I’ve suffered from depression and other mental ailments from a very young age also. Training is the best thing I’ve ever done for it, so much that I can actually feel the sharp drop whenever I take a few days off. Taking a full week off even though sometimes it’s great for my muscles, joints and all that…I sink like a stone.
I know it’s not good to focus too much on the gym, being so stuck in it that you leave your emotions being determined by how much weight you put up. In contrast though, I fully believe that progress is one of the keys to happiness and even on the days I really don’t want to go in, going in anyway and doing something better than I did previously sets me up for the rest of the day. This is also why I have to go in the mornings.
After my girlfriends Dad died she went out for a long walk on her own and didn’t want me to go with her. I asked her why and her reply was “You’ll never feel worse after a long walk”. I know it’s not a revelation and I’m sure it’s been said a million different ways but it is so true. If i wake up with a particular feeling or worrying about my various issues, I make a point to jump straight up and stick the lead on the dog. Even just 10mins around the block can completely change your day. No matter how hard it sometimes is, sticking around feeling sorry for yourself is never the way to go. There’s a right time to meditate but for a depressed person sometimes just doing something you can enjoy is a great way to not let yourself spiral.
For everyone it’s a balance… sometimes you might sway a little one way, sometimes you might sway another. I don’t know much about physical work but my brother and I are currently helping my father, who used to be a builder, do some decking in his back garden. He has Parkinson’s and dementia but is still there enough to advise us on what to do. Leveling everything up and looking at that bubble, little this way, a little that way just making sure the foundations are straight. In the middle of a bad day, I actually saw that bubble as my mental health. I can do the things in my life that make that bubble go to the left a little; the gym, spending time with family, being grateful for what I do have, walking, helping others, or i can do the things that make the bubble go to the right a little bit; drinking, hanging around toxicity or negativity, eating the foods I know don’t agree with me, slacking off from the gym, sitting on the computer too much etc. It’s very fragile that balance, but you know what? Sometimes I am a good few inches to the left and I can have a couple of drinks, I can indulge, I can have a few days off the gym, I can sit around the house all day. If I go a little too far, spilling over to the other direction, I have the experience, the tools and the know how to reason with myself that this too shall pass and I know what I gotta do to climb back out. Today I feel grand. I know tomorrow, or maybe even later today that may not be the case but I must do what I know helps me, and march on.
Sorry if that sounded silly, I kinda just went off on one there.