Hey guys !
I’m at the end of a 5 day long post comic con weekend. It was wonderful. Everyone loved my elton John costume and wanted to take my picture. : ) . Gabe was jealous because usually it’s his costume that’s the big hit, ha !
Saturday I weighed in at 126.6lbs . So down 10lbs from june. The last few weeks the weight has been flying off, and I’ve had a few dinners out to boot !
I’ve really enjoyed my time off. I booked tons of massages and got my nails done , went shopping, and out for dinner. I haven’t wasted a single second !!
I’ve been asked to come into office for two weeks in October to mentor the new hires. A dream come true ! I’ve wanted them to ask me for so long . If all goes well it could become a fairly regular thing.
Gabe got the lead role in his drama club play. So all around zero complaints here . : )
Back update ! I def think the weight loss has added some definition .
Wt: 126lbs
Start wt: 136.6
Down 10.6lbs since june
Workout today worked up to 170lbs x 6 for squats 105 x 2 x 4 for paused front squats
Bunch of shoulder crap/leg accessory/ cardio
I usually only workout 3 Times a week now.
Rep squats with paused front squats leg and shoulder / tri work
Hamstrings / glutes/ back / bi stuff
Then paused squats regular front squats shoulder / upper back and bi
3 good workouts that target as much as I can with the time I have.
I’ll admit, going less kinda makes me bummed, but sometimes makes me relieved .
Work takes so much out of me mentally, but only because of the pressure I place on myself to strive for darn near perfection in everything I do.
I got 98 on my quality assurance score and i was devastated . Like jesus could I have high standards without being disordered plz.
It will pay off though, it already has in many ways.
Been going into office a lot helping new hires
Feels great to not be so isolated at home.
Told prison guy not to call anymore so be happy for me there.
Seeing the guy from work again though , so be mad at me for that I guess.
Hes a lot nicer than he used to be.
It’s not serious and I dont want it to be because that’s not really a priority for me right now.
Move up at work and then we can talk relationship potential.
Anyway, gabe got a girlfriend. Crazy to think about. At 13 its nothing real, but damn that kid has no time for me anymore.
But that’s ok , I have law and order svu reruns to watch …
My 18 year old dog probably wont be here much longer. Just dreading the phone call from my mom. Since I was 15 hes had such a special place in my heart. I love you snoop dogg !!
Well better go, sorry this is so poorly written, I went for a walk and my fingers be frozen
Pic
You look good
I wish you happiness
I enjoy your log
Being upset with 98% seems like you might be a bit rough on yourself
I look forward to the next drive by
Hey T Nation… had a scary night and want to talk about it.
I was at my corporate Christmas party on Saturday. I went all out for it too, bought a dress, got super dolled up etc etc. I was looking forward to this for a month, maybe because of being at a party with the guy I’m semi seeing or just going out in general as I literally go out maybe 2 times a year , I dunno…
Anyway, I thought I maybe had a mild bladder infection, but I planned to go to the dr. During my holidays this week and wasnt too concerned.
I drank maybe 5 glasses of wine which is TONS for me , I really shouldn’t have. I had a lot of water in between so that I wouldn’t feel awful.
Around 11 I stopped being able to pee. Like i couldn’t physically get out a single drop.
Around 1 ish i was still there scared to death in the bathroom crying because i was in so much pain i couldn’t walk. My friend and some stranger helped me get into my dads vehicle to take me home. I thought when I got home I’d be relaxed enough to go.
I was wrong. At about 2 am I was crawling on my floor trying desperately to get my phone at which point I called an ambulance and they put me at a 10 on the pain scale shd catheterized me until around 730. I didn’t have an infection. I had blood in my urine and had over a litre to drain. They said they never see this much in women , my bladder was massive . They aren’t sure what’s wrong.
They wanted me to go home with a catheter, but I was too wigged out and begged them to take it out and send me home , which they did .
I’m so swollen down there I cant get more than a few drops out, which is getting to be painful. I cannot go back there , it was so scary for me. I was a huge baby the whole time , no doubt about that.
If it comes back they’ll send me to a urologist. All I was thinking in my head was how can I call in sick on Monday without people thinking I just drank too much , which is irresponsible. Like do I really want to tell my boss about my freaking bladder idk.
Why that’s even my priority is beyond me.
Its 1030 on Sunday now, I haven’t left my bed since I got home about 8 this morning.
Everything hurts and I feel really lonely.
This is the first time in a really long time I’ve just ached to be in a relationship so that someone could be here with me right now.
Ok , talk to you guys later
Please go see a urologist. This sounds pretty serious, and it could be bad. Blood where it shouldn’t be is usually a major issue. Or, go back to the hospital and let them readmit you.
Also take the sick days you need. If you feel the need to, explain to your boss what’s going on but you don’t need to. I’m guessing you’ve accrued a decent amount of personal leave, so use it.
Let’s say you go to work, power through, and something goes wrong. You may end up wetting yourself in front of everyone or bleeding all over the shop. Or end up crying in pain and need the ambulance. That’s a lot more embarrassing than taking a day or two off sick and your colleagues thinking you’re hung over.
Gotta agree on this one, pissing blood in the middle of the office, while passed out, and being ambulanced out of the building, probably a lot more embarassing than people thinking you are hung over. Priorities here Spock. There are very specific places in your body where blood is supposed to be, when it is anywhere else it’s a big, and literally, red flag.
Cultures differ everywhere, but if you do not want to then do you need to?
I understand that you don’t want them to think you are staying home because of drinking too much, and I agree with the replies that you have received that re-admittance is probably the best/safest course of action to take. And then maybe the doctors can oblige you with a written statement that you are receiving medical treatment and are unable to go to work without having to mention what you are receiving treatment for.
Hey guys thanks for the support.
I’ve been sleeping a lot so I’m kinda losing track of my days, but I was finally able to go myself yesterday morning.
Little by little I’m feeling less uncomfortable and didnt have to sleep sitting up which was nice.
Today’s been the most improvement so far, I haven’t eaten much so I’m super tired but I could shower and lie on my back and get up easier etc…
Wow, what a scary experience . I never thought I’d appreciate just being able to go pee.
Makes me so empathetic for people who have long lasting conditions. you all
Oh and work was very understanding. I missed two days and I’m on holidays now until Monday so plenty of time to get better
My ex husband ended up in the hospital for almost a month due to kidney issues and his symptoms (non-urination) were similar. He was close to dialysis.
That’s good, but please get more medical attention if you haven’t already. This isn’t something to take lightly.
On a lighter note, the night after I read your post you made a dream cameo where I had to get you to hospital in a Mile 22 kind of situation (good movie, check it out) but then there was this half pipe made of curtains.
Sending you good thoughts.