Paused squats
135lbs x 4
155lbs x 4
175lbs x 4
190lbs x 2 x 4
Military press
70lbs x 3 x 7
Board press with my bench blockz
115lbs x 3
125lbs x 3
130lbs x 3
135lbs x 3
Seated db press
30lbs x 12
32.5lbs x 8
35lbs x 8
Arnold press drop
15lbs x 15
Bulgarian split squats
12.5 x 2 x 8 , x 10
Db row
40lbs x 12
Leg spreader
240lbs x 8
135lbs x 8
90lbs x something I forget
Ropey tri ext
20lbs x 2 x 12
10lbs x 15
Db lateral raises
Seated ss regular ss pinkies up like one giant set
X 10 x 10 x 10
X 10 x 10 x 10
Plate raise
25lbs x 15
Step mill intervals x 20
K best long weekend of my life and all just because I did everything to please myself
I also upped my vit D and it cured my depression in a day, wow.
Uhg next thurs I have to have meeting with the guy I was fucking and my team lead to go over my quality assurance score.
I did fine, but still , awkward ā¦
Nobody at work has ever seen us talk, now I have to sit in this tiny room with him and my boss and pretend like I havenāt 69-ed with this person. W/E dreading
Awkward!!.. It could be worse, say if you had 69ed with your boss also. That would make it sitting in a tiny room and pretend like you havenāt 138-ed with these people.
Front squats
95lbs x 4
115lbs x 4
130lbs x 4
140lbs x 4
125lbs x 3 x 4
I realized that if I dick around at the top of each rep feeling insecure Iām way weaker because itās my upper back that sucks during front squats. My legs could do a lot more. Just took me breath ,.no time wasting
Paused bench
95lbs x 4
105lbs x 2
115lbs x 4 x 2
Leg spreader
130lbs x 20 w pause and slow neg
85lbs x 20 partial
Incline db press w pause
32.5lbs x 12
37.5lbs x 8
Cable rear delt fly
5lbs x 25
Done
One more rushed front squat day and two more rushed paused squat days and Iāll be work from home!!!
I can finally add fun pump shit in !!! I only get to fun back day up !!! Now I can pump chest and shoulders and wheee
Front squats
95lbs x 6
115lbs x 6
125lbs x 6
135lbs x 6
120lbs x 6
I made the decision maybe 6 weeks ago to take weight off my front squats because of the most brutal set of 135lbs x 6 that made me feel like shit.
Now after building strength I was able to come back to it and it was pretty easy .
WIN
Paused bench
105lbs x 3 x 6
Leg spreader
100lbs x 30 w slow neg
70lbs x 20
55lbs x 20 partials
All slow and pausey
Fun
Incline db press
35lbs x 10
40lbs x 8
One arm db press
25lbs x 10
Face pulls ss rear delt db fly ss cable rear delt fly
20 20 20
Ropey tri ext
15lbs x 20
Next Thursday Iāll be officially work from home and ill have another 30 minutes to lift !!!
Helllooo00 cable cross over chest pump good times, how I have missed yee
No he doesnt apologize for things because he never thinks he is wrong or does anything wrong.
Iām just a weakling if a guy makes me laugh or pays the slightest bit of attention to me.
Last week I saw him walk by when I didnt expect to and I felt my heart sink into my stomach. It was like i had seen a celebrity or something. And if we go over a week without hanging out i end up really feeling like I miss him.
Yes, yes , I caught the feels and now I find myself wasting time with someone who doesnt deserve my feels or my time.
What I found that has helped me in the past drop bad douchebag guys is --telling my friends and family about it. Donāt keep it a secret. Live it out fully and you will see what it does for you. Let the light shine RIGHT on it and youāll see the shit that it is!
The people who actually care about you and know your worth ( even if you canāt see it yourself yet) will give you good counsel, and also help you realize you do not want to humiliate yourself dating a guy who treats you like shit in front of your friends and family.
Donāt hide this relationship, with more eyes on it more people will tell you its SHITTY! And to RUN! You might not be able to do it on your own steam yet but the more people who care about you have an understanding of it , the more you can build yourself up to drop it.
DROP IT! You can stop! You can stop! YOU CAN STOP!
Ride him like a hobby horse and then drop him like a bad habit when youāre ready. Youāll get tired of him, then just treat him like toilet paper stuck to your shoe.
I think a large part of my unwillingness to let things go is because while I am thrilled about working from home, Iām also very concerned about becoming too isolated . Work is my social time. I had hoped back in January that this would turn into a relationship so that when they sent me home I could still look forward to seeing him after office hours .
Itās odd to meā¦Iām so well liked around the office. Iām the entertainment. Iām the funny one. The weird one. People seem to really adore me and my antics.
They get my humor, and they respect me. They see all the things in me that I wish he saw, and they spend far less time with me than he does. He hates my sense of humor. He doesnt adore me. He doesnāt find my quirks cute, he sees them as flaws that should be changed .
So why , it of an office of 50 or so people, do 49 think Iām wonderful and the one who doesnāt matters more to me and my self esteem than the 49 who do?
Have you ever been ok with any instance where someone did not like you? Or have you always felt a need to have the approval of every human you meet?
Iāve known many people like the latter, and they lead a miserable existence of constant attempts at people pleasing, especially in instances where someone just plain does not like them for reasons they themselves canāt particularly articulate.
My solution to most problems tends to be misanthropy, because then approval from humans means littleā¦but thatās also pretty lonely.
Iām just looking for 1 percent approval. He seems annoyed by everything about me, but yet he still comes over, wants to sleep over, invites me to movies, calls just to talk, like why? He nit picks everything the entire time .
None of it makes any sense . Just like me or dont and donāt hang out with me !!
Hey, if it makes you feel good about yourself do it but if not donāt. Heās not got any hold over you. Whatever you do its because you decided to do it. Good luck.
Heās not really receiving any signals that this behavior ISNāT ok though. I mean, youāve told him as such, sure, but your actions are telling him that this is working.
Letās assume benevolence, which is rare for me to do. Letās assume heās some scared boy in the body of a man, and heās found an attractive, funny girl that for some reason LIKES him, and he canāt figure out why. And heās noticed that, whenever he nit picks, attacks, assaults and critiques, he is rewarded. Heās going to think āMan, I got a good thing going: letās not ruin this by being nice.ā And so heās going to keep up that strategy, because itās working.
Now, if we assume malice, it makes even more sense. Heās just an awful person that is manipulating you because he knows it works.
And thereās a good chance of it being somewhere in the middle, but either way, Iām sure heās enjoying what heās getting out of this.
Hey Jenn you poor soul.
You attracts disaster, I donāt know why.
He did hurt you so bad girl. And yet you takes him back, if heād apologize or showed angerā¦ Then I might understand, when he is the same shit to youā¦ I donāt get it.
Your old relationship was about the same. How long you want it to go on.
Get rid of that prick, sorry for my language. Heāll dump you if another woman ever wants to be with him. For now he is using and abusing you.
