Appreciate the reply man. I’ll take this to your woo woo thread so we don’t disrupt this one.
I’m not really getting what you’re saying. The bloody drug I’m taking affects my eyesight (and surprisingly, my typing skills are worse than the eyesight issue although I normally don’t even look at the keyboard while I type).
Are you talking about the part about the brain kinda subconsciously re-wiring itself over the years? IM-very-fucking-HO I think it’s like lifting heavier and heavier weights to force the body to adapt due to it’s innate survival instinct.
The psychiatrist who was also qualified in CBT said my mind was FINE BEFORE CBT. It was the therapist that thought otherwise.
The issue I had was I used to lose control when I get really pissed off. Now, when I was a teen, this was not as big of a problem since I normally had peers who would would stop me if I went too far. I contained it by the time I was in uni.
However, certain events made it seem like this issue was resurfacing so I thought maybe I might ask a psychologist what I should do because if I go fucking batshit, someone’s goanna get really hurt and the legal consequences would be pretty severe.
So basically what the psychiatrist told me that during CBT, issues that my mind had rewired itself started resurfacing. Kinda like all the “progress” I had consciously or subconsciously made over the years were being undone when this was UNNECERRARY.
So, in essence, I had CBT-ed my self but doing actual CBT kinda fucked it up.
Does this make sense lol? Is this what you’re referring to?