I don’t get it either. I didn’t know there was anything else besides explicit content on that site. Maybe it’s gonna be like Instagram with the added benefit that you can pay to watch photos?
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This is exactly the line you can use on your roomate.
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Not on lady friends tho?
He is average sized and poor. The other one is bigger and not as poor as us.
Haven’t seen him in quite a while though.
We’re currently interviewing people in search of a new tenant. I will introduce myself as you suggested.
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Outside of Internet jokes, I’m not really sure what OnlyFans is but I assumed it was just a paid porn site? Which confused me enough anyway, but now it’s a paid porn site with no porn?
Phew don’t look at me, I don’t know what the kids are doing either.
But as I understand it, you pay to watch content of your favorite influencers/ “internet women”, which could contain pornographic content but doesn’t have to(?) and for the real deluded you also have the option to pay more money and then chat with the girl/ dude. Yeah, I dunno this all sounds very weird to me. I am not sure I get it either and above information could also be false.
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Sorry about what your going through. I hope everything gets better soon!
I’m pretty sure the benefits of hot baths aren’t pretend 
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Thanks Anna. It will be alright. I can’t pretend that the whole dating (or not dating?) situation isn’t nagging on me and this was another painful hit with the added stress that the particular situation brings but you know me. Nothing I can’t handle after all.
Yeah hot baths are amazing. The fact that they can make me relax is an undeniable positive. Might not really prevent a cold and the effect on recovery is probably at least in part placebo but I’ll talke both anyhow.
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This has been me and the wife lately we have both been enjoying long hot baths. I usually listen to a podcast, it is very relaxing and helps the body feel good. Not really worried about the cost, it’s worth it.
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It’s ok @Koestrizer give him some time and some space and he will come round.
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Now I have an image of you finding your room mate dead in a closet after he won the last game of drunk hide and seek you played !
Once he realizes how huge and poor I am, he will.
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Fk me he has been there for a loooong time 
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Yep, you are one tough cookie!
Placebo is real!!!
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All right, short story time I guess. I don’t mean to make this about me, but maybe you can compare and contrast your situation with mine.
I was acquaintances with someone I met in my new program a couple summers ago. We sometimes studied one-on-one together, and he even invited me to dinner with one of the class’s assistant instructors. In-person contact decreased in early 2020 due to life and work circumstances. Conversation was limited to small talk. He texted once in a blue moon but eventually asked to hang out one-on-one earlier this year, and we did. Was good even if he didn’t say afterwards. We started messaging more. Later he confided in me as he revealed some mental health issues. He also thought he was bad at small talk and flirting. So, I thought maybe we are no longer acquaintances. Of course I offer to help in whatever way I can, whether it be just listening or all the way to directing him to help.
Later he hinted at craving physical intimacy when feeling low and that it was a strategy he never tried. He was never direct with me and said this via text, so I remained objective. Eventually he texted – hence why I applaud your face-to-face confession – that he sought more than friendship. Texting is weird enough for this thing, but stranger was that he stated being “flexible” about it, naming several ways in which the relationship could go – mostly low-stakes options while only hinting at more. I understand mental illness can dampen self-confidence, but that didn’t make me feel good, especially as I still felt we barely knew each other. He doesn’t seem interested in connecting only for physical benefit, but it was worded poorly and still gave that impression.
It’s very difficult for me to think about anyone romantically while barely knowing them. It sucks because I genuinely want to develop friendship for the time being, and I like his company. I think he thought I was kicking him to the curb gently by saying that. It’s at the point where I have to initiate anything now. Hung out once after he confessed, and the whole topic was awkwardly dodged. So it goes.
I’ll preface this by saying that I have very little experience in romantic relationships. I don’t know your friend at all, and her reasons for potentially responding poorly may have more to do with her character than with her being in a similar situation.
I imagine a few possible reasons based on my limited knowledge:
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She thought you were using friendship only to get into her pants, which could feel like betrayal. But because you seem like a decent guy, and your friendship sounds already well-developed, so probably not.
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She cannot envision a friendship after learning your feelings. I think people of the opposite sex can remain friends even in this situation, but it’s too difficult for some. Seems more difficult for guys to accept this, but the role could be reversed here.
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She feels embarrassed, regardless of whether or not she returns the feelings. Maybe if you have mutual friends, she thinks that your confession will negatively affect the friend circle.
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Romantic relationships are a problem for her based on past experiences.
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She needs more time to digest everything and think about what to do. I think most people would not do this if the confessee were not important to them.
Or, of course, anything else. All in all, I lean toward the final potential reason I stated. 
Whatever happens, I think you’ll walk away from this as a better person. Sometimes you have to take a risk and see what happens.
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Thanks for sharing!
Your acquaintance sounds pretty dodgy tbh. At least from my perspective.
That’s probably where most of my feelings of guilt come from. But then again I have never ever made a move or crossed any lines that I’m aware of and I always was a genuinely good friend to her. The only thing that would be objectively scetchy if you didn’t know our dynamic is that she was giving me a weekly massage for my injured quad. That would probably seem very intimate although in our line of work and with some other circumstances that I’m too lazy to list rn, I don’t think it is.
That would be very sad but after all would also tell me that I’ve been valuing our friendship too much.
Didn’t think of that. Shouldn’t I be the one who is embarrassed?
That’s still what I’m hoping for. I don’t think this has to be a huge deal between us going forward but as it was already said, I had more time to think this over. It’s apparent that she is avoiding me almost demonstratively (this was recognized not only by me, so it isn’t solely in my head) for the time being. That’s fine but also kinda harsh, combined with her responses. Not sure if I’m reading too much into it, but in case I actually didn’t do anything wrong, do I really deserve a response like that?
Deep dive: As of right now I seem to be phased by the whole situation solely because of our friendship but not the rejection itself. I say I seem to because I usually detect symptoms (physical or psychological) and then try to find a reason for them/ link them to events and through that way find out the emotions I’m feeling. Slightly complicated procedure.
Anyway what I am getting at is that it worries me slightly how cold I’ve gotten. Shouldn’t I also be disappointed that I don’t get to be with her? Eh, I don’t know, I’m just doing a diary thing here of actually articulating my thoughts.
I’m not denying it’s existence. Of course it is real and it is a very complex mechanism. But in order for it to work you have to believe in whatever it is you’re doing (like I believe in hot baths having positive effects on me).
I’m a very skeptical man and in my line of work, there’s an unmatched amount of bs being practiced (like spinal adjustments actually being able to readjust the position of vertebrae - you’ll probably not get the response you’re holing for, if you use those techniques on me).
A doctor prescribed me a homeopathic medicine a few months back. I’ve specifically requested to never see that doctor again because I’ve lost all respect and trust immediately.
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I don’t know; I don’t have a bad gut feeling. I also don’t think I’m the easiest person to get along with, so that also probably plays a role.
It sounds like you said you would be happy to continue being friends. If the sentiment sounded at least somewhat genuine, this probably isn’t the issue.
I don’t know how you reached that conclusion. I think it is normal to feel upset about potentially harming a good friendship.
I don’t know – she could be embarrassed by the way she reacted, or how others may treat one or both of you in a group setting in the future. People can make things weird for awhile even if they really are not.
I agree that it seems harsh, but again, this is based only off of what I know. She may have been totally taken aback by what you said, or she maybe she has problems with romantic relationships. It is possible that she needs to work through a personal issue.
This reads like you’re mistaking maturity for being cold-blooded. You seemed disappointed in your initial posts, but now you’re accepting that she did not immediately reciprocate romantic feelings. I think that’s normal. You mentioned feeling guilty at some point; cold-blooded people would show no remorse and might even feel entitled to a specific type of relationship. Keep in mind I’m not saying you should have felt guilt anyway.
Not to be dramatic, but an old friend of mine in high school had to get a restraining order against her ex-boyfriend so that he would stop showing up on her porch and insisting they remain together. Too many people out there don’t know how to accept “no” as an answer.
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In the sense that the friendship wasn’t that important to her from the start. Or not important enough to look past this.
I wouldn’t hint at me being cold blooded… If anything I would use word dulled, I guess.
Yeah I know the horror stories that women have to go through when some man’s precious ego gets hurt. I’m lucky to either lack that part or am in good control over it.
That said you can still be mature (accepting a no) and very upset at the same time. Maybe I am upset. I’m not sure. I’m definitely not in a good mood but that could be multifactorial.
Anyways, I’ll just try to not give this topic too much space anymore in my head and wait for how things transpire.
I can’t see how these indicate you valuing your friendship too much.
Cold-bloodedness and desensitization are not unrelated
Most people who grieve end up reaching the point where they can accept the circumstances and start moving on. Maybe you are at that point with the loss of friendship.
I think all will turn out okay. You’re handling it as best you can.
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