we’re on the same page regarding the carbs. boooo
But there so tasty!!!
oh well.
Do you do protein shakes? Cottage cheese and greek yogurt are good too. Maybe that would be easier on your tummy and you can add in a little animal to see. I wouldn’t eat something if it made me nauseous.
hey Dani! yes! I usually am the same way and run best on protein and veg only. but the past months its been hard for me to stomach protein at all…and I’ve had to force it. it made me nauseous so i just avoided the problem and had carbs because i had being sick to my stomach. I have no idea what’s wrong!
Nadia!! Thank you!! Its going well I’m surprised and totally excited!
MIMSY! dairy gave me shit a while ago, but that was when my diet was really clean. It made me all draggy and inflamed and feel weak. however now i think I can put it in again since its easier on my belly adn compared to the crap i’ve been eating it’d be much cleaner… I just don’t know it the dealio!
OH MY GOD. I got in a fender bender today :{ SUCKS ASS, It was my fault too! ARRRRRGGHHHH!!!
So anyways, before the stupid car accident–no one was hurt, the other car has a small ding on in the fornt fender. my car’s a tank and is fine–i did front squats and cardio.
135x19
cardio
I was on the way to RMLC when i got in the accident! ARGH!!! make me so mad at myself! Oh fuckin well. I had a 12 year streak of accident free driving…the lady I hit was really sweet though. She was like a russian godmother. I hope she stays that way :{
That’s what you get for doing U-turns. 
The roads are awful today. It normally takes me 30 minutes to get from Thornton to JeffCo courts, it took me nearly 90, I was late this morning. I’m not looking forward to the drive home. The only really good thing is I have a huge trailer hitch on the back of my truck so if anyone rear ends me, they die.
its WAY cold tonight to PMPM! be careful! its going to be 8 degree and full of black ice!!!
Sorry to hear that. I honestly can’t even imagine why that would happen.
oh no!!! Glad your ok though!!
Woah Brutiful! Lots going on, girl!
First off, congrats on the continued success of your pullups! Woot woot! Lovin’ it!
Second, you have a twin? That bakes?! OMG, that’s awesome!! I want a twin too!! AND pretzels!!
Also so happy that the drama that unfolfed, refolded. Big sigh of relief!! Be gone drmama! Seriously, I’m e-smudge sticking you right now. <>
And hialrious on “got happy, did deadlifts” HAHAH! Its funny. I’m the same way, I’m a happy lifter. I’m not really a “get mad and go lift,” kinda girl. When I get mad, I get overly analytical and then I get depressed. LoL!
And finally, on the foods…I don’t know Brute, I mean, if you can’t stomach meat right now, then maybe you shouldn’t eat it. Maybe you’re body doesn’t want it right now! Maybe you can try a little bit of a veggie diet, and see if you start craving meat? Find stuff that you can stomach AND you enjoy eating (if you enjoy eating that is, I do realize that some people view food in terms of sustenance and not for pleasure).
But you do have to that other stuff out 
Sawwy! (altho one must never, NEVER say no to family baked goods!)
Disco–I have a sneaking suspicion as I type this that its depression/emo angsty/nerd related. As in I am a spazz so nothing makes sense! HA!! However I am day two of no bread,and had some dairy and pb last night. NO probs! i’m a bit of a self defeater. This I know is true!
MIM! I felt so bad…because it was entirely my fault! This lil russian woman was so sweet and I wanted to take her home as my grandma. I’m lucky, seriously lucky. But still! I feel like a chump! ARGH!!! But goes to show…pay attention!
MASCHY! OH! Yep I’m a happy lifter too!! 
Needs to be smiling then it makes it that much better!
I think with the food like I mentioned to Dani is my dumb bullshit because it does make no sense… BULLSHIT! I enjoy eating that’s for sure but man…do I wish I could NOT eat food
Seriously. If I could up and start anew without being to clear my had and not have the whole needing to eat to function bullshit i’d feel much better. maybe i’ll try it anyways…but no! because i won’t be able to lift…maybe?
Eating is FAR from just for sustenance for me…bleh! oh wells!
WHAT ABout fish?? Does fish still give you problems?? Maybe you could go on a seafood/veg type overhaul right now or something?? I have carb problems, they make me feel like a bloaty pile of shit. Same with dairy (only worse, in a livin’ in the bathroom for a few hours sorta way, ha-ha)
hey Spock! Fish oil I can do, but oooo noooo on any other seafood. Absolutely no fish or any seafoods. i wish wasn’t the case since they are quite healthy.
Its on a very very small list of food that I absolutely won’t eat. I can now add chicken to that list :{
I really do think that its all in my head now that I’m thinking about it. And my routine and my habits. HABITS and rituals. RITUALS!!! ARHH!! I was raised catholic so that ritual shit is hard grained in !
All caught up, oh my, you’ve been through a lot in the last month!
It’s going to sound a bit weird maybe, but I’ve always thought that when one is losing weight, they go through some of the emotions that were there when they put that weight on. Fat stores all kinds of things, and so when it’s dissolving it makes sense that those things are going back into your system. So, wouldn’t that affect mood? I’m guessing for most people when they’re putting on fat, they aren’t in the best mental space, so of course all of that back into the system is emotional. I don’t know, it’s what I tell myself when I’m feeling off for no reason. Maybe it’s effecting your baseline mood too?
That aside, damn you’re strong girl! 
I have read something about estrogen stored in fat increasing emotionality when losing weight… whatev! I increase my emotionality usually based on astro transits. S’true. If Hallowed is fucking raging I can guarantee Mars is up on my shit fucking with me.
boooooo bread. Damn. I am insane right now food wise. I have gone like YEARS without bread or sugar but December just sent me for a tailspin. I’ve been back on pretty clean gluten free for oh, a week or two with a couple of slips. So, I feel yo pain girl! Got to just get a couple of solid weeks in and everything should be better. I’m not zero carb by any stretch I usually come in around 100-120g a day but most is peri workout with a rice tortilla and maybe some gluten free hot cereal in the daytime.
Anyhoo… Um, what else. I got in three fender benders in rapid succession last year! Hallowed, why you no pay attention? ALL THREE WERE MY FAULT YAY. Um, I also kinda drive a tank and I didn’t bother feeling bad abou it. Of course none of my victims were adorable babushka types either.
Me and my Sister I don’t think there’s a dominant one (of course we’re not twins I’m seven years older and SHOULD be the boss but I’m not) someone once asked me who is the mommy between me and her and honestly… we take turns! And thats what a good “person” does they mommy you when you need it. Um, I mean nice mommy not wire hanger mommy of course.
muah
I like you. You seem random and hyper and weird, just like me.
here are two sq vids.
Vids? Not seein’ 'em.
And yeah, I’m right there. Two weeks into my diet and I feel depressed and unmotivated. I also don’t feel as though I’ve lost much weight. I know my mood is a mixture of low carbs, winter blues and PMS but still, all the things that don’t normally get to me are getting to me. At least I can eat chicken, I suppose - but boy is it dull.
As for bread, I steer clear of wheat when dieting, but I always remember I got really sick with gastric flu when I was 6 (seriously, I was Exorcist child) and the only thing I could eat then was dry toast. Maybe you have a slight bug?
here’s the other. this one was done first, my traditional sq style. the other was after some cardio
hey patch! you have a definitive point…i’m kinda going at it but not all the pieces are in line :{ and the stuff that caused the wt gain is still unresolved :{
honestly i feel like i can’t seem to get my footing at all. not all the pieces are there to make my quest successful! and its driving me further down in frustration!
Hallowed! aww!! sisters are fab! i have nine total…but 2 or three i don’t really get along with.
me too with the food…my binge has been going on for almost a year! ate super clean then, well didn’t :{ i know its just a getting back on the wagon thing but man…irr!
CAL! ugh…it takes those two weeks…getting there is hard. my problem is how ritualized and routine i get–fast. once i get the good eating down to a ritual, i’m solid…but until them its all sorta fucked!
the vids! they aren’t anything spectacular just form stuff. the 255 is in my typical fashion. the first one is 210 or something and its my attempt at fixing my form.
I was advised : spread your hands out on the bar and give it a shot. I think my problem is not knowing how far to go down. Any critique is welcome! please!!
todays stuff was sq
135,185, 225, 255
cardio
retry sq 135, 155, 175, 185, 205, 210
I love those shorts
as for hand placement I keep mine close together and low bar it. try to get a vid from behind or front so we can check it out next time.
[quote]nlmain wrote:
I love those shorts
as for hand placement I keep mine close together and low bar it. try to get a vid from behind or front so we can check it out next time.[/quote]
this. And also a huge fan of you in the shorts, in the hole. lol keep doing the damn thing, Bru.