Well done on the grades! You definitely deserve that massage.
And yeah, knee wraps do hurt - I remember using them in my early 20s to do 40kg squats on a Smith Machine (stop laughing! OK, I know, I know, it’s hilarious).
yeah congrats on your grades and on finals being over. i know it always takes a bit of time for me to unwind / for it to sink in that i don’t need to be worrying about study or whatever once i’m done. hope it sinks in for you soon and you get to relax a bit.
That picture of you is bad ass! Did your photographer friend take it? Nice bench work. I’ve got to try band benching. That was your very first time in wraps? When I wore them for the meet a couple years ago, I thought my knees were going to be pulled out of their sockets. But I did love squating with them. It made me realize that I need to stay away from equipment as long as I can, because I could easily become a jumkie!
Are you doing a meet this summer?
Cbear: Way to come back with those grades–you pulled it out nicely from 6 weeks behind!
And I really like the new pic, but for the smoking. It’s not glamorous. It, as cal says, makes your mouth smell like a cat’s arsehole or something like that. A lollipop would make that picture better–they make a mouths sweet, sticky, and tasty.
I’m glad you have some paid time off. Enjoy your respite.
I’ll save my, “I thought you were going to start doing hill sprints after your meet” question that I’ve been harboring for next week.
Ha ha! No I said that smoking makes the mouth look like a cat’s arsehole because of all the lines that develop. I agree the lollipop could have been a nice Lolita-esque touch, but from what I recall, Bear wanted a smoke break and the photographer carried on shooting. The cigarette does give the photo a touch of noir.
Bear’s said she wants to quit but doing so right before an exam wouldn’t have smart. I did it just before I turned 30 - I read somewhere that if you do it then, you can avoid most of the health nasties (and mouth wrinkles) that follow. Might be hogwash, but I feel fine 14 years down the line.
Cal: Thanks for clarifying–look like a cat’s arsehole. Smoking gives you a spincter mouth. Got it. Eww.
Awesome job on school being done my little care bear! (or would it be scare bear? hmmm…lol.) Just showin some love <3
Knee wraps. Gotta love 'em. I did six sets in 'em yesterday. Knees were just throbbing. Bruises today.
Does your fed consider them to be raw? Mine doesn’t. I get a decent gain from them.
I personally think that the smoking makes the photo. It helps capture the cbear essence.
Sarah, ain’t nuthin’ wrong with gear whoring it up. Its kinda fun actually.
And finally, fuck knee wraps.
MIM- yeah sitting in front of the computer with writer’s anxiety was SO difficult. so were all of the other things i did INSTEAD of school work those first 6 weeks… lol. and i paid for it in the end. question now is- will i learn from this and NOT put myself through that again?
Now that I know I can get those grades with the minimal work I put in, will i work hard the entire quarter to get slightly better grades? Should vs Will are at war here.
BG- fuck knee wraps but i’m gonna keep at it. gotta know I can get my head around the wraps and squat like a Bear should. The cbear essence… the kind of dirty that doesn’t wash off.
n- nap and other sports should be a part of every day. moar sex and less babies would take care of a lot of problems, i’m sure.
cal- I’m shaking my head at the smith machine squats, and in awe that you remember so much from my log. wowzer. funny bit- in the scifi lit class we watched “Bladerunner” and a discussion of noir followed. After hearing it pronounced at least twice, the class idiot said “noh-i-re” which prompted me to pull out the roll of duct tape that i kept for threatening him.
lex- this is the first day it’s really started to sink. i’ve made a bunch of food, started laundry, and eaten breakfast. also, its quiet and i havent spoken a word out loud in the 4 hours i’ve been awake. kinda neat.
sb- yes ma’am the photog friend took it, and very first time in wraps. if i could squat as much as you did at that meet while wearing em i’d be happy. Meet this summer is the ProAm aug 20. excited!!
nads- lolipop would have also had better phallic implications, but doing the “wrong” thing and making it look good/not caring has become part of my M.O. re: hillsprints- I should have been doing SOME kind of conditioning, and haven’t felt up for it. very simple, assholio type answer. at this point, i need to make sure i eat more if i’m going to add that in.
and to be even more of an assholio- sometimes i hate eating. (this has nothing to do with the appetite probs of last fall.)i love food and i love all kinds of food. sometimes, though, i get sick of doing it. I could be hungry with what i want to eat sitting in front of me, knowing that i need the food, that i like it, that it will keep me looking and lifting the way i want to, and i just dont fucking feel like it. could be clean food or junk food, free and with no prep or cleanup involved (like at mom’s house), and i end up rolling my eyes and thinking, “Jesus H. Christ I have to eat AGAIN.” sounds absolutely awful, i’m aware, but when have i held back? 
cal- quitting again is next on my list of things to accomplish this break. I’m getting really, really tired of it and quite frankly, they’re not all as good as i want them to be when i light up.
bwg- i dont know why ive never thought of scarebear, but damn that’s good. show that hott lil avi 'round here anytime.
snap- six sets sounds exhausting. dunno yet how much of a gain i get from them, ted said he wrapped me at medium tightness. oh hell!
I have a stunning memory for verbal things - I can remember an anecdote someone told me ten years ago, but can I remember where I put something I picked up five minutes ago? Can I fuck! Short term memory = not so great, actually.
As for the cigarettes, it was the time I sparked one up first thing and thought “I’m not even enjoying this” that prompted me to quit. When it gets like that, then it’s time.
ya, that’s how I knew it was time to quit. Just needed a kick in the ass to do so.
I’m driving through Ohio the end of this week…shall I stop by and kick you in the pants? 
RE: grades/procrastination.
I did that and I also got good grades. At the end of each semester it was my goal to not do it that way the next. I did not change.
And I don’t think I ever will. Kinda makes you wonder why you do things that way, eh?
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Kinda makes you wonder why you do things that way, eh?[/quote]
I used to. Now I know that it’s because I need to test my limits and find out where the IQ, charm, and resources stop, and the real consequences begin.
thing is, i’ve had some shit things happen in situations that i WASNT testing the lines, which makes me think that my 9 (or 9000) lives are running out. Part of me is very worried that I have little room left to fuck up, but most of me is embedded with “Buy the ticket, take the ride.”
It’s a problem. I like it. Fuck the other 11 steps.
MsBear I love that photo!
tonight i hugged the volume god and pissed down his leg.
lower body accessory @ the not so shitty local-
trap bar dl- 1 wheel each side, 5 or 6 sets of 6-8 reps. i should have counted. I didn’t bring my belt with me on purpose, and by the looks i was getting i’m pretty sure i may have been the only one who’s used the trap bar since they got it > 2 months ago.
lat pulldown- 4 x10, 70 down to 40lbs. pause each rep as long as i could to make my lats work like the bitches they are. egad brain.
leg press- i know, i know. sled plus 115lbs, 4x15. feets on the topest outerest parts of the plate, playing with knees out, KNEES OUT!
leg curl- 4x10, stack said 50. felt like 150 when i was done.
rope pressdowns- 4x 15, 70lbs, 70lbs, 70lbs, 50lbs. i hated that 50lbs.
and then i left. cuz they closed.
I think the August meet is the one I’m thinking about doing. I wan’t to just go and put up some numbers stress free. I probably won’t squat, just to be safe with the knee. Even if I don’t compete, I definitely plan on going because Molly is doing it too.
sbmart- you should go bc its close and -->I’LL<-- be there. Yes, you should also lift.
Took a roadtrip to see Galileo, and had a lazy day with Jas. I haven’t lifted again this week, and I work from 8-4 tomorrow, gym closes at 6. I’ll get something done this weekend, one way or another.
good thing is, i think i feel my marbles rolling in…
Saturday Squatting @ local-
felt like a bag of ass. not enough sleep, not enough food during the day, after standing for most of my shift (literally maybe 20 min total on my ass) I ALMOST talked myself out of going.
took my own medicine, and showed up.
didn’t squat much- 185 x5, 205x 3, 185 x3.
brought my belt with me, but it was weird walking out the squats, and having no human spotters or feedback. im also a dumbass and didnt change into my chucks so my feet were sliding in the pumas that i didnt re-tie when i got there.
did some other stuff- leg press and calf raises. thanked myself for showing up and called it a night.
sat night- went shopping, got lazy while carrying in groceries, and ordered dinner- baked spaghetti with extra meatballs and extra cheese, an order of cheesy garlic bread.
Sunday- work followed by dinner at the rents house, and lots of good convo. Just me and across the hall bro (Toby) but it was lots of good conversation.
weeded the garden. fuck a garden thats the shit i spent a morning digging up grass before i squatted. that shit’s almost a FARM! SO looking forward to canning.
today (Monday)- work early shift at the satellite store. slept too long and rushed on the way out meant i brought little food with me and ordered lunch. (bad stingy bear, bad!)
but a bear cannot survive on mt dew and her homemade pb fudge alone.
she needs falafel. so i got some. falafel.
Lifting at the Local-
Trap Bar Dl – still pretty sure im the only one who uses that thing.
brought my chalk with me. should do that more often.
now i’ll admit i dont know what the trap bar weighs. the scale is out of order or i would have done that.
so, i’m pretty sure its 65lb bar, but we’ll stick with 45lb to err on cautions side. the bitch.
sets of 5 till i got to 235, pulled it for a triple. now when i say triple it felt like 3 quick singles, bc i stepped out and back for 5ish sec after each rep. jas said its a triple so i’ll stick with that.
I really want it to be 255 but damnit it felt good either way. added 20lbs after the triple and it didnt budge, felt myself transition into shit form to compensate and called it there.
good mornings, pullups w/green band, leg curl, 1 arm kb swings, weighted decline situps, and i decided that was enough.
i should do more lunges. i hate them. and i suck at them.
Lunges are yuck.
We have a garden. I have to say I’m a city girl and it creeps me out a little bit when my husband goes in to the back yard and comes back with a dinner salad.
Glad the DLS are feeling good.