that is one thing i’m missing… that feeling of putting everything into a lift and nevermind what happens bodyfluids or noiseswise or wardrobe malfunctionwise people will understand and respect the effort. glad to hear the coaching is working well for you.
think it is working well for me, too. not so much about motivation… but definitely getting something from it. can’t believe how skinny you were at 17. i think you look much much better now, for what it is worth. love the cheeky gleam, though. here is to a good year team pull-up
Thanks for all tyhe wonderful new years vibes my lovelies!
…becasue…OH MY GAWD did I have a shot day today. Well afternoon.
Plan was to go shooting with my sisters, but it ended up with me in tears after Nigel freaked out on a friend Long ass, drama filled stupid story cumilating in me not going to rmlc tonight. due to me freaking otu and being a wreck. My buddy’s had a really hard few weeks and was staying over and Nigel just iced the cake!
So that being said I have no lodgers at The Brute Abode. But still! I’m a feeler!!! I think all the hard stuff my friend has been dealing with finally caught up with me. I think
I vibe off people a lot, and am sensitive to feelings, pain, and emotional energy in general. I am a nurse at heart and want to help people because I’ve been there myself and its so lame…but it comes at a cost to my psychic strength! I just feel so much!!! It can be overwhelming!! Good and bad energy I tend to be very sensitive to!
So i’m kinda boo-hooey tonight but its just a matter of built up sorrow for various things, purging out. I should be worn out for the next few days so I’ll play it by ear how i train. I ended up just doing cardio this morning thinking I’d squat later but never happened.
SO! Recovering, thoughtful, and a bit drained. Oh, life is a kicker. So i cut my hair and am drinking some mtn dew to edge off. OH! and watching the entire Daria series
Ok. So… have you looked into doing some work to protect your beautiful sensitive psychic soul. I don’t want to get all cray cray religious or anything BUT I know several people who are like you are… one is a reiki healer the other is a masseuse. They each have to do some spiritual work asking (this is where whatever your higher power is comes in) to be protected from taking in or taking on too much. My sister does a lil morning prayer again put whatever gleam on this you want to. I’m half a Pagan, the specifics do not matter. A general morning practice briefly asking the universe, god, Odin Alfather, WHATEVER to help you during the day:
Help me do my best today,
Let me be helpful to others where I can
protect me from taking on unnecessary pain.
(Or something I just threw that up there top of the head)
Something so simple like this can really help over time and get you in tune with working on and controlling a psychic gift that is obviously affecting you wether you acknowledge it or not. It seems you are definately AWARE of it… but its sneaking up and getting the best of you me no like dis! Think about my suggestion you will know if it feels right to you… or if you should look into something different… either way I am suggesting working to control your psychic nature.
Oh My Hallowed! thank you!!! so much!! You are so kind–and right. I’ve never thought of doing a ward against it! well, vs the bad vibes. I am open to so many things. Raised catholic but been witness to lots of other views. The universe amazes me… So full So much
Heads still way fucked. But I DID go to rmlc and finally see someone, Jen the co owner. She made me feel better just talking to her. Was going to dl but only got up to 225x6. left then went and did cardio, then front squats
fronties 135x 17,x5
felt a bit better getting SOME sorta something in. went to the eye dr. new specs on the way!
doing my pull ups tonight. no real excitement but i got a lil bit of nigel cuteness on film. This was set 8,of ten sets of 3. getting harder every week…so are my pecs
OH DAMON! WORD! thanks as always for your wonderful support…I kinda need it I need a big hug too!
Spazzed out still. But its a good. painful but make you feel alive as your cells divide style… I wonder if looking back on this in a year it’ll make sense. Serious foreshadowing I’m feeling, but its not up to me. I leave the universe in charge!
but anyways! did some pithy lifting today. I’ll get back in the right frame of mind soon.
Am in almost the same boat today. Back felt a lil loose during my fronts. Mood wasn’t there, either. But, I perservered like we demi-gods/goddesses always do.
OH!!! SNAP!!! thank you!! I will be at rmlc sunday funday before work. woo!! Thank you so much!
NADIA!!! Its amazing…my body has changed since I started the pull up program. My diet’s been shitty to questionable at best, my lifting has been all over the place but my pecks, my upper back, my abs, all are changing from the pull ups! That’s the only consistent thing I’ve been doing so i give it all the credit. I can’t thank you enough!
Its so weird . I’ve had many body styles thru out my lift. This cycle is going to be very differant from teh others. I’m pleased! :)!!
today I felt like doing front squats so i did
135x19, 135x12
that’s all. :)!
me no like dis! Think about my suggestion you will know if it feels right to you… or if you should look into something different… either way I am suggesting working to control your psychic nature.
I need a big hug too!