I’m still alive and kicking around here.
Lifted twice over the past two weeks, I just didn’t have it in me to take on DC both mentally and physically. Ended up just doing whatever, but spent 30-45 mins getting some work in. Time restrictions with work and wifey needing a life, along with work around the house are sort of taking precedence over lifting lately. That’s ok, but I am trying to not make it a regular thing. It’s been difficult not having an outlet for my minimal spare energy. To be truly transparent, I’m starting to feel like a robot. Built to work, which doesn’t do anyone any good.
There are a few things I’ve been tossing around the ol think tank while at work about trying to make progress while being somewhat stagnant lifting-wise.
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Sleep. It is garbage. I need to fix it. I can’t keep operating the way I am now. I’m getting 6 ish hours regularly, which isn’t horrible, but I think it’s compounding due to how deep a sleep deficit I’ve been in the past year as well as just not sleeping “well”. The only thing I can improve here is going to bed earlier. I’m in bed by 10 just about every night. Not sure how I can improve upon this just due to the timing of things.
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Food. I need more of it. I make sure to have at least 2 full meals a day, with an eyeballed 1lb of meat of some sort at each meal. I bring cottage cheese with me on the van. This is also not enough. Weighed 197 this morning. Also need to get back on the protein shake wagon.
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Alcohol. I need less of it (well, none at all). This may also solve the sleep issues I’ve been having. I don’t drink during the work week unless my wife and I get some us time with my mom watching the little man and we go out to dinner or a bar. However, weekends are a different story. I am not in my early 20’s anymore, and while I’m not going out until all hours of the morning, the social drinking I do has me feeling it the following day. I’ve noticed horrible sleep following days of modest alcohol intake. I can also use the money I save from NOT drinking to buy more meat.
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Which leads me to financials, which I try not to talk about. My wife and I discussed this at length before my son was born, and we decided that having her stay home with him for the first 1-2 years of his life would be not only beneficial for us, but for him as well. I still truly believe that. It has been been very difficult financially, though. As the sole provider, I am paying for EVERYTHING. A modest house, home equity mortgage, two cars and insurance, vet bills, groceries, experiences for my son, while also paying off our vacation credit card and any other outstanding debts we’ve had. When work comes up, I more or less need to take it. I would not want to have my wife working to put our son into daycare, especially at one year old. So, when we buy groceries, I opt to purchase less than I had previously. There just isn’t as much food in the house as there once was. If I can cut spending from somewhere else (alcohol and caffeine, I’m looking at you) I should be able to roll that money into groceries and savings, which means but more calories and protein in my diet and little bit of extra back-up money.
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Step count. I need to get it down. I’m just one of those people that cannot stop moving. I register more steps on the weekends than on the weekdays (over 24,000 yesterday). I need to learn how to relax. Other than guitar which I haven’t played in months, I have zero hobbies that have me stationary. Maybe I’ll take up knitting.
Long post, but I need to get this stuff out somewhere. I’m honestly so confused as to how to move forward from the point I’m at now, that I’m just doing nothing. I need to figure some shit out.
