As you should. =]
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Yay for you, Spockie! And you look awesome too!
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Thanks guys 
Today
Deadlifts
135lbs x 2 sets of 4
185lbs x 4
Belt
205lbs x 4
215lbs x 2 sets of 4
1hr back stuff
Bi
20 min step mill
All perf.
BYE
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And btw you look awesome as well Jenn.
I saw this post and thought that was a short workout for Jenn.
But then I read
And yup itās Jenn alright.
Youāre awesome
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K great
Front squats
95lbs x 2
115lbs x 2
125lbs x 2
130lbs x 2
135lbs x 2
140lbs x 2
115lbs x 3 sets of 2
Bench press
95lbs x 6
105lbs x 6
110lbs x 6
Tempo bench
100lbs x 2 sets of 5
Barbell split squats
65lbs x 2 sets of 8, x 10
Incline db press
27.5lbs x 12
32.5lbs x 2 sets of 8
Reverse grip d handle tri ext
3 x 10
Stepmill x 20
Rest tomorrow
Bye
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Rest day thoughts:
Does anyone/everyone else with children get mortified by the thought of time passing or their child aging?
My son will be 12 in a month, heading off to Jr high, and when I am tried or just in a sensitive state I start to feel intense bouts of separation anxiety about the thought of him getting older.
I basically want him to stop aging as of yesterday. Not because I worry about what he will be like as a teenager or a young adult, but because heās my best friend and I do everything with him. When he starts to get older he will perhaps get a girlfriend, more friends, a part-time job, a life away from me and then I will literally be all alone.
Right now I donāt feel super lonely because every day off I have I plan things for us to do together that we both enjoy. Before bed and over dinner we are together and even if we arenāt hanging out I hear his gaming noises or we can make conversation so I never really have to feel alone.
He was going to be going camping with his other family for like 5 days at the end of the month and I shit you not I almost cried because I didnāt want to think about being alone for 5 days.
I have no man and no friends. My mom and my son are the only people in my world. I donāt want them to age and I donāt want anything to change because I donāt want to be all by myself.
I honestly do not see myself actually meeting anyone any time soon. I am happy, but I am still a very disordered person, and a man getting used to all my āquirksā would be quite the feat, and I donāt believe itās in the cards for me.
Anyway, just some thoughts I have been having as of late. I am not super down, just worried that in the future Iāll be super down I guess, LOL
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BYE
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Plenty of fish in the sea spock
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I know that, and I know there are some great ones out there. Itās not them I feel is the issue, itās me.
I am pretty messed up about a lot of things, and I feel those things in particular wouldnāt really pave the way to develop a relationship very easily.
I think thatās calledā¦ been put thru the wringer. And you are not willing to put up with that shit again!
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Yes, thatās a large part of it, I think.
Maybe he conditioned me to believe that because I am my ailments I am unlovable or undeserving of commitment or a real relationship.
Maybe itās not so much that I have these āissuesā, but that he made me feel that I wont find anyone willing to put up with them.
Because right now that is what I believe. I deemed myself too disordered to be with someone, but maybe he is the one who put that idea in my head in the first place.
I completely understand this, and though I believe it to be the farthest from the truth, you will have to believe it yourself. And that shit is hard!!!
You are going a great job of getting back on track!
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I donāt really know you at all yet but you seem like a fun person with a lot to offer. I wouldnāt give up on yourself, I hope you find a good guy and I think you will, if thatās what you want.
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thanks you guys!! 
I think I am staying on track better than I ever have, thatās for sure.
I am not going to rush anything or try to rush myself into wanting something that I donāt even want right now. But thatās why my son needs to only been 10 still 
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You never know! Is your son sporty?? Maybe as he gets older he might get an interest in lifting ?? Thatās a way to spend time together! I used to go to the gym with my dad - a lot of my sisters did to- as teenagers!
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Why couldnāt my sisters have been into lifting dammit! Ended up baking and playing tennis with them, lol. Thankfully my younger sister likes funny movies and the middle one likes hiking and basketball also.
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Donāt worry about your quirks and dysfunctions, just live your life and do what you enjoy doing. If you want to look for them, there is someone out there whose quirks and dysfunctions will mesh with yours well enough to make a good match, and doing the things you enjoy doing is where you meet people you have things in common with.
But of course, if you donāt want to look, thatās okay too. There is value in learning to be alone comfortably, and I think being comfortable with being alone sometimes makes you a better partner when you are ready to make that jump.
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Thank you for this. Loved this post !!
I am enjoying being single right now, there is no question about that. And who knows , maybe Iāll continue to enjoy it even when Gabe isnāt spending as much time with me.
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k really good one today
paused squats
115lbs x 3
135lbs x 3
155lbs x 3
165lbs x 3
170lbs x 3 sets of 3
double paused squats
145lbs x 3
150lbs x 3
military press
65lbs x 8
70lbs x 2 sets of 8
bent over row
65lbs x 15
85lbs x 10
95lbs x 8
seated DB press
25lbs x 12
30lbs x 2 sets of 10
db lateral raises
5lbs x 25
7.5lbs x 25
10lbs x 25
db rear delt fly
7.5lbs x 30
5lbs x 30
db plie sq
45lbs x 2 sets of 10
db one leg rdl
15lbs x 2 sets of 10
hammer curl
15lbs x 2 sets of 10
x 1 set of 12
done
awesome
nessssssss
BYE
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Nah, I canāt relate at all.
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Ok so rest day I spent all morning at work planning and booking out my bday !! 9 Days away!!
This one is important to me because it will be the first birthday in 4 years that I didnāt waste spending time with Mr. shithead ex who essentially ruined them!!!
I decided to indulge in my faves ! Lifting, recovery and eating!!
Fri after work chiro then gua sha massage next door
Sat workout , hang with my kid in aft, regular massage at 3;15 (LOL LIKE THE TIME MATTERS TO YOU GUYS 
) dinner at the keg at 6pm
Sun: workout, then after I am trying this new thing called float studio. Its like supposed to help with cortisol and relaxation eetcā¦
Mon: Workout, supposed to be nice out so hoping my kid will want to go hike around the nature center !!
WPPPOOOOOp
k
BYE
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