We all do in the beginning man. Don’t beat yourself up, but DO listen to what some of these guys are trying to tell you. They aren’t “picking” on you, they are trying to help you.
Placebo effect is AMAZINGLY strong. My heart rate skyrocketed on my first injection. Why? Was it the testosterone flooding my body? Of course not. It was my hormonally screwed up self displaying anxiety over my own fears and unknowns. This effect is JUST AS STRONG on the positive side, when we anticipate that this is going to “fix us right up”. You might even feel (for a moment in time) like you could chew through an Olympic Barbell!! This is anticiapation induced adrenaline…not the test in your body.
Bottom line is, you were freaking out and taking cues off of premature blood tests. A little primer (at least as I understand it) on serum levels, especially in the beginning. Blood tests are a snapshot of a single point in time. Your serum levels are going to be up and down as the body eventually recognizes more testoterone, and then modulates the output of other hormones in reaction.
Finally, in the very beginning, your serum levels can show very high, but that doesn’t mean that those levels are what your body is actively running on at that moment. What do i mean here? I’ll try to explain…
Think of testosterone as the the proper building materials, with your body being the craftsman, and the broken shit inside of you being the project…
The material supply is getting bigger, but it takes MUCH more time for the craftsman to gather those materials, and then actually do the work of the project. The repairs aren’t made immediately, they take time.
The 6-8 week mark is for the purpose of giving you enough time to allow the body to stabilize all other hormonal modulations in response to a (by this time frame) stabilized serum level of testosterone, and then asses how you feel (mainly focusing on negative aspects at this time). This will tell you if you feel somewhat stable on the current protocol, or if it has to be adjusted. THEN, once you are ok with the protocol, and levels are stable, it can take your body MONTHS to actually make and finalize repairs…
Hope this makes sense…