I think this is the least depressing, least crazy Valentines Day I’ve had in years.
Good luck everyone else. I know some of you need it.
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Visual and aural hallucinations, paranoid delusions etc. Just the usual- deeply boring- mental illness stuff. The whole thing lasted about 2 and a half months. Apparently the way I smoke (which I didn’t for months before being admitted but am now back on the fags) is a form of self harm, and I also have asperger’s syndrome.
The most pisstaking thing, though, is that the police took my favourite shirt to keep as evidence. It’s a fair cop and all, but that was my favourite shirt that I got for christmas in 2008 and the only reason it has his blood on it is because I tried to clean him up and mop the blood off his face. My favourite shirt god damn it.
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[quote]Der_Steppenwolfe wrote:
Visual and aural hallucinations, paranoid delusions etc. Just the usual- deeply boring- mental illness stuff. The whole thing lasted about 2 and a half months. Apparently the way I smoke (which I didn’t for months before being admitted but am now back on the fags) is a form of self harm, and I also have asperger’s syndrome.
The most pisstaking thing, though, is that the police took my favourite shirt to keep as evidence. It’s a fair cop and all, but that was my favourite shirt that I got for christmas in 2008 and the only reason it has his blood on it is because I tried to clean him up and mop the blood off his face. My favourite shirt god damn it.[/quote]
Have you gotten yourself tested for the MAOA gene?
[quote]LoRez wrote:
I think this is the least depressing, least crazy Valentines Day I’ve had in years.
Good luck everyone else. I know some of you need it.[/quote]
OMG. There are flowers everywhere here.
Nice Valentine’s Day. 
Spent mine being over run with a flu bug. Hit me like a truck at about 10:00 in the morning. Then it got the wife later into the evening.
So Chushin, are you in the area now or still in transit?
May I just ask, what the hell is an MAOA gene?
[quote]pushharder wrote:
Oh boy, looks like Em is truly needed in her thread now.[/quote]
I wanted to get back to this. . .psychotic disorders or episodes are not something I feel comfortable addressing on a bodybuilding forum.
Der_Steppenwolfe, I’m sorry you’re dealing with this and am glad you’re back on meds and working with someone.
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I have sustained a terrible skating injury. My “coach” had me doing crossover drills at public skate and I smashed into a little girl and fell on my tailbone. I also fell on my knee at a different time, but while bruised, it isn’t disabling.
I’m having pain feelings.
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[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I have sustained a terrible skating injury. My “coach” had me doing crossover drills at public skate and I smashed into a little girl and fell on my tailbone. I also fell on my knee at a different time, but while bruised, it isn’t disabling.
I’m having pain feelings.[/quote]
full body massage will help with some of the pain 8-D
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I have sustained a terrible skating injury. My “coach” had me doing crossover drills at public skate and I smashed into a little girl and fell on my tailbone. I also fell on my knee at a different time, but while bruised, it isn’t disabling.
I’m having pain feelings.[/quote]
I broke my tailbone once. That sucked so much. You have no idea how convenient a thing it is to just sit down when and where you want to until you can’t.
If it’s any consolation, yesterday I decided to do wide grip SLDLs. By unfortunate coincidence one of the boys was sitting a bit far forward and my wide grip put the bar at the precise wrong height.
You can guess what happened when completed the first rep by snapping my hips into extension.
[quote]silverblood wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I have sustained a terrible skating injury. My “coach” had me doing crossover drills at public skate and I smashed into a little girl and fell on my tailbone. I also fell on my knee at a different time, but while bruised, it isn’t disabling.
I’m having pain feelings.[/quote]
full body massage will help with some of the pain 8-D[/quote]
I went to a presentation called “The neuroscience of love” the other night and she mentioned a study that concluded women have higher pain tolerance after an orgasm.
Kinky ass researchers.
[quote]rrjc5488 wrote:
[quote]silverblood wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I have sustained a terrible skating injury. My “coach” had me doing crossover drills at public skate and I smashed into a little girl and fell on my tailbone. I also fell on my knee at a different time, but while bruised, it isn’t disabling.
I’m having pain feelings.[/quote]
full body massage will help with some of the pain 8-D[/quote]
I went to a presentation called “The neuroscience of love” the other night and she mentioned a study that concluded women have higher pain tolerance after an orgasm.
Kinky ass researchers.[/quote]
I thought throughout sex as well.
Maybe I’ll try it. Yesterday I decided that it hurt just as much, or more, to sit around, so decided to go snowshoeing for four hours.
My ass did not thank me. I had to get up for Advil at 4 am. I should have gone with an orgasm instead.
[quote]red04 wrote:
[quote]EmilyQ wrote:
I have sustained a terrible skating injury. My “coach” had me doing crossover drills at public skate and I smashed into a little girl and fell on my tailbone. I also fell on my knee at a different time, but while bruised, it isn’t disabling.
I’m having pain feelings.[/quote]
I broke my tailbone once. That sucked so much. You have no idea how convenient a thing it is to just sit down when and where you want to until you can’t.[/quote]
I’ve done it before, too. It took FOREVER to stop hurting. I’m actually hopeful that something else is wrong with me now, because it doesn’t feel the same.
Hmmm… Broken tailbones and orgasms…
There’s a connection here but I’m just not getting it.
Well, I’ve got a couple things going on in the past couple days.
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Some 18yo kid from this site managed to get under my skin the other day. I ended up committing to a yearlong training challenge to prove him wrong and prove myself right. Somehow that became personal. It’s been years since I’ve let something be that personal.
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Girlfriend has a temporary case of crazy. Bizarre behavior. I said something last night that triggered her, and she ratcheted things up from there. Once it hit the point of no salvation, I just hung up. Ending things before it got even worse was the better move, but I haven’t been able to reach her since. She’s been completely non-responsive today. Motivation enough to get back to reading that stop walking on eggshells book.
Probably the most interesting one,
- I was in a meeting today with this girl today. We flirted dangerously close to true affair territory a couple years back… not the smartest move (bad idea) since her husband also works at the same company (really bad idea) and since her husband is in executive management (really really bad idea). Since that point we’ve done a decent job at avoiding each other (or her avoiding me, whatever). Off and on we’ve worked on a few shared projects since then, but it’s just been tangential; through managerial proxies mainly. Very minimal contact, and none in person.
Well, today was the first time in person, and we actually had to interact together. The tension is still there, strong as ever.
But what I find most fascinating about it is that, motivationally, something about her motivates me to be great at my job. I already meet and exceed expectations normally, but this drives me to go way above and beyond. It’s actually really weird to observe how strong a motivating factor the sexual tension (physically and intellectually) can be. A part of me doesn’t quite believe it, to be honest.
Interestingly, it worked both ways, driving us both to excel. I’m secretly hoping things head back that direction as these new teams develop, and that we find a way to manage the proximity and intimacy without sabotaging things.