My Other Left

i would definitely post video of my deadlift psycheup, but its all internal. i stay mostly calm and still on the inside. its a montage of everyone that has hurt me, every time i fucked up, and everyone that told me i couldn’t or shouldn’t do something. then, a quiet thats so loud its ringing in my ears, with some word… dunno what it is, but its a combo of “CANWILLDONOWGO.” then the ringing and commands.

typing it out like that makes it sound insane. and i like it. and thats not just my deadlift psycheup, any big lift gets that.

[quote]CBear84 wrote:
i would definitely post video of my deadlift psycheup, but its all internal. i stay mostly calm and still on the inside. its a montage of everyone that has hurt me, every time i fucked up, and everyone that told me i couldn’t or shouldn’t do something. then, a quiet thats so loud its ringing in my ears, with some word… dunno what it is, but its a combo of “CANWILLDONOWGO.” then the ringing and commands.

typing it out like that makes it sound insane. and i like it. and thats not just my deadlift psycheup, any big lift gets that. [/quote]

It actually doesn’t sound insane at all.

I’ll bring you the singlet. Just make sure I get it back for October. I’ve unofficially decided I’m doing that meet.

[quote]CBear84 wrote:
i would definitely post video of my deadlift psycheup, but its all internal. i stay mostly calm and still on the inside. its a montage of everyone that has hurt me, every time i fucked up, and everyone that told me i couldn’t or shouldn’t do something. then, a quiet thats so loud its ringing in my ears, with some word… dunno what it is, but its a combo of “CANWILLDONOWGO.” then the ringing and commands.

typing it out like that makes it sound insane. and i like it. and thats not just my deadlift psycheup, any big lift gets that. [/quote]

I seen this shit happening a while ago. The second Pegg gave you your first hit of Ammonia, that stuff is like a crack laced oreo cookie. And combine that with a Successful lift…Yeah you got-got girl. Your done its over.

And once you get that first pull and see those 3 white lights, full blown addiction.

[quote]four60 wrote:

[quote]CBear84 wrote:
i would definitely post video of my deadlift psycheup, but its all internal. i stay mostly calm and still on the inside. its a montage of everyone that has hurt me, every time i fucked up, and everyone that told me i couldn’t or shouldn’t do something. then, a quiet thats so loud its ringing in my ears, with some word… dunno what it is, but its a combo of “CANWILLDONOWGO.” then the ringing and commands.

typing it out like that makes it sound insane. and i like it. and thats not just my deadlift psycheup, any big lift gets that. [/quote]

I seen this shit happening a while ago. The second Pegg gave you your first hit of Ammonia, that stuff is like a crack laced oreo cookie. And combine that with a Successful lift…Yeah you got-got girl. Your done its over.

And once you get that first pull and see those 3 white lights, full blown addiction. [/quote]
hahahaha the face, combined with the “FUK!” was hilarious. I can see more ammonia in her future for sure. I know there is ammonia in mine!

Jason

saturday squatting at EFS;

Humbling.

Got there right before 10am, when there’s normally at least 5 or 6 cars in the lot. nope. im the first one. i remembered that back in middle school when we didnt want my sisters friends to come over we locked the doors, turned off the lights, and didnt answer the phone. ftr, she had told them it was too late to come over and they showed up anyway.

so i was relieved when Tate pulled in to the parking lot a minute later and things got rollin.

literally.

i foam rolled my back for the first time in 9 days. it. was. amazing.

also, i did some squatting. worked up to 195 before Tate called me back down to 105, insisting that i learn how to push my hips BACK and stay upright in the hole.

so, there i was, using 105 and putting effort behind it, while the guys next to me were using 800. i kinda wanted a pic of me squatting to a foam topped box while someone next to me had 800lbs on their back but i dont think efs is QUITE ready for my shenanigans full strength.

ive said it before and i’ll say it again; i wouldnt trade the first 3 years of my training for anything, because i like who and where i am, along with how i look, i just have a glaring weakness that’s holding me back- my hamstrings. im learning so much both with my head and my muscles and im such a lucky bastard.

after i got to put 125 on the bar and do a few reps with that tate told me to go do sets of GHR’s until i couldnt do 1. i didnt keep track of how long it took or how many reps i did total, but i started at 8 and worked my way down to OWIMDONE.

then 4 sets of 10 leg curls and i shut off the lights and went home.

the ego that is concerned with my numbers needed the hit, gotta keep that bitch in line and in perspective.

I’ve since had nap and food. now, more food. later, a movie and food.

I guess im hungry today.

It seems that we are somewhat in the same place on humbling bitch-egos. Good thing I like how I look too, cause my numbers will be sucking for awhile as I work on form issues.

I love reading about your training at efs. You lucky thing, you.

I love the swimming story. Highschool was the same way, I was good at what I was doing but my competetive and outspoke ‘bad’ attitude (as I was told) is what got me in trouble. lol. I think i even won the award for only player on the team to get a pink card - a warning to shut my mouth and lose the display of poor sportsmanship! 20 years later, I am the same person, I have just learned to mumble under my breath and smile when i am pissed off. I will never apologize for being competetive and wanting to achieve more and better. I honestly think that this ‘fight’ you have is what will take you further in life too, not just in the gym.

Competetive personalities never change, its part of who you are. Keep the focus on your accomplishments; you are one hell of a strong lady, you are going to do great!

heya kimba and christina!


im doing my best to convince pegg to edit and upload the squatting videos from yesterday.

benching today was not as humbling as yesterday, had some, “keep your back tight” discipline. I am, however, getting better at using my wrist wraps. really all that means is that it doesnt look like my dog put them on for me.

so i worked up to 155 for 2 singles, and followed that with some shorter rom, wider grip military presses than im used to. did 3 sets of 85x5 and 1 set of 95x5, still focusing on keeping my back tight and lowering the bar under control.

followed by pushups, where i was reminded again and again and again and again to “keep your abs tight.”

the some tricep pushdowns from HELL. I swear I have triceps. somewhere. gotta be. 2x20 with with about 50lbs and 1x20 with about 70.


also, walmart has packs of 8 small water pistols for $3. and packs of 100 waterballoons with the hose nozzels for $1.

the lady at checkout said, “oh, i can tell someone has little ones!” riiiiight.

I went in for hangers and walked out with pizza rolls, toaster strudels, ice cream, spinach, blackberries, and greek yogurt.

apparently i was hungry while shopping.

Hamstrings and triceps will come. Just have to give it some time. As far as the technique work, it is FAR easier to get stronger and add pounds to the bar with form improvements than it is to grind through shit form and try to add strength. I know its a stretch for you, but some patience will serve you well.

Who was that handsome man squatting 800 behind you? He sounds awesome.

Jason

[quote]JPeggEFS wrote:

Who was that handsome man squatting 800 behind you? He sounds awesome.

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Pics/Vids or it wasn’t you :stuck_out_tongue:

[quote]Court wrote:

[quote]JPeggEFS wrote:

Who was that handsome man squatting 800 behind you? He sounds awesome.

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Pics/Vids or it wasn’t you :P[/quote]

hahahaha 800 is still (normally) warmup weight. I didnt even have my suit on. I think CBear posted a video of me hitting 1000 somewhere here in this log. Im not going to be that guy and post it though.

Jason

Damn interesting stuff Cbear. Keep up with the updates so we can all continue to be jealous. :slight_smile:

court- yeah, baby weights on my side. big boy weights for… well, the big boys.

pegg- patience. ive heard this word you speak of, and im told its a virtue, but virtuous isn’t a word that’s been used to describe me… ever.

andy- hai!! no need to be jealous, till pegg posts the video of my last 2 sets squatting on sat. he SAYS youtube is telling him a 2 hr upload time for a 3 min video… but i think he’s in the corner crying, mourning the loss of his epic beard.

that’s right kids, he trimmed it down and shaved it off his neck so he can look human for his new job. the pics were graphic and nightmare inducing, i can feel nothing but sorrow for the people who have to see his face all day tomorrow.

also, a PM-

[quote]
5/17/10
10:34am
Hey I watched your dead lift video, very impressive. Most women wont attempt them, you have great form someone taught you well. I peeped at your photos new very nice! Keep up the hard work. [/quote]

so i appreciate the compliment, just wondering. do you mean the pr conventional deadlift video on my youtube page, from 2 months ago? or the sumo deadlift video from LAST JUNE in my hub?

you must mean the recent one, because pegg fixed my form on both, which is incredible considering some of the awful advice i’ve gotten.

my new photos? where? havent posted any for awhile.

Hey mama, love hearing about the EFS sessions. I know its selfish of me to say it but its good to know that even you have humbling moments. Reminds me that its ok to take my time, concentrate on form and watch the numbers go up from there, even if its slower than I want. So uh, yeah, thanks for making me feel better.

Also, vids much appreciated cough pegg cough

Just catching the end of your log, checked out the pics and vid and yeah, you’re impressive. What’s your height/weight? I like the PW boards. There are no strong women at my (downtown Seattle) gym. Guess I’m going to have to find time to search all of the log for this 1000 lb video!

[quote]JPeggEFS wrote:

hahahaha 800 is still (normally) warmup weight. I didnt even have my suit on. I think CBear posted a video of me hitting 1000 somewhere here in this log. Im not going to be that guy and post it though.

Jason
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Its on page 8. Yep, I went and looked for it (very awesome).

Pegg can live vicariously through my playoff beard.

masch- not selfish at all, and tbh, i’ve always been one to encourage slower progress for the sake of keeping your form. just hafta keep that ego in line. i mean, it does great things, can’t let it get outta control!

adeb- (i’ll call u adeb because i already call debrad deb.) Thanks! there aren’t many PW around here, either. I started out on FA looking for what I eventually found here. it’s a nice place to be, we have our own imaginary compound. some come and go, the regulars are incredibly awesome efriends. I’m exactly 5’ 7&3/4" tall, and just about every time i’ve weighed myself the last year or so i’ve been 160-165, depending on whether i’ve pooed or brushed my hair recently.

kimba- your research is appreciated. just thought about it. pegg can squat nine of you.

andy- i’ve thought about getting him a strap-on (beard) so he can still go out and act like the big kids instead of a grownup. dunno how he’ll take that idea, though.


no training today, my hips are way more sore than i thought they’d be. i hadn’t planned on it anyway, so that worked out well. day off tomorrow, full of errands and gym and any excuse i can find to nap.

a brief note; past week or so i’ve found myself drawn to the cleaner side of foods, and haven’t had much to drink. not a conscious effort on my part, just eating what my body tells me to, like always. must be annoyed with all the crap and alcohol of the last few months.

last night, spinach, steak, and potaytohs. tonight, spinach, lemon italian ice, blackberries, and either a grilled chicken breast with rice or another steak.

omnomnomnom

Wow. Pegg can squat nine of me?! That’s just insane.

Your body is just wanting some whole, real food after a shit-ton of processed stuff. This can be nothing but good for all the bodily systems that make up a CBear.

People don’t believe me when I assure them that I’m not deprived and sad not to eat fast food/sweets/candy bars etc. I just feel like crap after eating…well, crap. So its just not worth the momentary and fleeting pleasure of eating it.