Pretty much I feel like I’m wasteing away at this point. I have less energy and motivation every time I go to the gym. I’m eating healthier than I ever have to be honest, but I feel like I’m putting on fat, and losing muscle. The only junk food I really eat is frozen pizza and greek yogurt, and on top of lifting I have a job where I have to do heavy lifting and am on my feet running around the entire shift.
I’m sure most of you get the same feeling I used to get, when your groove on a lift is good and your body and mind WANT to grind out more reps because it feels good, and it feels right. I feel awkward as a black man at a KKK rally when I’m lifting. The squats, the bench presses, they all feel wrong and awkward while I do them.
I feel like every workout is just trying to maintain what I have. My cycle before this one was actually pretty good, but this one I keep getting shot down, I’m consecutively weaker in both of my last squat days then I was previously.
My left oblique area is still bothering me when I exert myself, I felt like puking for like 30 minutes after todays workout. I often have migranes after lifting.
I’ve been thinking about starting to do more high rep stuff to work on form, and hope thats something that I can do in the meatime to help me learn how to strain better and push through the fatigue.
I just cant fathom why I’m getting fatter when My dietarty staples are:
Sirloin tip steak
Chicken breasts
whole wheat bread
peanut butter
Potatoes
Sweet Potatoes
Breakfast Sausage
Turkey bacon
Spring mix (salad blend)
Brocolli
G2 (diet gatorade pretty much)
Protein shakes
eggs
with like 2-3 normal people meals a weak.
I also have pretty much stopped consuming any caffiene since I moved out. I’ll be back on my Coffee tomorrow when school starts back up
My Nurse practitioner is going to run a better panel the next time I return to my hometown. She talked to some Doctors about me, and they gave her some suggestions