I train to compensate for a lack of maturity.
I’ve never been a very secure individual, and I must say that I’ve met more than my fair share of people who lack some of the more virtuous qualities in life. They get under my skin, and I let their shit bother me. Coworkers don’t take you seriously, other males walk all over you, females rant on and on about how they want a guy with a great mind, but then fuck the tree-stump with a pot habit whose only testament to accomplishment is the single clip of .22 hollow points he made himself.
Also, I try to live a virtuous and contemplative life. But most of the people I know don’t care a lick about those things, and when they see some pudgy weakling ‘getting philosophical’ or ‘doing the right thing’ they most often deride you – tell you shit like, ‘don’t rock the boat’ or ‘stop whining’ or ‘why are you wasting your life learning’.
Strength is power. People fear it, love it, respect it, bow down to it, lust after it. Strength is coveted by the masses who are lured into the illusion that what looks strong must be right. My personal belief is that this is a phallacy, but I still have to deal with the other 99.9% of the population that believe this.
So there it is. I can’t handle that shit, because I’m not mature enough to just ‘let it slide’. Maybe I’m high strung. Maybe I’m too idealistic. Maybe my parents actually managed to teach me some of the finer things in life. But until I mature or until people lose the urge to be discourteous and deceitful to one another and stop fucking each other over, I train.
I train because to the best extent that I can, I will ensure that I will not be walked upon, my opinions will be heard, and I will not end up lonely in life – even if training means that I have to settle for some superficial bitch as the mother of my children. I have goals and aspirations, and I’ve decided that no one will stand in their way any longer.
Sorry if this sounds over the top. It isn’t meant to make anyone feel defensive, though. I’m just being frank. This is why I train.