Sorry had to take down pics. “Education is not the learning of facts, it’s rather training the mind to think”-Albert Einstein. After spending time in the hospital, reading Chris T awesome info, looking at what I want came became clear. I am not meant to log how and what I do, I’m an athlete that needs to perform. I’m cleared to do whatever I want now and the age clock is ticking. I’m volatile because I’ve been shackled. There is “nothing” holding me back now. Thank you guys for confidence posts,etc. I lost myself and allowed myself to become something I’m not and that’s being content at where I’m at. I mean it’s hilarious I get my posts edited, I have to google stuff, I ask about supplements. Having gone through so many life lessons, I’m not ready to throw in the towel. I’ll still visit you guys but I’ve got the opportunity to big to pass up. I just need to follow where my genetics lead me and have plenty of Gatorade. I’ll carry what I’ve learned from you guys in my toolkit, always. I always say advice is appreciated or I’m a dumbass…yup. I wasn’t “thinking” cuz I’ve been sleepwalking through ptsd, etc. I don’t care how I’m classified, I am about to endure intense training and have such a busy schedule I won’t have time to post much. But thank you all, but beast mode not house wife is on!
Good Luck in your new ventures.
Thanks for being very opinionated and honest.
I appreciated that you always posted from your heart, with the best of intentions, even though it could and sometimes did offend someone. Tough love.
Cya stranger of the interwebs, you left a dent on these forum lairs for sure.
Oh, and you forgot the hug 
Thanks. Right now my husband and I have been working out schedules. I’m mostly going to train in the area during the week since I have responsibilities here and my drs and on the weekends travel at first. “Test the waters” i just am getting older and, if I only have a couple years left in me, i don’t want to turn that down and possibly go into coaching. Ive hidden myself away, and came out to my contacts yesterday and this am because of my time trials, I totally wasn’t prepared for has caused me to say fuck it. It’ll make me, if anything stronger. I need to prove this to myself and my sis is fitting the bills since she has so many sponsors so why not? The only thing holding me back is me. You guys have taught me to be comfortable in my skin. Well my skin isn’t wrinkled yet and no gray hairs. So, what can it hurt? I hold the bar so high for myself and hated quitting semi pro, but now I’m in a total new territory but have plenty of support waiting for me. So, wtf not? It sounds rash but I’ve got my last chance at proving to myself that I can still “bring it”. I’ve been so busy my day has flown by. I’ll be around. Gotta keep in touch for accountability cuz t nation has taught me to “think” plus gotta bitch out somebody or else you guys might be too soft on people. Thanks for support.
I was doing a log written up for me to really build my quads. I was just cleaning jacuzzi tub with bleach and my legs cramped and I fell in. Sigh, I’m too fucking old to go balls to the walls when I was too tired to bring down vacuum from upstairs after vacuuming whole house. Constant chore cuz dogs shed like crazy. I don’t mind pain, but this is ridiculous, I’m ridiculous. Let my elite friends do that shit. I’ve got a full time job at home and want to be healthy not miserable. Yes bleach in eyes flushed with water…sigh. My husband laughed at me because my biggest concern is my upper body was said to be too bulky and I’m proud of my armor. Plus I’ve got a good life. So, now I’m going to compile a new workout program that is for old shits and let the millennials and younger push themselves to that extreme. Life lesson again.
I’m not leaving. Thanks though. I’m content in my life now. I “tested the waters” and I’m perfectly happy with everything in my life, I don’t need to add on. Thanks. Are you ready…