Considering your statements about preventing family members from smoking/drinking, due to how it’d make your siblings feel, I think it’s peculiar that you attempted to overdose.
I would talk counselor about this. Your school might have one, if you can’t afford one.
Im getting one now . Yes i am a major hypocrite now but lucky for everyone the only reason i told my mum what i did is because a friend convinced me i needed to and go to hospital, without that friend id be stuffed. I wouldve kept popping tablets if i didnt have them honestly . I find talking to a friend helps alot more than a counsellor because i actually know my friend and for me to trust someone it takes along time.
Fuck. You’re not alone mate. The doc was right though, and OD will seriously mess with your ability to get bigger.
Thanks mark. And yeah aint nobody getting gains on hospital food
Damn, I’ve tried before as well but I can tell you one thing, Shit will sort itself out and get better.
About acne everyone gets it at our age but it fucks off eventually lol.
Here’s what you need to take from this experience @duketheslaya, you’re not alone. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression about a year ago, and I’m fifty three. I can’t imagine how much better my life would have been if I had been able to deal with these issues when I was your age.
Be honest with your counselor, you’re only as sick as your secrets, and take this as an opportunity to be great!
March 25, 2017
C9W3D3 - Mashup
SQ WU 5@45, 75
5@105, 120, 135
1@155, 175, 195, 215, 225 RPE 8 (Beltless)
BPA’S Between sets 5x30
OHP WU 10@45,
5@75, 85, 8@95 AMRAP RPE 8
HLR’s in between sets.
DL 5@135 WU, 5@180 RPE 7
Curls 4x10 SS with TPD’s 4x5 (heavy)
LISS - 35 minutes on treadmill at 3.5 mph and 2% incline
Ten ounces of chicken SS with 10 Oreos - hungry AF post workout.
I start a new cycle on Tuesday. I’m going to stay with this mash up but may mix things up a bit. I feel like I’m making good progress, but it’s too early to tell for sure. The 225 JS on squat felt good. Pretty sure I had 245 in me, so carbs and hormones actually make a difference (no shit, right?).
Three plates with a belt soon 
Fuck acne lol
Thankyou. Thats not good to hear but its good you know about it now
3-26-17
Cardio - 40 minutes fasted LISS - Treadmill @3.5MPH and 2.5% incline.
3-30-2017
C10W1 - Mashup - 5’s day
SQ 5@45 WU
5@105, 120, 140
5@155, 175, 195 JS RPE 9
OHP 5@45 WU
5@70, 80, 90
5@105 JS RPE 8.5
DL 5@135, 170
Curls 3x5 Giant Set with TPD’s 3x10, and FP’s 3x10, and HLRs 3x12
May have been able to get 5@110 on the OHP, but it was iffy, so I quit.
Going to go for a long walk tonight, 2 hours, six miles. It’s more meditation than cardio.
Will do SQ and BP at 5’s week weights on Saturday, then move to 3’s week after that. Sort of doing a two day per week 5/3/1 program with 5’s pro, just squatting both days, and will probably get three days per week lifting so I’ll finish a cycle in two weeks, add weight, move on. Strength is coming back faster than I’m increasing, so I’ll do a cycle or two in the mashup and then consider going back to my old style.
Just going to throw this out there. I teach HS English, and one of my former students, a junior this year, killed herself yesterday.
I had her older brother as a freshman four years ago, I had her as a freshman three years ago, and I have her little brother as a freshman this year.
I spoke to my colleague last week about this student’s depression, and we were trying to figure out what’s up.She was a smart, pretty girl. She did well in school, and had a good family.
And she took her life yesterday.
It makes no sense.
You dealing OK?
Thats so sad. I hope you’re alright
that’s rough, mate. Hope you’re alright.
I’m alright. Was a little shook, but okay.
Thanks.
4-2-2017
C10W1 - SQ and BP
WU 5@45, 95
5@105, 120
10@140 AMRAP RPE 8.5
BPA’s 5x30 between sets.
BP WU 5@45
5@95, 105, 120
5@135 JS1
5@155 JS2 RPE 8.5
Crunches 5x30 and vacuums 5x4@12 between sets
Giant Set TPD’s 5x20, Curls 4x10, and FP’s 5x20
Pec Deck 4x12
I joker setted squats on Thursday so I figured I’d AMRAP today. Will do weights for 3’s week next session, probably Tuesday.
They started a GOFUNDME page for that girl’s funeral, asked for $15k, it was at $40K the next day, at $50K today. Pretty amazing support.
Looking a little soft at 186 this morning, but definitely bigger, which I like. Been working the tris.
4-3-2017
Fasted LISS - 40 minutes @3.7 MPH and 2.5% incline
