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K days without incident: 3

Bench press

110lbs x 2 sets of 12
115lbs x 2 sets of 12

paused bench

120lbs x 2 sets of 4
130lbs x 4 sets of 2

seated DB press SS Arnold press

35lbs/17.5lbs
x 8/ x 10
x 8/ x 10
x 8/ x 10

DB lateral raise SS seated DB lateral raise
17.5lbs/7.5lbs
x 10/ x 12
x 10/ x 12
x 10/ x 15

incline DB front raise SS plate raise
7.5lbs/35lbs
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12

rear delt DB fly SS rear delt DB fly w/pause and slow neg SS rear delt DB fly partials
20lbs/10lbs/20lbs
x 10/ x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10/ x 10

ropey tri ext w/ pause SS ropey tri ext.
30lbs/20lbs
x 8/ x 10
x 10/ x 12
x 12/ x 15

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

K feelinā€™ real strong again peeps. My few days of shit seem to be behind me.

Deadlifts tomorrow redemption time

Also giving up on sumo
cant do them properly if my life depended on it

BYE

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niceā€¦everything is going to be okayā€¦

keep going
Push on

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K deadlift redemption was what was sought, deadlift redemption was what was got!!!

Deadlifts

185lbs x 4
205lbs x 2
215lbs x 1
225lbs x 1
belt
235lbs x 1
240lbs x 1
245lbs x 1
250lbs x 2 sets of 1

paused deadlifts (just below the knee) ~~Beltless

185lbs x 2 sets of 4
195lbs x 3
205lbs x 2 sets of 2
215lbs x 1 sets of 1

NG pull ups SS bent over row(95lbs) SS 2 arm DB row (22.5lbs)
x 6/ x 8/ x 12
x 6/ x 8/ x 15
x 6/ x 8/ x 20

kayak row SS straight arm pull down
25lbs/25lbs
x 15arm/ x 15
x 15arm/ x 15
NOREsT

incline DB curl SS close grip BB curl

15lbs/40lbs
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10
x 10/ x 10

hammer strength front pull down machine
drop sets
60lbs x 8
40lbs x 10
30lbs x 12

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

So with regards to being easier on myself, today I work over an hour earlier than normal (stupid Saturday hours) so I thought OKAY wellā€¦next deadlift day I am off so Iā€™ll double my back accessory work then, sleep in today and do less at the gym.
Even no cardioā€¦
So I was worrying about it all day yesterday
Actually most of the week LOL
So of course I go to bed at 7 o clock last night and get up at 2:30 so I can still do tons of shit and have plenty of time to enjoy my post workout panic attack :sunglasses:

NE WAY classic Jenn, why do I even bother?
I get more stressed out about the thought of taking it easy than the thought of getting up super early and working hard.
OH WEELLS

Today was amazing
250 moved pretty quick so I am excited to work up to 255 next singleā€™s day

As of 4pm today I will officially be on a 3 day weekend, WHOOOOOOOOp

BYE

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HAHAHAHAHA Good stuff
Enjoy your time off

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K days without incident: 5

High bar squats

135lbs x 12
155lbs x 12
165lbs x 12

low bar paused squats

155lbs x 2 sets of 4
170lbs x 3
belt
180lbs x 2 sets of 2
190lbs x 3 sets of 1

ropey cable pull through SS barbell hip thrust

25lbs/135lbs
x 20/ x 10
x 25/ x 12
x 30/ x 15

leg spreader SS lying leg curl
85lbs/50lbs
x 25/ x 10slow neg
x 25/ x 10slow neg
x 25/ x 10 *slow neg + 1 drop 40lbs x 10

single leg curl
10lbs
x 8 1&1/2 reps *leg
x 8 1&1/2 reps *leg

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

back ext. x 20 *paused

Wonderful.

Today I kept thinking about how amaze-balls its gonna be when I finally have a two place squat

Epic amaze-balls xā€™s 10000000000000000000000 and 1!!!

:kissing_closed_eyes:

Oh, something I was also thinking about yesterday.

I totally forgot that before marshall my dry-spells were typically over two years.

And that was even before my hermit-ness got so extreme. I used to go out and meet people at least, and even then I was lucky to get lucky once every 18-24 monthsā€¦

So basically I am thinking I might never have sex again? Or maybe not for like 5 ++ years.

I hope I donā€™t go psychotic

But I am probably going to start complaining about it soon
Obnoxiously so
And we ainā€™t even at the 6 months mark yet

Hold onto your butts

BYE

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Mighty finnnnnnnne day today

Bench press

115lbs x 6
125lbs x 3
130lbs x 3
135lbs x 3 sets of 3

2 AMRAP sets

115lbs x 13
95lbs x 18

Incline DB press (all reps paused at the bottom)

35lbs
x 10
x 10
x 10
x 10

Hammer strength chest press machine one arm at a time
45lbs
x 8arm
x 8arm
drop sets
35lbs
x 8*arm
25lbs
x 15 partials *arm

reverse grip D handle Tri ext SS overhead DB tri ext.
10lbs/15lbs
x 10arm/x 10arm
x 10arm/ x 10arm
x 12arm/ x 12arm

NOREst

EZ bar cable tri ex.t
drop sets

50lbs
x 8
35lbs
x 10
25lbs
x 12

Stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

Always get so excited when I bench the big plates that I have trouble keeping tight. Almost had an incident today cause my spotter told me some of my reps were crooked, but then I remembered that I know Iā€™m crooked and I do every exercise crookedly :joy:

Dayum girl, you cooked.
WHAT
WHAT OMG!!!KFOSK
Oh waitā€¦
I knowā€¦

I refuse to let this Eff with me
Itā€™s not stopping me from getting stronger
SO DEAL
DEAL JENn
JENN

The little girl with OCD who wants everything to be perfect all the time has crookedness that is out of her control so that everything will be imperfect all the time

That could be a childrenā€™s story
A shitty one

W/E

BYE

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K good day
IS AID GOODDAY

Deadlifts

185lbs x 6
205lbs x 6
215lbs x 6
belt
220lbs x 2 sets of 6

deficit deadlifts ~~beltless

215lbs x 2 sets of 3
225lbs x 2
235lbs x 3 sets of 1 <ā€“Almost diedā€¦but lived instead!!

DB row
65lbs
x 8arm
x 8arm
x 8arm
55lbs
x 8arm w/pause

T bar row SS ropey pull down
bar+ 50lbs/15
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12
x 12/ x 12
NOREST-ING

ropey bi curl SS seated DB curl

20lbs/17.5lbs
x 15/ x 8arm
x 15/ x 8arm
x 15/ x 8*arm

cable D handle lat pull down sanding in the middle thing
20lbs
x 20
x 20
x 20
MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A KING
A king with muscley wings

umm
D handle bi curl
10lbs
x 10arm
x 10arm

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

K I wish I didnā€™t have to say this, but days without incident is ZERO

I was fine with my bench press when I was doing it yesterday, but then after I got home I started having a panic attack about the crooked-ness, and then it got super intense and it lasted for hours and it ruined half my day yesterday :confused:

I think I was more upset that I was having a panic attack than about the fact that my bench was crooked.
I canā€™t expect to never get anxiety about my workouts or whatever because it seems darn near impossible to go that many days without wigging out about something. I just care so darn much and if Iā€™m in one of those moods or its gonna be one of those days, then itā€™s gonna be one of those days. Itā€™s not a matter of if, just a matter of what exactly will set me off. A crooked rep, a slow rep, doing one less set than I think I should, etc, etcā€¦
SO: ideas
I think instead of beating myself up every time I start to have a panic attack I will have a go-to nice thing for myself. like
UH OHS JENN!! Youā€™re having a panic attack
Go lie down on Gabeā€™s bed
for 5 minutes
ten minutes
Say nice things to yourself
take deep breaths
remind yourself how far your strength has come
And how far youā€™ll continue to goā€¦

I just feel old sometimes
Like old and that Iā€™m running out of time to get strong
cause 30 is old
and everyone on instagram is like 20, squatting 3 plates, and doing every rep perfectly, LOL

im over here all like almost 30, and my hips feel so tight sometimes I feel like ima die
DIE

BEY
BYE

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deep breaths
in
out
Relax
You need to learn how to meditate.

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My, you make me laugh!

30 is not old.

You are doing great.

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Le sigh, my fear of staying in one place and doing nothing is why I had to cancel all my acupuncture appointments :stuck_out_tongue:

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K today was nutso

Woke up in good spirits after an awesome sleep, but then started having horrible stomach pains and it was hard to stand up straightā€¦

Then I started getting really upset because I was worried I wouldnā€™t be able to work out
Then I felt resentful towards my workout obsession and got angry because all I wanted to do was go back to bed and not move for 12 hours
Then every time my stomach started to hurt more Iā€™d get angry at my OCD for never letting up and being such an asshole to me when I try so hard to please it every single day

N E WAY, the mind comes to strange, yet accurate realizations when the body is in pain.

So hereā€™s what I did today

Military press

65lbs x 5
75lbs x 3
85lbs x 3
90lbs x 2 sets of 3
95lbs x 4 sets of 2
Back to high reps next week :frowning:

close grip bench press

105lbs x 2 sets of 6
115lbs x 4
120lbs x 2 sets of 2

Pull ups throughout that shit

One arm DB lateral raise SS two arm lateral raise
15lbs/10lbs
x 10arm/ x 15
x 10arm/ x 20
x 10*arm/ x 25

rear delt DB fly palms facing each other SS palms facing inwards

25lbs/10lbs
x 10/ x 15
x 10/ x 15
x 10/ x 15

plate raise SS 10&2 raises SS DB front raise
35lbs/12.5lbs/12.5lbs
x 10/ x 10/ x 10arm
x 10/ x 10 / x 10arm
x 10/ x 10/ x 10*arm

bent over cable try ext.
5lbs
x 12arm
x 12arm

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

K yaā€¦

I wonder if my sex dream about marshall last night was why I woke up with such a bad tummy ache :joy:

Actually made me feel pretty upset inside though, I dunno.

Iā€™m a mess
Why am I such a mess even when everything is awesome?

SQUATSOTMORRW

BEYE
BEY
BYE

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K today

High bar squats

135lbs x 6
165lbs x 4
170lbs x 4
175lbs x 4
belt
180lbs x 5 sets of 4
I decided that since 185 x 4 wasnā€™t in the cards today I would torture myself with volumeā€¦
tester set (beltless )

145lbs x 19

low bar paused squats

150lbs x 5
165lbs x 2 sets of 4
175lbs x 2
belt
190lbs x 3 sets of 1
195lbs x 1

smith machine split squats SS DB RDL
25lbs per side/27.5lbs
x 8leg/ x 15
x 8leg/ x 15
x 8*leg/ x 15

ass machine
110lbs
x 10 1&1/2 reps *ass
x 10 1&1/2 reps *ass

single leg ext.
30lbs
x 12leg
x 12leg
x 12*leg

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

I says to myself today, I says, I cannot promise you perfection, but I can promise you passion and effort. Everyday. That has to be good enough, because thatā€™s all I can give.

BYE

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LOLā€¦what is the ā€œass machineā€???

Passion and effort is all that is required

434

Itā€™s the machine that gives her skaterā€™s butt.

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K fantastic benching today

Bench press

115lbs x 10
120lbs x 2 sets of 10

paused bench

125lbs x 2 sets of 3
135lbs x 2 sets of 1
140lbs x 1

WOOOOOOOOP

seated DB press SS Arnold press SS seated DB lateral raise

37.5lbs/17.5lbs/7.5lbs

x 6/ x 12/ x 15
x 6/ x 12/ x 15
x 6/ x 12/ x 15

rear delt db fly drop set

30lbs x 10
25lbs x 10
20lbs x 12
15lbs x 15
10lbs x 20

incline DB front raise SS EZ bar underhand front raise

7.5lbs/35lbs

x 10/ x 10
x 12/ x 10
x 15/ x 10

ropey tri ext.

30lbs
x 12
x 12
1 drop
15lbs
x 20 partials

DB tri ext. drop set

15lbs x 10
12.5lbs x 12
10lbs x 15

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

I have to say it was kinda weird yesterday I didnā€™t get any anxiety related to my workout but today I woke up totally bummed about a few of my squat sets. Cause the weight seemed to shift kinda funny sometimes on my hips all unbalanced-like, in typical jenn fashion. I dunno if itā€™s cause the chiro adjusted me and now my hips are less crooked and it felt weird cause I am used to setting up in such a way a crooked bodied person would, ORWAHT
ORHHAT
WHAT
OR

but I dunno I felt sad
I always feel sad when Iā€™m worn out
I donā€™t know why I cant just be tired when Iā€™m tried and hungry when im hungry instead of all my emotions getting all piled up on top of each other BUT W/E

Sometimes I think I really have no idea what Iā€™m doing when it comes to this lifting thing and other times I think Iā€™m executing things fairly well.

Either way

Some life goals that Iā€™ve had for years that are starting to actually seem attainable to me

2 plate squat
3 plate dead
185lbs bench

get atter pitter patter

BYE

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Jenn, I think because you train alone and in a commercial gym, you are unaware of just how strong YOU truly can be.

Iā€™m quite sure you havenā€™t yet, but when are you going to do the meet?! If itā€™s any lift off the shoulders, I struggled with training anxiety for years, and still do from time to time. Although it might not be the same, I would set expectations with certain lifts that I felt I had to hit in order for my brain to perpetually be fed the thought I was strong. If I failed to hit it, I would brood on my rest days/weeks and come back and try to do it again. Since those awful times, Iā€™ve learned how my body gets stronger, and Iā€™m grateful I found out how. Iā€™m also grateful I competed the few times I have because itā€™s forced me to push myself to the standard set by the arbitrary numbers of a show.

Those goals arenā€™t life goals theyā€™re mid-term at most!

PS my hips are so fucked up my left leg is almost a full inch shorter.

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This was the most wonderfully reassuring post evahhhhh, thanks bro!!

And the meet was 2 weeks ago and I didnā€™t do it :sweat:

So are your squats crooked then? My massage lady told me my legs were different lengths also.

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K today went well

Since I keep making up that I do things wrongly in my head, I forced myself to film today, not to berate myself, but to encourage myself.

Deadlifts

185lbs x 6
205lbs x 3
215lbs x 3
belt
230lbs x 3 sets of 3
235lbs x 3

paused deadlifts (beltless)
205lbs x 2 sets of 3
215lbs x 2 sets of 2
225lbs x 2 sets of 1

bent over row SS one arm DB row
95lbs/45lbs
x 10/ x 10arm
x 10/ x 10arm
x 10/ x 10*arm

sitting sideways lat pull down SS seated row cable

25lbs/85lbs
x 15arm/ x 8
x 15arm/ x 8
x 15*arm/ x 8 + 1 drop 55lbs x 15

bi curl machine drop sets
65lbs x 5
50lbs x 6
40lbs x 6
30lbs x 10 or something I donā€™t know
20lbs x 15

seated DB curl
20lbs x 8arm
17.5lbs x 8arm

ropey pull down

30lbs
x 20
x 20

stepmill intervals x 20 minutes

K

Now I know it isnā€™t perfect, but itā€™s far from awful, and I can be happy with it !!!

BEY
BYE

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LMAO looks like my random arm swinging is back

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Yeah, my squatā€™s pretty crooked as well. I tend to squat with my left leg (bad hip) over the center of my body, and my right leg pushed way out. Itā€™s pretty awful but Iā€™ve practiced cues to help alleviate this.

Keep in mind your hip problem is likely a result of musculature issues and not structural, like mine is. I was beleaguered pretty badly when I first found out about my hips a few years ago, but Iā€™ve learned to forget most days and pretend Iā€™m a normal human bean. Anyway, do a meet! Find a friend to convince you to go by coming and chaperoning and what not. Thatā€™s what I did.