour.
[quote]brute_fury wrote:
But being the psycho us pw are sometimes, I went to another gym.
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this made me laugh. it’s true, we’re all the same aye?!
nice strong front squats and hurray on the overhead PR 
[quote]cholulalula wrote:
[quote]brute_fury wrote:
But being the psycho us pw are sometimes, I went to another gym.
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this made me laugh. it’s true, we’re all the same aye?![/quote]
I’m am literally LOLing!!! So hilarious Brute!
I’m ok with you being ok. Sounds like you’re trudging through. End of the tunnel is soon enough. Hang in there, brutiful!!
thank you for ALL you wonderfulness:)
here’s a picture for anyone interested in my armpit. no real lifting vids of glory.
was thrown off today on my wya to the gym . punks. but i did a misc day anyways
deads 265x9, 225x8, 225x5 sumo
ohs 95 x 23
db bench 35 x twelve
lunges of no real note
arachne thank you!!
My Hallowed–I am going to master that thing!! i would love to be able to use it without having to look down at my feet. I get dizzy and fall if i don’t watch myself climb up steps!! new goal of mine --ten minutes of non vomiting step mill…its fuckign hard!!
O!! :)!!!
lula!! ha ha:D!!!
thanks N! I’ve been re inspired by Molly on FB. killer!! I wanna bad now!!
Maschy!!!
stairmill, wow. i did that once.
hey brutiful, catching up with all the PW love in here. You are in good hands with all the support these strong chicks dish out. You are one of the strongest, unique individuals I’ve e-met and I’m so glad I did.
Yes, that deathmill is awesomely awful, catch me, I just survived 20 minutes, now going to puke and sleep.
Hint: I will go side stepping just to change it up for a minute here and there, figure it will work some abductors/adductos too.
love your armpit!!
Absolutely gorgeous in a real BAMFy way.
Your workout didn’t suck either.
Get your nose fixed?
Also, my cat has catne. Hubby doesn’t think I should use stridex on him. Is it actually okay?
Been lurking, figured I’d drop in and say how much I enjoy this log. You’re pretty damn inspiring/awesome/bad ass, Brute! Makes me smiles a lot!!! Ok, carry on with the awesome.
Nice armpit, btw!