Hi guys, this is my first post here so please excuse my lack of T Nation ettiquette.
A little bit of history. Im 26 yo and weigh 210 lbs at 20% BF.
After the Marine Corps I was constantly panick stricken and depressed and with a host of other issues i.e. occular migraines, erectile dysfunction, generalized anxiety, memory loss, concentration issues, irritability, alcoholism, mental health disturbances and many more. In 2017 I really began to get my life together and cut out all alcohol seeing as it was really a catalyst for all of the other issues and definitely and aggravating factor. After cutting out alcohol things got better without a doubt, but the bulk of my issues still existed like the panick, depression, anxiety, concentration etc.
In 2018 I started researching hormones and found that almost all of my chief complaints could be linked to low testosterone. I also had a hard time getting the GP at the VA to take me seriously when I asked to have these levels checked he just laughed. So I knew I was out of luck there.
- Testosterone, total
- Testosterone, bioavailable
- Testosterone, free
- Estradiol (sensitive assay)
- Steroid Hormone Binding Globulin
- Follicle Stimulating Hormone (FSH)
- Luteinizing Hormone (LH)
- Dihydrotestosterone (DHT)
- Complete Blood Count (CBC)
- Prostate Specific Antigen (PSA)
- Blood Chemistry Panel
- Metabolic Panel
So I had to go to an anti aging clinic and after bloodtests they found that my levels were:
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*They are in order and unfortunately I no longer have a copy of the 2 latest that show my total T at 700 range or the latest one post TRT at 435. Sorry, you’ll jist have to believe me.
So they told me I was eligible for TRT so I was happy and began therapy. In the begginning I felt great. Almost exstatic everyday on a weekly dose of 120mg. Infact, my total T level was 1100 after my first month. But…the fun only lasted one month and I began to go back in month after month with no good news and only stories of feeling like my pre-trt self. They told me I would level out and feel the full benefits within a few more weeks so I kept going.
The next blood test 3 months later revealed my Total testosterone to be only 780 vs my initial response of 1100 total T. This made me question them even more and I began to somewhat question their practices, but they were open to suggestions and I suggested splitting the dose in half and administering x2/week. We continued that and I continued to tell them I didnt have much relief from my symptoms or any of the claimed wonderful benefits of testosterone like fat loss, mood enhancement, general life enjoyment or muscle gain, so they added in HCG at .25 IU a week hoping this would keep the T levels “more steady” in their opinion.
Well, this didnt help either and I became very frustrated and got off of the therapy and got my blood rechecked again and now my total T was 435 which was over 100 points lower than pre-TRT. I am so confused as to what is going on, why it didnt seem to work and how I was drug along this confusing road with “professionals” that do not know what they are doing.
Where do I go from here feeling like crap after an almost year long struggle with the anti aging clinic? How can I reduce my struggle with the medical system? What mistakes did I make?
P.s. I have been lifting weights since I was 15 years old and maintaining a decently healthy lifestyle since quitting alcohol. I am lacto-vegetarian for the past 5 months.
I hope you guys can help. If there is any information that would help please ask and if I can I will answer.
Thanks