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EEEAAAAAAAAAH!! So much log activity, I feel overwhelmed!

I am not answering anyone cause it’s too stressful, LOL.

SORRY

Today was a good day, I did back and I have decided to put deadlifts on my back day cause I think always having them with squats is making them suffer.

Deadlifts
135 x 6
155 x 6
185 x 6
195 x 6
205 x 6

chin ups
4, 4, 4, 4

seated row cable
100lb pin
x 8
x 8
x 8

Then I did lat pull down with a different bar, I am not sure if I can explain it.
It’s a wide grip handle thing, so it makes my palms netural grippy, I dunno.
3 x 12

oblique twisty thing
3 x 12/side

DB curls SS hammer curls
17.5lbs
12/12
10/10
8/8

back ext.
x 20
x 12

K done/good.

I think I’ll keep my main/important lifts at 6 so I can keep good heavy weights and everything else can be like 8-12. 6 Seems like a magic number for me.
Oh, except cleans/press, I’ll keep that low reps cause I said so.

No real life news. I got two masturbation opportunity days in a row, which is a real treat. My world makes sense again, and I no longer feel like the most miserable human being on the planet. I think it had been a good two weeks with being sick and everything, so shit was just goin’ downhill fast.
You can always tell, you know, when it’s been too long. If my posts ever sound like they’re being typed whilst crying, like the post I made a few posts above ^^^^, remind me it’s probably just a masturbation thing.

KBYE

782

[quote]Spock81 wrote:
I am not answering anyone cause it’s too stressful, LOL.[/quote]

facepalm

783

Tough love incoming. My opinion why your progress is so slow.

  1. You change programs every 2 weeks.

  2. You don’t challenge yourself with heavy enough weight. You can get 14 reps at 110 bench but won’t even attempt 145lbs for fear of failing.

Your level of terror about failing one rep is keeping you from challenging yourself enough to improve past beginner gains.

Also are you meticulous about getting 1 gram of protein powder per pound of bodyweight each day? You don’t talk much about nutrition.

784

[quote]scj119 wrote:
Tough love incoming. My opinion why your progress is so slow.

  1. You change programs every 2 weeks.

  2. You don’t challenge yourself with heavy enough weight. You can get 14 reps at 110 bench but won’t even attempt 145lbs for fear of failing.

Your level of terror about failing one rep is keeping you from challenging yourself enough to improve past beginner gains.

Also are you meticulous about getting 1 gram of protein powder per pound of bodyweight each day? You don’t talk much about nutrition.[/quote]

PUH-LEEZ! You are being far too generous, I change my program every 4-5 days :stuck_out_tongue:

And the protein is good, but like I said, protein powder has been giving me serious issues. Like diarehehaheaheah every morning for at least an hour. Who knows how much is really being absorbed when I cannot stop shitting. Hopefully when i get stuff from protein factory I’ll start to perk up a bit.
Other than that, I eat chicken/beef/potatoes all day. Oh, and sometimes almonds.

785

YELLO

Front squats
85 x 6
95 x 6
105 x 6
115 x 6
120 x 6

back squats
115 x 6
125 x 6
135 x 6
140 x 6<—last few were uggo

leg ext.
8, 8, 10, 12

leg curl
2 x 12

200 crunches

ya.
Good-ish, except the ugly squattness.

My kid got mario kart 7 for OUR ds and he just so happens to be “sick” and home from school playing it upstairs today.
Kinda reminds me of when I had a really bitchin’ storyline going on with my barbies and I would wake up with a sore throat, HMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

KBYE

786

FOR SURE!! I support the deadlift day being a deadlift priority day. If you feel you need to do some squats , I’d do em after deads. Also I find doing them after a few days off lifting is great–gets you nice and strong and fresh for them.

AND WORD on the clean presses!! Anything overhead is just so great for pumping your heart!!

Funny you have the opposite protein digestion problem that I have–fucking protein!!! I get very nauseous from it though for sure, and get the turbo farm animal farts or the turbo giant poops :{ I wish they made a protein pill. The massive amounts of powder is just so hard to get down.

787

the protein i bought from the gym always gives me gut issues too… the custom mix I got does not which is good, i narrowed it down to the ‘protein concentrate’ as the culprit.

788

[quote]scj119 wrote:

  1. You change programs every 2 weeks.

[/quote]

ACTUALLY I want to touch on this a little further because I have been thinking about it all day, ha.

I don’t know if people realize this (or really care for that matter) that I have very little control over my thoughts or actions when my brain goes wonky.

I can’t really say that I am chosing to change programs every week, more like I am spiraling down an endless well of instanity and whatever happens during that time happens.
Like a rep goes weird and I feel a surge of crazy chemicals going through my brain and things just keep repeating over and over again and I can’t stop thinking about ways to “fix” things. Fix my body, fix my squat, fix my workouts, fix my life.
I’ll have panic attacks that last for hours, which make me barely functional and totally unable to focus on anything truly substantial in my life.
Trying to fix what I think is wrong by changing my plans or re doing sets or workouts or whatever is my only method of coping with these feelings.

I start things that I cannot finish and I make promises that I cannot keep, not because I’m a loser fuck up, just because I am disordered.
I get manic and hyper, like I’m the queen of the fucking world and I invision how wonderful my life could be if I just were like this, or if I just did that.
But then I get depressed and miserable, and everything that I hope for myself is suddenly so unachiveable and I quit. Give up completely because I’m just fucking tired and hate life.

I guess this is probably too much babbling over something that didn’t really warrant it, but I feel embarrassed when I have to come in here and announce that I’ve changed my mind about something and I am just waiting for people to tell me to stop being so fucking retarded and stick to something.

I just wanted to confess that I honestly cannot. I want to keep logging my crazy bullshit on here because I really enjoy it, but you lovely people just gotta be forewarned that it’s not so black and white for me.

Okay I feel somewhat better now, whewf.

P.S. I am squatting again tomorrow because today’s workout did not sit well with me. :confused:

P.P.S. I quit my target job back when I got the flu and I am not putting much effort into finding anything else, BUT I am making an appointment with a shrink because I believe my life will not be sorted until I get my head straight.

K LOVE YA THANKS BYE!!!

789

This is your log Spock! Do what you want! People will still haunt you with suggestions because we like you and want to help. But even good advice can be impossible to follow :{

Hang in there lady. You are a toughie!

790

You need a training partner Spock!

791

[quote]csulli wrote:
You need a training partner Spock![/quote]
indeed

792

The problem with always switching programs isn’t that you HAVE to stick to one program to see progress (some people are great intuitive trainers) - it’s that you never get past week 1 or week 2 of the weight progression scheme, so you end up doing the same weights for months on end and your body isn’t having to adapt to any increasing level of stress.

I looked back to the start of your log - five months ago, on Sept 28th (6th page) you squatted 145 for 6 sets of 4. This week your top squat was two sets, 135x6 and 140x6. Your body adapted to 140x6 a long time ago! That is just not enough to force adaption (make you stronger) anymore.

“At some point, if your goal is to get stronger, you have to add some damn weight to the bar” - Jim Wendler

WWJWD?

793

Sorry if I’m coming off like a dick, I just know you are a ton stronger than you think you are.

794

1.If you do anything and stick with it, you will get better at it. Stop program hopping.
2. Challenge yourself. Stop holding yourself back. Get pissed off and pull that damn bar. You can do way more than 205.

795

“At some point, if your goal is to get stronger, you have to add some damn weight to the bar” - Jim Wendler

This exactly.

796

[quote]csulli wrote:
You need a training partner Spock![/quote]

Excellent, I will totally take you up on that! When is your flight !?

797

[quote]scj119 wrote:
Sorry if I’m coming off like a dick, I just know you are a ton stronger than you think you are.[/quote]

You are not a dick, you are a wise one. I squatted 140x 16 a few weeks ago, but since my flu I honestly feel like I lost 50lbs off my squat.

798

[quote]Drake37 wrote:

  1. Stop program hopping.

[/quote]

#%#*@!!! I thought I just explained this!!

Okay, okay, here it goes, on the count of three I will snap my fingers and I will magically stop being an anxious/bi-polary/OCD mess of a human being. Ready?

One…

Two…

OMG SO XXCITING…

THREE !!

SNAP

…

Hmm…

Well, I don’t feel any different, but I am pretty sure that’s all it would take. :confused:

OMG I AM SORRY! I Don’t mean to be a bitch, but I am honestly just so F$&#&$#&ing fed up with how my mind works that I can barely tolerate myself anymore and someone just telling me to stop doing something THAT I FUCKING HATE DOING, like I could just STOP and it would be so easy drives me mental.

LUV U STILL PLZ DON’T BE MAD

799

MMKAY so anyway, I got this idea in my head that the reason my squat form is so awful all the time is because I squat too deep and it makes me lose all my tightness with every rep once I go down below a certain point. So I attempted to squat just below parallel to see how things felt.
I am not not used to it though so I dunno…

95 x 8
115 x 8
135 x 8
145 x 3
155 x 2
165 x 1
145 x 3
135 x 5

Now maybe I should state that 165 was truly my max. I could not have lifted one more pound than that. It was slow/face explodey. SO “just adding weight to the bar” might not help me if I CANNOT PHYSCIALLY FUCKING LIFT THE WEIGHT.
Sorry, I am sorry again. I don’t mean to yell at people.
I was yelling, for the record, you think font can’t equate yelling, but I was…

Front squats
95 x 3
115 x 3 x 3

cleans to press
65 x 6
75 x 3
85 x 1
90 x 1
90 x 1

chin ups
4, 4, 4,

Facepulls 2 x 20

cable ropey abs
1 x 50

so Ya, wee bit disappointed…
I feel like I am addicted to powerlifting and it’s unhealthy for me. You could say well Jenn, it is healthy, it’s exercise, it’s not like a cocaine addiction.
But it’s like I wanna quit, and I can’t. ANd I promise myself it wont be like before, or it’s a new day and I can be happy with whatever result I get out of a specific workout, but I can’t.
I say, that’s it! I am finished with this!
Then I feel calm.
Then I think NEVER! YOu will never quit, this is your livlihood! And I imagine myself being like a female hulk, lifiting incredible amounts of weight. And I feel all this adreneline and get all excited. Then I go in and it’s just shitty, and form is wrong and everything feels heavy and awkward and uncomfortable and I fight back tears in the car ride home.
A few hours later the cycle beings once again and I’ll never be free of this! This HELLLLLLLLLLLL!!!

I fucking hate this, but I love it so much. Powerlifting and I are in an abusive relationship and he fucks so good, but beats me so bad…
Run away, run away to a safe house, change my name. He’ll never find me there, NEVER.!!!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAA

K bye.

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I think scj’s advice is really good. You would do well to pick a 5/3/1 template and just stick with it 100% for a few months.