How much do you weigh? Currently, that is.
Actually, never mind that. Because the answer is “Not enough”. Point blank.
You’ve mentioned about a handful of key words that are signaling to the rest of us, that you’re still blatantly sick, but your test results remind me all too well of everything I once had to go through.
You’re not completely honest when it comes to explaining exactly what it is that you do on a day to day basis, and obviously if you’re deceiving the doctors that are trying to help you, I can guarantee you won’t be upfront with us.
Usually when someone with an eating disorder shows levels of both HDL, and LDL being unusually high, they binge, with or without forced vomiting, and it doesn’t matter all that much what you binge on. Pizza and cookies, or steamed veggies and lean meat.
As mentioned before, you’ve been forcefully dwindling yourself down into a malnourished shell of a being.
You kind of gave yourself away with this post as well:
You go through a pattern of severe restriction, coupled with trying to go the gym in order to achieve some physique that is unattainable, given your current situation. I’m willing to bet my last bottom dollar after that, your ghrelin levels are through the roof and you binge in some form or fashion. The amount of a binge is unique to each individual. When I would binge I would go into a frenzy and consume upwards of 10-13,000 calories in one sitting.
Point being, your lab results are telling the truth, despite you telling us and the doctors something totally different. If you were steadily trying to eat more and more throughout the years, your cholesterol would’ve stabilized.
There’s a few of us on here, including myself, who have come back or are fighting our way out from eating disorders. The tone of my post seems rather tame, but every single time I see you post, it stirs up a whirlwind of memories and feelings. There’s a couple of things that really get under my skin, and this topic is one of them.
I really have nothing against you, for one I don’t even know you, but as I’ve said before, you need to stop kidding yourself. This isn’t a game, or a little shindig to indulge in at the moment, it’s not a lifestyle, it’s not pretty, it’s a mental illness. And it’s a situation where you lose. Every. Single. Time.